(Authors Note: This is the second chapter to " He was supposed to be my
friend" I wrote this along with "Courteney Fan" Be sure to check her
stories out shes a very gifted writer, truly good with words even though
shs had bad blockage throught this whole story, its all good though. But
this is OUR story, we hope you like it if not well, you know where to kiss
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(Disclaimer : We do not own any of the friends characters i would just be
naughty with Joey if i did though. Please reveiw. But i dont want to see
any reveiws that have these following words anywhere in them " Its very
unrealistic " Thats why its a FICTION story. "They act our of character "
Well if you picture them saying these things they may see a little more in
character. Ok so enjoy and no stupid reveiws. )
The night was still cool , though the on coming sun made it warmer. She leaned on her elbows that were placed on her balcony ledge and she stared out into the early morning lights. Street lights were still beaming yet the day was becoming more clear.
She let her eyes wander all over the scenery, the road, with its sleepless occupants. The apartments parallel to hers mainly Ross' Seing if he was up. The pedestrians, amazed that there were pedestrians out at this hour. The pigeon poop on her balconey ledge and realizing that she really needed to clean that off.
The stars began to hide from the oncoming sun . All Monica could do was think as she watched the beautiful sunrise, sleep tonite had become unattainable so a sunrise would be a great start to what she was going to make a great day.
" Mon honey why arent you sleeing"
Rachel stood by the window that opened out onto the balcony, she asked as she crawled through, Her voice startling Monica as she was deep in thought.
" Sleep is just not going to happen so i guess i just wanted to watch the sun come up"
She had perched herself down into a chair and brought her knees up hugging them through her robe and newly put on sweat pants.
"God isn't is beautiful" She tucked a lose blonde hair behind her ear.
She sat in the chair next to Monica and stared at the same light blue horizon anticipating the rising of the sun.
"Even more so than the sun set. "
her eyes didnt meet Rachel's instead they just gazed out into the silent sky.
" It's amazing how things can change so much in just a matter of ... hours "
Rachel rested her elbows on her knees and looked down at the balconey floor.
" I cant help but think , of what im gonna do..... "
She sat back in her chair and felt the stinging of the re emerging tears trying to force their way out of her eyes.
" What am i gonna do? " Her chinn quivered to these words as if she were crying dry tears.
Monica just watched the stars fade more and let out a smal sigh, not knowing how to comfort her friend, this territory was never chartered by her before and she had no idea how to comfort her. Though she thought hard all she could do was sit and listen to her cry and offer a hand for her to hold.
" How could i be so, so stupid? .... "
She licked her dry lips and swallowed hard.
" How could i let him do this to me,... i really .... Mon ? "
Her red bloodshot eyes peered into Monica's
" Has... Chan ... has he ever said that he loved you ?"
Monica held Rachel's hand tight, and leaned forward to mimic the way Rachel was sitting in her chair, she spoke as she grabbed her other hand.
" Rachel if he could do this to you, then you dont want him to love you... "
she chose her words carefully.
" I know youre hurting ,. honey i do.... and it hurts me to know that he hurts you,.... but you and ... "
Her eyes left Rachels and glanced to her now flat stomach and hesitated to speak the word.
" And your .... baby you dont need him,... please say you understand me, i want nothing but happiness for you but you arent going to find it in him. "
She let Rachel's hands drop and stood and motioned for her to follow.
"Come on lets get inside."
She said with a sigh.
" Things will get better again i promise"
Joey remained seated firmly on the couch , looking to Rachel's door. He looked in a small way as if he were sad. His eyes widened when he saw Monica coming in the house along with Rachel , he smirked a bit but it hurts him to find that there was no smile returned to him, instead a cold glare.
" Rach , ... im gonna go to bed now if you need me ,... "
her eyes fell Quickly to Joey and then as quick back to Rachel
" Im here if you,.. you need me "
She gave Rachel a reassuring smile and then disappeared behind the shut door of her bedroom. Joey's eyes longinly followed her. Maybe it was the rum, maybe it was his heart but she had never looked so beautiful to him before now.
