Disclaimer: Same as ever, all X characters belong to CLAMP.
Because there were reviews, which I could not answer privately (because there were no e-mail addresses given), I wish to make something clear. I am NOT homophobic! I think loving a person means to love her spirit and heart and has therefore nothing to do with gender. So it rather surprised me that some seemed to be annoyed/sad that I changed (or seemed to change) a certain character. Well, nothing is settled yet as you perhaps will recognize when the story continues. Nevertheless, I hope that at least some people want this story to continue and enjoy them by reading...
Bonds of destiny: Chapter4
Kamui dreamed. He was a child again, standing in a field of white flowers. In front of him, though far way stood another child. Since he could only see the back of it and the child was hidden in shadows (although it was sunny in his dream and there was nothing, which could actually cause that shadows), he could not recognize it at all. Rather, recognize her. He corrected himself after seeing her long hair. The girl never turned her face to look at him, but kept talking to him anyway. "You promised! "She whispered. "But you never came. So I thought you hated me. I wanted to give up, but I won't break the oath I gave you. I will protect you. I WILL protect you! "She whispered desperately. Kamui did not understand anything. So he just tried to speak to her. "Who are you? And what promise did I make to you and failed to hold?" The girl never answered his questions. She just shook her head and remained silent. Kamui attempted to reduce the distance between them but was not able to do so. Every time he made a step forwards the whole scenery moved and increased the distance to the old. "Leave it! You won't be able to reach me. This is only a dream. It is of no importance for you to reach me. You don't know me. You don't have to know me. I am surprised that you're here. No one has ever been able to enter my dreams. I should have known better. I should have known that you would enter them. After all, you alone are near enough to pass my shields. I could never hurt YOU, not even when sleeping. "She said and disappeared.
Kamui awoke with a sudden. "Why does it hurt so much? "He asked himself. "What was this dream about? And who was this girl, making my heart feel both at once, endless joy AND pain?" His gaze wandered to the windows. The sun began to rise. "It's morning, yet?!" He shook his head and stood up. "Perhaps I should talk about it with the others. It could be important.Or just a fantasy, right. I will not tell them, at least not all of them. Subaru I have to tell it. He will sense it when I try hiding something." After that was settled, he dressed and went down to the others.
Satsuki smiled satisfied. "It was quite hard work, but I found at least a track of him." Fuuma watched her with cold eyes. "Go on! Where is he? "He demanded "At Clamp Campus, if I am correct. Though you're chances are good to meet him tonight." "And why is it so?" "Because he has gone to Tokyo tower ever since his arrival and always at night." "Good work! I will welcome him there then. Care to come along?" "No, but I would love it to play with him afterwards for making me so much works." "Enjoy yourself!" "Thank you." Fuuma left the room and Satsuki shrugged. She did not like him, but playing with the new player was some fun. She turned her head to look at her Beast. "What do you think? Should I've told him that the new player actually is a girl?"
It was lunchtime when Kamui met Subaru at the stone table. Subaru smiled at him. "Why don't you eat lunch with your friend? "He asked Kamui. Kamui rolled his eyes. "Would you like to eat lunch with someone who repeats the same sentence all the time?" Subaru arched his eyebrows. "He told me of this new girl he met. He told me through all lessons! And it's always the same statement. How long can you keep talking about a pair of eyes?" Kamui sounded a little bit exhausted. Subaru looked closer at Kamui and discovered the circles under those beautiful violet eyes at once. Looking into Kamui's eyes revealed also that he was confused about something. "Alright, Kamui, what is it you don't want to talk about? "He asked the younger one. "What? What do you mean, Subaru? I mean, I am talking to you right now." Subaru just glanced at him. Kamui flinched under this look. "It's not that it is important." The Sumeragi did not even try to let him get away with that little phrase. "If it is not so important you certainly would not try to hide it, would you?" "Oh, if you have to know, I had a strange dream last night. It wasn't a vision sent from a dream seer though. There was a little girl, who I couldn't see well and she talked to me. She said something about a promise I made and did not held and an oath she is going to held. You see, it wasn't important, just a dream." "Kamui, if you yourself do consider it unimportant then why would it confuse you so much?" Subaru asked in his gentle voice. Kamui lowered his head. Why was it that Subaru did always understand him? Why could he always read his mind and heart? "I have the feeling that I should know the girl. No, I'm sure that I know her, but I can't remember. Her voice and spirit felt so familiar. She made me feel happy and sad at the same time and that I don't understand! It is as if I love her but not as a lover would do. I can't understand myself, anymore. It makes no sense, because I never loved any girl but Kotori." Kamui's eyes reflected his pain and confusion. Subaru sighed at this look. "Did the boy not suffer enough? "He asked himself quietly. Then he went to Kamui and laid a hand on the younger ones fragile shoulders. "We could ask princess Hinoto to help you. Perhaps with her power you can see the face of the girl. "He suggested. Kamui looked strait into Subaru's great emerald eyes and shook his head. "No, the girl said that no one has the power to enter her dreams. She was surprised herself to discover me in her dream. "He explained. "Alright, but promise that you will tell me when you have another dream about her!" "I don't think that I will dream about her again, but if you consist." "Which I do." "I will tell you."
