E/N: Okay, I am a little confused over here, maybe I am in love.
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Summary: You want a summary? Tough luck! Just read the story!
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Day seven, the 13th of Halimath, 1384 (Shire Reckoning)
Valanya, the 34th of Yávie (Iavas), 2984 T.A. (Calendar of Imladris)
Dear diary,
The strangest thing happened today. And when I say strange, I mean strange. And I thought Éomer was the only one who could confuse me. Boy, could I have been more wrong! Elf-prince really managed to surprise me today, and that is just a vague description. I kind of surprised myself too. multiple times. ah what the heck, I'll just tell you all about it.
It all started yesterday after I had gone to bed. I won't tell all the details, but it comes to this: Endomiel and Legolas were kissing eachother, the door opened, they fell in, I saw them and they made me promise not to tell anyone, so I promised. This only confirms what I knew all along, but the strangest part was yet to come.
When I woke up this morning, my magical shield was tingling. Somebody had tried to use magic on me, twice even, somewhere around midnight and about an hour ago. It was probably mystery-figure again, trying to keep me away from camp. Well, it's not going to happen, no way! I am going there, whether (s)he likes it or not.
I got out of bed, took a long shower and washed my hair. After that I put on a forest green dress. It had a tight bodice and a long and wide skirt. It was cut low, but not extremely low, and the cut has a V-shape. Enough of the dress talk for now. I put on my ring and necklace and went to get some breakfast. I walked into the mess, and saw Anna sitting all by herself, so I sat down with her.
'Hey Anna! Where's Hally?' I asked.
'We had an argument. She ran off steaming mad.' Anna answered.
'Ouch. sorry to hear that.'
'It'll be okay. It always ends up fine. We're best friends.'
Somehow those words cut through my soul. Best friends. I missed mine. Tara, as I call her for short, was still in Aman. I had some friends here, but I didn't have a single close friend. I started poking my food. I wasn't really hungry.
'You know what, Anna, I'm not really hungry. I'm sorry, I don't feel to good.' I said.
'It's okay, you go and take a rest.' Anna answered.
I stood up and walked back to my room. I felt so incredibly sick. But it wasn't from a spell, my shield can't be broken by anyone except me, and I didn't take it away. Something was bothering me, in the back of my mind. But whatever was bugging me, I couldn't figure it out. I drank some water and started packing my bags for camp. Or actually just bag, I didn't need much. After that I lay down on my bed, I felt pretty tired. Maybe I should go see Rían. but not yet, I don't want to miss camp. After a while I stood up to get some more water.
Someone slammed the door open and ran in. I turned around and bumped into Endomiel. Her eyes were covered with tears and she ran into the bathroom, locking the door. I could hear her crying. I knocked on the door.
'Are you okay in there?' I asked, not really sure what to do.
'I'm okay, nothing really.' I heard her say with a shaking voice.
'No you're not, what happened?' I went on.
'Nothing! None of your business! Go away!' she yelled.
'You can tell me, nobody will know.'
'Nothing's wrong. Go away!' Endomiel shouted. I sat down against the door.
'I'll just sit here, if you want to talk.' I said, hoping she would respond. I heard her crying again. After a while the crying went less. I don't know how long I had sat there, but staying where I was seemed pretty useless, since she obviously wasn't going to open the door.
I quietly got up and left, hoping Endomiel wouldn't do anything stupid while I was away. As soon as I had closed the door behind me and turned around, I saw Éomer standing in front of me.
'I want to talk to you.' He said. I guess he was right. I shouldn't have run off like that yesterday, he had the right to know why I ran away.
'Sure. But not here.' I answered, and we left the building. We walked into the forest, and sat down against a tree.
'Sorry.' Éomer said.
'What do you mean?'
'I'm sorry if I upset you yesterday by trying to.' he started.
'It's okay. You shouldn't apologize. I'm the one that owes you an apology.' I said as I interrupted him.
'Why?'
'For running off without telling why.'
'It's okay. I understand. You just don't feel the same things I feel for you, I don't blame you for that. No hard feelings.'
'That's not why I ran away.'
'It's not? Then why did you run away?'
'Because I'm not sure what I feel. I'm just confused, I mean. I just arrived, I still have to get used to everything, and then there's these messed up feelings. I really didn't mean to hurt you, and I'm sorry if I did.' I said.
'And I never meant to confuse you, so I'm sorry too.' Éomer responded, looking me straight in the eyes. They were so honest, I just felt even more guilty. Deep down, I know what I feel for him, and I don't understand why I deny it.
'I guess we're both sorry.' I whispered.
'Yeah, I guess we are.' he whispered back.
Somehow I just stopped denying, forgetting everything else, and we kissed. Not long, but it was enough. He smiled at me, putting his arm around my waist, and we kissed again.
After that, we just sat there and talked about nothing in particular. I still was confused. Are we together now? Or was this just some strange impulse? I didn't know. Then I realized Endomiel was still in the bathroom, and explained to Éomer that I should really leave and check on her. He understood and I ran back to our room.
I walked into the room to check on Endomiel again. Suddenly, someone bumped into me, and before I knew what was going on I was being kissed by the person. Endomiel shouted something and left the room. Just then, the person let go of me. It was Legolas. Legolas? Something's definitely wrong with this picture...
'What the Mordor do you think you're doing?' I asked Legolas.
'What did it look like?' he asked in return. I sighed. Some people are just too weird.
'I know WHAT you did, but WHY did you do it?' I asked.
'Gee, I don't know, maybe because. I felt like doing so?' he answered. I sighed; this could take a while before I understand it all.
