Author's Notes- I'm devestated! I started this chap before, and my STUPID
computer DELETED it! Urgh! Well, anyways, I'm retyping it (obviously), all
for you guys. All right now, big group *AW*. Or not. Anyways, this is the
second chapter of "Hurt Her to Save Her". Oooo. Now, I know you all want
James NOT to listen to his uncle, so you'll have to read and find out.
Hurt Her to Save Her
Chapter 2
I walked into the kitchen on Thursday morning, depressed and biting my lip. Abby, who was sitting on the kitchen counter drinking tea, looked up. "So, what did he say?" she asked. "Sirius told me that James isn't up yet," I answered, biting my lip hard, "The funeral must have been awful for him." "Why? It was a really beautiful funeral," Abby said. I turned and glared at her, then told her, "No offense, but when your parents die, it's awful no matter what." Abby shrugged, and took a sip of her tea. "When's your sister coming?" I asked. Abby shrugged and said, "Mum said noon, but since Mum is never on time I dunno." I sat down at the table, and drummed my fingers on the table. "Stop it, allready!" Abby cried after a few minutes of my drumming, "Just go over there. You do it ALL the time." Before I could answer there was a huge BANG from the living room. Abby and I jumped up and ran into the living room. Standing beside our fireplace, covered in soot, was Abby's little sister, Janie. "Hi, Abby, Lily," she said, "I think you need to clean your living room." "JANIE!" Abby cried, "YOU RUINED OUR LIVING ROOM!"
"Big deal," Janie replied, drew her wand, and opened her mouth to utter a spell. "Oh, no you don't," Abby said, and snatched her sister's wand. "Hey! That's MY wand, give it BACK!" Janie yelled, "Give it BACK!" "Not a chance, you'll get it back when you leave," Abby told her, and put the wand in her pocket. Janie crossed her arms. "Look at you? Do you have ANY common sense? You can't go around MUGGLE London dressed like that!" Abby yelled. "Why not?" Janie asked. "Do you want those reasons listed in alphabetical order?" Abby answered, glaring at her sister. "Janie, I have to agree with your sister, you can't wear that while you're here. You can wear it once you leave," I told her. Janie was wearing bright magenta robes with a matching witch hat. "Fine, I'll change, but I didn't bring anything else to wear," Janie said. Abby rolled her eyes and turned to me. "Lils, can Janie use some of your clothes. Your better with muggle clothing than I am," Abby said. "Sure. I'll help you pick something out for her to wear," I agreed. "Come on, shrimp," Abby said. "Don't call me that!" Janie yelled. "Fine, come on, Janie," Abby repeated. We all went out to the stairs, when the phone started ringing. "I'll be right up," I called, and ran to the phone. I picked it up and said, "Hello?" "Lily? It's James," said the voice on the other end. "James? I called earlier, did Sirius tell you?" I asked. "Er. yeah. Listen, I was wondering if you. um. would like to go to lunch with me today?" James asked, uneasily. "Sure. When?" "Now?" James suggested. "Great. Where should we go?" I asked, smiling to myself. "How about that little resturant by the park, you know the one?" James suggested. "Perfect. I'll be right there," I agreed, "Bye. I love you." But the line was allready dead. I hung the phone up, smiling, and went upstairs. Abby and Janie were in my room, trying to find something for Janie to wear. "Who was it?" Abby asked, not even looking up. "It was James. He wants to meet me for lunch. I'll be back in about an hour, 'kay?" I asked. "Sure. Have fun," Abby answered. I ran downstairs, grabbing my purse and hurrying out the door. When I got to the resturant I found that James was allready there, waiting on a table by the patio. He was nervous, I could tell. Whenever he's nervous, he'll run his hands through his hair every second. Perhaps that's why his hair is so messy. "James!" I called. He turned and spotted me. I smiled, waved, and ran over. I slid in the seat opposite of him, and sat there for a moment. "James, I was worried about you. I called and Sirius said you were sleeping. Did he tell you I called?" I asked. James nodded. "Are you allright, I mean. you know." I trailed. "I'm fine," James said simply. There was a ending in his sentence that I couldn't get over. It sounded so final, so plain. So. "Lily, we need to talk," James told me. "Okay," I whispered. "What about?" "Us." "What about us?" I asked. Where was he going with this? "I don't think this is working out. I want to break up with you," James answered, no, stated. Oh. My. Gosh. I couldn't believe this. I was in shock, utter, raw, disbelief. James was breaking up with me? James. "James." I