Love Hurts
By:ChibiSana
Sana's Note: I'm wondering is you really liked my fic. I don't think it's very good!!
Anyway, this chapter is confusing cause of the poem, but I think it fits enough. It's also by Chris-kun!!! (What a great
writer!!) ^-^
REVIEW!!!!
Disclaimer: I don't own Kodocha or "Do You Love Me?"!!!!
Chapter description: Sana loves Hayama, but will he every realize his mistake?! Not at this rate he won't!!
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Chapter 2: "Do You Love Me?"
Sana ran as fast as she could home. She tried to will the tears away, but they ignored her order, and stramed down her cheek.
"Sana?" Rei called out from the kitchen. "What did Hayama want to talk to you about?"
"Nothing!" she said in the most cheerful voice she could stir up, though it didn't work, and her voice sounded alien to her.
"Sana?" Misako asked.
"Eh-? What's wrong?" Rei asked, as he walked torward her. (He can't see her yet!)
"NOTHING!" she sobbed, as she ran to her room.
She threw herself on her bed and sobbed her heart out. She saw images in her head.
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"If you need a shoulder to cry on...come to me..."
Hayama hugging her. "What do I do?" (When he thinks his dad might die!)
"Because I don't hate you."
Hayama sighed. "What a moron." (When Sana made her Hayama Shield!)
Hayama smiled for a second. (Field Trip!!)
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I thought you said...
"Our love was meant to be..."
Then why can't you...
Stay here with me..?
Is it something I said...or something I did...
Does love not also extend to forgiveness?
______________________________
Rei knocked on the door. "Sana! What's the matter?"
"Sana?? What happened??" Misako called out.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!! I'M FINE!!" Sana sobbed. "I'm just tired!"
"...Sana..." Rei muttered. He slowly turned and walked away. Misako sighed, and drove away.
'She needs time before she can say, I supose...' Misako thought.
"I'm sorry...Rei...Mama..." Sana muttered. She hugged her knees and sobbed harded. "Hayama...why...?"
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Hugging my knees on my bed...
I try to think of what I said...
And I try to imagine...you're right there holding me...
I'm so sorry, why can't you see?
That I still love you more than life and I would do just anything to prove...
...My love to you...
What it is I have to do 'cuz I'm just aching for your love...
And if you don't hurry up soon you might make a mistake that you'll regret forever...
like me...
______________________________
The words "I don't hate you" ran over and over in her head.
"What's wrong, Hayama...?" Sana cried to herself. "I love you..."
Two days later:
Sana stared at Hayama, who pretended not to notice anything. He had his eyes closed. She sighed.
"Have you heard?"
"What?"
"Hayama and Sana broke up!"
"REALLY?"
"Yeah!"
"I thought they really liked each other..."
"Well, I mean-"
Everyone was whispering/gossiping about it. Sana didn't really care, but it just added to the pain in her heart.
'Hayama...' Sana thought, placing her chin in her palm. 'What are you thinking?'
(Hayama!)
Hayama forced himself not to look at her. He already knew that she didn't sleep. It hurt him to know that he was the cause of
her pain. But he felt that he'd done the right thing...didn't he?
'I did,' Hayama stated in his mind. Yet, another part of him, the part that would never let Sana go said, 'You didn't! You
broke her heart! All because you thought SHE loved yo-'
Hayama mentally kicked the voice. "Hmph."
(Sana!)
Sana silently remembered all the things she'd said to Hayama. All those bad things...
'When is he ever going to talk to me?' she wondered.
______________________________
Simple words just lead to tears and
I can't believe the words I said to you...
It isn't right, it isn't fair when I love you so much and you don't even seem to care...
...seem to care...
Do I mean no more to you than an object you can talk and lie to...
Am I no more than just a name you, see pop up and say "hi" to then close me down...
Am I running for you for no reason, tell me now 'cuz I don't wanna be waitin'...forever....
Tell me now, and forever I'm yours or, lose me now and forever I'm gone no more waitin'....
...I'm tired of waiting...
______________________________
Later That Night:
"Hayama...do you really not love me anymore...?" Sana wrote in her diary. She shook her head. "Stop thinking about him!" Sana
cried, as tears started to form. "Stop thinking of him..."
She cuddled up and cried again. "Baka..."
______________________________
Together we can be...
Like two angels in the clouds...
Like two bears on a shelf...
...It doesn't matter....
'Cuz I can go home every day and know that you'll be there for me and I can tell you everything
And you'd just love me more and more....
______________________________
Sana fell asleep, blamed herself...again...
______________________________
So this is a test of fate, love and karma...
if we were really meant to be....
To show you how much I love you, what do I have to do...
To show you I care...SO much I do care...
And I love you....
But my heart is aching were you once were, and my heart; it cries out for you...
So I'll sit here on my bed...hugging my knees and ...DreaMin...of...You...
______________________________
Hayama stared out his window, as tears trickled one by one down his cheeks. "I'm sorry..." he whispered into the wind. He
bowed his head and sobbed into his arms on the window sill. "I always will...love you..."
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Sana's note: YAY! One more chapter done!!!
::sigh:: Sometimes I think I act to cheerful to write such sad things, but I do or am or...yeah!! ^-^
I'm wondering if you want this fic to be long of short...so...please tell me! And please tell me if you want a happy ending!
Or...well, you won't have one... ^^;;
By the way, this is based on the manga, not the anime!!! So don't expect them to be calling each other "Aa-chan", etc. !!
