Chapter 6 - The Letter
I'm not sure exactly what I am supposed to write in this letter, but I feel compelled to write it anyway. Compelled, Polly, I'm sorry. I could never be quite as you are, and I am sorry for that. I know that it hurt you, when I smiled and when I laughed and when I fell in love. But you are my sister; my big sister and you'll forgive me. You always do. Do you remember what you used to say to me when I was upset, when I was a child?
'We are one, T'Lin. We breathe and move and live and we are one. One person, not two. We will always be sisters, always. No matter where we go or where we end up, I always be in your blood, in your heart. I am your essence. Think of me, and I shall be there.
I'm thinking of you, Polly.
And Tom. I feel that my hands can't keep up with what my brain wants to say to you. With what my heart wants to say to you. I miss you. I miss your smell and your smile and your hair and your eyes and every living, breathing part of you. I can't believe that you have left me. I can't believe that you aren't here. I love you. I can't breathe without you. You are mine, all mine and all I ever had to give was yours. Irrevocably.
I love you both.
I'm not sure exactly what I am supposed to write in this letter, but I feel compelled to write it anyway. Compelled, Polly, I'm sorry. I could never be quite as you are, and I am sorry for that. I know that it hurt you, when I smiled and when I laughed and when I fell in love. But you are my sister; my big sister and you'll forgive me. You always do. Do you remember what you used to say to me when I was upset, when I was a child?
'We are one, T'Lin. We breathe and move and live and we are one. One person, not two. We will always be sisters, always. No matter where we go or where we end up, I always be in your blood, in your heart. I am your essence. Think of me, and I shall be there.
I'm thinking of you, Polly.
And Tom. I feel that my hands can't keep up with what my brain wants to say to you. With what my heart wants to say to you. I miss you. I miss your smell and your smile and your hair and your eyes and every living, breathing part of you. I can't believe that you have left me. I can't believe that you aren't here. I love you. I can't breathe without you. You are mine, all mine and all I ever had to give was yours. Irrevocably.
I love you both.