Disclaimer: I don't own Fushigi Yuugi or the Tenchi Muyo! song "Midsummer Night Eve". I do, however, own Ryuuen's (the character, not me) mental issues. (Ryuuen: I do NOT have mental issues!) Do too! Do too!
A/N: I'm sorry for the sap and angst of the last chapter, with any luck this chapter will be better. I know I got really involved with the story in the last chapter by introducing so MUCH there, but don't you think it's better that way? Well, there *will* be a plot to this, it's forming! F-O-R-M-I-N-G!! Meaning that you'll have to read more to get it!
NOTE: This will NOT be a Taka/Ryuuen pairing, in case you were wondering. I have other plans. Although it *is* an interesting avenue to pursue.. but Taka has Miaka. So no.
NOTE2: I know that it's a bit unrealistic for Genrou to hurt Ryuuen, but it's the story. Go with it. All will be explained soon.
Oh yeah! New character name=age=year in college thing!
Kaen= 21= third year
Chuin= 20= second year
Ayuru= 21= third year
Kotoku= 19= second year
Shunkaku= 19= second year
Koro= 21= third year
Junto= 22= fourth year
THE LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS II
FOREVERMORE
[The slope with sunflower on the sides
today, we are walking two opposite directions
I am sad about myself for blaming you
in the gap between the loud voices of children]
"RYUUEN!!" It was the next morning as I walked towards the school for my first class (a ten o' clock Dramatic Arts class, the earliest class I have), and I found myself being bowled over by a small hurricane named Miaka. "Taka told me about what happened!! I'm sooooo sooo sorry! I should've said something or something like that I'm SO sorry!! You must have been terrified!!"
Well, I was. But I couldn't tell *her* that. She'd just be all sympathetic and weird. I don't want that.
"Miaka.. I'm fine." I lied, rubbing my eyes, which were red from crying and had dark circles under them from little sleep (I looked like shit basically). "Besides.. I think he's angrier than I am. I hit him."
Her greenish eyes widened as she took in this new information.
"WOW. You *hit* Genrou?? Ryuuen, you're so brave!!" She cooed, and I rolled my eyes. She was sincere, but it got to the point where I sometimes wondered if she was really this ditzy or did she have an ulterior motive? Or she's an alien. Dun dun dun. Yeah, right. Dream on, Sci-Fi Network junkie.
"Miaka, I've got class. I'll see you later, okay?" I said.
"Come over after class, okay? I've got someone for you to mee~eet!" She said. I can't take much more of this "someone to meet" stuff. It's gonna kill me at an early age. "Okay?"
"Yeah, sure. I've gotta go, Miaka, see you."
"JAAAAAAAA!!!" She yelled after me as I ducked into the building (well not really *ducked* since at 5'5" I'm not exactly tall).
"Ryuuen, what's up? You look like you got hit by a truck." My friend Chuin greeted, smiling brightly at me in the way that way-too-much-of-a-morning-person people have a tendancy of doing. I felt kinda like smacking him, like I usually do when I haven't had caffeine yet and someone is overly cheerful.
"Thanks, Chuin. And you look lovely with your.. uh.. hat.." I said, motioning to the pillow that Kaen, another of the Dramatic Arts classmembers had somehow strapped to his head. He laughed.
"Yeah, I know, it's the new fashion statement for the school. Whaddaya think?"
"Chuin, I think you have too much time on your hands." I said, motioning to the half-filled five-subject notebook that he had gotten maybe two weeks ago (if that). "And we'd better get to class or Tensubari-sensei is going to have our heads."
"On a golden platter, even." He replied playfully, picking up the notebook and his bookbag and following me into the auditorium, which doubled as my drama classroom.
That is if Genrou doesn't get there first.
[Without hesitation, the love started
when the summer finishes
we are going to live seperately]
After class, I procrastinated as long as I could with my fellow drama-gurus (namely Chuin, Kaen, another girl named Junto and a guy named Kotoku) before finally going to Miaka's dorm room when they all left (Kotoku needed to study for a test next class, Junto blamed it on a class, Chuin had to catch his sleep before his two o' clock class, and Kaen needed some coffee.. I would've gone with her but I don't drink coffee). So I went.
Miaka's dorm room is surprisingly nice. Not neat (not at ALL neat), but nice. Well.. except for the stuffed animals everywhere, but there's Miaka for you.
"Miaka?" I called as I entered, smiling brightly. With any luck, this time it won't be a figure from any traumatic stage of my life. I have had a lot of traumatic stages in my life. Which leaves me thinking "why me" quite frequently. "Miaka, where are you?"