'You know what? Never mind. I'm leaving now, so bye!' I said as I left the room. Of all people it had to be Legolas that kissed me. And his timing couldn't have been worse. I had only just found out what I wanted and now he was messing up everything again. Yesterday we weren't even friends. yesterday he was still with Endomiel. I sat down on the lawn to think, but kept ending up with the same question: why did he do it?
After a couple of minutes I decided to get myself some lunch, I couldn't think of the answer anyway. I went over to the mess. Legolas was sitting with some of the guys, and Endomiel was sitting at another table, pretty close to Vebor. Vebor? Okay, now I don't understand a single bit of all this anymore. I took a tray and decided to sit down at an empty table, I didn't really feel like talking. Legolas stood up right away and sat down next to me.
'Hey Elvea.' He said.
'Are you going to tell me what's going on now?' I answered.
'Hmmm. let's see. I was with Endy, we broke up, I kissed you and now I'm with you?' he said.
'Woah, slow down! It takes two for that decision! You two broke up? Why?'
'I don't know, she said she wanted to.'
'I still don't see how I fit in.'
'She said I'd probably kiss the first girl I ran into and I kind of did that.'
'So basically you were just pissed and used me to make her jealous?' I asked.
'If you put it like that, yes.' Legolas answered. At least this explains a lot.
Endomiel suddenly got up, said something to Vebor, glared at us and left.
I sighed. 'Next time, please just tell her how you feel, will you?'
'I tried, she wouldn't listen.'
'Look Legolas, I don't want to be involved in all this, why don't you just solve your problems yourself?'
'I can't.' he said. Tough luck. I stood up to leave. I was absolutely not hungry anymore. 'Elvea, wait.' I sighed and sat down again.
'What?'
'I need your help.'
'Interesting. Give me one good reason why I should help you.'
'Oh man. that's not fair!'
'I think it's pretty fair. You used me and you have to make it up. The fact that you used me doesn't really work in your advantage, you know.'
'Listen, I'm sorry about that. I just want Endomiel back, that's all.'
'Still can't see a good reason here.'
'Okay, okay. but I don't really have a good reason except Endomiel.'
'Well then I won't help you.' I said, and I wanted to stand up but he grabbed my arm.
'Please just help me, because we're friends.'
'Oh really? I must have missed the part where we became friends.'
'Stop giving me a hard time! If you help me we'll be friends! Can't I just owe you until you need MY help?'
I sighed again. 'Fair enough. Do you have an idea?'
'Not really. I wanted to make her jealous, but.'
'She's doing the same thing.'
'Exactly!'
'Hmmm. well, I think we should inform the other guys, the more help, the better, and after that we should.' I started, but stopped because for some reason Legolas was staring at me. 'WHAT?!' I asked.
'We should make her even more jealous than she is doing to me with Vebor.' He said.
'And how are you planning to do that?' I asked.
'Like this' Legolas answered and he tried to kiss me. I moved a little bit away.
'No way. NO WAY! It's not gonna happen. I want to help you, but not like that, and certainly no kissing. I can't do that. It wouldn't be fair to-'
'Then I'll never get her jealous!'
'Then maybe you should find another girl to help you.'
'I don't think that would be convincing, especially not after I kissed you.'
'Forget it, it's not going to happen!' I said.
'Wanna bet?' Legolas responded and he kissed me. I tried to push him away, but as usual since I arrived, I was pretty tired and I couldn't find the strength. Just then, Éomer walked in. As soon as he saw us he turned incredibly pale. I immediately pushed Legolas away with newfound strength. 'Jerk!' I said. Éomer walked over to our table.
'Legolas, Elvy, what's going on?' he asked. He looked pretty hurt.
'Now look what you've done!' I said to Legolas and got up.
'Nothing's going on, I swear!' Legolas said to Éomer.
'Yeah right. I get it. You are upset because of Endomiel and to forget about her you just start something with the first girl you run into' Éomer shouted at him. The scary thing was that he was pretty damn right.
'Éomer, calm down' I said. He turned to me, tears in his eyes.
'I hate you Elvy! And you too Legolas! I HATE YOU!!!' Éomer shouted. Before either one of us had the chance to say something to Éomer he ran off.
'This is all your fault!' I shouted at Legolas. 'I don't care that you screwed up your life, but you should've left me out of it!' I turned away from Legolas and ran after Éomer. Man, this sucks. Luckily Éomer didn't run very far and he just sat down on the lawn. I sat down next to him.
'Go away!' he said.
'I'm not leaving until you listen to me.' I replied.
'Well then you can stay here for a long, long time!'
'I think you just got the wrong impression.'
'What, you're trying to tell me that you didn't kiss Legolas?'
'No, you saw what you saw, except that the kiss didn't mean anything.'
'Then why did you kiss him?'
'He kissed me, not the other way around. He wanted me to help him make Endomiel jealous and I agreed. But then he wanted me to kiss him, because it would work better, and I told him it wasn't going to happen. He kissed me anyway to prove that it WAS going to happen, and that's where you came in.' I explained.
'I hope you don't expect me to believe this, do you?' he whispered.
'It's the truth.'
'I really don't believe you.'
'Then what do I have to do to make you see that it is the truth?'
'I don't know.' he said, tears filling his eyes again. I put my arm around his shoulders. He turned his head to look at me. I wiped the tears away with my other hand. I didn't really know what to do either, so I just did what seemed best right now. As I wiped a tear from his cheek, his hand grabbed mine, and he pressed it against his chest. 'Do you feel it? My heart? It's beating for you. what about yours?' he whispered.
