CHAPTER: The Writings.
Dedication: To the people who read my last chapter. You all actually read this one first.
Alec woke up with a splitting headache. He felt like someone was banging a sledgehammer against his brain. He got up and staggered to the kitchen. He opened the fridge and noticed something strange about it. What was strange was the fact that there was actually food in it. The reason why it was there came back to him. He closed his eyes at the bolt of pain that traveled trough his body. He didn't want to believe that what they shared meant nothing to her. He couldn't believe it.
He suddenly felt the need to lie down went back to his bed. He warped himself up in the sheets and hugged his pillow. Flashes kept plaguing his mind. It was so deep. Every thing about it was, he really thought he had her then. He felt like she needed as much as he needed her. Why did she walk away from him?
What bothered him the most was the fact that she said she was sorry. Why did she leave him hanging on to nothing but faint hope? Why? He asked himself over and over.
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Max looked at the piece of paper in her hand. She read it once, twice and over and over again until she was sure it said all she wanted it to say. Being satisfied with it she folded it and rested it on the table. She went to take a bath and emerged from her bathroom fully dressed minutes later. She decided to wear a white top and blue jeans. She knew that Alec never seen her in that outfit and she hoped that he would like it.
" Out so early on a Sunday?" Original Cindy asked looking at her friend leaving without eating breakfast.
" Yeah, I'm going to give him the letter. I'll be back soon," Max replied hoping that she wouldn't be back soon.
"Boo."
"Yeah?"
" Good luck," she said for support.
" Thanks, I'll need it."
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The sound of someone knocking forced Alec to open his eyes. He could almost feel her presence. He got up slowly and walked towards the door. He took a while to turn the doorknob; he knew for sure that it was Max now. He opened the door and stared blankly at her. He felt like his brain stopped working, the only thing he could remember to do was stand and breathe.
Max took the latter out of her pocket and handed it to him. He took it in his hands and looked down at it. She waited for him to say something but he just stood there staring at the letter then to her then to the letter again. " I'll go now," she stated lamely. She walked away slowly and took the stairs down.
Alec closed to door behind him and took a deep breath. He could feel his brain starting to function again. It suddenly registered everything that had just happened. Max was just there. She gave him a letter. And he remembered she looked different.
He looked at the letter in his hands. He knew supposed to read it but he didn't want to. He had no idea what it said. By the way he yelled at her the night before he wouldn't have been surprised if it was a get out of my life note.
He opened it with his hands slightly shaking and stared at the words that at that time seemed like a bunch of letters on a piece paper. But these weren't just any bunch of letters, these were bunch of letters that were written with the sole intent of him reading it, these were a bunch of letters written by Max for him. He led his eyes back to the top of the paper, it read:
Alec, I really don't know where to start so I'll just start by saying how sorry I am. And I am very sorry. You were right about everything. I was being totally selfish and I see that now. I know nothing that I say or do can in anyway make up for the hurt that I caused you but I was hoping what I say next might help a little. Alec I'm in love with you. I didn't get it then but I get it now, I do deed you. I tried to sleep last night and the only thing that kept me from reaching out to you was that wall you put up because of what I did to you. I don't know if you feel the same way you did before but if you do I propose this: That you meet me at the space needle and we can talk it out.
Love Max.
Alec closed the letter and let what it said penetrate. She said she was in love with him. He wanted so badly to believe it but he couldn't just yet. There were still some unanswered questions, questions that he hoped she would answer when they meet at the needle.
" So how did he take it?" OC asked seeing Max walking through the door.
" I honestly don't know?" She replied.
" What do you mean you don't know? What did he say?"
" That's the problem. He didn't say anything." Max sat on the couch and sighed. " You want to know something funny?" OC nodded. " A few days ago I was worried that I would loose Alec to Amelia, now I'm worried that he would never speak to me again?"
" Well that's life for yuh,"
" You wanna know something else?" OC nodded. "Life sucks."
NOTE: This the second time I'm writing this chapter. You wanna know why?
Because I saved the original on a diskette first (I do it as backup) and then forgot to save it on the hard drive. My stupid A- Drive stopped working and everything that I wrote is gone. They just kept on deleting for themselves in front of eyes. Now the stupid thing isn't even reading anymore. I almost cried because the one before was far better than this.
Anyways. I have a message board that's about Jensen. Please check out. I'm begging someone, anyone to check it out. It's at http://toonmili.hyperboards2.com
Dedication: To the people who read my last chapter. You all actually read this one first.
