Title: Never again
Author: Jessica
Email: j_rothen@yahoo.se
Distribution: Wherever...just let me know where
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG
Feedback: YES please....j_rothen@yahoo.se
Pairing: Lorelai/Luke
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS. Poem is called "Fly"
and I wrote it.
Summary: Follows "Remember me" It's been six months since Luke
left Stars Hollow. He finally comes back.
AUTHORS NOTE: English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistakes may occur.
" Give me wings and let me fly.
Come all angels and mend this shattered soul.
Lift me away from this crazy world of mine.
Close my eyes and let me be blind for a while.
Let me be small again.
Take me in you arms and rock me to sleep.
I want to hide,
Take away my life,
I don't need it anymore.
Let me die,
put me to sleep.
Because I know,
that nothing can ever
be good
again."
------------------
Never again
by: Jessica
-----------------
Time pass so quickly these days.
Autumn came and went.
I never even noticed the changing of season.
I go about my day as usual.
He took my heart when he left.
I guess I'm doing fine.
I'm still standing.
I'm still breathing.
_________________
God, how I missed her.
It comes nights when she comes to me in my dreams.
In the shape of an angel.
I try to reach her.
But she always slips from my grasp.
I can never reach her.
It's been almost six months now since I left
Stars Hollow.
It feels like a lifetime.
Yesterday.
I have tried to drive her out of my heart.
I worked day and night,
convinced that I could make it out here
alone.
I was wrong.
I was wrong in so many ways.
I tried to run away.
From her.
From my heart.
From everything.
It's time to set things right.
To go back to where everything started.
Home again.
__________________
I have found myself walking by the diner several times.
Searching for him.
Longing for him.
I know that it's time to let go.
He is not coming back.
I have to accept that.
It's time to let go.
--------------
Luke Danes came back to Stars Hollow one rainy morning in the
middle of November.
He didn't ride into town on a white stallion.
He came driving his old, rusty, truck.
By noon everyone knew that he was back.
Even Lorelai Gilmore.
--------------
I stood a long time in the darkness of the diner just
taking everything in.
It felt good to be back.
All the memories I had from this place came back
all at once.
I couldn't help but smile.
I was back.
And nothing could make me leave again.
Not even her.
___________________
It was dark when I finally worked up the courage and
went to him.
My hands trembled as I knocked on the door to the
diner.
He appeared in the doorway.
His hair was shorter.
He had a nice tan.
No baseball-cap.
No flannel-shirt.
He was dressed in jeans and a white t-shirt.
My mind went blank when our eyes met.
Luke.
He smiled at me and said my name.
Then I was in his arms.
He lifted me up and spanned me around.
He shut the door with his foot and carried me into the diner.
He put me down and looked at me:
"Nice to see you, Lorelai."
God, he looked good.
I couldn't help but smile.
He was nothing like I had imagined.
"You look good, Luke."
"Yeah. I feel great."
"So, where have you been?"
He seemed to glow.
"Everywhere and nowhere...How is everything? Rory? Max?"
"Oh, Rory is just great. Working hard. You know, Rory."
"And Max?"
I avoided his eyes when I spoke:
"Oh, it didn't work out."
"Divorce?"
"No. We never married."
"But, why!?"
BECAUSE I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU
But I hadn't the strength to tell him.
At least not yet.
"He wasn't the one for me."
I looked into his eyes and saw concern there.
A soft place to fall.
A shoulder to cry on.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I know how much you loved him."
He took me into his arms without question.
It felt so good to be held.
I stood there with my head against his chest,
listening to his heartbeat.
"I'm here if you want to talk."
"You better."
"I swear."
I broke free from his arms and looked at him:
"Don't go out on another one of those "find yourself trips".
You belong here."
"Yes mum."
He smiled.
His smile took me in.
Crumbling.
Falling.
TELL HIM! TELL HIM!!!
I refused to listen.
"Or else I might have to kick your ass."
He laughed.
God, how I had missed him.
"You wouldn't stand a chance."
I punched him playfully in the arm and said:
"Try me."
"I don't think so."
"Chicken."
I moved towards the door.
It was time to leave.
But I would be back.
To win his heart.
To love him.
One day.
But not today.
He looked at me, smiled and said:
"I have missed you, Lorelai."
"And I you. Don't you ever leave again."
"I won't."
Then I turned around and walked out of the diner.
---------------------------
Luke opened up the diner the next morning.