'It's not beating for you.' I started, and I saw how he got sad again, so I quickly continued. 'It's beating so damn fast that you can't call it beating anymore. That's what you do to me.' I added, it was the truth. Whenever he was around, my heart started beating way faster than usual. He smiled at me, and we kissed.
'I believe you.' Was the first thing he said when we stopped kissing.
'Already?' I said teasingly.
'Not really, try again, maybe you can convince me this time.' Éomer said grinning.
I smiled and we kissed again. 'Convinced?' I asked when we stopped kissing for the second time.
'Yeah, definitely. No wait! What's that? Is that a doubt in the back of my head?'
'I guess I'll just have to make it go away then.' I said, and once again we kissed.
After I had "convinced" Éomer for the third time, we lay back in the grass, my head resting on Éomer's chest, his right hand on my waist and the other hand going slowly through my hair. My head was tingling again, but I liked it. All my worries just seemed to have disappeared.
I felt like I could lay like that forever, in endless happiness, but of course I couldn't since there was something stupid called school, and of course dinner. Of course we could skip dinner, but since I had skipped dinner already yesterday and hardly ate anything for breakfast this morning it didn't seem very smart. It was somewhere around 6.30 in the evening when we decided to get up and have dinner together. I got up and started walking back to the school.
'Oh no you don't!' Éomer said, wrapping his arms around me from behind, then turning me around.
'Why not?' I asked.
'Because I'm telling you that you can't'
'You can't make me stay' I said laughing.
'Yes I can'
'No you can't' I said and I stuck out my tongue.
'You're going to pay for that' he said smiling.
'Oh really?' I said, and he kissed me.
'Told you so.' he said after the kiss.
'I give up, you win!' I said, and then we walked back to the school together, Éomer's arm around my waist. Suddenly I felt as if I wasn't in my body anymore, and I saw Éomer and myself walking down the lawn towards the school. I smiled and was back in my body again. I think my happy emotion triggered something, because one of my abilities just returned. I smiled again. Everything was just almost too good to be true. I laid my head on Éomer's shoulder as we continued walking. We stopped in front of the doors of the mess, and kissed again.
'Are we going to tell them?' Éomer asked. I kissed him again.
'Let's not make it too obvious, I'd like to see how long it takes for them to find out.' I answered. We kissed again and then we let go of eachother, walking into the mess. Endomiel was sitting with Vebor again, and Legolas was sitting with the guys. Éomer and I walked to the table of the guys and sat down. Legolas immediately stood up and sat down next to me on my other side.
'Hey guys' I said.
'Hey Elvea, Éomer' I heard coming from several places.
'So I heard you're going to help Legolas get Endomiel back?' Boromir asked me.
'I uhm. well, uhm.' I started, but I couldn't find the words. Legolas moved closer to me, putting his arm around my waist.
'She doesn't mind, right?' he asked me, and looked me straight in the eyes. Those eyes. so blue and big. a puppy was an amateur compared to him. man, he was making it almost impossible to say no to him.
'Why don't you let her answer yourself?' Éomer asked Legolas.
'Something wrong with those two "being together", Éomer?' Estel asked, and amused grin on his face. Éomer's face flushed, but he didn't speak.
'Well, are you going to help Legolas out or not?' Faramir asked.
'I. I can't. not in this way.' I whispered.
'What do you mean, you can't?' Boromir asked.
'Because she's with me.' Éomer suddenly said softly. The other guys stared at him, then at me and with open mouths. I nodded. They still didn't say a word.
'Finally! I was wondering how long it would take for you two to get together!' Estel said after a while.
'Congratulations man!' Faramir said. Legolas nodded that he agreed with Faramir. Boromir didn't say a word, he just stared at something in another universe.
'Hello! Middle-Earth to Boromir! Shouldn't you congratulate the couple?' Estel said.
'What? Oh right. congratulations.' Boromir whispered. He didn't look like he actually meant it. What's his problem?
'So uhm. I'd be glad to help Legolas, but I can't pretend to be his girlfriend. it's not fair to Éomer, so sorry.' I said.
'We'll think of something else then. it doesn't matter, you can't help it.' Legolas said.
'That's not how you reacted at lunch!' Éomer shouted.
'Éomer, calm down, he didn't know.' I said as I put my hand on his arm to prevent him from attacking Legolas.
'Oh right. sorry Legolas.' he said.
'Hey, don't sweat it. it's okay.' Legolas answered.
'So what do you think we should do?' Faramir asked me. There's something wrong with this picture. they all treated me as if I was the leader of the gang, as if they had known me for years. but they didn't know me that long. They simply needed someone to replace Endomiel. I don't mind being friends with them, but I don't want to be "just a substitute" or something like that. I guess the only way to solve this is by getting Legolas and Endomiel back together.
'I really don't know. maybe I should go now and think of something.' I said.
'Yeah, sure. we'll hear your master plan when it's done, right?' Faramir asked.
'Of course' I said and stood up. Éomer got up too.
'I'm uhm. going to help her think of something' he said. Boromir glared at him. What is wrong with the guy? Seriously.
'Yeah right. make sure you don't kiss her to death okay? We still need her help' Estel said grinning.
'Well, if you expect me to kiss her. no problem' Éomer responded and he kissed me. The guys whistled.
'Oh, do shut up!' I said smiling, and Éomer and I left the mess. We went back outside and walked into the forest until we had found an open spot. It had gone dark in the meantime, the stars lit up the night. I stood still to watch them. Like all other elves, I absolutely love the stars. Éomer wrapped his arms around me, and gently pulled my head down a little to face him.
