Disclaimer: I do not own CCS, CLAMP does. This is only a fan fic.
Note to Readers: A big warm hug goes out to all of you who reviewed! You guys are awesome! Please review again! Thanks! And oh yes, about the being evil part, I really *do* feel evil, so that's why I'm going to twist the plot A LOT over the next few chapters! laughs evilly I hope you will have fun reading them!
*********** OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (with tears of joy in my eyes) I can't believe this is happening! (sobbing happily) I'm on someone's favorite's list! (jumping up and down crying) I can't believe it! OMG!!!! I can't believe you like my story! Nakuru The Butterfly Princess thank you so much! Thank you for reviewing! And adding me to your favorite's list! THANK YOU SO MUCH! You have no idea how much this means to me! ************
THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO "NAKURU THE BUTTERFLY PRINCESS" AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO REVIEWED! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!
Important: Suggestions? Anyone? Comments? Questions? Anything at all? Just e-mail me (glitter4ever99@hotmail.com)!! Or even you have e-mail me to just say hi, I would love to befriend anyone out there who is willing to help me with my E+T fics or another who is in love with the E+T coupling! E+T all the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow, this is a long note! So let's not waste any more time, let's go on with the story!
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Every Life Have It's Share Of Pain
Chapter 5: Spring Storm
By Hally Dang
Love.
Happiness.
Joy.
Do they even existed?
Of course not.
They will never exist for her. Never.
Deep lavender pools studied the serene night sky. Tiny spikes of light were scattered across the heavens, as if a God had carelessly strewn priceless diamonds among a deep blue bowl. Scattered. Lost. Broken into a billion pieces.
Shattered. Smashed. Tossed among the troubled heavens. Lost.
Forever.
And ever.
Never to be found again…
Waves of sadness washed through her. Yet her expression remained blank. Like a white piece of paper. Wan. Void.
She was a fool. An idiot.
To fall for her best friend. Someone she can never have. Never. It will never happen in her lifetime.
It was very late at night. The pale moon played in the darkening sky, accompany by its twinkling stars. Yet she stood alone. In the darkness. Looking out the window.
Waiting.
Praying.
Mourning.
For nothing.
She wondered why for the last year, why had she been hiding away from the world, and running away from her problem. Running far, far away from her troubled life. Her troubled world. That was why she became a singer, so that she can travel all over the world. So that she won't ever remember those…things ever again. Because she knew that she can never run away. Because somehow it will come back to her. Come back to haunt her once again.
But still her run.
Trying her hardest to avoid the horrible truth.
That's why she is here too.
Why she is here in England…
She still stood there. Alone. In the blackness. Staring out through the vast window and into the tranquillity of the night.
She liked the silence.
The peace.
She liked being alone.
Lost only in her own thoughts of misery and sorrow.
Alone.
In dimness…
A sound from behind her made her jerk around.
"Daidouji-san?" a deep male voice said from the shadows. "Are you alright?"
"Yes," she told him, in her perfectly calm, soprano voice, as she turned to face the window once again.
A figure swiftly came out of the shadows and to her side. He wasn't wearing his glasses, she noticed. And he was in his pajamas, a slightly baggy, deep navy blue Chinese style suit. His top wasn't buttoned, showing off his well formed ab's and slightly tanned skin.
He looked like one of those male models you expect to find in a magazine, very different from the Eriol she had seen earlier at diner. Instead of the young, formal, businesslike man, she saw a young teenager like herself.
"You would have to excuse my appearance," he remarked silently pulling his open shirt close, as he noticed her glances.
She quickly looked away, into the tranquil night once more. "It's alright," she replied, embarrassed that he had caught her staring at him.
There was silence among them, as they both gazed out through the window and into the night.
She turned to study him again. He was handsome, in a charming, yet extremely mysterous way. His slightly tanned skin looked very strange to her, so unlike the Eriol she had met in fifth grade. He had a pair of flawlessly shaped sapphire eyes, that looked so deep and cryptic that it sent shivers down her spines. His disheveled navy hair glowed softly in the dim lights of the hallway. Yet he looked like a God. A God of mystery and knowledge. But a God never less.