"I'm in here!" She called from the kitchen. Ah. Shoulda known.
But as I began to walk towards the kitchen, I nearly collided with someone that I hadn't noticed. I backed off instinctively and began to apologize, but stopped short when I saw who it was that I had almost collided with.
He was tall, with brown hair and amber eyes that smiled even when his expression remained neutral. He looked good. More than good. He was.. gorgeous. Godly. The kind of guy I have good dreams about.
StopstopstopstopSTOPIT!! You cannot fall for a guy, I told myself. Remember Genrou. Just remember Genrou and remove ALL temptation.
It's not worrrrking, the romantic, artsy (and insistant) side of my brain replied.
TRY HARDER, the logical side said.
I cannnn'ttt!! The artsy part yelled happily. He's too hottttttttt!!! I cannn'tttt!!
"Sorry," I said, blushing crimson. He smiled then. I almost fainted. I have *never* fainted, but right then I *felt* like I was going to faint. Is this what love at first sight is supposed to be like? "I didn't see you."
"It's quite alright." He replied in a nice, smooth voice. "You must be Ryuuen. I'm Saihitei."
Saihitei, Saihitei. Sai. Hi. Tay. I like that. I wonder if he'd let me call him Sai? Probably not. Oh well.
"Yeah." I said, smiling at him a little. "Nice to meet you."
And for the first time since I had broken up with Genrou, I meant it.
[There is no need for goodbye.
Because I cannot wait for the winter
let's have a Christmas for just two of us]
"Nice to meet you, too." He said. Then Miaka came in.
"Ryuu-chan!!" She yelled, hugging me. "I'm glad you two've met. Do you guys wanna watch a movie or just hang out or what?"
"Movie." We both said. I looked at Saihitei and he grinned. I shrugged uncomfortably.
"As long as it isn't 'Little Women'," I said with a little, nervous laugh. Miaka laughed. She knew why. Little Women is the *only* movie I have *ever* fallen asleep during.
"What about 'Model Behavior'?" Miaka suggested. I smiled.
"Yesyesyes!!" I said, grinning like an idiot and for once not really caring. "I love that movie!! Let's let's let's PLEASE?!"
I turned hopeful eyes on Saihitei, who nodded, grinning.
"Alright." He said. I like his voice. I jumped up and down a little, the contents of my twenty-ounce bottle of Pepsi shaking around in the bottle in my hand.
"Yes! I love that movie!" I repeated, going for the spontaneous and hugging Saihitei around the middle before I realized what I was doing, blushed, and retreated to the living room, mentally berating myself the entire time.
WHY did you act like such an IDIOT in front of him?? I asked myself. You are such a MORON! My God you SPAZ. He probably thinks you're insane.
I shrugged to myself and walked over to the small cabinet by the TV and started rummaging through various movies-not-in-cases in the attempt to find Model Behavior, smiling like a maniac the whole time. My Pepsi sat, forgotten for a moment, on the coffee table.
"I FOUND IT!!" I yelled for Miaka's benefit (she was still in the kitchen, whereas Saihitei had followed me into the living room), holding up a case with a long white strip on one end that read Model Behavior. "C'mon, Miaka! You don't need to eat during the movie!"
She finally arrived, bearing a huge bowl of popcorn.. which would probably turn up missing about twelve minutes into the movie, but oh well. I found myself a seat on the right end of the couch, and Saihitei sat right next to me. I pressed a button on the remote (which I held since I still remember the time Miaka thought the remote was a candy bar and ate it.. but that was a different TV) and the movie started rolling (some kind soul had rewound only to the beginning of the movie, so no one had to sit through the previews).
As the movie began, I wondered what the result of this growing group I was part of would be. We were friends, all of us (well most of us anyway), and we liked to do things together, normal friend stuff, but what was weird was that if *any* of us were asked who our best friends were, we would name off every single one of the others. We were that close.
Then again, I just worry too much about things that don't really matter.
[Hot sunlight is illumination
I don't mind it turning to a painful love. Hug me..
We were talking at the beach without having a sleep
then we laughed at each other's swollen eyes]
When the credits finally started rolling, I realized that I was pressed against something warm. I looked and found that I had (perhaps unconsciously) curled up next to Saihitei at some point during the movie, and that I was clutching his arm like I was trying not to drown. The other thing I realized was that he didn't seem to mind. In fact, he looked down at me.. and smiled.