'Oh, jealous are we?' I said teasingly.
'Very' he replied, and we kissed. One of his hands went up to touch my hair. Why does he keep doing that? I think he's obsessed with my hair. but it's mine. my own. my Preciousss... Okay, freaked myself out there.
I pulled my head back a little to breathe. His hand went down to my cheek and he carefully pulled my face back to his own. We kissed again. His hand slowly went down from my cheek to my neck, my shoulder, back to my neck. and it found my necklace. He stopped kissing me.
'What's this?' he asked.
'It's my necklace' I answered.
'It's a little heart.' he whispered. 'Who gave it to you?'
'Some guy.' I said.
'Do you love him?'
'No.'
'Then why are you wearing it?'
'Out of habit.'
'Dammit Elvy, you're making it pretty damn hard for me to believe you, do you know that? First that thing with Legolas, now this.' Éomer said to me, trying not to shout at me. And then Boromir says *I* have a hot temper.
'Éomer, listen.'
'No. You listen. I don't think we should be doing this. This is just too much in one day. Maybe we just shouldn't be together.'
'Don't say that.'
'I'm sorry Elvea.' he said and started walking away. I didn't go after him. His words were enough to tell me that this was it. He called me Elvea. Tears started running down my face. This wasn't fair! I started cursing in silence. I cursed whoever gave me the necklace, I cursed the school, I cursed Legolas. I even cursed Endomiel for dumping Legolas. I just hated everything right now. I wanted to curse Éomer too, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. I slowly walked back to the school. And then I saw Legolas, sitting on the lawn, his face buried in his hands. He was crying. Suddenly I understood how he felt. Like the world itself just ended. I sat down next to him, not saying a word. After a while he stopped crying and noticed me.
'Did you come up with something?' he asked with a shaking voice.
Something. no. I didn't. I didn't know what to do. All I could think of right now was Éomer and how much I wanted him back. I know, I'm a fool for denying at first and then messing things up, but blaming myself isn't going to help me.
'No' I said as tears filled my eyes.
'You don't have to cry, it's not that bad. you don't have to cry just because you haven't come up with something yet.'
'That's not why I'm crying.' I whispered.
'Then why are you crying?' Legolas asked.
'Because. I. Éomer. we.' I started, but the words wouldn't come out of my mouth. But they didn't have to. Legolas understood. He put his arm around my shoulder.
'Hey, don't worry. you two are going to be fine. I just know it. You two BELONG together. everything's going to be all right.' he said. I swallowed my tears. Maybe he was right. And then I remembered something.
'Legolas. I know you want my help. and. well, since Éomer and I. I would like to be your girlfriend, if you know what I mean.' I suddenly said. He looked me in the eyes.
'You would do that?' he asked.
'I haven't got a single reason to say no now.' I said. I thought of Éomer again. Tears started going down my face again.
'Thanks.' Legolas said as he wiped a tear from my face. He was so nice. just like Éomer. Éomer. My cheek tingled. Without thinking I leaned forward and we kissed, quite a while even. Suddenly I had the feeling someone was watching us. I turned my head, only to see someone run away. I turned my head back to Legolas. He looked pretty confused. So was I. I had absolutely no feelings in that way for him, and still. we had kissed. This is just not normal.
'I'm sorry' I started. 'I was just. just.'
'Practicing?' Legolas asked.
'Yeah. I guess so. I guess being your girl also includes this part.' I whispered, but I was lying. I wasn't practicing for the coming period, for a moment I had thought that I was with Éomer. I know, it was strange.
'I guess so.' Legolas whispered. I shivered. 'Are you cold?'
'No. it's just. it feels so strange. I mean.'
'I understand. I feel the same way.'
'Stop steeling my emotions!' I shouted frustrated, but it came out so funny that we both started laughing.
'Man Elvea, some temper you got there!'
'I do not have a hot temper!' I shouted, trying to hold back my anger.
'Sure you don't.'
'No I don't'
'Yeah right.'
'Oh shut up!'
'No.'
'I command you to do so.'
'And we're not even married yet!' Legolas joked. We started laughing again.
'You'd better get used to it. Now that I'm your girl things are going to be different for you.' I said, trying to keep a straight and serious face. I failed miserably and we started laughing again. We sat there until it was about 11.30 just joking like that, cheering eachother up. Then I decided I should go to bed, I was exhausted.
'Hey, I'll see you tomorrow.' I said as I stood up.
'Elvea?'
'Yes?'
'Thanks for cheering me up.'
'Yeah, you too. oh and Legolas.'
'Yes?'
'Whatever we do together, don't look at Endomiel to check if she is watching. It spoils the act.'
'I'll try, but.'
'Don't worry, I have my ways of checking for you.'
'Thanks.'
'Goodnight!'
'Night!'
I walked back to my own room. I felt a little better, but I still missed Éomer. Damn, only thinking of him makes my hart beat so much faster. But now it's not pleasant, it just hurts. I felt the tears coming up again, so I quickly entered my room. Everybody was asleep. Good. That's when I sat down on my bed and started writing this, and damn, I'm crying again. I think I'll just go to bed now.
Kisses, Elvea. Man that hurts!
E/N: *sob* He's gone. *sob* gone. *sob* this story is btw much better if you read Endomiel's POV too, it's on her account. 'nuf of the recommending story-stuff, *sob* he's gone. *sob* I lost him. gone. *starts crying like maniac*
Disclaimer: I hate disclaimers, they make me all sad. go read a previous one if you want one.
