Life without him

Disclaimer: This is tiresome, everybody already knows that I don't own DA or its characters.

Summary: After the events in "Hello/Goodbye", Max's wish is granted and she gets to taste life without Logan.

Rating: PG-13

**IMPORTANT NOTE**: Well, thanks everyone that is reviewing I really appreciate that, doesn't matter what kind of review you write. To jade-angel, I can understand your thinking and feelings, I am not going to reveal anything about what is going to be how, just that it is indeed going to be a M/L (remember, it doesn't necessarily needs to be a "happy" ending.). And it's not that Logan would kill himself only because he lost Max, but because his life lost its meaning, he lost the will to live, on the S1 episode "Female Trouble", Logan would really have done it, he stoped not because some neighbor fell down, but because he realized that he still had some meaning in life, and that was Max, but now he lost that too, and added with all the troubles he already and still has, it happened. But I just ask you to keep reading it 'till the end and thanks for showing how you feel. And Whisper, about the M/A thing, you are allowed to write whenever you want to on your fanfics, but I just think that M/A is not a reality thing, you do have a point but not concerning that it could indeed became a M/A ROMANTIC thing, Alec was put there to show someone that's like Max but doesn't have the time out that she did, with a strong and closed personality so that we can see him becoming more and more open throughout the show 'till he can actually become the brother Max so much wants and that's why he is Ben's clone.

Anyway wrote to much already,  here's chapter 5, for the ones that already hate me I warn, be prepared to hate me even more :D.

Chapter 5: Implications Applied

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[2 months later]

Max is riding her bike through the streets of Seattle, package in hand heading towards its address, doing her every day job in auto-pilot. Two months has passed since her life has been turned upside down by the most tragic event. Her strange life got even more screwed up and Max got even more bitchy, her mood deteriorates more and more every passing day, if since she got back from Manticore she wasn't smiling much, now she is not smiling  at all. Max gets to a crowded part of the city, a lot of police officers are forming a barricade and dozens of citizens are around shouting and holding anti transgenics flags. Max approuchs the crowd and grabbing one of them tries to find what's going on.

"What's going on around here?!"

"A big furry creature got in the sewers, he has a blind girl as hostage.",

Max releases him and gets out of the crowd and whispers,

"Joshua..."

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            Max is wandering through the sewers looking for Joshua, the place is packed with cops and Max had to hide several times. The sewers are huge and totally alike, Max has been wandering around for nearly one hour and no sign of Joshua, //Damn, I think I have already been here...no...I don't know, DAMN! This place is a freaking maze there's no way for me to guide myself in here. I would do anything for some kind of map...\\

Max spots a manhole and climbs it, she ends outside far away from the crowd, she starts walking towards to crowd, maybe find some way to move around the sewers and find Joshua, she stops dead on her tracks when a familiar voice calls her,

"Max wait up!",

she turns around and sees Alec running to her, his face is gloomy and sad,

"Alec, I have to find some kind of map to the sewers, I wandered around that place for about one hour and found no sign of Joshua.",

Alec takes a few breaths and with a low sad voice says,

"Max...they took Joshua. I saw White dragging him outside and locking him in a van...",

"WHAT?!!Where did they take him....how long ago was that? We gotta help him!!"

Alec closed his eyes and dropped his head,

"I don't know Max, it was nearly twenty minutes ago that they took off, I wanted to do something Max i really did, but the place is crowing with civillians and cops and the van was scouted with dozens of police cars there's and there was no way I could follow it in my bike."

You can easily see that Max is both sad and mad and her stance is restless,

"Where did they take him?!! We will get him out!"

"I don't know Max, there's no way to know..."

Max lets a groan, turns around and starts running only screaming,

"Let's go, we gotta look out for the place they took him."

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            Max and Alec are on Alec's place, on the desk a mess of papers as well as on the floor and the TV is on tunned on the TV channel, they are both searching madly through them for any kind of clue of Joshua's location, for nearly two hours they have talked to every possible person, looked into every imaginable location and now they are reading any kind of paper,  but it was usuless, they haven't find anything, not even a tiny clue. Suddenly their attention is caught by a special news report, both turn around and focus completely on the televion, a tall brunette reporter is standing on a plataform, next to her are a few suited man, one of them catches their attention...White. On the middle of the plataform is a big guy, his head covered in a black sack but it's obviously Joshua.

We're airing live to broadcast you the execution of the transgenic mutant that was arrested today on the sewers, he is charged on the murder of Annie Winston, a blind 22 years old girl. After a secred trial and lots of discussion and decision the mutant was sentenced to death, the sentence will be carried now.

Max and Alec's face turns pale and their mouth hang open, Max grips the table strongly almost breaking it. The camera focus on Joshua and only him, a big and strong guy goes to him and puts a rope around his neck, they count to five and suddenly the floor beneath Joshua's foot disappears and he falls down, the shock of his neck with the rope producing a sick sound of a breaking bone, a sound of death announing the end of a life...

A guy on a white coat, probably a doctor, approuches joshua and puts his finger on his neck, a few seconds and he nods, confirming his death. The camera focus once again on the journalist while people behind are working, she keeps on saying things about mutants and justice. Max gets out of her trance and chokes out,

"Oh...my...GOD!!",

she stumbles back a few steps and falls down on a chair burying her head on her hands,

"They...killed him.",

Alec whispers, everything looks like a joke, a sick joke. They remain silent for long minutes till Max's angry voice shatters the silence,

"It's my fault, it's all my fault. I wasn't able to get to him on time and I wasn't able to go rescue him, wherever he was. It's all my fault...",

"Don't go there Max! It's nobody's fault, you at least tried everything you could to help him, but it wasn't possible, we don't have the contacts, the equipment of the material for this kind of stuff. Don't blame yourself for this Max, 'cause it wasn't your fault, we did everything we could...",

Max takes a deep breath and gets up, she goes towards the door and opens it, but before getting out she puts her head down and whispers,

"I don't know, I hope I can believe that Alec...I hope.",

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  [Later that day]

            Max is sitting on the roof of Joshua's house, or what used to be it. She has been on this house for the rest of the day, analyzing every single thing on the house, all of the things Joshua did, //This is awful, I feel awful, my insides are being mowed by this sick feeling, guilty, sadness...I don't know. I should be crying, I should have cryed, but I didn't, the tears just don't come...\\

TBC...

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OBS: // \\ means Max's thoughts

OBS2: So there it's, I hope at least a few enjoyed and that everyone send me a review either to praise or threathen me to death, whetever just write me :D. I hope everyone understood what was my message with this chapter, if you don't really get it write it on the review then I will explain on the next chapter.