Title: Sweet surrender
Author: Jessica
Email: j_rothen@yahoo.se
Distribution: Wherever...just let me know where
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG
Feedback: YES please....j_rothen@yahoo.se
Pairing: Lorelai/Luke
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS. Lyrics from the song
"Broken road" by.?
Summary: Luke& Lorelai thinking about the past, present and the future.
AUTHORS NOTE: Thank you so much to everyone who had said so nice
things...You don't know how much that means to me...THANK you so much.
Tack.
English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistakes may occur.
--------------------------
"I set out on a narrow way
Many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road.
But I got lost a time or two
I wiped my brow, kept bushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you..."/
-----------------------
Sweet surrender
by: Jessica
-------------
I'm lying here watching her sleep.
The moon comes in through the window
and paints her face in silver.
I know that I should be sleeping.
But I can't.
She occupies my senses.
Fills me up.
Moves my heart.
It's amazing.
I have never felt like this before.
So alive.
It feels like I could fly.
I smile into the dark.
Then I close my eyes and let
my dreams take me away.
------------
I woke slowly.
The morning-sun warmed my face.
He was still sleeping.
I couldn't help but smile.
I moved closer to him.
Wanting to feel the warmth of his body.
My hands trembled as I reached out and let my
fingertips trace his lips.
Soft.
Magic.
Heaven.
He moved in his sleep.
I could still taste him.
"Stop looking at me, Lorelai."
He had still his eyes shut.
"Well, it's not everyday you're in my bed, Luke Danes."
"You better get use to it."
I smiled.
Silence followed.
I didn't want to leave his side.
Feeling restless.
"So what do you want to do today?"
"Lorelai, I'm sleeping!!!"
"But..."
"Lorelai!"
"But..."
"Sleep!!"
He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer.
I leaned my head against his shoulder.
I laughed.
----------
I can't remember when exactly it happened.
Maybe it always has been her.
I had given up on love when she came along.
I was so convinced that there was no such thing as
the greatest love at all.
It was just talk.
I was content with living my life alone.
I can't say that it was easy.
It came nights when I crumbled.
When loneliness ate at my heart.
Wanting something I couldn't have.
But then she came along.
Changed my world.
I remember when I first saw her.
She was standing on the street outside
the diner with a little girl by her side.
The girl couldn't be old.
Maybe eight, nine.
They were beautiful.
Perfect.
She walked into my diner.
So full of life.
Ordering coffee.
She took my hand and said her name was Lorelai.
Then she smiled.
It was the end of me.
I fell.
Hard.
-------------
He had fallen asleep again.
But I can't sleep.
The sun warms my face as I study him.
I know every line of his face.
It's amazing how light my heart feels.
It feels like I'm floating on clouds.
I have never felt like this before.
This alive.
I remember the day he stepped into my life.
I was so young then.
25.
I thought I knew everything.
I could make it through whatever obstacle life put in front of me.
He was the first person that never judges me.
We became friends that day.
He became part of my world.
I can't remember when I fell in love with him.
It came slowly.
Never rushed.
But I feared my heart.
Fearing that I might make a mistake.
Fearing that I might lose him forever.
I had made so many mistakes.
It seems sometimes that my whole life has
all been a line of mistakes.
But I'm still learning.
So I stayed away.
Convinced that I was better off.
Oh, you know the rest...
I smile.
I rise from the bed.
The house is still sleeping.
I already miss his touch.
His arms around me.
Needing coffee.
I look at the bed.
He is still sleeping.
I make my way downstairs.
Rory is still sleeping.
I don't want to wake her.
I grab a cup of coffee and head outside.
To the sun.
I sit down on the stairs and let my eyes drift
over my backyard.
I can't help but smile.
------------------
I woke up lonely.
An empty bed beside me.
She wasn't there.
Fear gripped at my heart.
Missing her.
I rubbed my tired eyes.
She had come to me in my dreams.
She brought my soul peace.
Angel of mine.
Perfect.