Summary: You want a summary? Tough luck! Just read the story!
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Day seven, the 13th of Halimath, 1384 (Shire Reckoning)
Valanya, the 34th of Yávie (Iavas), 2984 T.A. (Calendar of Imladris)
Dear diary,
The strangest thing happened today. And when I say strange, I mean strange. And I thought Éomer was the only one who could confuse me. Boy, could I have been more wrong! Elf-prince really managed to surprise me today, and that is just a vague description. I kind of surprised myself too. multiple times. ah what the heck, I'll just tell you all about it.
It all started yesterday after I had gone to bed. I won't tell all the details, but it comes to this: Endomiel and Legolas were kissing eachother, the door opened, they fell in, I saw them and they made me promise not to tell anyone, so I promised. This only confirms what I knew all along, but the strangest part was yet to come.
When I woke up this morning, my magical shield was tingling. Somebody had tried to use magic on me, twice even, somewhere around midnight and about an hour ago. It was probably mystery-figure again, trying to keep me away from camp. Well, it's not going to happen, no way! I am going there, whether (s)he likes it or not.
I got out of bed, took a long shower and washed my hair. After that I put on a forest green dress. It had a tight bodice and a long and wide skirt. It was cut low, but not extremely low, and the cut has a V-shape. Enough of the dress talk for now. I put on my ring and necklace and went to get some breakfast. I walked into the mess, and saw Anna sitting all by herself, so I sat down with her.
'Hey Anna! Where's Hally?' I asked.
'We had an argument. She ran off steaming mad.' Anna answered.
'Ouch. sorry to hear that.'
'It'll be okay. It always ends up fine. We're best friends.'
Somehow those words cut through my soul. Best friends. I missed mine. Tara, as I call her for short, was still in Aman. I had some friends here, but I didn't have a single close friend. I started poking my food. I wasn't really hungry.
'You know what, Anna, I'm not really hungry. I'm sorry, I don't feel to good.' I said.
'It's okay, you go and take a rest.' Anna answered.
I stood up and walked back to my room. I felt so incredibly sick. But it wasn't from a spell, my shield can't be broken by anyone except me, and I didn't take it away. Something was bothering me, in the back of my mind. But whatever was bugging me, I couldn't figure it out. I drank some water and started packing my bags for camp. Or actually just bag, I didn't need much. After that I lay down on my bed, I felt pretty tired. Maybe I should go see Rían. but not yet, I don't want to miss camp. After a while I stood up to get some more water.
Someone slammed the door open and ran in. I turned around and bumped into Endomiel. Her eyes were covered with tears and she ran into the bathroom, locking the door. I could hear her crying. I knocked on the door.
'Are you okay in there?' I asked, not really sure what to do.
'I'm okay, nothing really.' I heard her say with a shaking voice.
'No you're not, what happened?' I went on.
'Nothing! None of your business! Go away!' she yelled.
'You can tell me, nobody will know.'
'Nothing's wrong. Go away!' Endomiel shouted. I sat down against the door.
'I'll just sit here, if you want to talk.' I said, hoping she would respond. I heard her crying again. After a while the crying went less. I don't know how long I had sat there, but staying where I was seemed pretty useless, since she obviously wasn't going to open the door.
I quietly got up and left, hoping Endomiel wouldn't do anything stupid while I was away. As soon as I had closed the door behind me and turned around, I saw Éomer standing in front of me.
'I want to talk to you.' He said. I guess he was right. I shouldn't have run off like that yesterday, he had the right to know why I ran away.
'Sure. But not here.' I answered, and we left the building. We walked into the forest, and sat down against a tree.
'Sorry.' Éomer said.
'What do you mean?'
'I'm sorry if I upset you yesterday by trying to.' he started.
'It's okay. You shouldn't apologize. I'm the one that owes you an apology.' I said as I interrupted him.
'Why?'
'For running off without telling why.'
'It's okay. I understand. You just don't feel the same things I feel for you, I don't blame you for that. No hard feelings.'
'That's not why I ran away.'
'It's not? Then why did you run away?'
'Because I'm not sure what I feel. I'm just confused, I mean. I just arrived, I still have to get used to everything, and then there's these messed up feelings. I really didn't mean to hurt you, and I'm sorry if I did.' I said.
'And I never meant to confuse you, so I'm sorry too.' Éomer responded, looking me straight in the eyes. They were so honest, I just felt even more guilty. Deep down, I know what I feel for him, and I don't understand why I deny it.
'I guess we're both sorry.' I whispered.
'Yeah, I guess we are.' he whispered back.
Somehow I just stopped denying, forgetting everything else, and we kissed. Not long, but it was enough. He smiled at me, putting his arm around my waist, and we kissed again.
After that, we just sat there and talked about nothing in particular. I still was confused. Are we together now? Or was this just some strange impulse? I didn't know. Then I realized Endomiel was still in the bathroom, and explained to Éomer that I should really leave and check on her. He understood and I ran back to our room.
I walked into the room to check on Endomiel again. Suddenly, someone bumped into me, and before I knew what was going on I was being kissed by the person. Endomiel shouted something and left the room. Just then, the person let go of me. It was Legolas. Legolas? Something's definitely wrong with this picture...
'What the Mordor do you think you're doing?' I asked Legolas.
'What did it look like?' he asked in return. I sighed. Some people are just too weird.
'I know WHAT you did, but WHY did you do it?' I asked.
'Gee, I don't know, maybe because. I felt like doing so?' he answered. I sighed; this could take a while before I understand it all.