Monica laid in her bed trying to get the last hour or two of sleep she could, even though she knew there was no way she was sleeping tonight. Fatigue eventually caught up to her though after about 20 minutes, and as soon as her eyes closed muffled yells came thundering from outside her door. Her eyes opened quickly. And as quick as they opened she forced them shut and ,put a pillow over her head trying to block out the noise but it didn't help.
Chandler rolled to the pillow that covered Monica. With a grunt and a groan to signify his displeasure with being woken up.
" What the ff .. ? " He looked to the clock, the yells had woken him up. " its too early for this,.. " He whinned and burried his head next to Monica's. The tips of their noses touched. His eyes opened and caught a glimpse of her sleeping face.
And never realized how angelic she looked when she was sleeping. She could feel his eyes on her and when her eyes opened she was met by two blue beacons they met her and melted her, She smiled bright their noeses still touching.
" I meant it... " Chandler whispered in their little pillow shelter.
Her eyes fluttered sleepily. And she smiled .
"I will always meen it " He returned her smile. " I love you Monica "
Her smile could no longer be contained and her smile could be seen even under the darkness of the pillows.
"I love you too Chandler,.. I always will " She leaned and pressed her nose past his. For a long passionate kiss
" No sleep now " He said with a smirk in between her kisses.
The yelling died down not long after Monica and Chandler had long been awake, The slamming of doors signaled that it was safe to go into the living room and kitchen but both peeked before entering either room. Monica had an hour left before she had to go to work.
Standing at the bathroom sink getting more woken up, even more so from her exhilerating session with Chandler. A giant hug met her from behind and without opening her eyes, she knew who it was. She had memorized the feel of his arms his loving embrace, In there she found the begining of her life.
She felt him kiss her neck and saw him in the mirror, The warmth of his mouth sent wonderful sensations through her whole body and she could feel where this was headed, so she pulled away.
"Work Chandler " She simply said. His look of dissappointment filled the room and she hated that look knowing full well that she wanted what he was after.
He could see in her eyes that she was holding something back. He threw himself at her and covered her mouth with his feeling her warmth like a blanket. She loved this and wanted it, but pulled away from it.
"Chandler work " only getting her mouth a few inches away from his.
He ignored her words knowing that she wanted him too. So quickly he began kissing her again.
" Work " She said firmly
He gave a groan of disapproval, and even tried to go in for more kisses but his attempts proved useless as if she werent even hearing him.
"Do you want breakfast?" Her words pulled him out of his trance like state.
"Sorry Mon but i'm gonna be late" His words came out almost harsh, not meening too but also not apologizing for it. He noted her facial expression the small ammout of hurt that was displayed on it, but seeming to be trying to ignore it.
"Youre always late. but I should get ready too" she said not wanting Chandler to catch wind of her hurt expression. She walked into her bedroom to get on her work clothes and listend his foot steps that followed her
Chandler walked towards the door but stopped in front of Mon who was sitting on the end of the bed, feet dangling above the ground, to give her a kiss good bye.
"I'll call you on your lunch break" This came out almost as a question.
Monica nodded her head as a yawn escaped from her lips.
Chandler walked out of the room but quickly re-entered smiling.
"I forgot something"
"What?" she said turning to look at him.
"I love you"
Monica's face lit up as did Chandlers. He now no longer needed to apologize for his harsh tone before.
"I love you too"
Ross and Phoebe were sitting at the kitchen table having an argument over 'evolution and gravity' when Chandler entered from the bedroom. He heard Ross preaching his 'belieffs' and decided that it was best for him to get out of there fast.
"Hey guys" he says as he headed strait into the bathroom to take a shower and get ready.
Ross lifted up a hand in annoyance with Phoebe his way of saying hello without disrupting his train of argumentative though but not totally ignoring Chandler, but playing the role of " pissed off older brother " quite well.
Ross had not liked the idea of Chandler with Monica as Joey didnt, but of corse for different reasons. In Ross' eyes no one was good enough to be with his baby sister, if it were up to him it would stay that way but he liked how she was happy so he said nothing.
