Ok back!!!! But not for long. Damn school and swimming have really cramped my time. Yea yea swimming not diving. But let's not get into that right now…. I've had this down in my English notebook for a while now but haven't found time to type it up. So I'm utilizing my 3-day weekend and the rents leaving me home alone for the weekend. YES!!!!!! Par-tey!!!! Actually no party ..-_-.. My friends and I are to young to hang out without supervision. Okay we aren't that young but our rents wouldn't allow it.

Anyway…… Oh YES I'm supposed to be typing up the next chappy!!! But before I do that I'd like to say that I have FINALLY got my comp. It's an old piece of shit but it's mine!! And the web isn't hooked up yet so until then I still have to use the comp in the living room.

Discalimer: Digimon is not mine!!! I wish it was though. I could have fun with the bois!! Go Yamachi!! Go I Have No Idea How To Spell The Word For Joe And Izzy!! (sry their Japanese names escape me right now as does the word for their pairing. Is it Jyoushirou? Or something different? I don't know *-_-*) (side note: doesn't that kinda look like a chearleader?? I mean if you fix it up and all so it looked like this: ()*-_-*(). The brackets are hair, if you don't know what I'm trying to do and think I'm going insane. Then again I kinda am insane so it doesn't matter.^^;)

Warnings: AU, Yamato angst, I don't know what else I'm going to put in. Oh Yamato doesn't have TK as a little brother. He has little nine-year-old sister named Kira (the name of my future daughter!). Past chapter!!

'Yamato's thoughts'

'Tai's thoughts'

'other people's thoughts'

Untitled (unless all you nice people give me idea's) by Aloh Dark

~~~~~~ 8 years ago ~~~~~

"Yamato come here please."

"Yes Mama."

"Can you hold your sister for me?"

"Yes Mama." A little nine year old Yamato held out his arms to his mother.

"Remember to support her head."

"Uh-huh." He gazed at the sleeping girl in his arms. Who slowly opened her eyes, smiled, and closed them. "Why isn't she making noise? She always makes noise."

"She's sleeping, Sweetheart. You don't make noise when you sleep."

"Oh." He was silent for a moment. "Is Daddy coming home soon?"

"He might. If he doesn't stay away for a few extra days."

"Why is he never here?"

"He has to work, Sweetheart."

"I wish he was home more often."

"Me too." She leaned down and kissed him on the cheek.

Kira squirmed and started to cry.

~~~~~ 2 years later ~~~~~

"Why are you never home? You have a son and daughter that need you here!"

"Unlike you I work for a living! I'm the reason you have a place to call home!! You worthless slut!"

"Call me what you want. But tell me why you hate the children! They've done nothing to you! All they want is for you to be here more often! They need you!"

"Children! I have no children! They aren't mine! So why should I care about them? I bet you can't even remember how many men you slept with before the older one was born!"

"They're yours damn it! Yamato and Kira are both yours! And all you do is ignore them! But when you do pay attention to them it's only to play favorites! Damn it listen to me!"

"Listening to you is what got me into this mess!! If it wasn't for you and those worthless bastards I wouldn't be stuck in this hell hole!"

"Yama what's going on?"

"Shh Kira. Mama and Dad are fighting again."

"Yama?"

"Yea?"

"Why does Daddy always yell at Mama? Why is he always mean?"

"I don't know." But he did. He knew everything that was being said in the next room and what had been said on countless nights before. He wouldn't hurt Kira by telling her what any of it meant.

"Don't you go blaming all of this on the children! It's your own fault that you hate your job! You've had countless offers for better ones but you didn't take them! It's not the children's fault!"

"Why don't you get a job! Help pay the bills for once. All you ever do is make the bills higher! Why should I be the only one paying for things that aren't mine!"

"I can't get a job! I'm needed at home. Yamato and Kira need at least one parent to be around when they need them. Since you're never home and when you are home you treat them like shit, it's up to me to be around!"

"I have to work! I have not time for that parenting crap! If you aren't happy at home then just send them away to boarding school! That'll get the little bastards out of my hair!"