Alec woke up with a splitting headache. He felt like someone was banging a sledgehammer against his brain. He got up and staggered to the kitchen. He opened the fridge and noticed something strange about it. What was strange was the fact that there was actually food in it. The reason why it was there came back to him. He closed his eyes at the bolt of pain that traveled trough his body. He didn't want to believe that what they shared meant nothing to her. He couldn't believe it.
He suddenly felt the need to lie down went back to his bed. He warped himself up in the sheets and hugged his pillow. Flashes kept plaguing his mind. It was so deep. Every thing about it was, he really thought he had her then. He felt like she needed as much as he needed her. Why did she walk away from him?
What bothered him the most was the fact that she said she was sorry. Why did she leave him hanging on to nothing but faint hope? Why? He asked himself over and over.
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Max looked at the piece of paper in her hand. She read it once, twice and over and over again until she was sure it said all she wanted it to say. Being satisfied with it she folded it and rested it on the table. She went to take a bath and emerged from her bathroom fully dressed minutes later. She decided to wear a white top and blue jeans. She knew that Alec never seen her in that outfit and she hoped that he would like it.
" Out so early on a Sunday?" Original Cindy asked looking at her friend leaving without eating breakfast.
" Yeah, I'm going to give him the letter. I'll be back soon," Max replied hoping that she wouldn't be back soon.
"Boo."
"Yeah?"
" Good luck," she said for support.
" Thanks, I'll need it."
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The sound of someone knocking forced Alec to open his eyes. He could almost feel her presence. He got up slowly and walked towards the door. He took a while to turn the doorknob; he knew for sure that it was Max now. He opened the door and stared blankly at her. He felt like his brain stopped working, the only thing he could remember to do was stand and breathe.
Max took the latter out of her pocket and handed it to him. He took it in his hands and looked down at it. She waited for him to say something but he just stood there staring at the letter then to her then to the letter again. " I'll go now," she stated lamely. She walked away slowly and took the stairs down.
Alec closed to door behind him and took a deep breath. He could feel his brain starting to function again. It suddenly registered everything that had just happened. Max was just there. She gave him a letter. And he remembered she looked different.
He looked at the letter in his hands. He knew supposed to read it but he didn't want to. He had no idea what it said. By the way he yelled at her the night before he wouldn't have been surprised if it was a get out of my life note.
He opened it with his hands slightly shaking and stared at the words that at that time seemed like a bunch of letters on a piece paper. But these weren't just any bunch of letters, these were bunch of letters that were written with the sole intent of him reading it, these were a bunch of letters written by Max for him. He led his eyes back to the top of the paper, it read:
Alec, I really don't know where to start so I'll just start by saying how sorry I am. And I am very sorry. You were right about everything. I was being totally selfish and I see that now. I know nothing that I say or do can in anyway make up for the hurt that I caused you but I was hoping what I say next might help a little. Alec I'm in love with you. I didn't get it then but I get it now, I do deed you. I tried to sleep last night and the only thing that kept me from reaching out to you was that wall you put up because of what I did to you. I don't know if you feel the same way you did before but if you do I propose this: That you meet me at the space needle and we can talk it out.
Love Max.
Alec closed the letter and let what it said penetrate. She said she was in love with him. He wanted so badly to believe it but he couldn't just yet. There were still some unanswered questions, questions that he hoped she would answer when they meet at the needle.
" So how did he take it?" OC asked seeing Max walking through the door.
" I honestly don't know?" She replied.
" What do you mean you don't know? What did he say?"
" That's the problem. He didn't say anything." Max sat on the couch and sighed. " You want to know something funny?" OC nodded. " A few days ago I was worried that I would loose Alec to Amelia, now I'm worried that he would never speak to me again?"
" Well that's life for yuh,"
" You wanna know something else?" OC nodded. "Life sucks."
NOTE: This the second time I'm writing this chapter. You wanna know why?
Because I saved the original on a diskette first (I do it as backup) and then forgot to save it on the hard drive. My stupid A- Drive stopped working and everything that I wrote is gone. They just kept on deleting for themselves in front of eyes. Now the stupid thing isn't even reading anymore. I almost cried because the one before was far better than this.
Anyways. I have a message board that's about Jensen. Please check out. I'm begging someone, anyone to check it out. It's at http://toonmili.hyperboards2.com