Because there were reviews, which I could not answer privately (because there were no e-mail addresses given), I wish to make something clear. I am NOT homophobic! I think loving a person means to love her spirit and heart and has therefore nothing to do with gender. So it rather surprised me that some seemed to be annoyed/sad that I changed (or seemed to change) a certain character. Well, nothing is settled yet as you perhaps will recognize when the story continues. Nevertheless, I hope that at least some people want this story to continue and enjoy them by reading...
Bonds of destiny: Chapter4
Kamui dreamed. He was a child again, standing in a field of white flowers. In front of him, though far way stood another child. Since he could only see the back of it and the child was hidden in shadows (although it was sunny in his dream and there was nothing, which could actually cause that shadows), he could not recognize it at all. Rather, recognize her. He corrected himself after seeing her long hair. The girl never turned her face to look at him, but kept talking to him anyway. "You promised! "She whispered. "But you never came. So I thought you hated me. I wanted to give up, but I won't break the oath I gave you. I will protect you. I WILL protect you! "She whispered desperately. Kamui did not understand anything. So he just tried to speak to her. "Who are you? And what promise did I make to you and failed to hold?" The girl never answered his questions. She just shook her head and remained silent. Kamui attempted to reduce the distance between them but was not able to do so. Every time he made a step forwards the whole scenery moved and increased the distance to the old. "Leave it! You won't be able to reach me. This is only a dream. It is of no importance for you to reach me. You don't know me. You don't have to know me. I am surprised that you're here. No one has ever been able to enter my dreams. I should have known better. I should have known that you would enter them. After all, you alone are near enough to pass my shields. I could never hurt YOU, not even when sleeping. "She said and disappeared.
Kamui awoke with a sudden. "Why does it hurt so much? "He asked himself. "What was this dream about? And who was this girl, making my heart feel both at once, endless joy AND pain?" His gaze wandered to the windows. The sun began to rise. "It's morning, yet?!" He shook his head and stood up. "Perhaps I should talk about it with the others. It could be important.Or just a fantasy, right. I will not tell them, at least not all of them. Subaru I have to tell it. He will sense it when I try hiding something." After that was settled, he dressed and went down to the others.
Satsuki smiled satisfied. "It was quite hard work, but I found at least a track of him." Fuuma watched her with cold eyes. "Go on! Where is he? "He demanded "At Clamp Campus, if I am correct. Though you're chances are good to meet him tonight." "And why is it so?" "Because he has gone to Tokyo tower ever since his arrival and always at night." "Good work! I will welcome him there then. Care to come along?" "No, but I would love it to play with him afterwards for making me so much works." "Enjoy yourself!" "Thank you." Fuuma left the room and Satsuki shrugged. She did not like him, but playing with the new player was some fun. She turned her head to look at her Beast. "What do you think? Should I've told him that the new player actually is a girl?"
It was lunchtime when Kamui met Subaru at the stone table. Subaru smiled at him. "Why don't you eat lunch with your friend? "He asked Kamui. Kamui rolled his eyes. "Would you like to eat lunch with someone who repeats the same sentence all the time?" Subaru arched his eyebrows. "He told me of this new girl he met. He told me through all lessons! And it's always the same statement. How long can you keep talking about a pair of eyes?" Kamui sounded a little bit exhausted. Subaru looked closer at Kamui and discovered the circles under those beautiful violet eyes at once. Looking into Kamui's eyes revealed also that he was confused about something. "Alright, Kamui, what is it you don't want to talk about? "He asked the younger one. "What? What do you mean, Subaru? I mean, I am talking to you right now." Subaru just glanced at him. Kamui flinched under this look. "It's not that it is important." The Sumeragi did not even try to let him get away with that little phrase. "If it is not so important you certainly would not try to hide it, would you?" "Oh, if you have to know, I had a strange dream last night. It wasn't a vision sent from a dream seer though. There was a little girl, who I couldn't see well and she talked to me. She said something about a promise I made and did not held and an oath she is going to held. You see, it wasn't important, just a dream." "Kamui, if you yourself do consider it unimportant then why would it confuse you so much?" Subaru asked in his gentle voice. Kamui lowered his head. Why was it that Subaru did always understand him? Why could he always read his mind and heart? "I have the feeling that I should know the girl. No, I'm sure that I know her, but I can't remember. Her voice and spirit felt so familiar. She made me feel happy and sad at the same time and that I don't understand! It is as if I love her but not as a lover would do. I can't understand myself, anymore. It makes no sense, because I never loved any girl but Kotori." Kamui's eyes reflected his pain and confusion. Subaru sighed at this look. "Did the boy not suffer enough? "He asked himself quietly. Then he went to Kamui and laid a hand on the younger ones fragile shoulders. "We could ask princess Hinoto to help you. Perhaps with her power you can see the face of the girl. "He suggested. Kamui looked strait into Subaru's great emerald eyes and shook his head. "No, the girl said that no one has the power to enter her dreams. She was surprised herself to discover me in her dream. "He explained. "Alright, but promise that you will tell me when you have another dream about her!" "I don't think that I will dream about her again, but if you consist." "Which I do." "I will tell you."