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I Seek For My Star
Chapter Three: Raining
3rd CCS fic by Fizzalicious Cherri
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Under the tears of the sky
We meet
We share
Our dearest thoughts
Even if it is without words
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I feel awfully cold and weary, the rain is pounding against the glass window, and my mood isn't lifting. Rain has never been my favorite type of weather, it just makes me sad and slightly bored.
Today I have classes on the history of my kingdom and one of our neighbouring kingdoms. History is so boring! Why must I learn about the past when we're living in the present? I don't see the point of it, except you just gain some interesting facts that we onced used sticks to eat our food or something like that. It really is just a waste of time is it not?
Tomoyo and Eriol had wanted to go to the market today but I guess it is rather hard to go on such a rainy day. It would be awfully muddy and I like staying indoors during days like these.
I feel like venturing the halls right now, and that is what I'll do right now.
I saw him once again, and I find it funny how I always seem to be able to bump into him. This time I think I can see a bit of warmth in his icy entire!
As I had written before, I went for a walk inside the hallways of the palace when I looked out of the grand window in the main hallway and saw Li Syaoran with a sword slicing through the pelting rain. I guess I forgot that it was raining at once, and ran out to hide behind a pillar to watch him train.
His wet hair was matted to his forehead and one would assume he was sweating but since his whole body was soaked through from the rain, I couldn't really tell. From the silence of only the rain and my breath, I could hear his soft pants of breath as he back flipped and landed closer to the pillar I hid behind.
That was when the silence of training was broken from his voice.
"I see that this time you are eavesdropping on me."
I felt my cheeks turn red as I stepped out from behind the pillar with questioning eyes. "How did you know?"
"I see your reflection from the window behind you," He stated simply as I felt embarrassed at my own stupidity.
Yet he didn't seem as mad and cold as our last encounter in the gardens. He actually seemed quite amused. Was that a glimmer of laughter in his eyes? I am not sure, but still, his coldness did not waver.
"Why are you training in the rain and not indoors?" I decided to break the weird tension.
Syaoran placed his sword back in its sheath on his back, yet he didn't move from his spot. "I like training outdoors."
"You might catch a cold," I reminded.
"I won't," He said confidently.
That was when he sneezed and I couldn't help but let my giggles overtake me. He growled at me and turned his eyes away from me to the cold stone ground.
I walked closer to him and took the cloak from my back and made a motion of giving it to him when he shook his head. "A girl like you would need it more than I. And what are you doing out here? You will catch a cold too." He shot back.
"I won't," I said with the same confidence as him.
He smirked.
I guess I was surprised, though my face did not show it. He actually smirked! His facial expression changed from his usual flat emotionless face...to a smirk! I do say a smile would fit him best, though I've never seen him smile.
"Why are you always spying on me?" He questioned with a tone of annoyance now.
I blinked. What did he mean by always?
"I know that you were hiding behind bushes that time I was leaning against the oak tree," He looked at me sternly. "Do you have a problem?"
"...No..." I uttered as I blushed. So he had seen me! How embarrassing!
He walked by me towards the door that led back into the palace. "Then you have a strong curiousity over my actions?"
"...No..." I didn't know how to explain, because I didn't know why either. "Well, you spied on me once too!" I shot back.
"That was because of the music...it was just a familiar tune," He mumbled. "And to think I do not even know your name, and I see you everywhere. Why are you even in the palace? By your way of dress, you aren't a servant for sure." He commented with a monotone voice.
I joined him near the door that led back inside. "Do you wish to know my name then?" I said with a teasing voice.
He raised an eyebrow and shrugged, "No." And then quickly walked off.
I had the strangest desire to tell him my name, so he could remember that I excisted. But I guess I was a bit shy...and I retired back into my chambers again.
That conversation must have been the longest I have ever had with him! And it was rather...thrilling? I am strange! I think there is something wrong with me.
I have just come back from visiting Tomoyo-chan in her chambers and now I am even more utterly confused. She had giggled so many times in our conversation that I got rather confused and annoyed.
"Tomoyo-chan, do you remember the knight that was present on my sixteenth birthday?" I had asked while sitting on the foot of her bed.
She was brushing out her fine long dark hair when she turned to me and smiled, "There were many knights there, Sakura-chan."
"I mean...Li Syaoran," I uttered and I guess something must have shown on my face because Tomoyo placed her brush down and giggled.