'You know what? Never mind. I'm leaving now, so bye!' I said as I left the room. Of all people it had to be Legolas that kissed me. And his timing couldn't have been worse. I had only just found out what I wanted and now he was messing up everything again. Yesterday we weren't even friends. yesterday he was still with Endomiel. I sat down on the lawn to think, but kept ending up with the same question: why did he do it?
After a couple of minutes I decided to get myself some lunch, I couldn't think of the answer anyway. I went over to the mess. Legolas was sitting with some of the guys, and Endomiel was sitting at another table, pretty close to Vebor. Vebor? Okay, now I don't understand a single bit of all this anymore. I took a tray and decided to sit down at an empty table, I didn't really feel like talking. Legolas stood up right away and sat down next to me.
'Hey Elvea.' He said.
'Are you going to tell me what's going on now?' I answered.
'Hmmm. let's see. I was with Endy, we broke up, I kissed you and now I'm with you?' he said.
'Woah, slow down! It takes two for that decision! You two broke up? Why?'
'I don't know, she said she wanted to.'
'I still don't see how I fit in.'
'She said I'd probably kiss the first girl I ran into and I kind of did that.'
'So basically you were just pissed and used me to make her jealous?' I asked.
'If you put it like that, yes.' Legolas answered. At least this explains a lot.
Endomiel suddenly got up, said something to Vebor, glared at us and left.
I sighed. 'Next time, please just tell her how you feel, will you?'
'I tried, she wouldn't listen.'
'Look Legolas, I don't want to be involved in all this, why don't you just solve your problems yourself?'
'I can't.' he said. Tough luck. I stood up to leave. I was absolutely not hungry anymore. 'Elvea, wait.' I sighed and sat down again.
'What?'
'I need your help.'
'Interesting. Give me one good reason why I should help you.'
'Oh man. that's not fair!'
'I think it's pretty fair. You used me and you have to make it up. The fact that you used me doesn't really work in your advantage, you know.'
'Listen, I'm sorry about that. I just want Endomiel back, that's all.'
'Still can't see a good reason here.'
'Okay, okay. but I don't really have a good reason except Endomiel.'
'Well then I won't help you.' I said, and I wanted to stand up but he grabbed my arm.
'Please just help me, because we're friends.'
'Oh really? I must have missed the part where we became friends.'
'Stop giving me a hard time! If you help me we'll be friends! Can't I just owe you until you need MY help?'
I sighed again. 'Fair enough. Do you have an idea?'
'Not really. I wanted to make her jealous, but.'
'She's doing the same thing.'
'Exactly!'
'Hmmm. well, I think we should inform the other guys, the more help, the better, and after that we should.' I started, but stopped because for some reason Legolas was staring at me. 'WHAT?!' I asked.
'We should make her even more jealous than she is doing to me with Vebor.' He said.
'And how are you planning to do that?' I asked.
'Like this' Legolas answered and he tried to kiss me. I moved a little bit away.
'No way. NO WAY! It's not gonna happen. I want to help you, but not like that, and certainly no kissing. I can't do that. It wouldn't be fair to-'
'Then I'll never get her jealous!'
'Then maybe you should find another girl to help you.'
'I don't think that would be convincing, especially not after I kissed you.'
'Forget it, it's not going to happen!' I said.
'Wanna bet?' Legolas responded and he kissed me. I tried to push him away, but as usual since I arrived, I was pretty tired and I couldn't find the strength. Just then, Éomer walked in. As soon as he saw us he turned incredibly pale. I immediately pushed Legolas away with newfound strength. 'Jerk!' I said. Éomer walked over to our table.
'Legolas, Elvy, what's going on?' he asked. He looked pretty hurt.
'Now look what you've done!' I said to Legolas and got up.
'Nothing's going on, I swear!' Legolas said to Éomer.
'Yeah right. I get it. You are upset because of Endomiel and to forget about her you just start something with the first girl you run into' Éomer shouted at him. The scary thing was that he was pretty damn right.
'Éomer, calm down' I said. He turned to me, tears in his eyes.
'I hate you Elvy! And you too Legolas! I HATE YOU!!!' Éomer shouted. Before either one of us had the chance to say something to Éomer he ran off.
'This is all your fault!' I shouted at Legolas. 'I don't care that you screwed up your life, but you should've left me out of it!' I turned away from Legolas and ran after Éomer. Man, this sucks. Luckily Éomer didn't run very far and he just sat down on the lawn. I sat down next to him.
'Go away!' he said.
'I'm not leaving until you listen to me.' I replied.
'Well then you can stay here for a long, long time!'
'I think you just got the wrong impression.'
'What, you're trying to tell me that you didn't kiss Legolas?'
'No, you saw what you saw, except that the kiss didn't mean anything.'
'Then why did you kiss him?'
'He kissed me, not the other way around. He wanted me to help him make Endomiel jealous and I agreed. But then he wanted me to kiss him, because it would work better, and I told him it wasn't going to happen. He kissed me anyway to prove that it WAS going to happen, and that's where you came in.' I explained.
'I hope you don't expect me to believe this, do you?' he whispered.
'It's the truth.'
'I really don't believe you.'
'Then what do I have to do to make you see that it is the truth?'
'I don't know.' he said, tears filling his eyes again. I put my arm around his shoulders. He turned his head to look at me. I wiped the tears away with my other hand. I didn't really know what to do either, so I just did what seemed best right now. As I wiped a tear from his cheek, his hand grabbed mine, and he pressed it against his chest. 'Do you feel it? My heart? It's beating for you. what about yours?' he whispered.