started. James held up his hand to stop me from talking. I stared. "I think it would be best if we pretended nothing ever happened between the two of us, and go on living our lives," James stated. I stared at James, the man I loved, no, the man I used to love. I couldn't believe this. Of all the things I had pictured to happen today, I never, ever, pictured this. I could feel my eyes go hot, the feeling I get just before I cry. Don't cry. "Lily, I'm sorry, I'm really, really, sorry, but I have to do this," James told me. I looked up at him, and stared right into his eyes. "No, James, that is where you are wrong. You don't have to do anything," I said, a bit bitterly, and grabbed my purse. I stood up and walked away. I didn't look back, I didn't want James to see the tears brimmed on my eyes. The walk home seemed longer than before. Why? Why did James do this to me? He told me he loved me so many times. I loved him. I still do. Why is he doing this? WHY? To add to a terrible day, it started to rain, first a light sprinkle, then a downpour. I didn't care. I walked my normal pace towards our townhouse. My tears mixed with the raindrops on my face, and I wrapped my arms around myself as I walked home. I had never expected James to dump me. He never let on that he was going to do it, or even thinking about breaking up with me. Had he met someone else? If that was the reason I didn't think I could live another day. I couldn't bear to see James going out with someone else. It would hurt too much. By the time I reached my street I was soaked, and I was still crying. I dug around for the key to my door as I stood on the doorstep. I slid the door open a little and snuck in. I shut the door behind me, and leaned against it. Slowly, I slid down to the floor, where I collapsed weeping. "Lily? Lily, is that you? Lils, I had to shrink a few of your clothes so Janie could wear them, I hope you don't." Abby called, walking down the stairs until she caught sight of me, and her voice trailed. Janie stood behind her. "Lils, what's wrong?" Abby asked. "James. just. broke. up. with. me." I choked. There was silence in the townhouse, broken only by my sobs.
A few minutes later Abby, Janie, and I were in the living room. Abby was using the phone, and I was sitting next to Janie on the couch, crying. "Don't worry, it's not that bad. Guys break up with me all the time, but I usually dump them," Janie told me. I turned to her, and started crying again. "JANIE!" Abby yelled. "What?" Janie asked. "GO! Go. outside," Abby demanded. Janie obeyed, and Abby turned back to the phone. I suppose someone answered on the other line. "Sirius?" Abby asked. I sat, listening. Sirius answered, and I could hear nothing. "Sirius, is James home yet?" Abby asked, her voice demanding and in charge. Sirius answered, and obvious no. "No? Well, make sure that when he gets home you give him this message, 'I don't know what he's up to, but he'd better call and explain himself, either to me or Lily', allright?" Abby asked. Sirius answered. "Oh, you don't know, do you?" Abby asked, her voice still louder than normal. Abby grimaced. "He dumped her, Sirius. He dumped Lily!" Abby yelled. Her words echoed in my head. He broke up with me. HE BROKE UP WITH ME! "Abby," I whispered, but it came out more like, "Auu." "Abby," I choked, "I'm going to go up to my room." Abby turned and nodded, then mouthed, "I'll be up in a little while." I nodded, and stood up. I felt strange, my legs like jello, as I walked up the stairs to my bedroom. I collapsed onto my bed, and wanted to cry. I choked on my tears, and rolled over on my bed. I could hear Abby yelling at Sirius on the phone downstairs, and wanted to die. Why did he do this??? WHY? Then I realized what a good question that was. Why did he do this? He said it was because "it wasn't working out", but he constantly told me how much he loved me and wanted to be with me forever. Forever isn't just a few years. Forever is. well. forever. Then what happened? I remembered what I had been like in Hogwarts. I had never let anything trample me. and I always found the cause of everything. Although I still had tears trailing down my cheek, I decided I was going to find out why. I was going to answer the question, so at least I could know if I had done something wrong. I was going to find out why. I sprawled out on my bed, and let me cry myself to sleep.
A/N- short chap, I know, I know. I have estimated that we are halfway through the story (another short one, I know). I really appreciate all the reviews and the email. I really want to thank you for all your support, and please, do what you did before, REVIEW! I hope you liked this! Not a tear jerker, I know.
