Eternity Is A Lie
By spheeris1
Pairing: light Saionji/Touga, hints at Saionji/Anthy (one-sided)
Warnings/Notes: Saionji POV, poetry, slightly dark and angst-loads of it!
Inspired by a track from Utena sdtk.
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Take me for granted.
Grant me the power.
Take me for a fool.
Fool me with your words.
With your ideal.
With your eternity.
I hope someone catches me when I fall
Into your attractive trap.
But I do not think anyone will.
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I begged you.
Pleaded.
And still you refused,
Even as my hands held you.
Even as our lips touched
For the first time….
Never the last time….
All the time.
In shadows and in dust,
I wanted that
Heavenly glow.
What made her live
Can make me live
And I want to live
How she lives.
Give it to me.
Please.
But you never do.
Never did.
Never will.
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Power is a strike on tender skin.
Power is jerking the slender arm by force.
Power is pulling the sword from her breast.
Power is hearing her speak…
And pretending she means it.
All her submissiveness.
On her knees.
Is this what I have searched for?
Is this eternity?
Hold someone completely,
Holding their will.
Pulling the strings.
Is this what you did?
You pulled her strings
And pulled my strings
And made eternity
Into something beautiful.
But I know more than you.
Now.
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Eternity is a lie.
The one you want
And the one you live.
All lies.
Like her, lying even as
She lies.
Holding back knowledge
And tormenting me.
Just like you do.
Bringing me close
To the edge, only to
Burn me in your fire.
I have been burned.
I have been beaten.
Black and blue.
And eternity is just another
Word for regret.
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END