'It's not beating for you.' I started, and I saw how he got sad again, so I quickly continued. 'It's beating so damn fast that you can't call it beating anymore. That's what you do to me.' I added, it was the truth. Whenever he was around, my heart started beating way faster than usual. He smiled at me, and we kissed.
'I believe you.' Was the first thing he said when we stopped kissing.
'Already?' I said teasingly.
'Not really, try again, maybe you can convince me this time.' Éomer said grinning.
I smiled and we kissed again. 'Convinced?' I asked when we stopped kissing for the second time.
'Yeah, definitely. No wait! What's that? Is that a doubt in the back of my head?'
'I guess I'll just have to make it go away then.' I said, and once again we kissed.
After I had "convinced" Éomer for the third time, we lay back in the grass, my head resting on Éomer's chest, his right hand on my waist and the other hand going slowly through my hair. My head was tingling again, but I liked it. All my worries just seemed to have disappeared.
I felt like I could lay like that forever, in endless happiness, but of course I couldn't since there was something stupid called school, and of course dinner. Of course we could skip dinner, but since I had skipped dinner already yesterday and hardly ate anything for breakfast this morning it didn't seem very smart. It was somewhere around 6.30 in the evening when we decided to get up and have dinner together. I got up and started walking back to the school.
'Oh no you don't!' Éomer said, wrapping his arms around me from behind, then turning me around.
'Why not?' I asked.
'Because I'm telling you that you can't'
'You can't make me stay' I said laughing.
'Yes I can'
'No you can't' I said and I stuck out my tongue.
'You're going to pay for that' he said smiling.
'Oh really?' I said, and he kissed me.
'Told you so.' he said after the kiss.
'I give up, you win!' I said, and then we walked back to the school together, Éomer's arm around my waist. Suddenly I felt as if I wasn't in my body anymore, and I saw Éomer and myself walking down the lawn towards the school. I smiled and was back in my body again. I think my happy emotion triggered something, because one of my abilities just returned. I smiled again. Everything was just almost too good to be true. I laid my head on Éomer's shoulder as we continued walking. We stopped in front of the doors of the mess, and kissed again.
'Are we going to tell them?' Éomer asked. I kissed him again.
'Let's not make it too obvious, I'd like to see how long it takes for them to find out.' I answered. We kissed again and then we let go of eachother, walking into the mess. Endomiel was sitting with Vebor again, and Legolas was sitting with the guys. Éomer and I walked to the table of the guys and sat down. Legolas immediately stood up and sat down next to me on my other side.
'Hey guys' I said.
'Hey Elvea, Éomer' I heard coming from several places.
'So I heard you're going to help Legolas get Endomiel back?' Boromir asked me.
'I uhm. well, uhm.' I started, but I couldn't find the words. Legolas moved closer to me, putting his arm around my waist.
'She doesn't mind, right?' he asked me, and looked me straight in the eyes. Those eyes. so blue and big. a puppy was an amateur compared to him. man, he was making it almost impossible to say no to him.
'Why don't you let her answer yourself?' Éomer asked Legolas.
'Something wrong with those two "being together", Éomer?' Estel asked, and amused grin on his face. Éomer's face flushed, but he didn't speak.
'Well, are you going to help Legolas out or not?' Faramir asked.
'I. I can't. not in this way.' I whispered.
'What do you mean, you can't?' Boromir asked.
'Because she's with me.' Éomer suddenly said softly. The other guys stared at him, then at me and with open mouths. I nodded. They still didn't say a word.
'Finally! I was wondering how long it would take for you two to get together!' Estel said after a while.
'Congratulations man!' Faramir said. Legolas nodded that he agreed with Faramir. Boromir didn't say a word, he just stared at something in another universe.
'Hello! Middle-Earth to Boromir! Shouldn't you congratulate the couple?' Estel said.
'What? Oh right. congratulations.' Boromir whispered. He didn't look like he actually meant it. What's his problem?
'So uhm. I'd be glad to help Legolas, but I can't pretend to be his girlfriend. it's not fair to Éomer, so sorry.' I said.
'We'll think of something else then. it doesn't matter, you can't help it.' Legolas said.
'That's not how you reacted at lunch!' Éomer shouted.
'Éomer, calm down, he didn't know.' I said as I put my hand on his arm to prevent him from attacking Legolas.
'Oh right. sorry Legolas.' he said.
'Hey, don't sweat it. it's okay.' Legolas answered.
'So what do you think we should do?' Faramir asked me. There's something wrong with this picture. they all treated me as if I was the leader of the gang, as if they had known me for years. but they didn't know me that long. They simply needed someone to replace Endomiel. I don't mind being friends with them, but I don't want to be "just a substitute" or something like that. I guess the only way to solve this is by getting Legolas and Endomiel back together.
'I really don't know. maybe I should go now and think of something.' I said.
'Yeah, sure. we'll hear your master plan when it's done, right?' Faramir asked.
'Of course' I said and stood up. Éomer got up too.
'I'm uhm. going to help her think of something' he said. Boromir glared at him. What is wrong with the guy? Seriously.
'Yeah right. make sure you don't kiss her to death okay? We still need her help' Estel said grinning.
'Well, if you expect me to kiss her. no problem' Éomer responded and he kissed me. The guys whistled.
'Oh, do shut up!' I said smiling, and Éomer and I left the mess. We went back outside and walked into the forest until we had found an open spot. It had gone dark in the meantime, the stars lit up the night. I stood still to watch them. Like all other elves, I absolutely love the stars. Éomer wrapped his arms around me, and gently pulled my head down a little to face him.