"Wha- What do you mean you don't believe in gravity?" Phoebe's words jerked him back into the argument full force and almost brought out " Red Ross "
"I feel that I'm not being pulled as much as being pushed" She moved her hands in motion with her words. Displaying pushing and pulling
Ross went to protest but Monica walked out of the bedroom and Phoebe turned to greet her. Letting their argument for the moment go stale.
"Hey Mon"
"Hi" Monica said almost being startled at the sudden presence of two people in her kicthen, She gave a "hello " To Phoebe as well but muffled through her hand that blocked another yawn
"Somebodys happy this morning"
"What?" Monica asked making her way to the coffee pot
"Your aura is like all bright and shiny. Unlike you." she said pointing towards Ross, "your auras all negative"
"Didn't get good sleep last night?" Ross asked eyeing Phoebe in regaurds to her latest comment.
"No, I was up all night with Rachel" she said smiling to herself thinking about the moment shared between her and Chandler also keeping her up that night, her smile faded when she realized Rachel wasn't in the living room or kitchen, "Where is she?"
"She's still sleeping" Phoebe told her
"and we haven't seen Joey" Ross stated knowing what her next question would be "which is strange because he's always up, and ready to eat"
"Maybe he's in there sleeping with Rachel" Phoebe commented
"I don't think so" Monica said as she took a gulp of coffee "What do you want for breakfast?"
"Don't worry about it Mon, you need to go to sleep" Ross said big brotherly
"I can't"
Ross went to protest but was cut off by Chandler who was coming out of the bathroom
"alright children I'm off to work, behave"
"bye" Phoebe and Ross said in unison
"bye Mon" He said with a smile, walking closer to her grabbing her hips to pull her into his hug.
"bye" she said against his cheek.
Chandler gave her a long kiss goodbye and rushed out of the apartment.
" I dont wanna see that " Ross said as he pretendid to turn the other way.
"I'm going to go check on Rachel" Phoebe said
"Why?" Ross asked
"Do I have to have a reason?"
"Whatever" he said still sore about the argument.
Phoebe walked into Rachel's room quietly but then quickly came back out.
"She's sleeping" she whispered as she closed the door, "That's strange" she said her normal voice as she reenterd the kitchen
"What?" Monica asked finishing a big gulp of her coffee
"I'm getting this bad vibe, and its not from you" Phoebe explained once again pointing to Ross "I'm gonna go check on Joey" she said once again rising from the table
"I'll do it" Monica offered "I need to walk around, ya know, get woken up before I have to go to work" Sitting her now empty coffee cup beside the sink making a mental note not to forget to wash it before she left for work.
"Okay" Pheebs said and sat back down
As she exited the apartment she heard Phoebe and Ross going at it about evolution
"I just think its too easy"
"the entire human race evolving from a single celled molicule is too easy?!" He defendid.
Monica smiled to herself as she shut the door listening to the neverending battle between Ross and Phoebe knowing that Ross would eventually give into her and apologize, but the argument would happen again.
She made her way the short distance to Joey and Chandler's apartment, her nerves tensed a bit before knocking which she didn't know why he was her friend Joey nothing to be scared of.
She knocked lightly, each time getting louder.
Her knocks came a close tone to pounding, but they got no response. Her hand met the cold metal of the door knob and fear lurked into her, she shuttered a bit and regrouped before turning the knob to the door that forever remained unlocked.
"Jo...ey " she said just little above a whisper, It was as if she were afraid for him to hear her. Her body never moved but a few feet away from the door, she was hesitating. She had heard him yell at Rachel and it gave him power. Power to be afraid of she had heard him hit the wall before and knew he held alot of force.
Still afraid? of Joey?
Her eyes looked around the apartment in shock, beer bottles and liquor littered every inch of cabinet space. Her mouth dropped open a bit, and a hand made an attempt to cover it , she walked to the sink, for the moment forgetting her hesitation to staying vlose to the door.She found the sink like everything else full of bottles.
"My God " she whispered to herself.
The sudden low volume crash that came from behind her made her jump and breathe hard.
"Oh Joey, you scared the hell out of me, " she laughed to herself and grabbed at her chest to joke an on coming heart attack. She discreetly positioned her body adjacent to the door.