Things went back to normal.
We saw each other everyday.
We laughed.
We quarreled.
I never told him.
I buried everything in the past,
convinced that it would be better off
there.
I never knew how wrong I was.
________________________
November turned into December and
Christmas approached.
With that the local Christmas party at the Inn.
Dinner, dancing, presents.
Everything for my friends.
For Stars Hollow.
____________
I stood in the doorway to the ballroom on the
night of the party watching my guest.
I was dressed in a black dress.
I was ready now.
He was nowhere to be found.
And that hurt.
---------------
She came to me just before midnight.
Looking lovely.
Perfect.
She stood in the middle of the diner.
Eyes glowing.
"So, where were you?"
"What do you mean?"
I had just closed the diner.
I was just about to start cleaning up when she burst through
my door.
"The party. My party. Remember? You were invited."
"Oh, I remember. I just..."
I had wanted to go.
Believe me.
But fear had a hold of my heart.
Fear that she might see through me.
That she might know what was in my heart.
I couldn't take another heartache.
I couldn't stand rejection.
Not again.
So I had stayed away.
It was enough that I had to see her everyday,
knowing that she never could be mine.
I just couldn't stand dancing with her, holding
her close.
Not again.
"You just. What? Just didn't care."
She moved towards me.
I backed away from her.
"No. I had the diner and I don't like those things..You know that."
"Yes, I know. I just thought you might make a exception this time."
--------
I wanted to scream in his face.
I wanted to scream out load.
I wanted to do something, anything to kill
the voices in my ear that scream that I had lost this fight.
I refused to believe that.
He was standing just an armslenght away.
Him.
Luke.
"I'm sorry."
His eyes were dark as he spoke.
I wish I could read his mind.
But I never could and I never will.
"I wanted you there.."
"I know.."
He moved towards me.
His eyes were on fire, glowing.
Like a tiger.
He stopped in front of me and looked at me:
"You are beautiful."
"I guess you say that to all the girls."
He smiled.
Falling for him.
Longing for him.
Needing him.
Crumbling.
"No."
He was so close that I almost could hear his heartbeat.
My hands shivered as I framed his face between my hands.
I didn't care what was right and proper.
I didn't care if he might push me away.
I needed this to survive.
I needed him.
Everything about him.
It was time to open my heart to him.
To give him my heart.
To tell him the truth.
"I love you, Luke."
Then I kissed him.
His lips were soft against mine.
I trembled as he opened my mouth with his tongue.
Magic.
Heaven.
Suddenly he broke away from me and looked at me.
His eyes were still dark with desire.
"I can't do this."
"Luke..."
"No, you don't understand."
"Please."
I reached out my hand for him but he backed away.
"No. You just can't come in here and say that."
"It's the truth."
"You lie."
"No. I don't know how or when it happened. But I have fallen in
love with you. Maybe it was there all along. I don't know."
"Stop saying that!"
He moved away from me.
I reached out for him but he avoided my hand.
I was left feeling so cold.
"Luke..It's the truth. I love you. I want to be with you."
Silence.
He turned his back and walked up to the window.
It was snowing outside.
His silence ate at my heart causing it to tremble in my chest.
"You don't understand. I gave my heart to you and you never saw it.."
"Oh, Luke...I'm..."
"You never saw me...You never noticed."
"I know that I have been blind..."
He turned towards me.
Pain in his eyes.
"I did everything for you. I could have laid down my life for you.
I had never loved anyone the way I loved you and Rory. You were
everything..."
"Luke, please..."
"No."
"Don't do this.."
"Do you know why I left?"
"No."
"I couldn't stand seeing you with Max. You broke my heart the day
you came here and told me that you were going to marry him. I left
because I needed you out of my system. I wanted to drive you out
of my heart for once."
I moved towards him.
I was losing him again.
I could feel it.
Pain ate at my heart as he looked at me.
"I thought I might die if I saw you...again...Knowing that I could
never have you...."
"I love you, Luke. I could never..."
"I could never take another heartache. How can I trust that you
won't wake up one day and walk away from me...that you decide
that you don't love me anymore? That I'm not the ONE.
I couldn't take you leaving me. Not again. Not ever.
It would kill me."
"Oh, no..Luke..I love you."
I was pleading for my bleeding heart.
For him.
For me.
For us.
I was losing.
"I can't, Lorelai. Not again...."
"But..."
He turned away from me.
