Sooner or Later
By: AngelDusterBuster
Disclaimer: Let's face it. We all know I don't own any of the characters from the Harry Potter books. So if you see something here that was ever mentioned in the books remember that I was only given the material I didn't create it!
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Chapter Seven: An Earlier Holiday
When Harry finally did get to sleep he didn't sleep for long. He'd tossed and turned for hours before he finally fell asleep. Only to be shaken awake minutes later.
"Harry wake up Harry", Hermione pleaded tears running down her face, "Harry I need to talk to someone"
Groaning Harry rubbed his eyes, "you do realize that is the first I've gotten to sleep all night"
"Harry I just talked to Ginny. She woke me up before she left", Hermione pulled Harry into a seating position, "Harry please! I'm so worried about Ron's family"
"And so am I but…fine I'm up so I might as well get up", Harry looked over at the clock feeling grumpy and irritated.
"Harry…are you feeling alright? You look a bit pale", Hermione put her hand on Harry's forehead, "Well you don't feel warm…"
"I'm fine!", Harry gently pushed Hermione away, "I'm just angry"
"Angry with who?", Hermione used her usual method to get Harry to talk to her.
"Angry with Ron angry with myself….I don't know I'm just angry", Harry took a deep breath before standing up, "Well if I'm not going to sleep I might as well get something done…"
"Why are you angry with Ron?", Hermione grabbed his arm, "Harry answer me"
"Hermione…I have some stuff to do okay?", Harry ran down the steps, "I'll see you later"
"Tell me what's going on right now Harry", Hermione stormed after him, "Tell me or I'll hex you on the spot"
"Hermione I don't need this right now", Harry plopped down on a couch in the common room wishing Hermione wouldn't pump him for information.
"Harry just tell me what it is please", Hermione sat across from him, "because obviously whatever it is….it's bothering you quite a bit I can tell"
"The only thing that is bothering me is the same thing that's probably bothering you", Harry laid his head against the couch.
"Fine Harry if you're not going to tell me I'm writing Ron", Hermione stood up waiting for Harry to stop her. But he didn't.
"Go ahead", Harry snapped instead, "Tell him the jerk says hi'
"Harry", Hermione put a hand on his shoulder so he couldn't escape, "Harry look at me. Harry? Are you alright?"
Emotions getting to him Harry knew he had to get away from Hermione. The minute a tear shed from his eye he'd be forced to reveal the horrifying details he knew about Ron. That right at this moment, his best friend could've been dead.
"Just leave me alone okay? Go back to bed or something!", Harry brushed a tear away before Hermione could see.
"I want to know what is going on!", Hermione practically shook Harry, "And I don't care what I have to do to get it out of you. Got that?"
"Fine you really want to know? You REALLY really want to know? Ron was going to commit suicide last night. And he would've if he hadn't dropped the knife. If I hadn't gotten to the astronomy tower before he had the chance to jump out or something! And if that isn't enough to turn someone insane Ron is mad at me for saving his life!", Harry buried his head in his arms.
"Oh my gosh Harry…", Hermione rubbed his back gently, "Harry it's okay to cry you know that? It's okay to show your feelings. It's just me"
"It's my fault! If I had ran after him instead of moping around outside--"
"Then he would've done it at home where you wouldn't have been there to save him!", Hermione spoke over Harry.
Harry was speechless. He felt Hermione pull him into a hug and afterwards moved back to the chair she'd been in. The two feel asleep there for the rest of the night. Hermione refusing to leave Harry alone. Harry unable to bring himself back up to bed.
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Early the next morning walking down the corridors to breakfast Harry was startled when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
"Sirius!", Harry jumped up, "You scared me…"
"How are you doing?", Sirius went directly into the conversation.
Harry shrugged.
"Look you know Christmas break starts next week?", Sirius asked. Harry nodded, "Well I spoke with Professor Dumbledore and he said if you wanted to that you could come home with me today"
Staring at the ground Harry thought for a moment, "What about my classes?"
"I could help you with the work you'd miss", Sirius followed Harry as he started walking away, "Look I know you aren't going to deal with all this very well Harry"
"I'm fine Sirius!", Harry lied knowing he was feeling worse than ever before. Even being sick in the hospital wing was better than this.
"Harry this isn't your decision. I'm taking you with me, tonight", Sirius tried to act parental although there was a slight fear because every time he did Harry got mad.
"Fine", Harry surprised Sirius, "I really don't want to be here anyway"
"Harry you're scaring me", Sirius put his arm around his godson, "I've never seen you this depressed"
"Fred is dead and Ron hates me. How am I supposed to feel?", Harry shook slightly.
Harry felt Sirius guide him away from the middle of the corridor, "Ron doesn't hate you Harry. He's just angry with the world right now. You have to understand he just lost his brother."
"Well I lost my parents but I don't go trying to kill myself", Harry shuddered .