No WAY, I thought. This is too *much*. No guy has *ever* been interested in you, you know that! Genrou doesn't count 'cuz *I* asked *him* out. But really! No. WAY. And why am I still holding on to him? You CANNOT like ANYONE! How many different ways can I say it? No. NononononoNO. Not after what Genrou did to you. Not after that. Never again.. never..
I finally pulled away, blushing. I felt strangely like crying. My own thoughts can sometimes do that to me. I stood up slowly. Miaka was getting the tape out of the VCR. I looked at my watch. One fifty-two in the afternoon.
"Oh SHOOT!" I yelled. "Miaka I've gotta go! I've got my English Literature class in eight minutes!"
"Oh, Ryuuen, I'm sorry!" She said, "I didn't mean to keep you so long! I forgot completely! I'll see you later though, right?"
Seven minutes.
"Yeah, but now I've gotta go. Seeyah, Miaka. It was nice meeting you, Saihitei!" I called as I ran out the door.
Six minutes.
I beat tracks to the campus in record time, managing to avoid crashing into other nearly-late students by sheer luck.
I made it to the class with not one minute to spare.
And, to me, it was absolutely worth it.
[Every time I wake up with you
I get scared of staying in my room on my own.
There is no need for goodbye
please make the promised Eve come true at here and now]
Later on, after the class, I wandered around town. I didn't have a specific place to be, and I certainly didn't expect to end up where I did.
I recognized the slightly run-down old building as I approached it, rust-red paint peeling off in places, and I instinctively glanced up to the third floor window. The light was on.
Oh gods oh GODS why did I come *here* of ALL places to go? I asked myself frantically. Why? I don't want to be here I don't need my memories.. I don't *want* my memories... So why did I come here??
I felt the tears on my face and collapsed next to the stairs that led up to the building, leaning against the red siding. I clasped my hands around my knees and leaned my head to lean against my knees, crying. I heard, distantly, the little whimpering half-words that formed as I tried to reassure myself, failing as I found that I couldn't even speak real words.
I hardly felt his prescence before me, until he put a hand on my shoulder.
"Ryuuen," He said, "what's wrong?"
He sounded genuinly upset by my crying. Genuinly concerned. But he was Genrou. I couldn't stay.
I jumped to my feet, tears still streaming down my face, and ran. I ran as fast as I could.
Away, away, away, my mind shouted, and I obeyed. I ran. I ran and ran and I didn't care where I went as long as it was away from him. He didn't try to stop me, nor did he follow.
I couldn't get rid of the feeling of his hand on my shoulder, a tingling sensation that made me as strangely happy as it did sad and angry. But I had to get AWAY. Just get AWAY, and I'd be fine.
I felt the collision when I met with something solid as I ran blindly. I felt a flash of blinding pain, it hurt so bad. I saw red, and then I saw Saihitei, running towards me.. that was him, wasn't it? It looks like him. And then.. and then...
And then all I saw was black.
[Kiss of sigh is celebration
hug the meaning of pain in my smile
I want to stay like this forever
hug the feeling that I cannot express, trying not to break it]
"Ryuuen?" A voice was calling me. I wanted to respond but I couldn't. It was all so dark. "Ryuuen, please wake up. Please."
Is that Miaka? It sounds like Miaka. Why is she crying?
"Come on, Ryuuen, you can't.. can't.." Taka is crying too? No, no way. They can't be crying for *me*, could they?
I'm.. dying, aren't I? Like in that song, "coulda been a movie star, never got a chance to go that far".. the song, I think.. "Stolen", by Destiny's Child. I like that song. And now I can't think straight. I can't hear them anymore. Why not?
Why is this happening to me?? I don't want to die! I take back my wishes on stars! I don't want to die! No matter what I used to say, no matter how much I used to think it, I do not want to go! I have friends now, people who care about me, and I don't want to die!
"Ryuuen?" I heard an uncertain voice ask. I could hear them again! I would have smiled if I could have. "Ryuuen? Can you hear me?"
It was Saihitei. It had been Saihitei who had come running. I knew it.
"Ryuuen, you got hit. You got hit by a car, Ryuuen." Saihitei was telling me. "You're hurt pretty bad. We're in the hospital. You have to wake up now, okay?"
His voice was so soothing. I love his voice. And I knew that I had to get up. I know, I know, I know! Everyone was there, weren't they? Maybe Genrou was even there.
Finally, I was able to open my eyes, looked down at myself without moving my head (somehow).
I nearly passed out again.
