Summary: This is post " Selfless", but Anya goes back with Xander instead of leaving. He tries to help her ease her pain, but he also has to live with his friends and what they think about this.

Pairings: mostly X/A

Rating: ummmm not sure between PG- PG13

A/N: I've tired fan fiction before but it never goes well lol. So I would really like you to read and review so I can approve my writing and maybe actually keep this story going.

Disclaimer: we all know what this means right? But if ya don't here it is I don't own the characters the people that write Buffy do so don't go suing me.

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It was around 7:00 when Willow had come over. They were all sitting around the table. No one was talking and the food sat there untouched.

Xander looked around at everyone very nervously. He could sense the tension in the room just by the blank stares. He looked over at Anya who was obliviously staring into space. Then Willow who looked like she was praying or something just moving her lips but making no sound.

Anya had on sweats and a tank top. She didn't feel like dressing up and Xander didn't make her. Even though she might have felt more comfortable naked but Willow was there and she was well gay and single so she decided too keep her clothes on.

Willow looked at the food wondering if this was going to be all they were going to do. She was mumbling a calm spell under her breath for Anya so she would at least eat something. The last thing she wanted was Anya being sick because then she would have to come over here more often. Not that she didn't like Xander or Anya is was just that she wasn't used to being here.

Xander was the one to break the silence in the room " so Will you hungry?" He scooped some mashed potatoes onto his plate.

" Yes I'm so hungry I could eat a cow well not literally because that would be bad" she took a roll and some green beans and started eating.

"What about you Ahn you want some potatoes? I know how much you like them" he picked up the bowel and scooped some unto her plate and smiled.

Anya sat there just looking at them like they were insane. She wasn't very hungry but she knew that if she didn't at least eat something they would probably call on the National Guard or something. So she smiled a little and nodded, Xander taught her to do that when she was confused her didn't want to say something rude, and she picked up her spoon and started to eat little bits at a time.

" So what did you two do all day?" Willow said trying to get Anya to talk at least a couple words. She wasn't used to seeing her this quite before and honestly she was a bit worried. When she called Xander she didn't believe what he said to her she thought he was just well being Xander but now she knew what he meant.

" Well we watched some TV and slept...tell her what we watched Ahn?" He said as if he was talking to a child.

Anya still just looked at him like he was completely nuts while she played with her food. Why is he treating me like I'm two? I'm older than them two combined!

" We watched something very adolescent because little Xander here thinks it's funny. And stop talking to be like I'm 2 years old! If I want to talk I'll talk!" She got up from her seat knocking the chair over and went into the bedroom slamming the door closed.

" I'm sorry Will. I don't know what's gotten in two her" he shook his head.

" I think I do" and with that she got up and headed into the room.

Willow knocked on the door " Can I come in?"

" No go away!" And Anya buried her face into a pillow.

" You see that's thing I'm your friend and I'm here to help you" she said while sitting next to her on the bed.

" You don't understand what I'm going through" she looked at her tears in her eyes.

Willow sighed " Actually I do remember? Me going all gothic?"

" That was different you didn't kill your best friend" she said.

" Actually I almost did but that's beside the point. I know how much anger you have stored up. So come on bring it on" she stood up and got in a fighting position.

" I don't want to fight you" is all she could say but inside she wanted to give her a good punch.

" Oh come on I know you hate me ...." And she goes to her and stands her up.

" I do but no" and she stands firm.

Willow punches her slightly in the arm. Then Anya gets really pissed and punches her in the nose.

" Oh god I'm sorry" Anya said and she goes to hug Willow but instead Willow punches her again in the arm.

" That's it you're asking for it" and Anya kicks her " Oh Willow please stop it. I can't deal with it"

" You see Anya no matter what you do to me I'm never going to stop being your friend...that's how Xander stopped me from destroying the world. And you have to see that Halfreck forgives you because it wasn't your fault." And Willow goes over to her and hugs a sobbing Anya.

Xander heard the commotion out in the dining room and went into the bedroom thinking that Willow went all out on Anya, but it was the other way around. He saw them hugging and joined in. This is how it's supposed to be.