By:ChibiSana
Sana's Note: I'm wondering is you really liked my fic. I don't think it's very good!!
Anyway, this chapter is confusing cause of the poem, but I think it fits enough. It's also by Chris-kun!!! (What a great
writer!!) ^-^
REVIEW!!!!
Disclaimer: I don't own Kodocha or "Do You Love Me?"!!!!
Chapter description: Sana loves Hayama, but will he every realize his mistake?! Not at this rate he won't!!
____________________________________________________________
Chapter 2: "Do You Love Me?"
Sana ran as fast as she could home. She tried to will the tears away, but they ignored her order, and stramed down her cheek.
"Sana?" Rei called out from the kitchen. "What did Hayama want to talk to you about?"
"Nothing!" she said in the most cheerful voice she could stir up, though it didn't work, and her voice sounded alien to her.
"Sana?" Misako asked.
"Eh-? What's wrong?" Rei asked, as he walked torward her. (He can't see her yet!)
"NOTHING!" she sobbed, as she ran to her room.
She threw herself on her bed and sobbed her heart out. She saw images in her head.
**********
"If you need a shoulder to cry on...come to me..."
Hayama hugging her. "What do I do?" (When he thinks his dad might die!)
"Because I don't hate you."
Hayama sighed. "What a moron." (When Sana made her Hayama Shield!)
Hayama smiled for a second. (Field Trip!!)
**********
______________________________
I thought you said...
"Our love was meant to be..."
Then why can't you...
Stay here with me..?
Is it something I said...or something I did...
Does love not also extend to forgiveness?
______________________________
Rei knocked on the door. "Sana! What's the matter?"
"Sana?? What happened??" Misako called out.
"LEAVE ME ALONE!! I'M FINE!!" Sana sobbed. "I'm just tired!"
"...Sana..." Rei muttered. He slowly turned and walked away. Misako sighed, and drove away.
'She needs time before she can say, I supose...' Misako thought.
"I'm sorry...Rei...Mama..." Sana muttered. She hugged her knees and sobbed harded. "Hayama...why...?"
______________________________
Hugging my knees on my bed...
I try to think of what I said...
And I try to imagine...you're right there holding me...
I'm so sorry, why can't you see?
That I still love you more than life and I would do just anything to prove...
...My love to you...
What it is I have to do 'cuz I'm just aching for your love...
And if you don't hurry up soon you might make a mistake that you'll regret forever...
like me...
______________________________
The words "I don't hate you" ran over and over in her head.
"What's wrong, Hayama...?" Sana cried to herself. "I love you..."
Two days later:
Sana stared at Hayama, who pretended not to notice anything. He had his eyes closed. She sighed.
"Have you heard?"
"What?"
"Hayama and Sana broke up!"
"REALLY?"
"Yeah!"
"I thought they really liked each other..."
"Well, I mean-"
Everyone was whispering/gossiping about it. Sana didn't really care, but it just added to the pain in her heart.
'Hayama...' Sana thought, placing her chin in her palm. 'What are you thinking?'
(Hayama!)
Hayama forced himself not to look at her. He already knew that she didn't sleep. It hurt him to know that he was the cause of
her pain. But he felt that he'd done the right thing...didn't he?
'I did,' Hayama stated in his mind. Yet, another part of him, the part that would never let Sana go said, 'You didn't! You
broke her heart! All because you thought SHE loved yo-'
Hayama mentally kicked the voice. "Hmph."
(Sana!)
Sana silently remembered all the things she'd said to Hayama. All those bad things...
'When is he ever going to talk to me?' she wondered.
______________________________
Simple words just lead to tears and
I can't believe the words I said to you...
It isn't right, it isn't fair when I love you so much and you don't even seem to care...
...seem to care...
Do I mean no more to you than an object you can talk and lie to...
Am I no more than just a name you, see pop up and say "hi" to then close me down...
Am I running for you for no reason, tell me now 'cuz I don't wanna be waitin'...forever....
Tell me now, and forever I'm yours or, lose me now and forever I'm gone no more waitin'....
...I'm tired of waiting...
______________________________
Later That Night:
"Hayama...do you really not love me anymore...?" Sana wrote in her diary. She shook her head. "Stop thinking about him!" Sana
cried, as tears started to form. "Stop thinking of him..."
She cuddled up and cried again. "Baka..."
______________________________
Together we can be...
Like two angels in the clouds...
Like two bears on a shelf...
...It doesn't matter....
'Cuz I can go home every day and know that you'll be there for me and I can tell you everything
And you'd just love me more and more....
______________________________
Sana fell asleep, blamed herself...again...
______________________________
So this is a test of fate, love and karma...
if we were really meant to be....
To show you how much I love you, what do I have to do...
To show you I care...SO much I do care...
And I love you....
But my heart is aching were you once were, and my heart; it cries out for you...
So I'll sit here on my bed...hugging my knees and ...DreaMin...of...You...
______________________________
Hayama stared out his window, as tears trickled one by one down his cheeks. "I'm sorry..." he whispered into the wind. He
bowed his head and sobbed into his arms on the window sill. "I always will...love you..."
________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Sana's note: YAY! One more chapter done!!!
::sigh:: Sometimes I think I act to cheerful to write such sad things, but I do or am or...yeah!! ^-^
I'm wondering if you want this fic to be long of short...so...please tell me! And please tell me if you want a happy ending!
Or...well, you won't have one... ^^;;
By the way, this is based on the manga, not the anime!!! So don't expect them to be calling each other "Aa-chan", etc. !!