[Manatsu no eve (midsummer's eve), I won't forget about it
about you, I won't forget about it
our Eve, I won't forget about it
about you, I won't forget about it]
A/N: I'm sorry for the sap and angst of the last chapter, with any luck this chapter will be better. I know I got really involved with the story in the last chapter by introducing so MUCH there, but don't you think it's better that way? Well, there *will* be a plot to this, it's forming! F-O-R-M-I-N-G!! Meaning that you'll have to read more to get it!
NOTE: This will NOT be a Taka/Ryuuen pairing, in case you were wondering. I have other plans. Although it *is* an interesting avenue to pursue.. but Taka has Miaka. So no.
NOTE2: I know that it's a bit unrealistic for Genrou to hurt Ryuuen, but it's the story. Go with it. All will be explained soon.
Oh yeah! New character name=age=year in college thing!
Kaen= 21= third year
Chuin= 20= second year
Ayuru= 21= third year
Kotoku= 19= second year
Shunkaku= 19= second year
Koro= 21= third year
Junto= 22= fourth year
THE LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS II
FOREVERMORE
[The slope with sunflower on the sides
today, we are walking two opposite directions
I am sad about myself for blaming you
in the gap between the loud voices of children]
"RYUUEN!!" It was the next morning as I walked towards the school for my first class (a ten o' clock Dramatic Arts class, the earliest class I have), and I found myself being bowled over by a small hurricane named Miaka. "Taka told me about what happened!! I'm sooooo sooo sorry! I should've said something or something like that I'm SO sorry!! You must have been terrified!!"
Well, I was. But I couldn't tell *her* that. She'd just be all sympathetic and weird. I don't want that.
"Miaka.. I'm fine." I lied, rubbing my eyes, which were red from crying and had dark circles under them from little sleep (I looked like shit basically). "Besides.. I think he's angrier than I am. I hit him."
Her greenish eyes widened as she took in this new information.
"WOW. You *hit* Genrou?? Ryuuen, you're so brave!!" She cooed, and I rolled my eyes. She was sincere, but it got to the point where I sometimes wondered if she was really this ditzy or did she have an ulterior motive? Or she's an alien. Dun dun dun. Yeah, right. Dream on, Sci-Fi Network junkie.
"Miaka, I've got class. I'll see you later, okay?" I said.
"Come over after class, okay? I've got someone for you to mee~eet!" She said. I can't take much more of this "someone to meet" stuff. It's gonna kill me at an early age. "Okay?"
"Yeah, sure. I've gotta go, Miaka, see you."
"JAAAAAAAA!!!" She yelled after me as I ducked into the building (well not really *ducked* since at 5'5" I'm not exactly tall).
"Ryuuen, what's up? You look like you got hit by a truck." My friend Chuin greeted, smiling brightly at me in the way that way-too-much-of-a-morning-person people have a tendancy of doing. I felt kinda like smacking him, like I usually do when I haven't had caffeine yet and someone is overly cheerful.
"Thanks, Chuin. And you look lovely with your.. uh.. hat.." I said, motioning to the pillow that Kaen, another of the Dramatic Arts classmembers had somehow strapped to his head. He laughed.
"Yeah, I know, it's the new fashion statement for the school. Whaddaya think?"
"Chuin, I think you have too much time on your hands." I said, motioning to the half-filled five-subject notebook that he had gotten maybe two weeks ago (if that). "And we'd better get to class or Tensubari-sensei is going to have our heads."
"On a golden platter, even." He replied playfully, picking up the notebook and his bookbag and following me into the auditorium, which doubled as my drama classroom.
That is if Genrou doesn't get there first.
[Without hesitation, the love started
when the summer finishes
we are going to live seperately]
After class, I procrastinated as long as I could with my fellow drama-gurus (namely Chuin, Kaen, another girl named Junto and a guy named Kotoku) before finally going to Miaka's dorm room when they all left (Kotoku needed to study for a test next class, Junto blamed it on a class, Chuin had to catch his sleep before his two o' clock class, and Kaen needed some coffee.. I would've gone with her but I don't drink coffee). So I went.
Miaka's dorm room is surprisingly nice. Not neat (not at ALL neat), but nice. Well.. except for the stuffed animals everywhere, but there's Miaka for you.
"Miaka?" I called as I entered, smiling brightly. With any luck, this time it won't be a figure from any traumatic stage of my life. I have had a lot of traumatic stages in my life. Which leaves me thinking "why me" quite frequently. "Miaka, where are you?"