I rise from the bed.
Missing her touch.
Missing her.
----------------
I never thought love would come in the shape of this man.
Luke.
Friend.
He knows me by heart.
All of me.
When I was younger I imagined a great love.
A prince.
Even a castle.
I thought love should be something grand.
I thought only true love could be from someone...big...
Oh, I don't know.
I had my crushes.
I have had several boyfriends.
My mother didn't like that.
She wanted a nice boy.
A good boy.
A rice boy.
But I wanted something different.
Someone that could move my heart.
That really saw me.
Then Christopher came along.
I loved him.
He was my first real love.
Once I thought he might be my only love.
He was perfect.
He was so different from the others.
He was real.
True.
For the first time I felt free.
Completely free.
Not bound to what was right and proper.
He saw me for what I really was back then:
a wild-child.
But then reality hit.
Rory.
A child.
I grew up so fast.
I had to.
Christopher freaked.
I can't blame him.
He wasn't ready.
I wasn't ready.
I stepped out into the world carrying a child.
I fell in love again.
With her.
The first kick was like magic to my frozen heart.
It's an incredible thing to feel it move inside of you.
I never thought I could love that little thing that
grew below my heart.
But I did.
I can't describe the feeling when she finally arrived.
When I first healed her.
Miracle.
She was so lovely.
So perfect.
She is a part of me now.
My child.
I am complete now.
"What are you dreaming about?"
His voice woke me.
He is standing in the doorway to my kitchen.
He is dressed in a t-shirt and boxers.
He has a blanket wrapped around him.
I smile at him.
He walks over and sits down beside me.
"I missed you. You shouldn't leave like that. You should have woken me up"
"You were sleeping."
"Don't leave like that."
His words warm my heart.
He wraps his arms around me and pulls me to him.
I lean my head against his chest.
He wraps the blanket around us both and we sit there watching as
the sun makes its way across the sky.
Safe again.
"Okay."
The sound of his heart beating calms me down.
He scents fills me up and make my mind blurry.
I want to drown in him.
Wanting everything at once.
Loving him.
I press my nose into the fabric of his shirt and whisper:
"I love you."
----------
My heart fills huge in my chest.
So perfect.
So at peace.
The morning breeze warms my skin as I place a kiss on her hair
and whisper:
"I love you too."
They are only words.
I know that now.
Because I can never put into words the way I feel about her.
Believe me, I have tried.
She is my all.
The part I have looked for all my life.
The part that can make me complete.
I know it sounds, silly.
But it's the truth.
I don't know how to explain it.
It's frustrating sometimes when I can't tell her how much I love her.
So I try my best to show her.
I drown in her.
I give myself totally.
All of me.
When she leaves I'm less than myself.
I go crazy when she is not around.
I will never leave her.
Never stray.
She is my soul mate.
We are different.
But we are still soul mates.
I know that now.
Can see that now.
I'm not afraid anymore.
Feeling complete.
I let go of her and rise.
I open the door and look back at her.
"Are you coming?"
I smile.
"In a minute."
"Okay. Don't be long."
Our eyes meet.
Longing.
Yearning.
She smiles and says:
"I won't."
---------------
I listen to his footsteps dying away.
I smile.
I can still feel is arms around me.
His hands.
His warmth.
Him.
Luke.
I used to be scared.
Of love.
Of life.
I'm that no longer.
I have found my place.
Found everything at once.
Complete.
I don't know what the future holds for us.
But I pray, yes I pray, that it will be a bright one.
I will hold on to him.
Nothing ever can part us.
I smile at the sun.
I think I will go back to him now.
I will go back to his arms
and the sweet surrender I find there.
__________________________
*Ooooh, I know....a bit silly....But I listen to "It must have been
love" so I will blame that one...:)......PLEASE REVIEW!
