CHAPTER: How deep is your love.
Alec sat on the needle doing a mental check of time; he came there early just to think before he said anything, he already so much. He knew that he overreacted the night before; he really had no right to talk to her like that. She was just confused about things, just as confused as he was.
He looked up and saw that Max was standing there, looking beautiful as always. He followed her with his eyes as she sat down. He turned his gaze back to the horizon; she too looked there. For a while they just sat and said nothing, looking at the sky, feeling the wind hitting their faces. Then as tough he now acknowledged her presence, " hey," he said. He had been thinking for so long what to say and 'hey' was all he could come up with.
"Hey," she quickly said like she had been waiting to speak for so long.
" Pretty windy huh."
She could tell that he didn't what to say. He was making small talk. Alec was the kind to make small talk. " Yeah it is pretty windy, but we didn't come here to talk about the weather did we?" He opened his mouth to speak then he swallowed his words. " Alec I'm sorry?" she said.
" You said that already."
" I know but I can't help but think that you don't believe me."
" Should I believe you?" he questioned. " I mean you keep telling me things that you your self don't seem to be sure of. How am I supposed to be sure?"
" When I wrote that letter it was me talking, no games, no lies, no nothing, just me. Everything I said in it was true.
He looked into her eyes. Was she telling him the truth, or was she just saying this because she felt guilty. He kept looking to indicate any sense of uncertainty. There was none. Maybe she was being honest with him. Maybe she did love him after all the things she said. He still didn't even know why she said it. " You want to know what I'm thinking?" She nodded. " I'm thinking that if what you say is true and you do love me, why did you walk away from me when I told you how I felt?"
She turned away from his gaze, she couldn't stand to see the hurt in his eyes when he asked her the question. " I was afraid," she explained.
" Afraid of what?" The mystery that was Max just kept getting deeper and deeper.
" I guess I thought that if we were friends we'd always have something to look forward to, you know being with one another. I was afraid that you would stop wanting me, and I'll be left without the security of you being always there. That's why I got jealous when I thought you were with Amelia. I thought that you didn't want me anymore." She couldn't tell how the words sound as the came out of her mouth. She knew she was afraid to say them, but she had to, it was the least she could do.
" Max first of all, I will never stop wanting you, that's what love is about, true love that is. It's never temporary, it stays around forever." He moved closer and put his arms around her. It was like taking a breath of air after ten minutes underwater. It felt good to have her in his arm. She rested her head on his shoulder and kissed her on her forehead.
" Even if I gained weight?"
" Even when you're old and wrinkled as a prune, I will still love you. No teeth and all," he said laughing lightly.
" That's feels very good to know." he kissed her on her forehead again. " God I want you so much."
" How much." He teased.
" A lot," If there was any room between them she closed the gap when she moved even closer to him. " Right now actually."
"Here?"
" If it's possible." She grinned.
He shook his head, " I don't we should or else we might wake up dead."
" Your place then," she said getting up. " Come on bip bip."
He got up quickly and followed her down the stairs.
They manage to make it back to his apartment without tearing each other's clothes off. He turned on the light and was about to tell her something but felt her attacking his lips. He responded immediately. Without even thinking about breathing they deepened the kiss, if that was possible.
She started to tug at his clothes to tell him to take it off without having to stop kissing him. He took off his and assisted her with hers. They made the way to bedroom.
He rested her down on the bed and crawled on top of her and stopped for a while. It amazed him where he found the strength to do that but he did. He looked at her. She looked like she would die without him near to her, which he was happy to see. " Your absolutely, positively sure you want this?" he asked.
" Yes I'm sure I want this," she impatiently.
" Sure sure?" he asked just to annoy her.
She answered him with a kiss. He stopped and looked at her again like he was going to say something and then smiled and began to kiss her again. She immediately responded to the kiss and pulled him closer to her demanding more form him, which he was more than happy to give her.
NOTE: Even tough I'm seventeen now I still have to keep it PG. One fine day I will write a NC-17 and post it on my message board. That's if I find the time.
Anyways. Jensen on Dawson's Creek. If you want to talk about it please go to my message board: http://toonmili.hyperboard2.com. I will talk about it there. Oh and just so you're aware that site is loaded with pop ups. I hope you guys have one of those pop up eater programs.
Oh and by the way someone said the letter reminded them of Never been Kissed. That's because I was thinking about that movie when I was writing it. I love that movie so much. Jessica's character in that movie was ridiculous, and the funniest of the popular girls. Oh and did you guys know that Jensen got the part of Guy but his Days Of Our Lives schedule was clashing with it so he had to drop the role. He would have been so perfect as Guy. He would have acted with Drew Barrymore, which would have given him major exposure. I mean look Jessica got her own show, Michael Vartan the guy who played Mr. Coolsen acts on Alias.
Just incase you were wondering Amelia is in the next chapter.
