"What is it Cloud?" Asks Tifa. She is holding her elbows.
Cloud removes his blue eyes from her sight. "Nothing." Just that I can't believe you are that beautiful. "Nothing at all." He runs his hand through his hair. "Didn't think I'd here from him again so soon."
"You talked to him before?"
"Yea, I must've forgotten to tell you that." Cloud walks to the sofa and sits next to Tifa. "How do you think he knew my apartment was here?" He looks into her crimson red eyes. Tifa if you only knew what you meant to me back then. Cloud looks at his clock above the T.V. "Its getting late." He got up and stretched, and fell back down on the sofa.
"Cloud?"
"Yea?"
"I still think you should've tried the bunk bed idea."
Cloud grins, and Tifa smiles.
Later that night Cloud and Tifa respectfully went to bed. Tifa was sleeping soundly in Cloud's old bed. Cloud was lying on his broken bed thinking about the thoughts that occurred to him about three days ago. He shifted his position, and the bed made all sort of sounds that just didn't sound right to him.
Meteor could not have possibly been summoned. If I didn't try to settle my score, He, no Sephiroth, that megalomaniac, that AHH! I can't stand it. Why didn't he just stay dead at the mako reactor? Why don't you just stay dead!
Cloud pauses to calm himself down. He recomposes himself and then goes back to his train of thought.
If Sephiroth stayed dead. so would have I, I . I died. I can't believe I was. If it wasn't for Hojo, Zack, Sephiroth, and I would just. have been dead. How would I be? I don't remember anything during that time. If it weren't for the records I found at the Shinra Mansion, I wouldn't known, anything. For that matter if it wasn't for that, I wouldn't have been alive. Would it have mattered if I were alive? Aeris is dead now. How would it feel. to be dead? Is it just, nothing? Is that all it could possibly be. Nothing, endless nothing. No feelings, no thoughts, how could I deal with that. Maybe I wouldn't deal with it because it's just nothing. That's it; I'm just. dead. gone. No more thinking. no more living. no more feeling. hate. love. they just do not exist when your dead.
Cloud begins to shed a tear at the thought of what could have been, or could be.
But, NO! Aeris, I saw her hand. back at. when I destroyed Sephiroth. when I DESTROYED HIM FROM MY MIND!!! You will never plague my mind again. I remember very well that battle. Tifa told me I was just standing there while the crater was collapsing, she told me I looked like I wasn't even there, that I was somewhere lost in my mind. You will never control me again Sephiroth. NEVER! You were destroyed inside out. The energy that made you powerful self-destructed you after the punishment I dealt to you. I had no LIMIT!!! No LIMIT! To the hate I had for you, and I released it on you with punishing blow after punishing blow, menacing you body. I could remember the tears I had running down my cheeks, the thought of Aeris, the thought of you killing her! She did not deserve that Sephiroth, you fucking asshole! You are no better than the people you hated the most, those who. "Are after your mother." No better I tell you, Aeris could have lived, we could have loved. You didn't want that did you, you wanted to ruin my life every possible way. Killing me once wasn't enough! Of course not, I killed you too didn't I.
Cloud evilly smiles.
I remember the look on your face. You could not fucking believe this. boy. whom you thrust you incredibly powerful blade.thrust it through my body. you couldn't believe I lifted you up. Yes Sephiroth, I! I lifted you up with your own sword through my body. I threw you over the ledge. You were killed Sephiroth. I KILLED YOU! You fell in your beloved lifestream. You almost killed Tifa. You killed my mother. My mother was kind. I can't fucking believe that I lost everyone to you. you fucking lunatic.
Cloud tries to calm down, but the thought of Aeris just took over the remainder of emotions.
I want you back. I want you back Aeris, please come back to me. I need you! I love you Aeris. Aeris I didn't want you to bury you. the water seemed right, but I didn't want to let you go. I still don't know why I let you go Aeris. I probably would have held your lifeless body until mine gave out. I .I would have just stayed there. Holding you.
Cloud shifts in his bed again. He then looked at Tifa. She is sleeping peacefully. He smiled. "I'm glad you're here with me Tifa." I don't want to be alone. Never again. He turned around to sleep, but just couldn't. Aeris was all over his mind. Sephiroth was almost completely removed from his mind.
I saw your hand Aeris, you were reaching out to me. Were you at the Promise Land? Aeris I'll find you someday. I promise. I'm your bodyguard after all. I remember everytime we slept at an inn. I would watch you go to sleep. I remember the Cosmo Candle. I never wanted to leave. You were so. peaceful. I remember so much about you Aeris. I remember the first time you used curative magic on me. You helped me. I was not used to being helped. You were so beautiful when you used materia. Thank you Aeris. For teaching me about . feelings. I quite didn't understand feelings. I did not know how to deal with them. I was so cold to so many. If I hurt you in any way I'm so sorry. I wouldn't ever hurt you. I can't possibly hurt you. If I hurt your feelings or anything other pain I caused you. I'm so sorry. I remember a dream I had. I can't remember why I said this in your dream, but I remember I said it to you. "Sorry about what happened back there." We were in some forest. You told me "Its ok." Ok to what? I don't know why I said that but I did. I don't remember a lot of things. The group told me how Tifa stayed by me the whole time I was in mako shock. I don't remember anything that happened then. She never answered my questions about those days in mako shock. Tifa. you stayed with me. Why? I don't understand why you. did that for me. Tifa I loved you so much. did you ever feel the same way for me?
Cloud slowly drifts to sleep. Thoughts slowly recede to be brought up another day. His sub-conscience houses so many thoughts that one would go mad, but Cloud is like everybody else.