I'M LOOKING FOR A BETA-READER---INTERESTED!??? PLEASE----EMAIL ME
Author: Jessica
Email: j_rothen@yahoo.se
Distribution: Wherever...just let me know where
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG
Feedback: YES please....j_rothen@yahoo.se
Pairing: Lorelai/Luke
Disclaimer:I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THESE CHARACTERS. Lyrics from the song
"Broken road" by.?
Summary: Luke& Lorelai thinking about the past, present and the future.
AUTHORS NOTE: Thank you so much to everyone who had said so nice
things...You don't know how much that means to me...THANK you so much.
Tack.
English is not my first language so spelling/ grammar
mistakes may occur.
--------------------------
"I set out on a narrow way
Many years ago
Hoping I would find true love
Along the broken road.
But I got lost a time or two
I wiped my brow, kept bushing through
I couldn't see how every sign
Pointed straight to you..."/
-----------------------
Sweet surrender
by: Jessica
-------------
I'm lying here watching her sleep.
The moon comes in through the window
and paints her face in silver.
I know that I should be sleeping.
But I can't.
She occupies my senses.
Fills me up.
Moves my heart.
It's amazing.
I have never felt like this before.
So alive.
It feels like I could fly.
I smile into the dark.
Then I close my eyes and let
my dreams take me away.
------------
I woke slowly.
The morning-sun warmed my face.
He was still sleeping.
I couldn't help but smile.
I moved closer to him.
Wanting to feel the warmth of his body.
My hands trembled as I reached out and let my
fingertips trace his lips.
Soft.
Magic.
Heaven.
He moved in his sleep.
I could still taste him.
"Stop looking at me, Lorelai."
He had still his eyes shut.
"Well, it's not everyday you're in my bed, Luke Danes."
"You better get use to it."
I smiled.
Silence followed.
I didn't want to leave his side.
Feeling restless.
"So what do you want to do today?"
"Lorelai, I'm sleeping!!!"
"But..."
"Lorelai!"
"But..."
"Sleep!!"
He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer.
I leaned my head against his shoulder.
I laughed.
----------
I can't remember when exactly it happened.
Maybe it always has been her.
I had given up on love when she came along.
I was so convinced that there was no such thing as
the greatest love at all.
It was just talk.
I was content with living my life alone.
I can't say that it was easy.
It came nights when I crumbled.
When loneliness ate at my heart.
Wanting something I couldn't have.
But then she came along.
Changed my world.
I remember when I first saw her.
She was standing on the street outside
the diner with a little girl by her side.
The girl couldn't be old.
Maybe eight, nine.
They were beautiful.
Perfect.
She walked into my diner.
So full of life.
Ordering coffee.
She took my hand and said her name was Lorelai.
Then she smiled.
It was the end of me.
I fell.
Hard.
-------------
He had fallen asleep again.
But I can't sleep.
The sun warms my face as I study him.
I know every line of his face.
It's amazing how light my heart feels.
It feels like I'm floating on clouds.
I have never felt like this before.
This alive.
I remember the day he stepped into my life.
I was so young then.
25.
I thought I knew everything.
I could make it through whatever obstacle life put in front of me.
He was the first person that never judges me.
We became friends that day.
He became part of my world.
I can't remember when I fell in love with him.
It came slowly.
Never rushed.
But I feared my heart.
Fearing that I might make a mistake.
Fearing that I might lose him forever.
I had made so many mistakes.
It seems sometimes that my whole life has
all been a line of mistakes.
But I'm still learning.
So I stayed away.
Convinced that I was better off.
Oh, you know the rest...
I smile.
I rise from the bed.
The house is still sleeping.
I already miss his touch.
His arms around me.
Needing coffee.
I look at the bed.
He is still sleeping.
I make my way downstairs.
Rory is still sleeping.
I don't want to wake her.
I grab a cup of coffee and head outside.
To the sun.
I sit down on the stairs and let my eyes drift
over my backyard.
I can't help but smile.
------------------
I woke up lonely.
An empty bed beside me.
She wasn't there.
Fear gripped at my heart.
Missing her.
I rubbed my tired eyes.