It was new to her the rage Joey displayed, And what was new scared her, and she didnt want to be apart of it.
His blank stare met and faded her smile.
"Are , ... are you OK Joe ? " She stuttered as he slowly moved closer to her, backing her into the now shut door. She was aware of this and her heart raced she tried to tell herself to calm down that it was her good friend Joey. But she couldnt get herself to listen.
"IM fine, " He said with a smirk and set the bottle on the fooze table. His cold stare returned but remained his smirk.
Monica exhaled hard and found it next to impossible to break away from his eyes. It shouldnt be this way not with him. She was unaware at the hand that he raise to her. It slam on the door frame beside her head.
She let out a weak fearful groan , a result to the surprise of his movement. Her breathing became more rapid, this he heard.
"You scared me", she laughed a little to herself and she smiled hoping to lighten his odiously tempered mood. But it wasn't helping she began to tense and watched as he brought his face close to hers.
Her breathing became less rapid and more struggled when exhaling sounded a bit like she was realsing too much. And inhaling was almost silent.
She licked her dry lips clean and swallowed to wet her dry throat. While her eyes flashed between two intervals Joey's dark eyes and his oncoming mouth.
The sound of her almost panting thrilled Joey, trying to convince himself that she was preparing herself for passion, instead of being next to terrified.
His face stopped but a few inches away from hers, she made a face of disgust when she smelled the mix of different liquors being breathed onto her face.
" Joey,.. what are you doing " her fear fadded and was replaced with anger.
She brought her hands up to push him away when as quickly as his hand had hit the door jam, he grabbed her and held her hands togehter between just his five fingers. Leaving a free hand to do what it pleased.
"Joey stop ! " she yelled hoping to get through to the sober Joey. He fear was evident and she jerked with her arms to free her hands and he just smiled at her weak efforts to get free.
Soft sobs could be heard coming from within Monica but no tears could force their way out. She played in her mind what could happen if she didnt get herself free.
Her jerking and twisting had proven to be useless, and she gave in to Joey's strengths, fearing what the liquor could make her ' supposed best friend ' do to her.
Through her wiggling and her attempts to get free , she had helped Joey back her into the corner where the wall and refrigerator met. Having no way out except the option of being released which she was sure was not in her favor.
She helplessly looked to her hands that were tightly bound with Joey's, he looked to her with a hint of confusion in her eyes.
" What are you doing? " he said bluntly staring into her eyes with much confusion in his.
" Joey .. please dont " those words above barely a whisper her eyes narrowed as did her brow, and they begged for him to let go.
" What do you think im doing ? Mon ? " Joey asked losening his grip on her.
" I .. i dont know " her wimpering sobs were coming to an end as she started apprehending Joey's movements.
Her narrowed expression fadded joined by Joey's confusion, and she stood looking to him.
His grip tightened again around her two hands. And she prepared herself for his oncoming lips. His cheek brushed against hers instead of his mouth going to hers he went to her ear.
" I just want a beer " Joey whispered "And you're inmy way " and let go her hands in a sort of " thrown away " action. Her face mimicked her shock as he opened the door almost on her. To retreive his desired beer.
" Im not a rapist Monica. " His eyes signifying his hurt feelings. He turned his back to her not bothering to grab his half empty bottle of liquor on the fooze ball table.
She selfishly didnt care what he had said, his actions werent proof of his previous words, his actions that still stung her wrists, his actions that still felt like hot drunken rage.
She felt herslef heave and grabbed at the door knob but her sweaty palms prevented her from grasping the it, she got into the hallway and let out a sigh of what seemed to be and what felt like relief.
She stood for a moment before hearing her own door knob turn.
" Yes Ross i will think about it, and yes youre right in a way i do feel pulled " Pheobe rolled her eyes and Ross followed her.
"Oh hey uhh hows Joey? " Ross finally noticing the pale Monica slumped before him.
She knew that Ross and Phoebe shouldnt see her this way and she bolted past them to the door to her apartment that was still open, letting it casually shut behind her she and ran to her bathroom and locked the door just so anyone who followed her would be left out.