Shattered.
Broken.
I had a hard time breathing.
I moved closer.
I reached out my hand for him.
In my head a little voice was pleading for him to take it.
But he didn't.
And that hurt.
"Don't do this."
"Please, leave."
Pain.
This couldn't be happening.
"Luke, I LOVE YOU. Damn you, but I love you."
"I wish I could believe you."
I could almost feel my heart shatter into millions of pieces.
Bleeding inside.
I moved towards the door.
Tears made my sight blurry.
I opened the door with my hands trembling.
I looked back at him.
Silence.
Pain.
There were no more to say.
No more words I could say to convince him.
I had lost.
"Goodbye."
I bowed my head, closed the door behind me
and walked away from him.
---------------------------
I stood along time by the window starring out into
the darken night.
I knew that I had to move eventually.
I feared that if I moved my heart would shatter into
pieces.
All I could see was her.
All I could hear was her voice.
All I could feel was her lips against mine.
I had wanted so much to believe her.
There was nothing else that I had wanted.
But I couldn't.
I was a coward.
I feared jumping.
I read somewhere that love was like a jump right into the
thin air.
Maybe that was true.
I don't know.
I had to do this to survive.
------------------------
I walked through the streets of this town slowly but surely
falling apart.
All I had on was my dress and a coat.
I was cold.
I was shivering.
It's amazing that I still could breathe.
I know that I had to go home.
They would look for me.
But I needed to be alone.
Just a minute.
Just an hour.
To mend my heart.
To save my soul.
It had stopped snowing when I approached my house.
Rory was staying with Lane tonight.
Alone.
The stars had come out to play as I walked the
path to my house.
He was standing on the porch.
Him.
Luke.
He looked straight at me.
Why had he come?
To torment me?
To hurt me?
He walked towards me.
I stopped and looked at him.
His eyes were dark as he spoke:
"Lorelai, I..."
"Why are you here, Luke?"
"I need to explain."
I didn't want this.
I couldn't take this.
"I think everything that needed to be said have been said."
I wanted to run as far away as possible from him.
I wanted to save my heart.
I walked by him.
He grabbed my hand and made me look at him.
"No, you're wrong! I love you, Lorelai."
Anger and pain ate at my heart as I looked at him.
Was this all a game?
"Damn you, Luke."
I placed my hands on his chest and pushed hard.
He stumbled backwards.
"I was wrong. I can see that now."
"Damn, you. I told you the truth tonight and you just..."
"I'm so sorry, Lorelai. But I was scared."
He reached for me but I avoided him.
"Everybody is scared. Don't you think I was scared when I went to
you and gave you my heart. But you tossed aside like it was nothing."
"No it was nothing. I'm sorry that I hurt you..."
He moved towards me.
His scent took me in.
Falling.
Again.
I moved away from him, afraid that I might fall once again.
"You did. I meant every word I said."
"And I meant every word I said."
I looked at the man I loved and every bone in my body screamed out
to touch him.
But I needed to be strong now.
"Luke, I..."
He moved fast.
He was in front of me in a second.
Holding me.
"I will never leave you. I will love you with everything that I am."
"Let go of me."
"Never. Not until you give in."
I looked up at him, determined to win this fight.
He had broken my heart.
"Luke!"
"No"
"Let go of me! I'll scream."
"Scream all you want. I don't think anyone would care."
I struggled to get loose.
But it only made him hold me even tighter.
"STOP THIS!"
"No I will hold on to you. Forever if it takes."
I looked at him.
I wanted so much to let go and let myself love him.
Let myself believe that we could make it.
But what if kept chasing me around.
The things that he had said that night kept chasing me
around.
What if it was true?
"Please, Luke.."
"No. I love you, Lorelai Gilmore. I can't promise you that it will
all turn out right in the end. I can't promise you heaven. All I
can promise is myself. I'm giving you my heart to do what you like
with."
He let go of me.
I wanted to turn around and walk away from him.
But I didn't know how to let go of him.
Not again.
Not ever.
Maybe his words were true.
Maybe we can't know that all of this will turn out right in the end.
All I know is that I can't stand losing him.
Not again.
Never again.
I moved towards him.
"I love you, Luke."
He smiled.
Then he lowered his mouth to mine and kissed me.
I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him closer to me.
He opened up to me.
As our tongues met all sanity was lost.
Time and room stopped existing.