Cloud removes his blue eyes from her sight. "Nothing." Just that I can't believe you are that beautiful. "Nothing at all." He runs his hand through his hair. "Didn't think I'd here from him again so soon."
"You talked to him before?"
"Yea, I must've forgotten to tell you that." Cloud walks to the sofa and sits next to Tifa. "How do you think he knew my apartment was here?" He looks into her crimson red eyes. Tifa if you only knew what you meant to me back then. Cloud looks at his clock above the T.V. "Its getting late." He got up and stretched, and fell back down on the sofa.
"Cloud?"
"Yea?"
"I still think you should've tried the bunk bed idea."
Cloud grins, and Tifa smiles.
Later that night Cloud and Tifa respectfully went to bed. Tifa was sleeping soundly in Cloud's old bed. Cloud was lying on his broken bed thinking about the thoughts that occurred to him about three days ago. He shifted his position, and the bed made all sort of sounds that just didn't sound right to him.
Meteor could not have possibly been summoned. If I didn't try to settle my score, He, no Sephiroth, that megalomaniac, that AHH! I can't stand it. Why didn't he just stay dead at the mako reactor? Why don't you just stay dead!
Cloud pauses to calm himself down. He recomposes himself and then goes back to his train of thought.
If Sephiroth stayed dead. so would have I, I . I died. I can't believe I was. If it wasn't for Hojo, Zack, Sephiroth, and I would just. have been dead. How would I be? I don't remember anything during that time. If it weren't for the records I found at the Shinra Mansion, I wouldn't known, anything. For that matter if it wasn't for that, I wouldn't have been alive. Would it have mattered if I were alive? Aeris is dead now. How would it feel. to be dead? Is it just, nothing? Is that all it could possibly be. Nothing, endless nothing. No feelings, no thoughts, how could I deal with that. Maybe I wouldn't deal with it because it's just nothing. That's it; I'm just. dead. gone. No more thinking. no more living. no more feeling. hate. love. they just do not exist when your dead.
Cloud begins to shed a tear at the thought of what could have been, or could be.
But, NO! Aeris, I saw her hand. back at. when I destroyed Sephiroth. when I DESTROYED HIM FROM MY MIND!!! You will never plague my mind again. I remember very well that battle. Tifa told me I was just standing there while the crater was collapsing, she told me I looked like I wasn't even there, that I was somewhere lost in my mind. You will never control me again Sephiroth. NEVER! You were destroyed inside out. The energy that made you powerful self-destructed you after the punishment I dealt to you. I had no LIMIT!!! No LIMIT! To the hate I had for you, and I released it on you with punishing blow after punishing blow, menacing you body. I could remember the tears I had running down my cheeks, the thought of Aeris, the thought of you killing her! She did not deserve that Sephiroth, you fucking asshole! You are no better than the people you hated the most, those who. "Are after your mother." No better I tell you, Aeris could have lived, we could have loved. You didn't want that did you, you wanted to ruin my life every possible way. Killing me once wasn't enough! Of course not, I killed you too didn't I.
Cloud evilly smiles.
I remember the look on your face. You could not fucking believe this. boy. whom you thrust you incredibly powerful blade.thrust it through my body. you couldn't believe I lifted you up. Yes Sephiroth, I! I lifted you up with your own sword through my body. I threw you over the ledge. You were killed Sephiroth. I KILLED YOU! You fell in your beloved lifestream. You almost killed Tifa. You killed my mother. My mother was kind. I can't fucking believe that I lost everyone to you. you fucking lunatic.
Cloud tries to calm down, but the thought of Aeris just took over the remainder of emotions.
I want you back. I want you back Aeris, please come back to me. I need you! I love you Aeris. Aeris I didn't want you to bury you. the water seemed right, but I didn't want to let you go. I still don't know why I let you go Aeris. I probably would have held your lifeless body until mine gave out. I .I would have just stayed there. Holding you.
Cloud shifts in his bed again. He then looked at Tifa. She is sleeping peacefully. He smiled. "I'm glad you're here with me Tifa." I don't want to be alone. Never again. He turned around to sleep, but just couldn't. Aeris was all over his mind. Sephiroth was almost completely removed from his mind.
I saw your hand Aeris, you were reaching out to me. Were you at the Promise Land? Aeris I'll find you someday. I promise. I'm your bodyguard after all. I remember everytime we slept at an inn. I would watch you go to sleep. I remember the Cosmo Candle. I never wanted to leave. You were so. peaceful. I remember so much about you Aeris. I remember the first time you used curative magic on me. You helped me. I was not used to being helped. You were so beautiful when you used materia. Thank you Aeris. For teaching me about . feelings. I quite didn't understand feelings. I did not know how to deal with them. I was so cold to so many. If I hurt you in any way I'm so sorry. I wouldn't ever hurt you. I can't possibly hurt you. If I hurt your feelings or anything other pain I caused you. I'm so sorry. I remember a dream I had. I can't remember why I said this in your dream, but I remember I said it to you. "Sorry about what happened back there." We were in some forest. You told me "Its ok." Ok to what? I don't know why I said that but I did. I don't remember a lot of things. The group told me how Tifa stayed by me the whole time I was in mako shock. I don't remember anything that happened then. She never answered my questions about those days in mako shock. Tifa. you stayed with me. Why? I don't understand why you. did that for me. Tifa I loved you so much. did you ever feel the same way for me?
Cloud slowly drifts to sleep. Thoughts slowly recede to be brought up another day. His sub-conscience houses so many thoughts that one would go mad, but Cloud is like everybody else.