CHAPTER: Silent.
RATING: I changed it to PG.
Dedication: To people who reviewed my last chapter and my friends at school who read this one first.
Alec sat on his couch with a bottle of scotch in his hands. He didn't drink any yet. He didn't even have the energy to do that. He felt weak. He felt like the idiot of the decade. He wanted to just get a noose and hang himself but he was too weak to even do that. He kept thinking about when she said it, 'no I don't.' he closed his eyes and winced at the pain that went from his head to toes. He couldn't hold back the tears he was trying to suppress all day. He just let them fall and thought about how much his life sucked.
Max took the elevator up, she was determined to stop what she thought was going to happen. She thought she was going to lose him again so she needed to stop that again. When she entered she found him on the couch by himself watching a blank TV screen like there was something on it. " Alec," she said putting her hands on his shoulder.
He felt her hands touch his body, it was like an immediate cure for what he was feeling, and she eased the pain with one touch. " What are you doing here Max?"
"I came by to see what you were up to." She saw that he wasn't buying that excuse so she told him the truth. " I thought you were going to make a mistake with that girl. I mean first Amelia now her."
He looked up at her. She thought he had gone home with that girl, whoever she was. " Max what the hell do you think this is," Alec asked still shocked by her statement, " a fucking joke. I am love with you. Do you understand what I'm saying?"
He was mad, no more than mad, he was furious. She couldn't believe what she was doing to him; she was playing him like a game of chess.
" God Max I love you so much sometimes I feel like I can't breath. And you come here thinking you could do whatever you want with me and then forget about it in the morning.
She knew she was in the wrong " I'm sorry."
" Don't even start with that. I realized that you only feel like being with me when you think that you may loose me to someone else, then when you realize you still have me, you just dump me by the roadside. You can't want me one minute and don't the other."
She remained silent.
He nodded He understood what was going on her silence told a thousand words. He was supposed to be the lovesick puppy behind her. She thought she could kick him when she felt and pet him if she was in the mood. " You don't have to say anything, your feelings for me are quite clear. Now I'm just sorry for what mine have been."
" Alec I'm so sorry." She put her hand on his shoulder he shook it off. A single tear rolled down her face.
" No, you don't get to cry. You're the one who's taking the easy way out, out the door that is."
" Alec!!"
" Out," he said indicating the door. He didn't want to see her face anymore. It was only so much he could take.
She looked at him hoping he'd ask her to stay but he remained firm on his decision. She turned around and left for the door.
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When Max got home Cindy was there already. She sat on the couch next to her. Cindy looked at her friend she could tell she had been crying. " Boo are you OK?"
" No," she said over a sob.
" What did Alec do?" Cindy said put her arm around her friend to comfort her.
" It's me, it's what I did to him." She said crying and trying to wipe away the tears. " Cindy I hurt him so bad in such a short space of time."
" What did you do?"
" I told him that I didn't love him after I found out that he and Amelia were just friends."
OC knew her friend was wrong but she still was her best fried. " Do you love him or not Max."
" Yes, I do love him." she said getting up and wiping away her tears.
" Then what did you do that for, he has a right to think you're playing him cause you are."
" I don't know what I'm doing. I just don't want to loose him."
" Well you gotta hold on to him fulltime."
" Cindy what if I'm setting my self up for disappointment, what if I put my heart out there and he breaks it?"
" Well you'll be even because you broke his heart already."
"You're right. I have to go back there and tell him."
" Maybe you should give him some time to clear his head."
"I'll write him a letter."
" A letter?"
" He doesn't want to see me again and he would listen to me."
Note: talk about change of planes. This was actually a longer chapter but I split it up. What do you all think about him acting like that? Him overreacting was my intention. The letter may consist of pieces of songs or I could actually make up a letter that will most likely be cheesy. Which should I do?
And when I say playing him I don't mean cheating on him, I mean playing with his heart.
This is the first time I used obscene language in my writing I don't even do it in general. I guess I should stop being so conservative when it comes to writing and write what the characters might say and not what I'd say.