"Send them away?! Send them away??!!! Unlike you I love my children and would never want to get rid of them!"

"Love! HA! You've never loved anything in your life beside yourself! As for my love of them, why should I love another mans children?"

"How dare you!" She slapped him across the face with such force that his head snapped back.

"Why you little BITCH!"

Yamato closed the door before Kira could see what was happening. But the muffled screams and the argument bleed through.

"Yama?"

"Yea?"

"Can I stay with you tonight?"

"Sure."

"…"

"…"

"Yama?"

"Yea?"

"Will you never leave me? Never ever?"

"I will never ever leave you. I promise you Kira. You and Mama are the greatest things in the world to me. You two will always be first in my heart."

"Good."

~~~~~ Several Months Later ~~~~~

"Mr. Ishida?"

"Yes?"

"I'm afraid I have some bad news."

"What is it?"

"I'm sorry to say that she isn't going to recover. She may live six more months at most." The doctor was silent for a moment. "I'm sorry."

Mr. Ishida put his head in his hands and just sat there. "Can I see her?"

"Yes, and you can bring your children."

"Thank you doctor."

Yamato watched his father in disgust. All the sorrow he was showing was just for show. He didn't care that his wife was dieing. He was probably happy about that prospect.

The hospital room was quiet except for the humming and beeping of various machines. And Yamato's world started to crumble as he watched his mother sleep.

He spent everyday at the hospital. Even after his father went on business trips and Kira went back to pre-school. He stayed with his mother. They would talk for endless hours. He loved her more than ever in those days.

When she was allowed to go home it wasn't the same. She couldn't do anything that she used to do. So she set herself up in the living room and did everything she could from there. She was always there for her son. Even though no one else was.

She held on longer than the doctors thought she would but she was still very weak. She slept more and more, and did less and less. But that was no problem since there was always a friend or family member helping out.

Her lack of energy scared Yamato even though he wouldn't admit it. He sat with her constantly. If he wasn't at school or with Kira, he was at his her side. His visits were good for her. They kept her alive. But it was also a bad thing when she died.

It was one of the rare times when she was awake. Yamato sat talking to her about anything and everything. She listened but didn't really respond, she didn't have enough strength. Every once in a while Yamato would stop talking and Kira could be heard talking to Aunt Kiako. It was after one of these instances that she spoke.

"Yamato Sweetheart?" Her voice was frail and soft.

"Yes Mama?"

"I want you to listen very closely to me."

"Yea. Okay." Yamato's voice became a whisper that was just a little louder than his mothers.

"I want you to always take care of your sister. No matter what happens, I want you to be there for her."

"I will. Always. Just like I'll take care of you."

She smiled sadly. "Promise me that even if you two are separated you'll always be there for her. Protect her with your life. You understand?"

"Yes. I understand."

"Thank you Sweetheart. She'll need you. Remember dear, I'll always love you. 'Till the sun doesn't shine. 'Till the end of time. I'll always love you." As she finished she reached out her arms and hugged Yamato with all her love as her strength.

"I love you too Mama." He felt her body go limp. "I'll love you forever." He started to cry. It was the first time he cried in the past few months and would be the last time he cried until he found someone worthy of his tears.

Her funeral was simple. With only family and friends in attendance. Kira didn't understand what was going on and was asking everyone why they were crying. Yamato understood all to well why they were crying. His beloved mother had died in his arms and he couldn't bare to live without her. So he retreated within himself. He became violent and moody towards his father. He did everything he could think of to hurt him.

And through it all he never said a word about his mother. He'd get angry when anyone mentioned her in front of him, so they stopped talking about her to him.

When Yamato went to start school again, he found himself pitted against his father.

"Pack up boy. You're going to boarding school."

"No."

"No? Are you daring to defy me? You will follow my orders. You are going away and you don't have any say in the matter, so pack your bags."

"DAMN YOU DAMN YOU DAMN YOU!!!!"