Well, any extra comments? Email me at StarlightEve111@aol.com
L/J ROCK FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hurt Her to Save Her
Chapter 2
I walked into the kitchen on Thursday morning, depressed and biting my lip. Abby, who was sitting on the kitchen counter drinking tea, looked up. "So, what did he say?" she asked. "Sirius told me that James isn't up yet," I answered, biting my lip hard, "The funeral must have been awful for him." "Why? It was a really beautiful funeral," Abby said. I turned and glared at her, then told her, "No offense, but when your parents die, it's awful no matter what." Abby shrugged, and took a sip of her tea. "When's your sister coming?" I asked. Abby shrugged and said, "Mum said noon, but since Mum is never on time I dunno." I sat down at the table, and drummed my fingers on the table. "Stop it, allready!" Abby cried after a few minutes of my drumming, "Just go over there. You do it ALL the time." Before I could answer there was a huge BANG from the living room. Abby and I jumped up and ran into the living room. Standing beside our fireplace, covered in soot, was Abby's little sister, Janie. "Hi, Abby, Lily," she said, "I think you need to clean your living room." "JANIE!" Abby cried, "YOU RUINED OUR LIVING ROOM!"
"Big deal," Janie replied, drew her wand, and opened her mouth to utter a spell. "Oh, no you don't," Abby said, and snatched her sister's wand. "Hey! That's MY wand, give it BACK!" Janie yelled, "Give it BACK!" "Not a chance, you'll get it back when you leave," Abby told her, and put the wand in her pocket. Janie crossed her arms. "Look at you? Do you have ANY common sense? You can't go around MUGGLE London dressed like that!" Abby yelled. "Why not?" Janie asked. "Do you want those reasons listed in alphabetical order?" Abby answered, glaring at her sister. "Janie, I have to agree with your sister, you can't wear that while you're here. You can wear it once you leave," I told her. Janie was wearing bright magenta robes with a matching witch hat. "Fine, I'll change, but I didn't bring anything else to wear," Janie said. Abby rolled her eyes and turned to me. "Lils, can Janie use some of your clothes. Your better with muggle clothing than I am," Abby said. "Sure. I'll help you pick something out for her to wear," I agreed. "Come on, shrimp," Abby said. "Don't call me that!" Janie yelled. "Fine, come on, Janie," Abby repeated. We all went out to the stairs, when the phone started ringing. "I'll be right up," I called, and ran to the phone. I picked it up and said, "Hello?" "Lily? It's James," said the voice on the other end. "James? I called earlier, did Sirius tell you?" I asked. "Er. yeah. Listen, I was wondering if you. um. would like to go to lunch with me today?" James asked, uneasily. "Sure. When?" "Now?" James suggested. "Great. Where should we go?" I asked, smiling to myself. "How about that little resturant by the park, you know the one?" James suggested. "Perfect. I'll be right there," I agreed, "Bye. I love you." But the line was allready dead. I hung the phone up, smiling, and went upstairs. Abby and Janie were in my room, trying to find something for Janie to wear. "Who was it?" Abby asked, not even looking up. "It was James. He wants to meet me for lunch. I'll be back in about an hour, 'kay?" I asked. "Sure. Have fun," Abby answered. I ran downstairs, grabbing my purse and hurrying out the door. When I got to the resturant I found that James was allready there, waiting on a table by the patio. He was nervous, I could tell. Whenever he's nervous, he'll run his hands through his hair every second. Perhaps that's why his hair is so messy. "James!" I called. He turned and spotted me. I smiled, waved, and ran over. I slid in the seat opposite of him, and sat there for a moment. "James, I was worried about you. I called and Sirius said you were sleeping. Did he tell you I called?" I asked. James nodded. "Are you allright, I mean. you know." I trailed. "I'm fine," James said simply. There was a ending in his sentence that I couldn't get over. It sounded so final, so plain. So. "Lily, we need to talk," James told me. "Okay," I whispered. "What about?" "Us." "What about us?" I asked. Where was he going with this? "I don't think this is working out. I want to break up with you," James answered, no, stated. Oh. My. Gosh. I couldn't believe this. I was in shock, utter, raw, disbelief. James was breaking up with me? James. "James." I started. James held up his hand to stop me from talking. I stared. "I think it would be best if we pretended nothing ever happened between the two of us, and go on living our lives," James