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FEEDBACK_____YES PLEASE____j_rothen@yahoo.se
Author: Jessica
Email: j_rothen@yahoo.se
Distribution: Wherever...just let me know where
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG
Feedback: YES please....j_rothen@yahoo.se
Pairing: Lorelai/Luke
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS. Poem is called "Fly"
and I wrote it.
Summary: Follows "Remember me" It's been six months since Luke
left Stars Hollow. He finally comes back.
AUTHORS NOTE: English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistakes may occur.
" Give me wings and let me fly.
Come all angels and mend this shattered soul.
Lift me away from this crazy world of mine.
Close my eyes and let me be blind for a while.
Let me be small again.
Take me in you arms and rock me to sleep.
I want to hide,
Take away my life,
I don't need it anymore.
Let me die,
put me to sleep.
Because I know,
that nothing can ever
be good
again."
------------------
Never again
by: Jessica
-----------------
Time pass so quickly these days.
Autumn came and went.
I never even noticed the changing of season.
I go about my day as usual.
He took my heart when he left.
I guess I'm doing fine.
I'm still standing.
I'm still breathing.
_________________
God, how I missed her.
It comes nights when she comes to me in my dreams.
In the shape of an angel.
I try to reach her.
But she always slips from my grasp.
I can never reach her.
It's been almost six months now since I left
Stars Hollow.
It feels like a lifetime.
Yesterday.
I have tried to drive her out of my heart.
I worked day and night,
convinced that I could make it out here
alone.
I was wrong.
I was wrong in so many ways.
I tried to run away.
From her.
From my heart.
From everything.
It's time to set things right.
To go back to where everything started.
Home again.
__________________
I have found myself walking by the diner several times.
Searching for him.
Longing for him.
I know that it's time to let go.
He is not coming back.
I have to accept that.
It's time to let go.
--------------
Luke Danes came back to Stars Hollow one rainy morning in the
middle of November.
He didn't ride into town on a white stallion.
He came driving his old, rusty, truck.
By noon everyone knew that he was back.
Even Lorelai Gilmore.
--------------
I stood a long time in the darkness of the diner just
taking everything in.
It felt good to be back.
All the memories I had from this place came back
all at once.
I couldn't help but smile.
I was back.
And nothing could make me leave again.
Not even her.
___________________
It was dark when I finally worked up the courage and
went to him.
My hands trembled as I knocked on the door to the
diner.
He appeared in the doorway.
His hair was shorter.
He had a nice tan.
No baseball-cap.
No flannel-shirt.
He was dressed in jeans and a white t-shirt.
My mind went blank when our eyes met.
Luke.
He smiled at me and said my name.
Then I was in his arms.
He lifted me up and spanned me around.
He shut the door with his foot and carried me into the diner.
He put me down and looked at me:
"Nice to see you, Lorelai."
God, he looked good.
I couldn't help but smile.
He was nothing like I had imagined.
"You look good, Luke."
"Yeah. I feel great."
"So, where have you been?"
He seemed to glow.
"Everywhere and nowhere...How is everything? Rory? Max?"
"Oh, Rory is just great. Working hard. You know, Rory."
"And Max?"
I avoided his eyes when I spoke:
"Oh, it didn't work out."
"Divorce?"
"No. We never married."
"But, why!?"
BECAUSE I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU
But I hadn't the strength to tell him.
At least not yet.
"He wasn't the one for me."
I looked into his eyes and saw concern there.
A soft place to fall.
A shoulder to cry on.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I know how much you loved him."
He took me into his arms without question.
It felt so good to be held.
I stood there with my head against his chest,
listening to his heartbeat.
"I'm here if you want to talk."
"You better."
"I swear."
I broke free from his arms and looked at him:
"Don't go out on another one of those "find yourself trips".
You belong here."
"Yes mum."
He smiled.
His smile took me in.
Crumbling.
Falling.
TELL HIM! TELL HIM!!!
I refused to listen.
"Or else I might have to kick your ass."
He laughed.
God, how I had missed him.
"You wouldn't stand a chance."
I punched him playfully in the arm and said:
"Try me."
"I don't think so."
"Chicken."
I moved towards the door.
It was time to leave.
But I would be back.
To win his heart.
To love him.
One day.
But not today.
He looked at me, smiled and said:
"I have missed you, Lorelai."
"And I you. Don't you ever leave again."
"I won't."
Then I turned around and walked out of the diner.