"Why are you up so late?" she asked, breaking the silence.
He turned to looked at her. "Couldn't sleep."
She nodded. Silence consumed them again. "It is a beautiful night," she commented, wanting to fight away the deafening silence.
"Yes, it is," he agreed.
She felt awkward, and uneasy around him. As if he was a vicious tiger, and she, a fragile little deer, was right beside him. Strangely he fascinated her, somehow he made her to want to know more about his life. His world.
She quickly shoveled those thoughts away. She had only meet him for only 8 hours, for goodness sakes!
But why is she so interested in him? Yet so frightened at the same time?
"Are you really alright?" he asked her again.
"Of course," she quickly replied.
He studied her again, as if in search for hints that would betray her calm pale face, but found none. "So you will be returning to your hotel tomorrow?" he asked changing the subject.
"Yes, I am."
"Well, in that case, I'll sent my driver to pick you up at the entrance at 10?" He turned back to the window. "He will take you back to your hotel."
"There is no need," she quickly refused the offer. "I can walk."
"But you hotel is a half hour walk away!" he exclaimed, surprised. "You might get lost in a new place like this. Please, Daidouji-san, let my driver take you."
"It would be too much trouble, Hiiragisawa-kun," she shook her head. "You have already done enough for me, really I'll be alright going back to the Hotel on my own."
He hesitated, still not content with her answer. "Fine, if that is what you want," he sighed. "But I truly insist on letting my driver take you. I only regret that I can not accompany you since I have yet another business meeting tomorrow morning."
"But you have already done more than enough for me," she insisted. "I'll be quite alright finding my own way home."
He nodded reluctantly. "Come now, Daidouji-san," he said once more. "Let me take you back to your room. It's very late, you should be getting more rest."
Tomoyo nodded in agreement. He slipped his arm around her waist, politely as he guided her down the long, vast hallway. "I'm very sorry for keeping you up even more."
"No need for apologies, Hiiragisawa-kun," Tomoyo told him. "I should be the one apologizing, I was the one keeping you up late when you have a business meeting tomorrow. I'm truly sorry."
He chuckled in reply to her comment and stopped before her door. "Well here you are, Daidouji-san," he said. "Good night."
"Good night to you too," she replied softly and slipped through the white double doors of the guest room.
As she closed the door behind her, she let out a loud sigh of relief. She took a look at the clock near the king sized bed, 2:30 it read. Yes, she had been up very late.
She quietly got under the blue satin sheet, and rested herself upon the comfy duck feathered pillows. She giggled to herself silently as she pulled the cozy comforter to her chin. How silly they have sounded, talking to each other like they are in some kind of formal party thrown in the honor of a foreign president, than a normal conversation with old friends.
She shifted lazily under the comfort of the sheet again. They smell like Hiiragisawa-kun, she suddenly realized. A mix of cologne, and strangely the ocean. She pulled them up to her nose again. Yes, the unmistakably smell of the sea was written all over the blue fabric.
In that moment, her thoughts spinned again. Why was she so nervous around Eriol? Why was there shivers running down her spin as she gazed through his deep arctic eyes? Why?
Sure Eriol was handsome and charming, but she knows that she was not interested in him in that way. Still, she was always fidgeting around him. Why?
Her mind could not supply her of an answer for she was already drifting off into a dream world…
…maybe it's because those deep pools can see through everything…even your fake masks of joy…her mind replied as the heavens opened up to her soul…
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It was a usually dark and windy Spring day. The firms trees of the Hiiragisawa Estate even seemed to have trouble hanging on as the rough winds blow strongly at them. The tranquil waters of the lake were now covered with ripples and waves. The world seemed to be clinging to the earth, hanging on her they dear life for the rough Spring wind would soon claim them. The murky gray clouds blocked out the sun completely, they loomed dangerously over them daring them to look up into its milky depth, for they hold a storm of rain and hail.