She turned on the water to her sink and looked down to her feet before placing water on her face. She looked at her feet and then to her bathroom tiles, the tiles that Joey had put there for her.
Her body made the heaving motion again and she slupmed in fron tof the toilet thinking that she was going to throw up. Not knowing these strange emotions that were in her, she kept to herself not telling anyone what had hapened
The night was still cool , though the on coming sun made it warmer. She leaned on her elbows that were placed on her balcony ledge and she stared out into the early morning lights. Street lights were still beaming yet the day was becoming more clear.
She let her eyes wander all over the scenery, the road, with its sleepless occupants. The apartments parallel to hers mainly Ross' Seing if he was up. The pedestrians, amazed that there were pedestrians out at this hour. The pigeon poop on her balconey ledge and realizing that she really needed to clean that off.
The stars began to hide from the oncoming sun . All Monica could do was think as she watched the beautiful sunrise, sleep tonite had become unattainable so a sunrise would be a great start to what she was going to make a great day.
" Mon honey why arent you sleeing"
Rachel stood by the window that opened out onto the balcony, she asked as she crawled through, Her voice startling Monica as she was deep in thought.
" Sleep is just not going to happen so i guess i just wanted to watch the sun come up"
She had perched herself down into a chair and brought her knees up hugging them through her robe and newly put on sweat pants.
"God isn't is beautiful" She tucked a lose blonde hair behind her ear.
She sat in the chair next to Monica and stared at the same light blue horizon anticipating the rising of the sun.
"Even more so than the sun set. "
her eyes didnt meet Rachel's instead they just gazed out into the silent sky.
" It's amazing how things can change so much in just a matter of ... hours "
Rachel rested her elbows on her knees and looked down at the balconey floor.
" I cant help but think , of what im gonna do..... "
She sat back in her chair and felt the stinging of the re emerging tears trying to force their way out of her eyes.
" What am i gonna do? " Her chinn quivered to these words as if she were crying dry tears.
Monica just watched the stars fade more and let out a smal sigh, not knowing how to comfort her friend, this territory was never chartered by her before and she had no idea how to comfort her. Though she thought hard all she could do was sit and listen to her cry and offer a hand for her to hold.
" How could i be so, so stupid? .... "
She licked her dry lips and swallowed hard.
" How could i let him do this to me,... i really .... Mon ? "
Her red bloodshot eyes peered into Monica's
" Has... Chan ... has he ever said that he loved you ?"
Monica held Rachel's hand tight, and leaned forward to mimic the way Rachel was sitting in her chair, she spoke as she grabbed her other hand.
" Rachel if he could do this to you, then you dont want him to love you... "
she chose her words carefully.
" I know youre hurting ,. honey i do.... and it hurts me to know that he hurts you,.... but you and ... "
Her eyes left Rachels and glanced to her now flat stomach and hesitated to speak the word.
" And your .... baby you dont need him,... please say you understand me, i want nothing but happiness for you but you arent going to find it in him. "
She let Rachel's hands drop and stood and motioned for her to follow.
"Come on lets get inside."
She said with a sigh.
" Things will get better again i promise"
Joey remained seated firmly on the couch , looking to Rachel's door. He looked in a small way as if he were sad. His eyes widened when he saw Monica coming in the house along with Rachel , he smirked a bit but it hurts him to find that there was no smile returned to him, instead a cold glare.
" Rach , ... im gonna go to bed now if you need me ,... "
her eyes fell Quickly to Joey and then as quick back to Rachel
" Im here if you,.. you need me "
She gave Rachel a reassuring smile and then disappeared behind the shut door of her bedroom. Joey's eyes longinly followed her. Maybe it was the rum, maybe it was his heart but she had never looked so beautiful to him before now.
Monica laid in her bed trying to get the last hour or two of sleep she could, even though she knew there was no way she was sleeping tonight. Fatigue eventually caught up to her though after about 20 minutes, and as soon as her eyes closed muffled yells came thundering from outside her door. Her eyes opened quickly. And as quick as they opened she forced them shut and ,put a pillow over her head trying to block out the noise but it didn't help.