stated. I stared at James, the man I loved, no, the man I used to love. I couldn't believe this. Of all the things I had pictured to happen today, I never, ever, pictured this. I could feel my eyes go hot, the feeling I get just before I cry. Don't cry. "Lily, I'm sorry, I'm really, really, sorry, but I have to do this," James told me. I looked up at him, and stared right into his eyes. "No, James, that is where you are wrong. You don't have to do anything," I said, a bit bitterly, and grabbed my purse. I stood up and walked away. I didn't look back, I didn't want James to see the tears brimmed on my eyes. The walk home seemed longer than before. Why? Why did James do this to me? He told me he loved me so many times. I loved him. I still do. Why is he doing this? WHY? To add to a terrible day, it started to rain, first a light sprinkle, then a downpour. I didn't care. I walked my normal pace towards our townhouse. My tears mixed with the raindrops on my face, and I wrapped my arms around myself as I walked home. I had never expected James to dump me. He never let on that he was going to do it, or even thinking about breaking up with me. Had he met someone else? If that was the reason I didn't think I could live another day. I couldn't bear to see James going out with someone else. It would hurt too much. By the time I reached my street I was soaked, and I was still crying. I dug around for the key to my door as I stood on the doorstep. I slid the door open a little and snuck in. I shut the door behind me, and leaned against it. Slowly, I slid down to the floor, where I collapsed weeping. "Lily? Lily, is that you? Lils, I had to shrink a few of your clothes so Janie could wear them, I hope you don't." Abby called, walking down the stairs until she caught sight of me, and her voice trailed. Janie stood behind her. "Lils, what's wrong?" Abby asked. "James. just. broke. up. with. me." I choked. There was silence in the townhouse, broken only by my sobs.
A few minutes later Abby, Janie, and I were in the living room. Abby was using the phone, and I was sitting next to Janie on the couch, crying. "Don't worry, it's not that bad. Guys break up with me all the time, but I usually dump them," Janie told me. I turned to her, and started crying again. "JANIE!" Abby yelled. "What?" Janie asked. "GO! Go. outside," Abby demanded. Janie obeyed, and Abby turned back to the phone. I suppose someone answered on the other line. "Sirius?" Abby asked. I sat, listening. Sirius answered, and I could hear nothing. "Sirius, is James home yet?" Abby asked, her voice demanding and in charge. Sirius answered, and obvious no. "No? Well, make sure that when he gets home you give him this message, 'I don't know what he's up to, but he'd better call and explain himself, either to me or Lily', allright?" Abby asked. Sirius answered. "Oh, you don't know, do you?" Abby asked, her voice still louder than normal. Abby grimaced. "He dumped her, Sirius. He dumped Lily!" Abby yelled. Her words echoed in my head. He broke up with me. HE BROKE UP WITH ME! "Abby," I whispered, but it came out more like, "Auu." "Abby," I choked, "I'm going to go up to my room." Abby turned and nodded, then mouthed, "I'll be up in a little while." I nodded, and stood up. I felt strange, my legs like jello, as I walked up the stairs to my bedroom. I collapsed onto my bed, and wanted to cry. I choked on my tears, and rolled over on my bed. I could hear Abby yelling at Sirius on the phone downstairs, and wanted to die. Why did he do this??? WHY? Then I realized what a good question that was. Why did he do this? He said it was because "it wasn't working out", but he constantly told me how much he loved me and wanted to be with me forever. Forever isn't just a few years. Forever is. well. forever. Then what happened? I remembered what I had been like in Hogwarts. I had never let anything trample me. and I always found the cause of everything. Although I still had tears trailing down my cheek, I decided I was going to find out why. I was going to answer the question, so at least I could know if I had done something wrong. I was going to find out why. I sprawled out on my bed, and let me cry myself to sleep.
A/N- short chap, I know, I know. I have estimated that we are halfway through the story (another short one, I know). I really appreciate all the reviews and the email. I really want to thank you for all your support, and please, do what you did before, REVIEW! I hope you liked this! Not a tear jerker, I know.
Well, any extra comments? Email me at StarlightEve111@aol.com
L/J ROCK FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!