* Help me fall *
[i] I've been trying not to love you
I've been putting up a fight
I've been barely hangin' on
And letting go with all my might[/i]
Jag reached out to caress Jaina's tender shoulders. Slowly she let her weight lean against him. His hand eased up and brushed back the loose hair that fell in front of her face. "What's the matter Jaina?" he whispered lovingly into her ear.
No response came. Jaina only continued to stare off into the darkness of his room.
"Everything is going to be ok. It has to."
Silence followed, but this time she answered. "Why do you always say that?"
"Because when I'm with you. nothing else matters. Only that you're here."
Her heart melted at his words. Turning her head, she looked up into his shadowed face. "I love you."
He smiled. Taking his other hand he tilted her chin slightly and kissed her softly.
***
[i] There's a part of me that's empty
I know only love can fill
I'm afraid I'll never find it
And I'm scared to death I will[/i]
After he had kissed her, Jaina exited his room and started towards hers. Turning down the hallway she found Kyp walking towards her.
Holding her breath she composed herself. He was not going to have the satisfaction of seeing her so broken. She would not let it happen.
***
Kyp saw Jaina come towards him and block off her emotions. She was becoming almost as good as Jag with his masking technique, but nothing could blind him from noticing her false expression and feeling what she really wanted to hide from him. No matter how much she tried, he would always know when she was hurting. He hated to see her this way. Slowing his pace he gave a slight bow to her.
"Good evening Goddess. You're out late."
Jaina looked at him like he was nothing, but acknowledged his presence. "As well as you, Durron. What affairs might you be up too?"
They were now stopped in front of one another. Kyp sighed inside praying for Jaina deep in his heart as he spoke.
"I was babysitting Ben for Luke and Mara while they went out to have dinner." Kyp saw Jaina flinch in surprise breaking through her mask but quickly retreating back into it.
"You. you babysat my cousin?" she asked curiously.
"Yeah. I have been for a few weeks now. He's really a sweet child. I better get going though." He paused for a moment. "How are you doing?"
The question seemed so redundant, but at the same time, it needed to be said. He could see it in her eyes that she wanted to tell him how she really was feeling. Maybe if he asked she would answer truthfully.
"I'm fine."
Maybe not.
"Well, it's nice seeing you around." With that Kyp walked passed her.
***
[i] Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall [/i]
She wanted to scream out to him. Hit him so hard he would not know she had done it. Why did he have to go and act like nothing was wrong? Could he at least cry? Show some sign that he actually had feelings for her? No, he had to go on. live life and go on.
[i]*While I'm here hurting inside. [/i] Strolling down the hallway, she saw an open door to a small storage room. Looking around to see if anyone was around, she went inside. Shutting the door, Jaina slumped to the floor in tears.
***
[i] I've been holding conversations
When I haven't said a word
I've been speaking with my silence
And praying that you heard I'm a walking contradiction
I'd hate to be my heart
It keeps trying not to love you
But it don't know where to start[/i]
Kyp stopped. Turning around he felt his way to fragile soul. He went to his knees when the door didn't open. "Jaina." He whispered. "Why are you doing this?"
"Go away Kyp! Leave me alone!" a tear filled voice echoed from behind the door.
"I just want you to be happy Jaina. If you love him. Love him. I'll live. You'll always be in my heart, but. I just need you to be happy. Cause you deserve it more than anything."
The sobbing stopped. For a moment Kyp thought she might open the door, but she didn't. Letting out a sigh he went on his way back to his room.
*** [i]Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall I've got to learn to re-trust
To turn me into us
And I really don't know if I can again Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall I've been trying not to love you
I've been putting up a fight
I've been barely holding on
Letting go with all my might. [/i] *** Kyp went back to his rooms not bothering to turn on the lights. Why was Jaina not happy? Didn't she want to be with Jag?
Then why didn't she smile.
He pulled out the datapad out of his drawer, turned it on, and looked at the picture of Jaina.
"I'll always be here for you Jaina. No matter what," he whispered to the air. Setting the datapad back on the dresser, he fell back onto the soft bed and let it envelope him into a quiet peace.
____
[i]Now I've always said that love Was nothing more than a waste of my time I've always thought I'd be above these feelings Always seem to mess with my mind I said you'd never catch me in the corner of my room Gazing at a picture of you Now that all don't mean nothing Cause every time I'm thinkin bout thinkin girl I'm thinkin of you[/i]
-[i][b]Forever[/b][/i] by LFO
[i] I've been trying not to love you
I've been putting up a fight
I've been barely hangin' on
And letting go with all my might[/i]
Jag reached out to caress Jaina's tender shoulders. Slowly she let her weight lean against him. His hand eased up and brushed back the loose hair that fell in front of her face. "What's the matter Jaina?" he whispered lovingly into her ear.