"This is hard for you to understand but…Ron knew his brother for almost seventeen years Harry. You knew your parents for a year and at a young age you can't remember. There's a difference. There both terrible things but…their different", Sirius tried to explain.
"So you're taking his side too then?", Harry stepped back.
"Side? What are you talking about?", Sirius grew confused, "Well…we'll talk later. You should go pack your things"
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"So just like that?", Hermione rubbed her eyes clear of tears, "First Ron leaves now you?"
"It's not my choice Hermione", Harry through some more things in his trunk, "but quite frankly if I stay here another day I'll go insane"
"What about me! Now I have to worry about both of you", Hermione sat down on Harry's bed.
"You don't have to worry about me", Harry stared at his friend oddly, "This is going to sound stupid but…"
"What is it Harry?", Hermione begged him.
"Nevermind", Harry shook his head slightly pushing away the thought.
"Harry", Hermione put a hand on his shoulder, "you're scaring me"
"I seem to have that affect on people lately", Harry laughed lightly, "Sorry I was just thinking about Ron and…"
"I'll be here when you get back", Hermione read his mind.
"I should get going", Harry shrugged wondering if Hermione felt as awkward as him.
Grabbing his bags Harry took one last glace at Hermione. He knew how much it must be hurting her that Ron and him were both going to be gone. And the fact that life for the trio as they knew it may never be the same.
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"Harry please eat your supper", Sirius looked up across the table as his godson who'd been picking at his meal for the last few minutes.
"I'm just not hungry", Harry shrugged his shoulders.
Sirius sighed, "Remus is stopping by tonight"
Harry's attention was finally caught at this, "He is? Why!"
"He hasn't seen you since August Harry", Sirius reminded his godson, "I didn't think you'd mind…"
"I don't…I'm just tired", Harry could truthfully admit.
"I promise I won't invite anyone else over to see you without asking first okay? But this is Remus…", Sirius kept his eyes on Harry.
"Fine okay?", Harry snapped back.
Ignoring the fact that Harry wasn't being very respectful Sirius continued, "What is really bothering you Harry?"
"What do you think?", Harry stared down at the table refusing to look up.
"Harry I'm just trying to help you here! It isn't going to make me go away by snapping at me and giving four word answers. All that's going to do is keep me in your way even more", Sirius assured Harry who had angrily stood up rushing out of the room, "Harry?"
"Bad night?", Remus joked watching Harry leave the room.
"I just wish I knew what was going through his head", Sirius motioned for Remus to take a seat, "I don't know which thing is bothering him you know?"
"I wasn't there so…I'm not much help am I?", Remus sighed, "want me to try to talk to him?"
"I wouldn't make anyone do that Moony", Sirius shrugged his shoulders, "Besides I'm used to having him angry with me"
"Just let me try okay?", Remus saw Sirius nod at he went to clean up supper.
Remus walked down the hall to Harry's bedroom. The door of course as he had predicted was shut. He twisted the handle, but the door didn't open.
"Harry?", he called out, "Harry can you open the door?"
Looking around for a few minutes Remus knocked on the door again when no response came, "Harry it's Remus"
"I'm busy!", Harry's voice rang through the door.
"HARRY OPEN THE DOOR", Remus jumped up when he heard Sirius yell from behind him.
"Sirius!", Remus exclaimed, "That isn't the best technique you realize!"
"Hey if it was up to me he wouldn't even have a door", Sirius laughed alongside Remus.
"Are you two going to stand outside my door all night?", Harry finally surprised them both when he opened the door.
"Harry could I have a word with you?", Remus said rhetorically following Harry into his room.
"Why not", Harry nodded spotting Sirius still standing in the doorway.
Remus noticed this too, "Excuse us Sirius", he muttered shutting the door.
"So what did he send you in to ask me?", Harry sat down on his bed.
"He didn't send me to ask anything", Remus pulled a chair across from Harry's bed, "I haven't seen you for a while. Just thought we could talk"
"You came in just to talk?", Harry raised an eyebrow at Remus.
"Exactly", Remus nodded, "Whether you want to talk about…school…Ron…quidittch…."
"Okay then I choose quidittch", Harry decided.
"Okay wrong approach", Remus grinned at Harry, "But really I know there's been a lot going on in the past twenty four hours. If you need someone to talk to--"
"No I'm fine", Harry muttered quickly.
"I hardly believe that", Remus stared at Harry, "Come on Harry you've always confided in me before"
"Well those were small things", Harry put his head on his knees, "This isn't small"
"Well maybe if we talked about it you'd feel a bit better", Remus slowly approached the topic.
"Ron hates me", Harry replied plainly.
"And why would Ron hate you?", Remus asked.
"Because I'm the reason he's alive", Harry finally got the courage to look Remus in the eye.
"Harry what you did was exactly what he would've done if the roles were switched. Ron's just going through some really extremely hard lessons in life right now. You know that thought don't you?", Remus added.