"I'm in here!" She called from the kitchen. Ah. Shoulda known.
But as I began to walk towards the kitchen, I nearly collided with someone that I hadn't noticed. I backed off instinctively and began to apologize, but stopped short when I saw who it was that I had almost collided with.
He was tall, with brown hair and amber eyes that smiled even when his expression remained neutral. He looked good. More than good. He was.. gorgeous. Godly. The kind of guy I have good dreams about.
StopstopstopstopSTOPIT!! You cannot fall for a guy, I told myself. Remember Genrou. Just remember Genrou and remove ALL temptation.
It's not worrrrking, the romantic, artsy (and insistant) side of my brain replied.
TRY HARDER, the logical side said.
I cannnn'ttt!! The artsy part yelled happily. He's too hottttttttt!!! I cannn'tttt!!
"Sorry," I said, blushing crimson. He smiled then. I almost fainted. I have *never* fainted, but right then I *felt* like I was going to faint. Is this what love at first sight is supposed to be like? "I didn't see you."
"It's quite alright." He replied in a nice, smooth voice. "You must be Ryuuen. I'm Saihitei."
Saihitei, Saihitei. Sai. Hi. Tay. I like that. I wonder if he'd let me call him Sai? Probably not. Oh well.
"Yeah." I said, smiling at him a little. "Nice to meet you."
And for the first time since I had broken up with Genrou, I meant it.
[There is no need for goodbye.
Because I cannot wait for the winter
let's have a Christmas for just two of us]
"Nice to meet you, too." He said. Then Miaka came in.
"Ryuu-chan!!" She yelled, hugging me. "I'm glad you two've met. Do you guys wanna watch a movie or just hang out or what?"
"Movie." We both said. I looked at Saihitei and he grinned. I shrugged uncomfortably.
"As long as it isn't 'Little Women'," I said with a little, nervous laugh. Miaka laughed. She knew why. Little Women is the *only* movie I have *ever* fallen asleep during.
"What about 'Model Behavior'?" Miaka suggested. I smiled.
"Yesyesyes!!" I said, grinning like an idiot and for once not really caring. "I love that movie!! Let's let's let's PLEASE?!"
I turned hopeful eyes on Saihitei, who nodded, grinning.
"Alright." He said. I like his voice. I jumped up and down a little, the contents of my twenty-ounce bottle of Pepsi shaking around in the bottle in my hand.
"Yes! I love that movie!" I repeated, going for the spontaneous and hugging Saihitei around the middle before I realized what I was doing, blushed, and retreated to the living room, mentally berating myself the entire time.
WHY did you act like such an IDIOT in front of him?? I asked myself. You are such a MORON! My God you SPAZ. He probably thinks you're insane.
I shrugged to myself and walked over to the small cabinet by the TV and started rummaging through various movies-not-in-cases in the attempt to find Model Behavior, smiling like a maniac the whole time. My Pepsi sat, forgotten for a moment, on the coffee table.
"I FOUND IT!!" I yelled for Miaka's benefit (she was still in the kitchen, whereas Saihitei had followed me into the living room), holding up a case with a long white strip on one end that read Model Behavior. "C'mon, Miaka! You don't need to eat during the movie!"
She finally arrived, bearing a huge bowl of popcorn.. which would probably turn up missing about twelve minutes into the movie, but oh well. I found myself a seat on the right end of the couch, and Saihitei sat right next to me. I pressed a button on the remote (which I held since I still remember the time Miaka thought the remote was a candy bar and ate it.. but that was a different TV) and the movie started rolling (some kind soul had rewound only to the beginning of the movie, so no one had to sit through the previews).
As the movie began, I wondered what the result of this growing group I was part of would be. We were friends, all of us (well most of us anyway), and we liked to do things together, normal friend stuff, but what was weird was that if *any* of us were asked who our best friends were, we would name off every single one of the others. We were that close.
Then again, I just worry too much about things that don't really matter.
[Hot sunlight is illumination
I don't mind it turning to a painful love. Hug me..
We were talking at the beach without having a sleep
then we laughed at each other's swollen eyes]
When the credits finally started rolling, I realized that I was pressed against something warm. I looked and found that I had (perhaps unconsciously) curled up next to Saihitei at some point during the movie, and that I was clutching his arm like I was trying not to drown. The other thing I realized was that he didn't seem to mind. In fact, he looked down at me.. and smiled.