Review please.
RATING: I changed it to PG.
Dedication: To people who reviewed my last chapter and my friends at school who read this one first.
Alec sat on his couch with a bottle of scotch in his hands. He didn't drink any yet. He didn't even have the energy to do that. He felt weak. He felt like the idiot of the decade. He wanted to just get a noose and hang himself but he was too weak to even do that. He kept thinking about when she said it, 'no I don't.' he closed his eyes and winced at the pain that went from his head to toes. He couldn't hold back the tears he was trying to suppress all day. He just let them fall and thought about how much his life sucked.
Max took the elevator up, she was determined to stop what she thought was going to happen. She thought she was going to lose him again so she needed to stop that again. When she entered she found him on the couch by himself watching a blank TV screen like there was something on it. " Alec," she said putting her hands on his shoulder.
He felt her hands touch his body, it was like an immediate cure for what he was feeling, and she eased the pain with one touch. " What are you doing here Max?"
"I came by to see what you were up to." She saw that he wasn't buying that excuse so she told him the truth. " I thought you were going to make a mistake with that girl. I mean first Amelia now her."
He looked up at her. She thought he had gone home with that girl, whoever she was. " Max what the hell do you think this is," Alec asked still shocked by her statement, " a fucking joke. I am love with you. Do you understand what I'm saying?"
He was mad, no more than mad, he was furious. She couldn't believe what she was doing to him; she was playing him like a game of chess.
" God Max I love you so much sometimes I feel like I can't breath. And you come here thinking you could do whatever you want with me and then forget about it in the morning.
She knew she was in the wrong " I'm sorry."
" Don't even start with that. I realized that you only feel like being with me when you think that you may loose me to someone else, then when you realize you still have me, you just dump me by the roadside. You can't want me one minute and don't the other."
She remained silent.
He nodded He understood what was going on her silence told a thousand words. He was supposed to be the lovesick puppy behind her. She thought she could kick him when she felt and pet him if she was in the mood. " You don't have to say anything, your feelings for me are quite clear. Now I'm just sorry for what mine have been."
" Alec I'm so sorry." She put her hand on his shoulder he shook it off. A single tear rolled down her face.
" No, you don't get to cry. You're the one who's taking the easy way out, out the door that is."
" Alec!!"
" Out," he said indicating the door. He didn't want to see her face anymore. It was only so much he could take.
She looked at him hoping he'd ask her to stay but he remained firm on his decision. She turned around and left for the door.
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When Max got home Cindy was there already. She sat on the couch next to her. Cindy looked at her friend she could tell she had been crying. " Boo are you OK?"
" No," she said over a sob.
" What did Alec do?" Cindy said put her arm around her friend to comfort her.
" It's me, it's what I did to him." She said crying and trying to wipe away the tears. " Cindy I hurt him so bad in such a short space of time."
" What did you do?"
" I told him that I didn't love him after I found out that he and Amelia were just friends."
OC knew her friend was wrong but she still was her best fried. " Do you love him or not Max."
" Yes, I do love him." she said getting up and wiping away her tears.
" Then what did you do that for, he has a right to think you're playing him cause you are."
" I don't know what I'm doing. I just don't want to loose him."
" Well you gotta hold on to him fulltime."
" Cindy what if I'm setting my self up for disappointment, what if I put my heart out there and he breaks it?"
" Well you'll be even because you broke his heart already."
"You're right. I have to go back there and tell him."
" Maybe you should give him some time to clear his head."
"I'll write him a letter."
" A letter?"
" He doesn't want to see me again and he would listen to me."
Note: talk about change of planes. This was actually a longer chapter but I split it up. What do you all think about him acting like that? Him overreacting was my intention. The letter may consist of pieces of songs or I could actually make up a letter that will most likely be cheesy. Which should I do?
And when I say playing him I don't mean cheating on him, I mean playing with his heart.
This is the first time I used obscene language in my writing I don't even do it in general. I guess I should stop being so conservative when it comes to writing and write what the characters might say and not what I'd say.
Review please.