"Will you promise to write, Tomoyo-chan?" Nakuru's high voice echoed through the huge lobby of the Hiiragisawa Mansion.
"Of course, Nakuru-chan."
"And call me too?"
"Yes." She replied smiling reassuringly at her.
"Promise?"
"I swear."
Nakuru flashed her one of her child-like smiles and bubbled over with naïve joy. "Good."
"Here, Tomoyo-chan," a black cat like creature flew to her. "Have one of Master Eriol's business cards." He handed a small white card to her. "Feel free to contact us whenever you need help or anything. We would all be delighted to help you."
Tomoyo nodded as she took the small card and slipped it into her black purse. "Of course."
"Oh Tomoyo!" the red haired woman whined again. "Do you have to leave?"
"Yes I do."
"Please stay with us," she gave Tomoyo another set of red puppy eyes. "We would all be delighted to have you here."
"You have already done enough for me," she told her quietly, placing a hand on her arm. "I can't thank you enough for it."
Nakuru sighed and engulfed the raven haired girl into her arms again. "I'll miss you, Tomoyo-chan."
She smiled and returned the hug before she turned and headed out the huge doors of the Hiiragisawa Estate. She slowly made her way down the long driveway heading for the extensive cooper gates. Pulling her beige coat closer to herself not wanting the piercing winds to get it her. Just as she arrived at the Hiiragisawa Manor gates, pelts of rain sprinkle down on her. She looked up into the murky skies, cursing it for its unwanted shower. But the wind only blow harder and the rain only fell more fiercely.
For only a moment she regretted refusing Eriol's offer of letting a driver take her back to the hotel. But no, she just had to refuse it. Because she doesn't want to feel the feeling of helplessness wash over her. For it was is one of her worst fears. She hated it. For it made her feel like a tiny glass figure that needed to be shielded and looked after. Too fragile to put out even in the softest of winds. Her mother had always wanted to protect her from everything, and she had hated it. She wanted to defend herself, and look after herself.
No, she will not be pampered again. Not by Eriol. She will not appear defenseless and powerless in front of him, nor in front of anyone. Because she hated to feel vulnerable, and defenseless in the world. Since deep inside she is as fragile as any glass figurine, she had been broken to many times. And she will not allow it again. She had already painstakingly put up too many walls, too many masks around herself that she will not let everything fall apart once more.
She pulled her coat even closer to herself, as shivers ran through her. The winds were hitting her like needles and the rain started to come down even faster. The ground is already covered in water and it was becoming more harder for her to see. What a fierce Spring storm.
She wanted to get out of the rain, the coldness. But there was not shelter near by and her hotel was still 25 minutes away. She broke into a soft run as she headed down the street towards town.
She stopped suddenly to catch her breath. The street was abandoned, with only the sound of the rhythmic rain. She put her hand against an electricity pole to calm herself.
A headache perforated her once more.
And the foggy world around her swirled and spinned.
She knew she was going to faint again. But a part of her screamed at her telling her that she can't faint in the middle of the street during a shower.
But she can't do anything to help it as her vision blurred and the world disappeared to be replaced but blackness.
And she collapsed to the ground, drifting off to in a deep sleep once more…
The Spring storm ragged on without noticing. Thunder boomed and lightening flashed. Becoming more inclement by the moment.
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Ain't I evil? I made her faint AGAIN! This is the third time in only 4 chapters! I'm so evil….
Just to clear up on a few things. No, Tomoyo is not crazy. She might be a bit stressed out and depressed, but NO she is not crazy. And yes, the sweet E+T is coming. Don't worry Tomoyo is going to stay at Eriol's place for sure.
In the next chapter, I will reveal why Tomoyo is fainting all the time. And there is going to be a FEW sparks going on between Eriol and her. But then I'm going to add a few more twists before they finally get together.
And I want to thank you guys for reviewing again.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!
And I would have like to thank anyone who is even brother in reading this. THANK YOU.
Since I made all my other notes, a bit too long, I'm going to spare you the boredom and tell you that the next chapter will be up shortly.
So, go review this chapter now!
PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU!
Note to Readers: A big warm hug goes out to all of you who reviewed! You guys are awesome! Please review again! Thanks! And oh yes, about the being evil part, I really *do* feel evil, so that's why I'm going to twist the plot A LOT over the next few chapters! laughs evilly I hope you will have fun reading them!
*********** OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (with tears of joy in my eyes) I can't believe this is happening! (sobbing happily) I'm on someone's favorite's list! (jumping up and down crying) I can't believe it! OMG!!!! I can't believe you like my story! Nakuru The Butterfly Princess thank you so much! Thank you for reviewing! And adding me to your favorite's list! THANK YOU SO MUCH! You have no idea how much this means to me! ************
THIS CHAPTER IS DEDICATED TO "NAKURU THE BUTTERFLY PRINCESS" AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO REVIEWED! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!
Important: Suggestions? Anyone? Comments? Questions? Anything at all? Just e-mail me (glitter4ever99@hotmail.com)!! Or even you have e-mail me to just say hi, I would love to befriend anyone out there who is willing to help me with my E+T fics or another who is in love with the E+T coupling! E+T all the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow, this is a long note! So let's not waste any more time, let's go on with the story!
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Every Life Have It's Share Of Pain
Chapter 5: Spring Storm
By Hally Dang
Love.
Happiness.
Joy.
Do they even existed?
Of course not.
They will never exist for her. Never.
Deep lavender pools studied the serene night sky. Tiny spikes of light were scattered across the heavens, as if a God had carelessly strewn priceless diamonds among a deep blue bowl. Scattered. Lost. Broken into a billion pieces.
Shattered. Smashed. Tossed among the troubled heavens. Lost.
Forever.
And ever.
Never to be found again…
Waves of sadness washed through her. Yet her expression remained blank. Like a white piece of paper. Wan. Void.
She was a fool. An idiot.
To fall for her best friend. Someone she can never have. Never. It will never happen in her lifetime.
It was very late at night. The pale moon played in the darkening sky, accompany by its twinkling stars. Yet she stood alone. In the darkness. Looking out the window.
Waiting.
Praying.
Mourning.
For nothing.
She wondered why for the last year, why had she been hiding away from the world, and running away from her problem. Running far, far away from her troubled life. Her troubled world. That was why she became a singer, so that she can travel all over the world. So that she won't ever remember those…things ever again. Because she knew that she can never run away. Because somehow it will come back to her. Come back to haunt her once again.
But still her run.
Trying her hardest to avoid the horrible truth.
That's why she is here too.
Why she is here in England…
She still stood there. Alone. In the blackness. Staring out through the vast window and into the tranquillity of the night.
She liked the silence.
The peace.
She liked being alone.
Lost only in her own thoughts of misery and sorrow.
Alone.
In dimness…
A sound from behind her made her jerk around.
"Daidouji-san?" a deep male voice said from the shadows. "Are you alright?"
"Yes," she told him, in her perfectly calm, soprano voice, as she turned to face the window once again.
A figure swiftly came out of the shadows and to her side. He wasn't wearing his glasses, she noticed. And he was in his pajamas, a slightly baggy, deep navy blue Chinese style suit. His top wasn't buttoned, showing off his well formed ab's and slightly tanned skin.
He looked like one of those male models you expect to find in a magazine, very different from the Eriol she had seen earlier at diner. Instead of the young, formal, businesslike man, she saw a young teenager like herself.
"You would have to excuse my appearance," he remarked silently pulling his open shirt close, as he noticed her glances.
She quickly looked away, into the tranquil night once more. "It's alright," she replied, embarrassed that he had caught her staring at him.
There was silence among them, as they both gazed out through the window and into the night.
She turned to study him again. He was handsome, in a charming, yet extremely mysterous way. His slightly tanned skin looked very strange to her, so unlike the Eriol she had met in fifth grade. He had a pair of flawlessly shaped sapphire eyes, that looked so deep and cryptic that it sent shivers down her spines. His disheveled navy hair glowed softly in the dim lights of the hallway. Yet he looked like a God. A God of mystery and knowledge. But a God never less.