Chandler rolled to the pillow that covered Monica. With a grunt and a groan to signify his displeasure with being woken up.
" What the ff .. ? " He looked to the clock, the yells had woken him up. " its too early for this,.. " He whinned and burried his head next to Monica's. The tips of their noses touched. His eyes opened and caught a glimpse of her sleeping face.
And never realized how angelic she looked when she was sleeping. She could feel his eyes on her and when her eyes opened she was met by two blue beacons they met her and melted her, She smiled bright their noeses still touching.
" I meant it... " Chandler whispered in their little pillow shelter.
Her eyes fluttered sleepily. And she smiled .
"I will always meen it " He returned her smile. " I love you Monica "
Her smile could no longer be contained and her smile could be seen even under the darkness of the pillows.
"I love you too Chandler,.. I always will " She leaned and pressed her nose past his. For a long passionate kiss
" No sleep now " He said with a smirk in between her kisses.
The yelling died down not long after Monica and Chandler had long been awake, The slamming of doors signaled that it was safe to go into the living room and kitchen but both peeked before entering either room. Monica had an hour left before she had to go to work.
Standing at the bathroom sink getting more woken up, even more so from her exhilerating session with Chandler. A giant hug met her from behind and without opening her eyes, she knew who it was. She had memorized the feel of his arms his loving embrace, In there she found the begining of her life.
She felt him kiss her neck and saw him in the mirror, The warmth of his mouth sent wonderful sensations through her whole body and she could feel where this was headed, so she pulled away.
"Work Chandler " She simply said. His look of dissappointment filled the room and she hated that look knowing full well that she wanted what he was after.
He could see in her eyes that she was holding something back. He threw himself at her and covered her mouth with his feeling her warmth like a blanket. She loved this and wanted it, but pulled away from it.
"Chandler work " only getting her mouth a few inches away from his.
He ignored her words knowing that she wanted him too. So quickly he began kissing her again.
" Work " She said firmly
He gave a groan of disapproval, and even tried to go in for more kisses but his attempts proved useless as if she werent even hearing him.
"Do you want breakfast?" Her words pulled him out of his trance like state.
"Sorry Mon but i'm gonna be late" His words came out almost harsh, not meening too but also not apologizing for it. He noted her facial expression the small ammout of hurt that was displayed on it, but seeming to be trying to ignore it.
"Youre always late. but I should get ready too" she said not wanting Chandler to catch wind of her hurt expression. She walked into her bedroom to get on her work clothes and listend his foot steps that followed her
Chandler walked towards the door but stopped in front of Mon who was sitting on the end of the bed, feet dangling above the ground, to give her a kiss good bye.
"I'll call you on your lunch break" This came out almost as a question.
Monica nodded her head as a yawn escaped from her lips.
Chandler walked out of the room but quickly re-entered smiling.
"I forgot something"
"What?" she said turning to look at him.
"I love you"
Monica's face lit up as did Chandlers. He now no longer needed to apologize for his harsh tone before.
"I love you too"
Ross and Phoebe were sitting at the kitchen table having an argument over 'evolution and gravity' when Chandler entered from the bedroom. He heard Ross preaching his 'belieffs' and decided that it was best for him to get out of there fast.
"Hey guys" he says as he headed strait into the bathroom to take a shower and get ready.
Ross lifted up a hand in annoyance with Phoebe his way of saying hello without disrupting his train of argumentative though but not totally ignoring Chandler, but playing the role of " pissed off older brother " quite well.
Ross had not liked the idea of Chandler with Monica as Joey didnt, but of corse for different reasons. In Ross' eyes no one was good enough to be with his baby sister, if it were up to him it would stay that way but he liked how she was happy so he said nothing.
"Wha- What do you mean you don't believe in gravity?" Phoebe's words jerked him back into the argument full force and almost brought out " Red Ross "
"I feel that I'm not being pulled as much as being pushed" She moved her hands in motion with her words. Displaying pushing and pulling
Ross went to protest but Monica walked out of the bedroom and Phoebe turned to greet her. Letting their argument for the moment go stale.