"Don't you dare speak to me like that! You will show me respect! I'm the only reason you're not out on the streets!"

"Bastard! You don't deserve my respect! You didn't Mothers love! You don't deserve anything! You heartless SON-OF-A-BITCH!!"

A hand swung out and sent Yamato flying into a wall. "You're the son-of-a-bitch and I'm the only thing between you and death. You belong to me and don't you forget it." With that he left, leaving Yamato alone in the room.

Yamato stood up and punched the wall with all his might as he screamed in anger.

The cycle thus began. Yamato would start a grade at one school and would be kicked out at the end of the year. He never made any friends and talked only to his sister.

When his father remarried, Yamato was invited only out of spite. She was a bubbling idiot who's father owned a rival company. When she died in childbirth, his father seemed genuinely upset. Then his father-in-law died and his company grew immensely.

Yamato was 15 and finally stopped lashing out at everyone and made a friend, Sei Aoki. Sei's red hair, blue eyes, and pale freckled skin bespoke of a non-Japanese background. Over time he fell in love. Yamato had known he was gay even before he meet Sei so it didn't scare him when he fell.

When Sei and Yamato finally got together, Yamato's precedent of violence stopped. He began to actually do his homework and pass tests. He stayed out of trouble, all because he wanted to stay with Sei. But these acts caused suspicion to rise in his father.

Unfortunately Yamato's father paid him an unexpected visit. Yamato and Sei were taking care of the horses at the time his father came and were taking a 'break' when his father walked.

When the boys finally realized someone was there, it was too late. Their silent spectator was fuming and ready to kill.

"Father!" Yamato said in surprise and horror. "What are you doing here?"

"I knew something was wrong when you became civilized. But God damn it, I never thought you'd actually do this." He started to sound slightly amused, but Yamato knew that he was anything but. Mr. Ishida laughed. "Who would have thought that my son," His voice went hard and his eyes icy. "My own son would be a back door bandit. A fruit, a queer, a fag. My own son would be a God Damn PERVERT!!" The last word was screamed and both boys visibly flinched.

"I think I should go. This seems to be a privet matter." Sei said.

"No you stay!"

"Father. He can go!" Yamato's voice was colder than his fathers.

"Are you defying me?! I thought we settled that issue. But let me refresh your memory. Nobody defies me!" Yamato's wind was knocked out of him by a punch in the gut.

"Yama! Yama are you alright?" Sei kneeled over him as he caught his breath.

"Sei go."

"But…"

"Sei. GO!"

With a last fleeting look Sei walked away.

Yamato was in the infirmary for three days after that day and Mr. Ishida blamed it on Sei. But the charges were dropped when both Sei and Yamato left school.

After that things between Yamato and his father got worse. But instead of lashing out Yamato withdrew completely inside himself. Nothing could draw him out. But after a few months Kira came home from school. He only came out for her. Seeing this weakness, his father exploited it. He tried to cut off all communication between the two but their aunt wouldn't stand for it.

Their mothers sister Harumi, affectionately called 'Aunt Rumi', kept them together. They would send each other letters through her. Aside from Kira, she was the only person Yamato cared for.

She helped Yamato to control and conceal his emotions around his father. She also got him wanted reading material and she also sneaked him some other magazines. (AN: Hint Hint Wink Wink Nudge Nudge)

Three months before Yamato's 17th birthday, his father celebrated his third marriage. This time to a blond American that, like the last, was an idiot but even more so than the one before. Her name was Jennifer McPherson. (AN: Hehehe)

She insisted that Kira and Yamato call her 'Mom' or 'Mother' or 'Step Mother' in the least. Kira could barely remember her real mother or her first step mother, so she readily accepted her. But Yamato closed off his heart, mind, and soul from her.

After a while she became home sick and they moved back to New York with her.

AN:I don't really like the ending but it's okay. Some life Yamato's had, wasn't it great? No not really but that was his life. Oh I didn't like the agument between Yama's parents so if you give me any suggestions on how to make it better I'll probly use them when/if I revamp this. Well it's Ashleigh's B-day so I'm gonna call her before it's to late. Then Alana and I are going out for pizza!!!!! Yes!!!! PIZZA MANIA here we come!!