'Oh, jealous are we?' I said teasingly.
'Very' he replied, and we kissed. One of his hands went up to touch my hair. Why does he keep doing that? I think he's obsessed with my hair. but it's mine. my own. my Preciousss... Okay, freaked myself out there.
I pulled my head back a little to breathe. His hand went down to my cheek and he carefully pulled my face back to his own. We kissed again. His hand slowly went down from my cheek to my neck, my shoulder, back to my neck. and it found my necklace. He stopped kissing me.
'What's this?' he asked.
'It's my necklace' I answered.
'It's a little heart.' he whispered. 'Who gave it to you?'
'Some guy.' I said.
'Do you love him?'
'No.'
'Then why are you wearing it?'
'Out of habit.'
'Dammit Elvy, you're making it pretty damn hard for me to believe you, do you know that? First that thing with Legolas, now this.' Éomer said to me, trying not to shout at me. And then Boromir says *I* have a hot temper.
'Éomer, listen.'
'No. You listen. I don't think we should be doing this. This is just too much in one day. Maybe we just shouldn't be together.'
'Don't say that.'
'I'm sorry Elvea.' he said and started walking away. I didn't go after him. His words were enough to tell me that this was it. He called me Elvea. Tears started running down my face. This wasn't fair! I started cursing in silence. I cursed whoever gave me the necklace, I cursed the school, I cursed Legolas. I even cursed Endomiel for dumping Legolas. I just hated everything right now. I wanted to curse Éomer too, but I couldn't. I just couldn't. I slowly walked back to the school. And then I saw Legolas, sitting on the lawn, his face buried in his hands. He was crying. Suddenly I understood how he felt. Like the world itself just ended. I sat down next to him, not saying a word. After a while he stopped crying and noticed me.
'Did you come up with something?' he asked with a shaking voice.
Something. no. I didn't. I didn't know what to do. All I could think of right now was Éomer and how much I wanted him back. I know, I'm a fool for denying at first and then messing things up, but blaming myself isn't going to help me.
'No' I said as tears filled my eyes.
'You don't have to cry, it's not that bad. you don't have to cry just because you haven't come up with something yet.'
'That's not why I'm crying.' I whispered.
'Then why are you crying?' Legolas asked.
'Because. I. Éomer. we.' I started, but the words wouldn't come out of my mouth. But they didn't have to. Legolas understood. He put his arm around my shoulder.
'Hey, don't worry. you two are going to be fine. I just know it. You two BELONG together. everything's going to be all right.' he said. I swallowed my tears. Maybe he was right. And then I remembered something.
'Legolas. I know you want my help. and. well, since Éomer and I. I would like to be your girlfriend, if you know what I mean.' I suddenly said. He looked me in the eyes.
'You would do that?' he asked.
'I haven't got a single reason to say no now.' I said. I thought of Éomer again. Tears started going down my face again.
'Thanks.' Legolas said as he wiped a tear from my face. He was so nice. just like Éomer. Éomer. My cheek tingled. Without thinking I leaned forward and we kissed, quite a while even. Suddenly I had the feeling someone was watching us. I turned my head, only to see someone run away. I turned my head back to Legolas. He looked pretty confused. So was I. I had absolutely no feelings in that way for him, and still. we had kissed. This is just not normal.
'I'm sorry' I started. 'I was just. just.'
'Practicing?' Legolas asked.
'Yeah. I guess so. I guess being your girl also includes this part.' I whispered, but I was lying. I wasn't practicing for the coming period, for a moment I had thought that I was with Éomer. I know, it was strange.
'I guess so.' Legolas whispered. I shivered. 'Are you cold?'
'No. it's just. it feels so strange. I mean.'
'I understand. I feel the same way.'
'Stop steeling my emotions!' I shouted frustrated, but it came out so funny that we both started laughing.
'Man Elvea, some temper you got there!'
'I do not have a hot temper!' I shouted, trying to hold back my anger.
'Sure you don't.'
'No I don't'
'Yeah right.'
'Oh shut up!'
'No.'
'I command you to do so.'
'And we're not even married yet!' Legolas joked. We started laughing again.
'You'd better get used to it. Now that I'm your girl things are going to be different for you.' I said, trying to keep a straight and serious face. I failed miserably and we started laughing again. We sat there until it was about 11.30 just joking like that, cheering eachother up. Then I decided I should go to bed, I was exhausted.
'Hey, I'll see you tomorrow.' I said as I stood up.
'Elvea?'
'Yes?'
'Thanks for cheering me up.'
'Yeah, you too. oh and Legolas.'
'Yes?'
'Whatever we do together, don't look at Endomiel to check if she is watching. It spoils the act.'
'I'll try, but.'
'Don't worry, I have my ways of checking for you.'
'Thanks.'
'Goodnight!'
'Night!'
I walked back to my own room. I felt a little better, but I still missed Éomer. Damn, only thinking of him makes my hart beat so much faster. But now it's not pleasant, it just hurts. I felt the tears coming up again, so I quickly entered my room. Everybody was asleep. Good. That's when I sat down on my bed and started writing this, and damn, I'm crying again. I think I'll just go to bed now.
Kisses, Elvea. Man that hurts!
E/N: *sob* He's gone. *sob* gone. *sob* this story is btw much better if you read Endomiel's POV too, it's on her account. 'nuf of the recommending story-stuff, *sob* he's gone. *sob* I lost him. gone. *starts crying like maniac*