She had come to me in my dreams.
She brought my soul peace.
Angel of mine.
Perfect.
I rise from the bed.
Missing her touch.
Missing her.
----------------
I never thought love would come in the shape of this man.
Luke.
Friend.
He knows me by heart.
All of me.
When I was younger I imagined a great love.
A prince.
Even a castle.
I thought love should be something grand.
I thought only true love could be from someone...big...
Oh, I don't know.
I had my crushes.
I have had several boyfriends.
My mother didn't like that.
She wanted a nice boy.
A good boy.
A rice boy.
But I wanted something different.
Someone that could move my heart.
That really saw me.
Then Christopher came along.
I loved him.
He was my first real love.
Once I thought he might be my only love.
He was perfect.
He was so different from the others.
He was real.
True.
For the first time I felt free.
Completely free.
Not bound to what was right and proper.
He saw me for what I really was back then:
a wild-child.
But then reality hit.
Rory.
A child.
I grew up so fast.
I had to.
Christopher freaked.
I can't blame him.
He wasn't ready.
I wasn't ready.
I stepped out into the world carrying a child.
I fell in love again.
With her.
The first kick was like magic to my frozen heart.
It's an incredible thing to feel it move inside of you.
I never thought I could love that little thing that
grew below my heart.
But I did.
I can't describe the feeling when she finally arrived.
When I first healed her.
Miracle.
She was so lovely.
So perfect.
She is a part of me now.
My child.
I am complete now.
"What are you dreaming about?"
His voice woke me.
He is standing in the doorway to my kitchen.
He is dressed in a t-shirt and boxers.
He has a blanket wrapped around him.
I smile at him.
He walks over and sits down beside me.
"I missed you. You shouldn't leave like that. You should have woken me up"
"You were sleeping."
"Don't leave like that."
His words warm my heart.
He wraps his arms around me and pulls me to him.
I lean my head against his chest.
He wraps the blanket around us both and we sit there watching as
the sun makes its way across the sky.
Safe again.
"Okay."
The sound of his heart beating calms me down.
He scents fills me up and make my mind blurry.
I want to drown in him.
Wanting everything at once.
Loving him.
I press my nose into the fabric of his shirt and whisper:
"I love you."
----------
My heart fills huge in my chest.
So perfect.
So at peace.
The morning breeze warms my skin as I place a kiss on her hair
and whisper:
"I love you too."
They are only words.
I know that now.
Because I can never put into words the way I feel about her.
Believe me, I have tried.
She is my all.
The part I have looked for all my life.
The part that can make me complete.
I know it sounds, silly.
But it's the truth.
I don't know how to explain it.
It's frustrating sometimes when I can't tell her how much I love her.
So I try my best to show her.
I drown in her.
I give myself totally.
All of me.
When she leaves I'm less than myself.
I go crazy when she is not around.
I will never leave her.
Never stray.
She is my soul mate.
We are different.
But we are still soul mates.
I know that now.
Can see that now.
I'm not afraid anymore.
Feeling complete.
I let go of her and rise.
I open the door and look back at her.
"Are you coming?"
I smile.
"In a minute."
"Okay. Don't be long."
Our eyes meet.
Longing.
Yearning.
She smiles and says:
"I won't."
---------------
I listen to his footsteps dying away.
I smile.
I can still feel is arms around me.
His hands.
His warmth.
Him.
Luke.
I used to be scared.
Of love.
Of life.
I'm that no longer.
I have found my place.
Found everything at once.
Complete.
I don't know what the future holds for us.
But I pray, yes I pray, that it will be a bright one.
I will hold on to him.
Nothing ever can part us.
I smile at the sun.
I think I will go back to him now.
I will go back to his arms
and the sweet surrender I find there.
__________________________
*Ooooh, I know....a bit silly....But I listen to "It must have been
love" so I will blame that one...:)......PLEASE REVIEW!
I'M LOOKING FOR A BETA-READER---INTERESTED!??? PLEASE----EMAIL ME