"Hey Mon"
"Hi" Monica said almost being startled at the sudden presence of two people in her kicthen, She gave a "hello " To Phoebe as well but muffled through her hand that blocked another yawn
"Somebodys happy this morning"
"What?" Monica asked making her way to the coffee pot
"Your aura is like all bright and shiny. Unlike you." she said pointing towards Ross, "your auras all negative"
"Didn't get good sleep last night?" Ross asked eyeing Phoebe in regaurds to her latest comment.
"No, I was up all night with Rachel" she said smiling to herself thinking about the moment shared between her and Chandler also keeping her up that night, her smile faded when she realized Rachel wasn't in the living room or kitchen, "Where is she?"
"She's still sleeping" Phoebe told her
"and we haven't seen Joey" Ross stated knowing what her next question would be "which is strange because he's always up, and ready to eat"
"Maybe he's in there sleeping with Rachel" Phoebe commented
"I don't think so" Monica said as she took a gulp of coffee "What do you want for breakfast?"
"Don't worry about it Mon, you need to go to sleep" Ross said big brotherly
"I can't"
Ross went to protest but was cut off by Chandler who was coming out of the bathroom
"alright children I'm off to work, behave"
"bye" Phoebe and Ross said in unison
"bye Mon" He said with a smile, walking closer to her grabbing her hips to pull her into his hug.
"bye" she said against his cheek.
Chandler gave her a long kiss goodbye and rushed out of the apartment.
" I dont wanna see that " Ross said as he pretendid to turn the other way.
"I'm going to go check on Rachel" Phoebe said
"Why?" Ross asked
"Do I have to have a reason?"
"Whatever" he said still sore about the argument.
Phoebe walked into Rachel's room quietly but then quickly came back out.
"She's sleeping" she whispered as she closed the door, "That's strange" she said her normal voice as she reenterd the kitchen
"What?" Monica asked finishing a big gulp of her coffee
"I'm getting this bad vibe, and its not from you" Phoebe explained once again pointing to Ross "I'm gonna go check on Joey" she said once again rising from the table
"I'll do it" Monica offered "I need to walk around, ya know, get woken up before I have to go to work" Sitting her now empty coffee cup beside the sink making a mental note not to forget to wash it before she left for work.
"Okay" Pheebs said and sat back down
As she exited the apartment she heard Phoebe and Ross going at it about evolution
"I just think its too easy"
"the entire human race evolving from a single celled molicule is too easy?!" He defendid.
Monica smiled to herself as she shut the door listening to the neverending battle between Ross and Phoebe knowing that Ross would eventually give into her and apologize, but the argument would happen again.
She made her way the short distance to Joey and Chandler's apartment, her nerves tensed a bit before knocking which she didn't know why he was her friend Joey nothing to be scared of.
She knocked lightly, each time getting louder.
Her knocks came a close tone to pounding, but they got no response. Her hand met the cold metal of the door knob and fear lurked into her, she shuttered a bit and regrouped before turning the knob to the door that forever remained unlocked.
"Jo...ey " she said just little above a whisper, It was as if she were afraid for him to hear her. Her body never moved but a few feet away from the door, she was hesitating. She had heard him yell at Rachel and it gave him power. Power to be afraid of she had heard him hit the wall before and knew he held alot of force.
Still afraid? of Joey?
Her eyes looked around the apartment in shock, beer bottles and liquor littered every inch of cabinet space. Her mouth dropped open a bit, and a hand made an attempt to cover it , she walked to the sink, for the moment forgetting her hesitation to staying vlose to the door.She found the sink like everything else full of bottles.
"My God " she whispered to herself.
The sudden low volume crash that came from behind her made her jump and breathe hard.
"Oh Joey, you scared the hell out of me, " she laughed to herself and grabbed at her chest to joke an on coming heart attack. She discreetly positioned her body adjacent to the door.
It was new to her the rage Joey displayed, And what was new scared her, and she didnt want to be apart of it.
His blank stare met and faded her smile.
"Are , ... are you OK Joe ? " She stuttered as he slowly moved closer to her, backing her into the now shut door. She was aware of this and her heart raced she tried to tell herself to calm down that it was her good friend Joey. But she couldnt get herself to listen.