---------------------------
Luke opened up the diner the next morning.
Things went back to normal.
We saw each other everyday.
We laughed.
We quarreled.
I never told him.
I buried everything in the past,
convinced that it would be better off
there.
I never knew how wrong I was.
________________________
November turned into December and
Christmas approached.
With that the local Christmas party at the Inn.
Dinner, dancing, presents.
Everything for my friends.
For Stars Hollow.
____________
I stood in the doorway to the ballroom on the
night of the party watching my guest.
I was dressed in a black dress.
I was ready now.
He was nowhere to be found.
And that hurt.
---------------
She came to me just before midnight.
Looking lovely.
Perfect.
She stood in the middle of the diner.
Eyes glowing.
"So, where were you?"
"What do you mean?"
I had just closed the diner.
I was just about to start cleaning up when she burst through
my door.
"The party. My party. Remember? You were invited."
"Oh, I remember. I just..."
I had wanted to go.
Believe me.
But fear had a hold of my heart.
Fear that she might see through me.
That she might know what was in my heart.
I couldn't take another heartache.
I couldn't stand rejection.
Not again.
So I had stayed away.
It was enough that I had to see her everyday,
knowing that she never could be mine.
I just couldn't stand dancing with her, holding
her close.
Not again.
"You just. What? Just didn't care."
She moved towards me.
I backed away from her.
"No. I had the diner and I don't like those things..You know that."
"Yes, I know. I just thought you might make a exception this time."
--------
I wanted to scream in his face.
I wanted to scream out load.
I wanted to do something, anything to kill
the voices in my ear that scream that I had lost this fight.
I refused to believe that.
He was standing just an armslenght away.
Him.
Luke.
"I'm sorry."
His eyes were dark as he spoke.
I wish I could read his mind.
But I never could and I never will.
"I wanted you there.."
"I know.."
He moved towards me.
His eyes were on fire, glowing.
Like a tiger.
He stopped in front of me and looked at me:
"You are beautiful."
"I guess you say that to all the girls."
He smiled.
Falling for him.
Longing for him.
Needing him.
Crumbling.
"No."
He was so close that I almost could hear his heartbeat.
My hands shivered as I framed his face between my hands.
I didn't care what was right and proper.
I didn't care if he might push me away.
I needed this to survive.
I needed him.
Everything about him.
It was time to open my heart to him.
To give him my heart.
To tell him the truth.
"I love you, Luke."
Then I kissed him.
His lips were soft against mine.
I trembled as he opened my mouth with his tongue.
Magic.
Heaven.
Suddenly he broke away from me and looked at me.
His eyes were still dark with desire.
"I can't do this."
"Luke..."
"No, you don't understand."
"Please."
I reached out my hand for him but he backed away.
"No. You just can't come in here and say that."
"It's the truth."
"You lie."
"No. I don't know how or when it happened. But I have fallen in
love with you. Maybe it was there all along. I don't know."
"Stop saying that!"
He moved away from me.
I reached out for him but he avoided my hand.
I was left feeling so cold.
"Luke..It's the truth. I love you. I want to be with you."
Silence.
He turned his back and walked up to the window.
It was snowing outside.
His silence ate at my heart causing it to tremble in my chest.
"You don't understand. I gave my heart to you and you never saw it.."
"Oh, Luke...I'm..."
"You never saw me...You never noticed."
"I know that I have been blind..."
He turned towards me.
Pain in his eyes.
"I did everything for you. I could have laid down my life for you.
I had never loved anyone the way I loved you and Rory. You were
everything..."
"Luke, please..."
"No."
"Don't do this.."
"Do you know why I left?"
"No."
"I couldn't stand seeing you with Max. You broke my heart the day
you came here and told me that you were going to marry him. I left
because I needed you out of my system. I wanted to drive you out
of my heart for once."
I moved towards him.
I was losing him again.
I could feel it.
Pain ate at my heart as he looked at me.
"I thought I might die if I saw you...again...Knowing that I could
never have you...."
"I love you, Luke. I could never..."
"I could never take another heartache. How can I trust that you
won't wake up one day and walk away from me...that you decide
that you don't love me anymore? That I'm not the ONE.
I couldn't take you leaving me. Not again. Not ever.
It would kill me."
"Oh, no..Luke..I love you."
I was pleading for my bleeding heart.
For him.
For me.
For us.
I was losing.
"I can't, Lorelai. Not again...."
