All I Wanted
Chapter 3: Vaughn
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I don't have an easy answer for that.
My words to Kendall. Seems like there's never an easy answer. At that time, he said he'd take a complicated one. Right now, so would I. It's bound to be better than absolutely no answer. It doesn't make any sense at all. Why? Why would she help Sydney get this far? Why would she leave her alive in Taipei and Barcelona? Why would she help me save her in Moscow? Why would she do all of that, only to send us both on a suicide mission?
No, it doesn't make sense.
I could see how much it hurt Sydney. She wanted to believe herself immune to her mother. Of course it wasn't true. She was liking the new relationship that was developing between them. She hated it at first. She continued to deny feeling any sort of emotional attachment to the woman. But as soon as she asked for those earrings, I knew.
I'm no fan of Irina Derevko. Not after all she's done to this country, my family… and Sydney. But I do believe she cares for her daughter. I could see the relief in her eyes when her assistance got Sydney safely out of Moscow. I could see the interest when I slipped in our first meeting, referring to Sydney by her first name rather than Agent Bristow. I've watched her on that monitor, even taken in a few meetings between mother and daughter. Nothing at all has given any indication that she wanted anything more than to reconcile with her daughter. So why? I wish I knew.
There are too many loose ends in this. One of them is Jack Bristow. What would make him suspicious enough to switch to infrared? Sure, he's a veteran agent, and doesn't trust Irina. Sure, he worries excessively about Sydney, thought sometimes it's hard to tell. All these things are true. But those explanations are too easy. There's more to it than that. I'm not about to make any real accusations- to myself, to Sydney, especially not to Jack. I have my suspicions, but, quite frankly, the man scares the crap out of me. Unless I find solid evidence, the best plan of action is just to leave well enough alone for now, and to continue being there for Sydney. I know she'll need it, no matter how tough she is.
I need to spend some time looking into this. It's just too suspicious. But… then again, Irina could very easily have done this. It could make sense. She would effectively get rid of both Sydney and The Bible at the same tie. But is that what she really wanted? There would have been easier ways to do both of those things. If she truly wanted Sydney dead, she could have killed her in Taipei, or Barcelona, or refused to help me get her out of Moscow. She could have destroyed The Bible before she turned herself in. Or, she could have never turned herself over to the CIA in the first place. So why go about it this way? To spite Jack, Syd, and the CIA? That doesn't seem like Irina Derevko. Not that I know her all that well. But it doesn't add up.
Kendall told me to forget about Irina, and just go back to how we used to work. But, while that system was fairly effective, it doesn't compare to the difference I've seen since Irina came along. Since she turned herself in, there have been times where I could actually see the end of SD-6 not so far off, and freedom for Sydney and everyone she cares about.
Conflicted. That's the only word to accurately describe how I feel right now. I don't know what to do next.
I had intended to get this one up before 'The Indicator' aired, but that obviously didn't work. I'm aiming to get Irina's POV posted before 'Salvation,' but my schedule is loaded for the next 3 days, not to mention all these ideas that keep coming up, and stuff I want to take out. Also trying to update 'The Bible' in the next few days, but no promises… thanks for reading! Please review, either on FF.Net, or by e-mailing me at GabsHardyL4tM@hotmail.com, or both!