No response came. Jaina only continued to stare off into the darkness of his room.
"Everything is going to be ok. It has to."
Silence followed, but this time she answered. "Why do you always say that?"
"Because when I'm with you. nothing else matters. Only that you're here."
Her heart melted at his words. Turning her head, she looked up into his shadowed face. "I love you."
He smiled. Taking his other hand he tilted her chin slightly and kissed her softly.
***
[i] There's a part of me that's empty
I know only love can fill
I'm afraid I'll never find it
And I'm scared to death I will[/i]
After he had kissed her, Jaina exited his room and started towards hers. Turning down the hallway she found Kyp walking towards her.
Holding her breath she composed herself. He was not going to have the satisfaction of seeing her so broken. She would not let it happen.
***
Kyp saw Jaina come towards him and block off her emotions. She was becoming almost as good as Jag with his masking technique, but nothing could blind him from noticing her false expression and feeling what she really wanted to hide from him. No matter how much she tried, he would always know when she was hurting. He hated to see her this way. Slowing his pace he gave a slight bow to her.
"Good evening Goddess. You're out late."
Jaina looked at him like he was nothing, but acknowledged his presence. "As well as you, Durron. What affairs might you be up too?"
They were now stopped in front of one another. Kyp sighed inside praying for Jaina deep in his heart as he spoke.
"I was babysitting Ben for Luke and Mara while they went out to have dinner." Kyp saw Jaina flinch in surprise breaking through her mask but quickly retreating back into it.
"You. you babysat my cousin?" she asked curiously.
"Yeah. I have been for a few weeks now. He's really a sweet child. I better get going though." He paused for a moment. "How are you doing?"
The question seemed so redundant, but at the same time, it needed to be said. He could see it in her eyes that she wanted to tell him how she really was feeling. Maybe if he asked she would answer truthfully.
"I'm fine."
Maybe not.
"Well, it's nice seeing you around." With that Kyp walked passed her.
***
[i] Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall [/i]
She wanted to scream out to him. Hit him so hard he would not know she had done it. Why did he have to go and act like nothing was wrong? Could he at least cry? Show some sign that he actually had feelings for her? No, he had to go on. live life and go on.
[i]*While I'm here hurting inside. [/i] Strolling down the hallway, she saw an open door to a small storage room. Looking around to see if anyone was around, she went inside. Shutting the door, Jaina slumped to the floor in tears.
***
[i] I've been holding conversations
When I haven't said a word
I've been speaking with my silence
And praying that you heard I'm a walking contradiction
I'd hate to be my heart
It keeps trying not to love you
But it don't know where to start[/i]
Kyp stopped. Turning around he felt his way to fragile soul. He went to his knees when the door didn't open. "Jaina." He whispered. "Why are you doing this?"
"Go away Kyp! Leave me alone!" a tear filled voice echoed from behind the door.
"I just want you to be happy Jaina. If you love him. Love him. I'll live. You'll always be in my heart, but. I just need you to be happy. Cause you deserve it more than anything."
The sobbing stopped. For a moment Kyp thought she might open the door, but she didn't. Letting out a sigh he went on his way back to his room.
*** [i]Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall I've got to learn to re-trust
To turn me into us
And I really don't know if I can again Help me fall
Help me fall
If you care for me at all
Help me fall
Help me fall I've been trying not to love you
I've been putting up a fight
I've been barely holding on
Letting go with all my might. [/i] *** Kyp went back to his rooms not bothering to turn on the lights. Why was Jaina not happy? Didn't she want to be with Jag?
Then why didn't she smile.
He pulled out the datapad out of his drawer, turned it on, and looked at the picture of Jaina.
"I'll always be here for you Jaina. No matter what," he whispered to the air. Setting the datapad back on the dresser, he fell back onto the soft bed and let it envelope him into a quiet peace.
____
[i]Now I've always said that love Was nothing more than a waste of my time I've always thought I'd be above these feelings Always seem to mess with my mind I said you'd never catch me in the corner of my room Gazing at a picture of you Now that all don't mean nothing Cause every time I'm thinkin bout thinkin girl I'm thinkin of you[/i]
-[i][b]Forever[/b][/i] by LFO