All I Wanted
Chapter 1: Jack
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What is that feeling? Guilt? Remorse? Sadness? I'm not quite sure. But as I hold my crying daughter, all I know is, I feel something. All I wanted to do was protect her. But is there a chance that I could have been wrong? I was so sure- so sure!- that Irina Derevko was bad for my daughter. It was so obvious, and yet no one else could see it. But in my effort to get that woman out of Sydney's life once and for all, I became as much of a threat to Sydney as Derevko is. Sydney and Vaughn both could have died. What if she had opened the door before I had a chance to warn her? A million other things could have gone wrong on that operation, and it would have been my fault. Should I have left it alone? Derevko would have betrayed Sydney soon enough, of that I am sure. Should I have waited, allowed that to happen on its own?
No.
Because then, I would have had no control over the situation. I would have lost my daughter. Waiting would have been counterproductive.
I'm surprised at just how much Sydney is hurt by the thought of her mother trying to kill her. It's not the first time her life has been endangered by that woman. I knew she had begun to reconnect with her mother on some level, but I had no idea how much. Could she have changed? Is it possible for Irina Derevko to really care about Sydney?
No. It's not possible. She would have hurt her even worse. There is no other way.
And as much as it hurts me to see Sydney like this, it's for the best. Had I waited any longer, that reforming bond would have gotten stronger. That situation would have been too dangerous.
I did what I had to do. Sydney will get over it, in time. She will be ok. She will never be in contact with that woman again. She will get over it.
But will she? The nagging voice in the back of my mind doubts my certainty. What if? What if Sydney was right, and her mother is the fastest way to save Sydney from this life that she hates so much? And I've taken that from her. What if I have condemned my daughter to more years of torment, anguish, and hatred at the hands of SD-6?
All I wanted to do was protect her. But could I have done the exact opposite? I can't undo what has already been done. I can only pray, to a God that might not be there, that this doesn't come back to haunt me.
All I wanted to do was protect her.
Planning 3 more of these, from the point of view of Vaughn, Sydney, and Irina. Please review, let me know what you think!