No WAY, I thought. This is too *much*. No guy has *ever* been interested in you, you know that! Genrou doesn't count 'cuz *I* asked *him* out. But really! No. WAY. And why am I still holding on to him? You CANNOT like ANYONE! How many different ways can I say it? No. NononononoNO. Not after what Genrou did to you. Not after that. Never again.. never..
I finally pulled away, blushing. I felt strangely like crying. My own thoughts can sometimes do that to me. I stood up slowly. Miaka was getting the tape out of the VCR. I looked at my watch. One fifty-two in the afternoon.
"Oh SHOOT!" I yelled. "Miaka I've gotta go! I've got my English Literature class in eight minutes!"
"Oh, Ryuuen, I'm sorry!" She said, "I didn't mean to keep you so long! I forgot completely! I'll see you later though, right?"
Seven minutes.
"Yeah, but now I've gotta go. Seeyah, Miaka. It was nice meeting you, Saihitei!" I called as I ran out the door.
Six minutes.
I beat tracks to the campus in record time, managing to avoid crashing into other nearly-late students by sheer luck.
I made it to the class with not one minute to spare.
And, to me, it was absolutely worth it.
[Every time I wake up with you
I get scared of staying in my room on my own.
There is no need for goodbye
please make the promised Eve come true at here and now]
Later on, after the class, I wandered around town. I didn't have a specific place to be, and I certainly didn't expect to end up where I did.
I recognized the slightly run-down old building as I approached it, rust-red paint peeling off in places, and I instinctively glanced up to the third floor window. The light was on.
Oh gods oh GODS why did I come *here* of ALL places to go? I asked myself frantically. Why? I don't want to be here I don't need my memories.. I don't *want* my memories... So why did I come here??
I felt the tears on my face and collapsed next to the stairs that led up to the building, leaning against the red siding. I clasped my hands around my knees and leaned my head to lean against my knees, crying. I heard, distantly, the little whimpering half-words that formed as I tried to reassure myself, failing as I found that I couldn't even speak real words.
I hardly felt his prescence before me, until he put a hand on my shoulder.
"Ryuuen," He said, "what's wrong?"
He sounded genuinly upset by my crying. Genuinly concerned. But he was Genrou. I couldn't stay.
I jumped to my feet, tears still streaming down my face, and ran. I ran as fast as I could.
Away, away, away, my mind shouted, and I obeyed. I ran. I ran and ran and I didn't care where I went as long as it was away from him. He didn't try to stop me, nor did he follow.
I couldn't get rid of the feeling of his hand on my shoulder, a tingling sensation that made me as strangely happy as it did sad and angry. But I had to get AWAY. Just get AWAY, and I'd be fine.
I felt the collision when I met with something solid as I ran blindly. I felt a flash of blinding pain, it hurt so bad. I saw red, and then I saw Saihitei, running towards me.. that was him, wasn't it? It looks like him. And then.. and then...
And then all I saw was black.
[Kiss of sigh is celebration
hug the meaning of pain in my smile
I want to stay like this forever
hug the feeling that I cannot express, trying not to break it]
"Ryuuen?" A voice was calling me. I wanted to respond but I couldn't. It was all so dark. "Ryuuen, please wake up. Please."
Is that Miaka? It sounds like Miaka. Why is she crying?
"Come on, Ryuuen, you can't.. can't.." Taka is crying too? No, no way. They can't be crying for *me*, could they?
I'm.. dying, aren't I? Like in that song, "coulda been a movie star, never got a chance to go that far".. the song, I think.. "Stolen", by Destiny's Child. I like that song. And now I can't think straight. I can't hear them anymore. Why not?
Why is this happening to me?? I don't want to die! I take back my wishes on stars! I don't want to die! No matter what I used to say, no matter how much I used to think it, I do not want to go! I have friends now, people who care about me, and I don't want to die!
"Ryuuen?" I heard an uncertain voice ask. I could hear them again! I would have smiled if I could have. "Ryuuen? Can you hear me?"
It was Saihitei. It had been Saihitei who had come running. I knew it.
"Ryuuen, you got hit. You got hit by a car, Ryuuen." Saihitei was telling me. "You're hurt pretty bad. We're in the hospital. You have to wake up now, okay?"
His voice was so soothing. I love his voice. And I knew that I had to get up. I know, I know, I know! Everyone was there, weren't they? Maybe Genrou was even there.
Finally, I was able to open my eyes, looked down at myself without moving my head (somehow).
I nearly passed out again.
[Manatsu no eve (midsummer's eve), I won't forget about it
about you, I won't forget about it
our Eve, I won't forget about it
about you, I won't forget about it]