"Of course I do", Harry started, "I'm just being stupid I guess"
"Of course your not being stupid. Ron's the one who's going to confront you soon feeling stupid. You saved him Harry and he'll realize that soon. If it wasn't for you god knows what would've happened to Ron. I know you don't see that now but…Ron will come around", Remus moved onto the bed sitting next to Harry.
"I've just never seen him like that…so angry. Every time I close my eyes I see him", Harry shook slightly.
"The downside of being a hero", Remus joked putting an arm around Harry for comfort, "You do feel a little better I hope"
"Yeah", Harry admitted, "I do feel a little better"
"And Harry if you want to go to the funeral just tell Sirius or me", Remus stood up walking toward the door.
"Remus?", Harry spoke up quietly.
"Yes?"
"Ron was lying wasn't he. Fred's death…", Harry stuttered, "it had something to do with Voldemort"
Remus nodded, "I'm afraid so"
"Oh god", Harry shoved his head under a pillow.
Instinctively Remus ran to Harry's side. Prying him from under the pillow he spoke, "Harry…Harry listen to me. This is not your fault. Nobody else blames you so neither should you. You didn't kill anyone"
Harry refused to listen, "If it wasn't for me so many people would be alive. You're in danger just sitting here with me!"
Trying to calm Harry down before Sirius came in Remus ignored Harry, "I don't care Harry. No matter what you say to any of us it isn't going to make us disappear. I'm sorry but you're stuck with us"
Tears pouring down his face Harry finally looked up, "How can you say that?"
"How long have we known each other now Harry?", Remus asked the younger boy.
Figuring it out in his head Harry responded, "Like four years"
"Don't you think by now I know that you would never hurt anyone Harry? Besides Draco Malfoy that is", Remus smiled at Harry, "Ron obviously doesn't blame you Harry. Face it you're practically a Weasley yourself kid"
Still looking horribly upset Harry took a deep breath, "I think I'm just going to try to sleep"
Helping Harry into bed Remus knew he wasn't really going to get any sleep that night. And he couldn't help but wonder one thing. How much more can Harry take before he can't handle the cruel world he's been thrown into himself?
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Author's Note:
Hey I'm finally back! I'm so sorry you guys but I've been really busy with school, but do know that I've tried my hardest to get this up. Pretty soon my Wednesday nights are gone as well when confirmation classes start up. Look for about once a week updates. I'm really sorry but this is all I can manage to get done in my slim amount of time.
But on a happier note we hit 100 this chapter! Congratulations to us! Thank you so much for everyone's support through this story, and I hope that you continue to support me as we begin to get into the story even more. The story is far from over so I hope that you continue you review and support it until the end!
Thanks as always,
AngelDusterBuster
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Bookworm2000: I think your question about Ron was answered this chapter. But at least you were right about one thing! Something major did happen. Thanks for reviewing!
Hyper Princess: Yes I know…I felt very guilty upon making Fred er…disappear. But I've always liked George better so I had to keep him! Yes I'll email you after I update. That might be tomorrow when I email but hey I'll still email! Thanks for reviewing!
Cissy: That is exactly why I did that! Everything is Harry trying to kill himself (most of my stories included)…I thought I'd make Harry be on the flipside for a change. Sorry I missed the Thursday deadline…it was just a guess! Well hope to hear from you soon!
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FairyTale: Yeah this story is pretty much about doing everything that I've never done before. All the things that I've always hated about stories mine included. And with the Sirius/Harry thing I want to mention one thing. If I seem like I know what I'm talking about it isn't because I'm constantly at war with my parents! I mean sure everyone fights with their parents but I read a lot. That's how I learn different ways to portray people. Yeah…every once in a while I can come up with something funny! Chapters like this are hard for me to write though. I'm a very emotional person! Oh and thanks for the extra long review, as you can see the more you write the more I write!
Anie: It's just fine! Only because it's you. No just kidding! But really enjoy 8th grade , but I have to tell you high school is really cool. And when you start getting freaked out next year about this time talk to me. I was so freaked out and it all turned out fine. You have a lot more freedom in High School. I hope you get to do the paper! Oh and I also hope to hear from you again soon!
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Jade S (x2):Yeah I didn't want to just pop it out all like oh Harry by the way my brother died. Harry had to pry it out of him the way people have to pry things out of Harry. That was the point I was trying to make. I could never kill Ron…he's like my favorite character! (Well Rupert helps) Oh, and as I was telling someone else the point of this story is to make it different! Realistically different. Usually I bounce right into things. I'm also not doing that this time around. You're going to have to hang it out a bit to find out exactly what's going to happen. Hope to hear from you soon!
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Special note: Oh for fans of Harry/Sirius fights? Just hold on a little longer because something major is going to happen either next chapter or the one after that. So stay tuned!
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