Alec sat on the needle doing a mental check of time; he came there early just to think before he said anything, he already so much. He knew that he overreacted the night before; he really had no right to talk to her like that. She was just confused about things, just as confused as he was.
He looked up and saw that Max was standing there, looking beautiful as always. He followed her with his eyes as she sat down. He turned his gaze back to the horizon; she too looked there. For a while they just sat and said nothing, looking at the sky, feeling the wind hitting their faces. Then as tough he now acknowledged her presence, " hey," he said. He had been thinking for so long what to say and 'hey' was all he could come up with.
"Hey," she quickly said like she had been waiting to speak for so long.
" Pretty windy huh."
She could tell that he didn't what to say. He was making small talk. Alec was the kind to make small talk. " Yeah it is pretty windy, but we didn't come here to talk about the weather did we?" He opened his mouth to speak then he swallowed his words. " Alec I'm sorry?" she said.
" You said that already."
" I know but I can't help but think that you don't believe me."
" Should I believe you?" he questioned. " I mean you keep telling me things that you your self don't seem to be sure of. How am I supposed to be sure?"
" When I wrote that letter it was me talking, no games, no lies, no nothing, just me. Everything I said in it was true.
He looked into her eyes. Was she telling him the truth, or was she just saying this because she felt guilty. He kept looking to indicate any sense of uncertainty. There was none. Maybe she was being honest with him. Maybe she did love him after all the things she said. He still didn't even know why she said it. " You want to know what I'm thinking?" She nodded. " I'm thinking that if what you say is true and you do love me, why did you walk away from me when I told you how I felt?"
She turned away from his gaze, she couldn't stand to see the hurt in his eyes when he asked her the question. " I was afraid," she explained.
" Afraid of what?" The mystery that was Max just kept getting deeper and deeper.
" I guess I thought that if we were friends we'd always have something to look forward to, you know being with one another. I was afraid that you would stop wanting me, and I'll be left without the security of you being always there. That's why I got jealous when I thought you were with Amelia. I thought that you didn't want me anymore." She couldn't tell how the words sound as the came out of her mouth. She knew she was afraid to say them, but she had to, it was the least she could do.
" Max first of all, I will never stop wanting you, that's what love is about, true love that is. It's never temporary, it stays around forever." He moved closer and put his arms around her. It was like taking a breath of air after ten minutes underwater. It felt good to have her in his arm. She rested her head on his shoulder and kissed her on her forehead.
" Even if I gained weight?"
" Even when you're old and wrinkled as a prune, I will still love you. No teeth and all," he said laughing lightly.
" That's feels very good to know." he kissed her on her forehead again. " God I want you so much."
" How much." He teased.
" A lot," If there was any room between them she closed the gap when she moved even closer to him. " Right now actually."
"Here?"
" If it's possible." She grinned.
He shook his head, " I don't we should or else we might wake up dead."
" Your place then," she said getting up. " Come on bip bip."
He got up quickly and followed her down the stairs.
They manage to make it back to his apartment without tearing each other's clothes off. He turned on the light and was about to tell her something but felt her attacking his lips. He responded immediately. Without even thinking about breathing they deepened the kiss, if that was possible.
She started to tug at his clothes to tell him to take it off without having to stop kissing him. He took off his and assisted her with hers. They made the way to bedroom.
He rested her down on the bed and crawled on top of her and stopped for a while. It amazed him where he found the strength to do that but he did. He looked at her. She looked like she would die without him near to her, which he was happy to see. " Your absolutely, positively sure you want this?" he asked.
" Yes I'm sure I want this," she impatiently.
" Sure sure?" he asked just to annoy her.
She answered him with a kiss. He stopped and looked at her again like he was going to say something and then smiled and began to kiss her again. She immediately responded to the kiss and pulled him closer to her demanding more form him, which he was more than happy to give her.
NOTE: Even tough I'm seventeen now I still have to keep it PG. One fine day I will write a NC-17 and post it on my message board. That's if I find the time.
Anyways. Jensen on Dawson's Creek. If you want to talk about it please go to my message board: http://toonmili.hyperboard2.com. I will talk about it there. Oh and just so you're aware that site is loaded with pop ups. I hope you guys have one of those pop up eater programs.
Oh and by the way someone said the letter reminded them of Never been Kissed. That's because I was thinking about that movie when I was writing it. I love that movie so much. Jessica's character in that movie was ridiculous, and the funniest of the popular girls. Oh and did you guys know that Jensen got the part of Guy but his Days Of Our Lives schedule was clashing with it so he had to drop the role. He would have been so perfect as Guy. He would have acted with Drew Barrymore, which would have given him major exposure. I mean look Jessica got her own show, Michael Vartan the guy who played Mr. Coolsen acts on Alias.
Just incase you were wondering Amelia is in the next chapter.