"But..."
He turned away from me.
Shattered.
Broken.
I had a hard time breathing.
I moved closer.
I reached out my hand for him.
In my head a little voice was pleading for him to take it.
But he didn't.
And that hurt.
"Don't do this."
"Please, leave."
Pain.
This couldn't be happening.
"Luke, I LOVE YOU. Damn you, but I love you."
"I wish I could believe you."
I could almost feel my heart shatter into millions of pieces.
Bleeding inside.
I moved towards the door.
Tears made my sight blurry.
I opened the door with my hands trembling.
I looked back at him.
Silence.
Pain.
There were no more to say.
No more words I could say to convince him.
I had lost.
"Goodbye."
I bowed my head, closed the door behind me
and walked away from him.
---------------------------
I stood along time by the window starring out into
the darken night.
I knew that I had to move eventually.
I feared that if I moved my heart would shatter into
pieces.
All I could see was her.
All I could hear was her voice.
All I could feel was her lips against mine.
I had wanted so much to believe her.
There was nothing else that I had wanted.
But I couldn't.
I was a coward.
I feared jumping.
I read somewhere that love was like a jump right into the
thin air.
Maybe that was true.
I don't know.
I had to do this to survive.
------------------------
I walked through the streets of this town slowly but surely
falling apart.
All I had on was my dress and a coat.
I was cold.
I was shivering.
It's amazing that I still could breathe.
I know that I had to go home.
They would look for me.
But I needed to be alone.
Just a minute.
Just an hour.
To mend my heart.
To save my soul.
It had stopped snowing when I approached my house.
Rory was staying with Lane tonight.
Alone.
The stars had come out to play as I walked the
path to my house.
He was standing on the porch.
Him.
Luke.
He looked straight at me.
Why had he come?
To torment me?
To hurt me?
He walked towards me.
I stopped and looked at him.
His eyes were dark as he spoke:
"Lorelai, I..."
"Why are you here, Luke?"
"I need to explain."
I didn't want this.
I couldn't take this.
"I think everything that needed to be said have been said."
I wanted to run as far away as possible from him.
I wanted to save my heart.
I walked by him.
He grabbed my hand and made me look at him.
"No, you're wrong! I love you, Lorelai."
Anger and pain ate at my heart as I looked at him.
Was this all a game?
"Damn you, Luke."
I placed my hands on his chest and pushed hard.
He stumbled backwards.
"I was wrong. I can see that now."
"Damn, you. I told you the truth tonight and you just..."
"I'm so sorry, Lorelai. But I was scared."
He reached for me but I avoided him.
"Everybody is scared. Don't you think I was scared when I went to
you and gave you my heart. But you tossed aside like it was nothing."
"No it was nothing. I'm sorry that I hurt you..."
He moved towards me.
His scent took me in.
Falling.
Again.
I moved away from him, afraid that I might fall once again.
"You did. I meant every word I said."
"And I meant every word I said."
I looked at the man I loved and every bone in my body screamed out
to touch him.
But I needed to be strong now.
"Luke, I..."
He moved fast.
He was in front of me in a second.
Holding me.
"I will never leave you. I will love you with everything that I am."
"Let go of me."
"Never. Not until you give in."
I looked up at him, determined to win this fight.
He had broken my heart.
"Luke!"
"No"
"Let go of me! I'll scream."
"Scream all you want. I don't think anyone would care."
I struggled to get loose.
But it only made him hold me even tighter.
"STOP THIS!"
"No I will hold on to you. Forever if it takes."
I looked at him.
I wanted so much to let go and let myself love him.
Let myself believe that we could make it.
But what if kept chasing me around.
The things that he had said that night kept chasing me
around.
What if it was true?
"Please, Luke.."
"No. I love you, Lorelai Gilmore. I can't promise you that it will
all turn out right in the end. I can't promise you heaven. All I
can promise is myself. I'm giving you my heart to do what you like
with."
He let go of me.
I wanted to turn around and walk away from him.
But I didn't know how to let go of him.
Not again.
Not ever.
Maybe his words were true.
Maybe we can't know that all of this will turn out right in the end.
All I know is that I can't stand losing him.
Not again.
Never again.
I moved towards him.
"I love you, Luke."
He smiled.
Then he lowered his mouth to mine and kissed me.
I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him closer to me.
He opened up to me.
As our tongues met all sanity was lost.
Time and room stopped existing.
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