"Why are you up so late?" she asked, breaking the silence.
He turned to looked at her. "Couldn't sleep."
She nodded. Silence consumed them again. "It is a beautiful night," she commented, wanting to fight away the deafening silence.
"Yes, it is," he agreed.
She felt awkward, and uneasy around him. As if he was a vicious tiger, and she, a fragile little deer, was right beside him. Strangely he fascinated her, somehow he made her to want to know more about his life. His world.
She quickly shoveled those thoughts away. She had only meet him for only 8 hours, for goodness sakes!
But why is she so interested in him? Yet so frightened at the same time?
"Are you really alright?" he asked her again.
"Of course," she quickly replied.
He studied her again, as if in search for hints that would betray her calm pale face, but found none. "So you will be returning to your hotel tomorrow?" he asked changing the subject.
"Yes, I am."
"Well, in that case, I'll sent my driver to pick you up at the entrance at 10?" He turned back to the window. "He will take you back to your hotel."
"There is no need," she quickly refused the offer. "I can walk."
"But you hotel is a half hour walk away!" he exclaimed, surprised. "You might get lost in a new place like this. Please, Daidouji-san, let my driver take you."
"It would be too much trouble, Hiiragisawa-kun," she shook her head. "You have already done enough for me, really I'll be alright going back to the Hotel on my own."
He hesitated, still not content with her answer. "Fine, if that is what you want," he sighed. "But I truly insist on letting my driver take you. I only regret that I can not accompany you since I have yet another business meeting tomorrow morning."
"But you have already done more than enough for me," she insisted. "I'll be quite alright finding my own way home."
He nodded reluctantly. "Come now, Daidouji-san," he said once more. "Let me take you back to your room. It's very late, you should be getting more rest."
Tomoyo nodded in agreement. He slipped his arm around her waist, politely as he guided her down the long, vast hallway. "I'm very sorry for keeping you up even more."
"No need for apologies, Hiiragisawa-kun," Tomoyo told him. "I should be the one apologizing, I was the one keeping you up late when you have a business meeting tomorrow. I'm truly sorry."
He chuckled in reply to her comment and stopped before her door. "Well here you are, Daidouji-san," he said. "Good night."
"Good night to you too," she replied softly and slipped through the white double doors of the guest room.
As she closed the door behind her, she let out a loud sigh of relief. She took a look at the clock near the king sized bed, 2:30 it read. Yes, she had been up very late.
She quietly got under the blue satin sheet, and rested herself upon the comfy duck feathered pillows. She giggled to herself silently as she pulled the cozy comforter to her chin. How silly they have sounded, talking to each other like they are in some kind of formal party thrown in the honor of a foreign president, than a normal conversation with old friends.
She shifted lazily under the comfort of the sheet again. They smell like Hiiragisawa-kun, she suddenly realized. A mix of cologne, and strangely the ocean. She pulled them up to her nose again. Yes, the unmistakably smell of the sea was written all over the blue fabric.
In that moment, her thoughts spinned again. Why was she so nervous around Eriol? Why was there shivers running down her spin as she gazed through his deep arctic eyes? Why?
Sure Eriol was handsome and charming, but she knows that she was not interested in him in that way. Still, she was always fidgeting around him. Why?
Her mind could not supply her of an answer for she was already drifting off into a dream world…
…maybe it's because those deep pools can see through everything…even your fake masks of joy…her mind replied as the heavens opened up to her soul…
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It was a usually dark and windy Spring day. The firms trees of the Hiiragisawa Estate even seemed to have trouble hanging on as the rough winds blow strongly at them. The tranquil waters of the lake were now covered with ripples and waves. The world seemed to be clinging to the earth, hanging on her they dear life for the rough Spring wind would soon claim them. The murky gray clouds blocked out the sun completely, they loomed dangerously over them daring them to look up into its milky depth, for they hold a storm of rain and hail.