"IM fine, " He said with a smirk and set the bottle on the fooze table. His cold stare returned but remained his smirk.
Monica exhaled hard and found it next to impossible to break away from his eyes. It shouldnt be this way not with him. She was unaware at the hand that he raise to her. It slam on the door frame beside her head.
She let out a weak fearful groan , a result to the surprise of his movement. Her breathing became more rapid, this he heard.
"You scared me", she laughed a little to herself and she smiled hoping to lighten his odiously tempered mood. But it wasn't helping she began to tense and watched as he brought his face close to hers.
Her breathing became less rapid and more struggled when exhaling sounded a bit like she was realsing too much. And inhaling was almost silent.
She licked her dry lips clean and swallowed to wet her dry throat. While her eyes flashed between two intervals Joey's dark eyes and his oncoming mouth.
The sound of her almost panting thrilled Joey, trying to convince himself that she was preparing herself for passion, instead of being next to terrified.
His face stopped but a few inches away from hers, she made a face of disgust when she smelled the mix of different liquors being breathed onto her face.
" Joey,.. what are you doing " her fear fadded and was replaced with anger.
She brought her hands up to push him away when as quickly as his hand had hit the door jam, he grabbed her and held her hands togehter between just his five fingers. Leaving a free hand to do what it pleased.
"Joey stop ! " she yelled hoping to get through to the sober Joey. He fear was evident and she jerked with her arms to free her hands and he just smiled at her weak efforts to get free.
Soft sobs could be heard coming from within Monica but no tears could force their way out. She played in her mind what could happen if she didnt get herself free.
Her jerking and twisting had proven to be useless, and she gave in to Joey's strengths, fearing what the liquor could make her ' supposed best friend ' do to her.
Through her wiggling and her attempts to get free , she had helped Joey back her into the corner where the wall and refrigerator met. Having no way out except the option of being released which she was sure was not in her favor.
She helplessly looked to her hands that were tightly bound with Joey's, he looked to her with a hint of confusion in her eyes.
" What are you doing? " he said bluntly staring into her eyes with much confusion in his.
" Joey .. please dont " those words above barely a whisper her eyes narrowed as did her brow, and they begged for him to let go.
" What do you think im doing ? Mon ? " Joey asked losening his grip on her.
" I .. i dont know " her wimpering sobs were coming to an end as she started apprehending Joey's movements.
Her narrowed expression fadded joined by Joey's confusion, and she stood looking to him.
His grip tightened again around her two hands. And she prepared herself for his oncoming lips. His cheek brushed against hers instead of his mouth going to hers he went to her ear.
" I just want a beer " Joey whispered "And you're inmy way " and let go her hands in a sort of " thrown away " action. Her face mimicked her shock as he opened the door almost on her. To retreive his desired beer.
" Im not a rapist Monica. " His eyes signifying his hurt feelings. He turned his back to her not bothering to grab his half empty bottle of liquor on the fooze ball table.
She selfishly didnt care what he had said, his actions werent proof of his previous words, his actions that still stung her wrists, his actions that still felt like hot drunken rage.
She felt herslef heave and grabbed at the door knob but her sweaty palms prevented her from grasping the it, she got into the hallway and let out a sigh of what seemed to be and what felt like relief.
She stood for a moment before hearing her own door knob turn.
" Yes Ross i will think about it, and yes youre right in a way i do feel pulled " Pheobe rolled her eyes and Ross followed her.
"Oh hey uhh hows Joey? " Ross finally noticing the pale Monica slumped before him.
She knew that Ross and Phoebe shouldnt see her this way and she bolted past them to the door to her apartment that was still open, letting it casually shut behind her she and ran to her bathroom and locked the door just so anyone who followed her would be left out.
She turned on the water to her sink and looked down to her feet before placing water on her face. She looked at her feet and then to her bathroom tiles, the tiles that Joey had put there for her.
Her body made the heaving motion again and she slupmed in fron tof the toilet thinking that she was going to throw up. Not knowing these strange emotions that were in her, she kept to herself not telling anyone what had hapened