"Oh! Wasn't he a knight of honour?" Tomoyo plopped herself next to me with a mischevious glimmer in her amethyest eyes.
I nodded simply and scratched my head. "Ano...I always bump into him around the palace..."
"Kawaii Sakura-chan!! It's fate!" Tomoyo went all starry eyed and I couldn't help but sweatdrop.
"Iie Tomoyo-chan!! It's not what you think...it's just that...he's such a queer person!!"
Tomoyo went into another giggling fit, "Oh ho ho ho ho!! I think my little Sakura-chan is interested in something!"
"Hoe?" I blinked, but Tomoyo didn't answer me but continued to giggle. "Anyways..." I continued. "He's so cold and never really tries to make conversation, and today we were out in the rain. That must have been the longest conversation I had with him, even if it only lasted for about five minutes!"
Tomoyo smiled brightly at me, the sparkle in her eyes growing. "Sakura-chan!!!!!" She squealed.
I shrunk back in embarrassment at her sudden shriek. "Nani??!" I thought she had just remembered something urgent.
"You're in love!!!!" She cried as she jumped off from her bed and spun around in a full circle, her violet dress blowing around her as she clasped her delicate hands together. "Kirei!! On your sweet sixteenth birthday, you met your first love!! Kawaii!!"
I blushed deeply as I pulled my knees up to my chin while hugging them on the soft bed. "Iie (no) Tomoyo-chan!! I'm not in love...that's just silly!!"
Tomoyo just placed a hand on the side of her face thoughtfully. I think she was thinking of something, but I couldn't really read her expression.
"Demo...he's a knight Sakura-chan," Tomoyo said worridly now. Her tone of excitement dropped.
"...So?" I blinked.
"That means you two cannot marry!!"
I sweatdropped, "I'm not in love Tomoyo-chan!! How can I be in love after two actual encounters and two glimpses of a person! It makes no sense!"
"It's love at first sight Sakura-chan!" Tomoyo insisted.
"Tomoyo! Stop joking about!" I knew I was bright red by now and I didn't know why!
"If you weren't, why are you so interested in him?" She gave me an amused look.
I was silent as I stared wistfully at the ceiling. "...I don't know..."
Tomoyo giggled once again as she smiled brightly. "You'll see someday Sakura-chan." She smiled at me as if she knew something more than I about myself!
I left after a few minutes and now I'm here in a confused state.
In love?
Me?
With Li Syaoran?
Ridiculous!!
A few days have gone by, and I have not again encountered the mysterious Li Syaoran. Strangely...I feel rather disappointed! I wonder why I feel this way...I'm so confused that I feel silly!
Father has been getting more restless by the day about his unmarried daugther. Which means me. I wish he would understand that I wish not to marry so...suddenly! I do hope he would understand and give me more time to find someone that I can truly fall in love with...like Tomoyo's engagement! She is truly in love with Eriol...and I wish to have a marriage like her!
Why isn't father stressing out about Touya? He is unmarried although so many girls are wanting to catch his eyes! I guess it is because I am a girl...but that is so unfair! But I do understand that father is just wanting someone to take care of me when he gets old...oh how I wish I can presuade him that I can be like Touya! I can take care of myself too...
Now that I think about it...is there a difference between falling in love and crushing on someone? I think there is a difference! Love is such an enchanting emotion! I wonder if it is actually as magical as it seems in stories! But I guess I cannot base my opinion on love just by books! One must actually feel the emotion to truly understand it...oh my, I feel so silly writing all this! And having a crush...I have had that feeling....towards my onii-chan's best friend Yukito-san. But I finally got over it after many...childish years...yet now I feel as silly as back then!
Ehehehehehehe....I feel awfully warm now even though it is still raining and the air from the outdoors is blowing in from my slightly open window.
Hoe...my thoughts are wandering and have once again landed on Syaoran. Oh my...I can't get his sorrowful and cold eyes out of mind! I really wonder what brings him so much sorrow...
Oh!! Maybe it's because he's in love with a fair maiden back from his own kingdom! And since he had to come to my kingdom to serve as a knight...he had to leave her! Oh my, that must have been a heart wrenching moment!
...Gosh...what am I saying?! I am going crazy!! That's exactly what's happening to me!!
AN: Silly Sakura-chan ^^;;