"Will you promise to write, Tomoyo-chan?" Nakuru's high voice echoed through the huge lobby of the Hiiragisawa Mansion.
"Of course, Nakuru-chan."
"And call me too?"
"Yes." She replied smiling reassuringly at her.
"Promise?"
"I swear."
Nakuru flashed her one of her child-like smiles and bubbled over with naïve joy. "Good."
"Here, Tomoyo-chan," a black cat like creature flew to her. "Have one of Master Eriol's business cards." He handed a small white card to her. "Feel free to contact us whenever you need help or anything. We would all be delighted to help you."
Tomoyo nodded as she took the small card and slipped it into her black purse. "Of course."
"Oh Tomoyo!" the red haired woman whined again. "Do you have to leave?"
"Yes I do."
"Please stay with us," she gave Tomoyo another set of red puppy eyes. "We would all be delighted to have you here."
"You have already done enough for me," she told her quietly, placing a hand on her arm. "I can't thank you enough for it."
Nakuru sighed and engulfed the raven haired girl into her arms again. "I'll miss you, Tomoyo-chan."
She smiled and returned the hug before she turned and headed out the huge doors of the Hiiragisawa Estate. She slowly made her way down the long driveway heading for the extensive cooper gates. Pulling her beige coat closer to herself not wanting the piercing winds to get it her. Just as she arrived at the Hiiragisawa Manor gates, pelts of rain sprinkle down on her. She looked up into the murky skies, cursing it for its unwanted shower. But the wind only blow harder and the rain only fell more fiercely.
For only a moment she regretted refusing Eriol's offer of letting a driver take her back to the hotel. But no, she just had to refuse it. Because she doesn't want to feel the feeling of helplessness wash over her. For it was is one of her worst fears. She hated it. For it made her feel like a tiny glass figure that needed to be shielded and looked after. Too fragile to put out even in the softest of winds. Her mother had always wanted to protect her from everything, and she had hated it. She wanted to defend herself, and look after herself.
No, she will not be pampered again. Not by Eriol. She will not appear defenseless and powerless in front of him, nor in front of anyone. Because she hated to feel vulnerable, and defenseless in the world. Since deep inside she is as fragile as any glass figurine, she had been broken to many times. And she will not allow it again. She had already painstakingly put up too many walls, too many masks around herself that she will not let everything fall apart once more.
She pulled her coat even closer to herself, as shivers ran through her. The winds were hitting her like needles and the rain started to come down even faster. The ground is already covered in water and it was becoming more harder for her to see. What a fierce Spring storm.
She wanted to get out of the rain, the coldness. But there was not shelter near by and her hotel was still 25 minutes away. She broke into a soft run as she headed down the street towards town.
She stopped suddenly to catch her breath. The street was abandoned, with only the sound of the rhythmic rain. She put her hand against an electricity pole to calm herself.
A headache perforated her once more.
And the foggy world around her swirled and spinned.
She knew she was going to faint again. But a part of her screamed at her telling her that she can't faint in the middle of the street during a shower.
But she can't do anything to help it as her vision blurred and the world disappeared to be replaced but blackness.
And she collapsed to the ground, drifting off to in a deep sleep once more…
The Spring storm ragged on without noticing. Thunder boomed and lightening flashed. Becoming more inclement by the moment.
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Ain't I evil? I made her faint AGAIN! This is the third time in only 4 chapters! I'm so evil….
Just to clear up on a few things. No, Tomoyo is not crazy. She might be a bit stressed out and depressed, but NO she is not crazy. And yes, the sweet E+T is coming. Don't worry Tomoyo is going to stay at Eriol's place for sure.
In the next chapter, I will reveal why Tomoyo is fainting all the time. And there is going to be a FEW sparks going on between Eriol and her. But then I'm going to add a few more twists before they finally get together.
And I want to thank you guys for reviewing again.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!
And I would have like to thank anyone who is even brother in reading this. THANK YOU.
Since I made all my other notes, a bit too long, I'm going to spare you the boredom and tell you that the next chapter will be up shortly.
So, go review this chapter now!
PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU!