* Tell me, you can't tell *
"I wanna be with you" -Mandy Moore
Taking a deep break, Jaina touched her forehead against Jag's. She was holding onto him; he onto her. They held each other in the silence. Their breathing slowed and Jaina's shaking came to a halt. His hand came up to her cheek. Wiping away the tears that still were on her face.
Closing her eyes, Jaina started to cry again.
"Hey, it's ok. I'm here." Jag whispered, as he pulled her close.
She snuggled in his arms wishing away the confusion that tore at her inside. Minutes passed by, and neither spoke a word. Gently, Jag had been stroking her hair. Caressing away her pain, but inside was where it really hurt.
Sometimes life took Jaina on so many courses, where she ended up she barely had known. Now, it was taking her down a path, and the road suddenly split into two ways. One she saw herself with Kyp, and the other with the man that held her now. What was the right road?
"Jaina?" Jag's voice questioned softly.
Looking up with tears in her eyes, she replied with a simple, "Hmm?"
"What made you. why did you scream out my name like you did?"
Blinking, Jaina remembered the nightmare that had smothered her. Thinking about it stung her soul.
He brushed back the water from her eyes. "It's ok, you don't have to."
"I was in a dark room. Jacen and I were parallel from each other. Behind him, Yuuzhan Vong." her voice ceased. "I was with no one. And we fought. Then when our skills seemed to be equal he backed off and I saw the Vong bring you forward." Staring up, Jaina looked as if she was pulling herself back into the nightmare. Fear accelerated inside the Chiss leader. She blinked at him. "And you. I could not bare it. I thought. you were gone forever."
His heart fell at her words. "Oh Jaina," he breathed. "I'll never leave you."
Then what she had been trying to hide lit in the young woman's eyes. "I love you Jag. I have for a long time. Why. how could I put Kyp through this? Why did I get involved?"
"You two had something once. It was working."
"Until you came back," she added.
Their eyes locked in with each other's. For a moment, they both knew what had to be done. What Jaina had to do.
Shaking her head, she sat up and out of Jag's arms. "How did love get so complicated?"
"I love you Jaina."
Jaina turned and looked back at Jag. He was watching her with concern, sitting on the top of her bed, as she sat in the middle. He trusted her so much. To have such a person like him was so amazing. Never in her life would she have considered herself with him. But neither did she with Kyp.
A pain shocked in her expression. No words could be said to what she had done. It was her fault. "Flirting gets people into too many unwanted situations."
"You sure it was only flirting that got you into this one?"
She let out a breath. "I suppose not. What time is it?"
"Close to midnight."
Quietly, she nodded. Getting up off the bed she got onto her feet, straightening her wrinkled green flight suit. Jag followed her lead, at her side in a second to be sure she was capable of walking on her feet.
Taking her hand, he kissed the palm of it gently. "Be careful. He's got as much as a heart as anyone." Jag noted.
***
The sounds of both Mara Jade and baby Ben snoring filled the bedroom. Being careful, he shut the door after putting the infant next to his mother. Walking out of the Skywalker's quarters, he began to wander. Wandering was a good thing, sometimes with out him even thinking Kyp would end up at the exact point where he wanted to be.
The eerie echo of his steps filled the empty halls. It felt like his heart. Inside, he knew that the day would come when Jaina would leave. Why did he have to fool himself again? The first time. when he and Jaina sparked had been total unexpected. He blew it because of the war.
Now, he had been given a second chance, but some how he knew. Jag got every thing. Kyp, lost it all.
Lights had been turned off for the night. Darkness crowded him as he continued to wander around hopelessly. He would never make it to the place where he really wanted.
***
Late as it could be, Jaina had to find Kyp. The Force had been no help to her. Of course he shut himself off to it, and the connection they had. She went to his room, the sim, and the cafeteria, everywhere. Now she was heading to the hanger bay.
*Come on Kyp. Don't do this to me. * she begged. *Please. We need to talk. *
No response came. Her paced quickened as she reached the hanger. It was hard to see in the shadows. Something caught her foot and she stumbled forward. Falling on the ground, she caught herself before her face hit the ground.
"Bantha fodder." She cursed under her breath. Out of anger, she slammed her fist on the hard ground. It did nothing but make her feel worse than she already felt. Jaina rolled over and pushed herself up into a sitting position. Putting her hands behind her, Jaina steadied herself and leaned her head back taking in a deep breath.
*Anger is of the darkside. Calm yourself, Jaina. Get a grip. You'll find the man. Just be patient. *
Standing back up, Jaina's eyes finally adjusted to the lightless room. Outstretching her hand, it caressed the metal of a X-wing close by. Feeling her way around it, she was careful not to run into anything.
When she finally rounded the corner, Jaina heard an almost noiseless sound. Stopping herself from completing the corner, Jaina peered around the corner's edge and narrowed her eyes. Focusing them on what ever was making the sound. Then she saw him.
Leaning up against his ship, Kyp was holding his knees close to his chest. Something that looked to be the size of a datapad was in his hand. He was looking at something on it. Her heart fell at the sight. The sound came again. She blinked and jumped back behind the ship. Her hand flew up to her lips to cover up her gasp.
What had she done?
***
He sat leaning up against the cold metal of his XJX-Wing. In his hands, he held a datapad. All Kyp could do was stare at the Holo in front of him.
It was an image of Jaina. When he had been climbing up the hill to see her, just before he came into her view, she came into his. She looked so at peace, just staring at her own datapad, sitting up against the tree with the wind blowing into her hair. He did not want that image of her serenity to be forgotten, so he took a picture of her. Before what he had asked her to do stole that peace away.
The image began to blur again. He wiped away the tears that fogged his vision.
The first time he fell for Jaina, it had ended because it was his mistake.
*This time she screwed up. * He sighed. *But I still love her. * He really didn't care much about the fact Jaina wanted Jag. Just finding out the way he had hurt badly. All Kyp really wanted for her was to be happy. He'd die just so she would smile.
Footsteps suddenly came into his hearing. Kyp tossed the datapad in the direction where the sound came from, hoping to hit, or at least distract the person. He was up on his feet in less than a second; lightsaber drawn and activated.
"Show yourself." He ordered.
***
The datapad flew and hit the floor, sliding over into Jaina's feet startling her. She heard a lightsaber blade come to life. Then his voice.
"Show yourself."
*Oh, Sith spawn. Kyp. not like this. * She spoke to him. But he didn't hear her. Their connection still was not open. Taking a breath, she rounded the corner. Before looking up at Durron, she bent down and scooped the data pad into her hands.
The hum of the lightsaber shut off, but Jaina did not look up at him immediately. She studied the Holo, tracing her free hand through the outlines of the image of her. The memory of their time on Ghorman vibrated through her. Her heart went back into that time. Her heart broke all over again as she remembered what they had been talking about. Her deep brown eyes came up and looked at him. They were red now with tears.
"Why didn't you ever tell me?" she mumbled under her breath.
Kyp's face was eluded from any emotion. "What are you doing here?" he asked ignoring her question.
"I came to talk to you."
"What is there to talk about?"
"Kyp, please. Don't be like that. Things just. I don't know. I'm sorry about all this." She looked down at the image and winced. Walking up to him she handed him the machine. "I think this is yours."
He reached out and grasped it, brushing against her hand just for an instant. "Thanks." He replied. Kyp looked to the side for a moment and cleared off his face from the tears that stung his cheeks. When he looked back, he saw Jaina running down away from him.
He just stood, transfixed as he watched her run. All he wanted to do was make her smile.
"I wanna be with you" -Mandy Moore
Taking a deep break, Jaina touched her forehead against Jag's. She was holding onto him; he onto her. They held each other in the silence. Their breathing slowed and Jaina's shaking came to a halt. His hand came up to her cheek. Wiping away the tears that still were on her face.
Closing her eyes, Jaina started to cry again.
"Hey, it's ok. I'm here." Jag whispered, as he pulled her close.
She snuggled in his arms wishing away the confusion that tore at her inside. Minutes passed by, and neither spoke a word. Gently, Jag had been stroking her hair. Caressing away her pain, but inside was where it really hurt.
Sometimes life took Jaina on so many courses, where she ended up she barely had known. Now, it was taking her down a path, and the road suddenly split into two ways. One she saw herself with Kyp, and the other with the man that held her now. What was the right road?
"Jaina?" Jag's voice questioned softly.
Looking up with tears in her eyes, she replied with a simple, "Hmm?"
"What made you. why did you scream out my name like you did?"
Blinking, Jaina remembered the nightmare that had smothered her. Thinking about it stung her soul.
He brushed back the water from her eyes. "It's ok, you don't have to."
"I was in a dark room. Jacen and I were parallel from each other. Behind him, Yuuzhan Vong." her voice ceased. "I was with no one. And we fought. Then when our skills seemed to be equal he backed off and I saw the Vong bring you forward." Staring up, Jaina looked as if she was pulling herself back into the nightmare. Fear accelerated inside the Chiss leader. She blinked at him. "And you. I could not bare it. I thought. you were gone forever."
His heart fell at her words. "Oh Jaina," he breathed. "I'll never leave you."
Then what she had been trying to hide lit in the young woman's eyes. "I love you Jag. I have for a long time. Why. how could I put Kyp through this? Why did I get involved?"
"You two had something once. It was working."
"Until you came back," she added.
Their eyes locked in with each other's. For a moment, they both knew what had to be done. What Jaina had to do.
Shaking her head, she sat up and out of Jag's arms. "How did love get so complicated?"
"I love you Jaina."
Jaina turned and looked back at Jag. He was watching her with concern, sitting on the top of her bed, as she sat in the middle. He trusted her so much. To have such a person like him was so amazing. Never in her life would she have considered herself with him. But neither did she with Kyp.
A pain shocked in her expression. No words could be said to what she had done. It was her fault. "Flirting gets people into too many unwanted situations."
"You sure it was only flirting that got you into this one?"
She let out a breath. "I suppose not. What time is it?"
"Close to midnight."
Quietly, she nodded. Getting up off the bed she got onto her feet, straightening her wrinkled green flight suit. Jag followed her lead, at her side in a second to be sure she was capable of walking on her feet.
Taking her hand, he kissed the palm of it gently. "Be careful. He's got as much as a heart as anyone." Jag noted.
***
The sounds of both Mara Jade and baby Ben snoring filled the bedroom. Being careful, he shut the door after putting the infant next to his mother. Walking out of the Skywalker's quarters, he began to wander. Wandering was a good thing, sometimes with out him even thinking Kyp would end up at the exact point where he wanted to be.
The eerie echo of his steps filled the empty halls. It felt like his heart. Inside, he knew that the day would come when Jaina would leave. Why did he have to fool himself again? The first time. when he and Jaina sparked had been total unexpected. He blew it because of the war.
Now, he had been given a second chance, but some how he knew. Jag got every thing. Kyp, lost it all.
Lights had been turned off for the night. Darkness crowded him as he continued to wander around hopelessly. He would never make it to the place where he really wanted.
***
Late as it could be, Jaina had to find Kyp. The Force had been no help to her. Of course he shut himself off to it, and the connection they had. She went to his room, the sim, and the cafeteria, everywhere. Now she was heading to the hanger bay.
*Come on Kyp. Don't do this to me. * she begged. *Please. We need to talk. *
No response came. Her paced quickened as she reached the hanger. It was hard to see in the shadows. Something caught her foot and she stumbled forward. Falling on the ground, she caught herself before her face hit the ground.
"Bantha fodder." She cursed under her breath. Out of anger, she slammed her fist on the hard ground. It did nothing but make her feel worse than she already felt. Jaina rolled over and pushed herself up into a sitting position. Putting her hands behind her, Jaina steadied herself and leaned her head back taking in a deep breath.
*Anger is of the darkside. Calm yourself, Jaina. Get a grip. You'll find the man. Just be patient. *
Standing back up, Jaina's eyes finally adjusted to the lightless room. Outstretching her hand, it caressed the metal of a X-wing close by. Feeling her way around it, she was careful not to run into anything.
When she finally rounded the corner, Jaina heard an almost noiseless sound. Stopping herself from completing the corner, Jaina peered around the corner's edge and narrowed her eyes. Focusing them on what ever was making the sound. Then she saw him.
Leaning up against his ship, Kyp was holding his knees close to his chest. Something that looked to be the size of a datapad was in his hand. He was looking at something on it. Her heart fell at the sight. The sound came again. She blinked and jumped back behind the ship. Her hand flew up to her lips to cover up her gasp.
What had she done?
***
He sat leaning up against the cold metal of his XJX-Wing. In his hands, he held a datapad. All Kyp could do was stare at the Holo in front of him.
It was an image of Jaina. When he had been climbing up the hill to see her, just before he came into her view, she came into his. She looked so at peace, just staring at her own datapad, sitting up against the tree with the wind blowing into her hair. He did not want that image of her serenity to be forgotten, so he took a picture of her. Before what he had asked her to do stole that peace away.
The image began to blur again. He wiped away the tears that fogged his vision.
The first time he fell for Jaina, it had ended because it was his mistake.
*This time she screwed up. * He sighed. *But I still love her. * He really didn't care much about the fact Jaina wanted Jag. Just finding out the way he had hurt badly. All Kyp really wanted for her was to be happy. He'd die just so she would smile.
Footsteps suddenly came into his hearing. Kyp tossed the datapad in the direction where the sound came from, hoping to hit, or at least distract the person. He was up on his feet in less than a second; lightsaber drawn and activated.
"Show yourself." He ordered.
***
The datapad flew and hit the floor, sliding over into Jaina's feet startling her. She heard a lightsaber blade come to life. Then his voice.
"Show yourself."
*Oh, Sith spawn. Kyp. not like this. * She spoke to him. But he didn't hear her. Their connection still was not open. Taking a breath, she rounded the corner. Before looking up at Durron, she bent down and scooped the data pad into her hands.
The hum of the lightsaber shut off, but Jaina did not look up at him immediately. She studied the Holo, tracing her free hand through the outlines of the image of her. The memory of their time on Ghorman vibrated through her. Her heart went back into that time. Her heart broke all over again as she remembered what they had been talking about. Her deep brown eyes came up and looked at him. They were red now with tears.
"Why didn't you ever tell me?" she mumbled under her breath.
Kyp's face was eluded from any emotion. "What are you doing here?" he asked ignoring her question.
"I came to talk to you."
"What is there to talk about?"
"Kyp, please. Don't be like that. Things just. I don't know. I'm sorry about all this." She looked down at the image and winced. Walking up to him she handed him the machine. "I think this is yours."
He reached out and grasped it, brushing against her hand just for an instant. "Thanks." He replied. Kyp looked to the side for a moment and cleared off his face from the tears that stung his cheeks. When he looked back, he saw Jaina running down away from him.
He just stood, transfixed as he watched her run. All he wanted to do was make her smile.