Chapter 19
Grissom sat in a plastic chair in the hospital corridor outside Emergency Room. He could feel the weight of his head in his hands. He wanted to cry. He had never wanted to cry before. But he couldn't, he was still in shock, still denying the seriousness of Sara's injuries.
Nick almost killed an intern as he ran around the corner. Catherine and Warrick were close behind him. Nick approached Grissom.
'God Grissom, I am so sorry.' Nick wailed as he collapsed to his knees next to Grissom's chair.
'For what Nick, I sent her to Felton.'
'I suggested it, I made the appointment.' Catherine placed a hand on Nick's back. She understood how hard this must be for him. To Nick Stokes, Sara was a little sister. Big brothers are supposed to protect their baby sisters, and instead he had led her to the guy wanting to kill her. When Nick seemed to get a hold of himself, she motioned to Warrick to stay with him, and she turned her attention to Grissom.
Warrick led Nick over to a chair on the other side of the room so that Cath could talk to Grissom alone.
'What happened Gil?'
'God Cath, I should have realized sooner. I knew Felton had worked in San Francisco when I hired him. I should have put two and two together. And I didn't, and now Sara could die.'
'Hold on, I thought you said the bullet only grazed her neck.'
'It went deeper than I thought. Not too deep, but it could have nicked the carotid artery. She trusts me Catherine. She loves me.'
Catherine sat up straight, she was so happy for them, finally admitting their feelings. She just hoped that it hadn't been too late. She looked down at Grissom's shirt. There were handmarks on his back where Sara had held him, and traces of blood on his face. Catherine prayed that Sara would survive so that Grissom could have at least one more chance to say I love you, and that Sara would be able to do the same.
The surgeon exited the ER.
'Are you the family of Miss Sidle?'
'Yes.' They answered together.
'She's going to be fine. A blood vessel was nicked but it wasn't the one that supplied blood to the brain, so she will make a full recovery.' They all breathed a sigh of relief. Yet when Grissom looked up he saw the look of apprehension on the doctors' face.
'Can we see her?' asked Nick. Nick only believed it was real if you saw it, he wanted to see that Sara was ok with his own eyes.
'There is something you should know first. We think that she has suffered some kind of memory loss. She will not remember who she is, or who any of you are. She won't remember the events of the last week or so. But it is temporary, just don't push her. She'll be frustrated enough as it is. You may see her now.' The doctor motioned towards the doorway behind him and on his right.
After all that's happened in the past few days, she won't remember any of it. We will be back at square one, taking part in a hopeless dance that I've already completed. What do I do? Do I tell her what has happened and leave her to draw her own conclusions. That'd be great, she wouldn't even remember me and I would be expecting her to believe we had confessed our love a few hours ago. No, that would be unfair, it would put too much pressure and guilt on her. But am I supposed to just pretend nothing happened until she remembers. What if she remembers, but doesn't believe it? Or is angry at me for not telling her the truth? Or worse, what if she never remembers?
His thoughts stopped suddenly as he realized he was at the door of Sara's room. Catherine, Warrick and Nick had already gone in. He felt frozen, it was rare for Gil Grissom not to at least have a vague idea of what he was doing, but right now, he had no idea how to handle the situation.
So he walked in and looked into her eyes, searching for a memory, a flicker of hope that Sara was still there and still loved him. He knew he was being stupid, Sara was lucky to be alive, and the memory loss, no matter how hard for all of them, was only temporary. He continued to stare into her eyes, and then she turned her gaze from the others who had entered before him, and returned his look with startling clarity. It almost looked like recognition...almost.
'Hi, Sara', Catherine spoke first, 'The doctor told you we were your friends, and co-workers. Didn't he?'
Sara nodded. Still looking at the older man standing behind the rest of them.
'Well, I'm Catherine, this is Nick and Warrick.'
'Sara, I'm so glad you're ok.'
'Yeah, you're going to remember us soon, don't worry about it.'
Sara didn't know what to say. She had immediately noticed that Catherine had not introduced the other man. The one who she felt something for. She didn't remember him, but she felt something. God this is frustrating.
Catherine realized that Sara's eyes hadn't left Grissom. She decided that it was best to let them have a moment alone together, Sara had to know, Catherine just hoped that Grissom would be able to conquer his fears and tell her.
'Nick, Warrick, lets give Sara a moment ok.'
Nick realized what was going on as he saw Cath's eyes wander to Grissom momentarily. Warrick was about to object when he felt Nick steer him out the door.
'We'll be back later Sara, ok.'
Grissom stared at Sara. She still had that sparkle in her eyes. The one he thought about when he went to sleep at night, the one he saw as her eyes fluttered in the ambulance. He could look at her forever.
Sara met his gaze with equal force, despite the weakness in her body. She knew him, she just couldn't remember him. Why do I remember him and no-one else?
Sara broke the inevitable silence that had settled around them.
'Who are you?'
'Umm, my name is Gil Gris..'
'Don't give me the auto pilot answer, tell me who you are, what you like, why I have this feeling that I know you, even though the other three people who were in here are complete strangers. Who are you?'
Grissom paused for a moment.
'Sara.I...'
tbc. I need a certain amount of reviews for the next section.*hint hint*, ok what should grissom tell her? What do you want to happen coz I've got nothing! So review!
Grissom sat in a plastic chair in the hospital corridor outside Emergency Room. He could feel the weight of his head in his hands. He wanted to cry. He had never wanted to cry before. But he couldn't, he was still in shock, still denying the seriousness of Sara's injuries.
Nick almost killed an intern as he ran around the corner. Catherine and Warrick were close behind him. Nick approached Grissom.
'God Grissom, I am so sorry.' Nick wailed as he collapsed to his knees next to Grissom's chair.
'For what Nick, I sent her to Felton.'
'I suggested it, I made the appointment.' Catherine placed a hand on Nick's back. She understood how hard this must be for him. To Nick Stokes, Sara was a little sister. Big brothers are supposed to protect their baby sisters, and instead he had led her to the guy wanting to kill her. When Nick seemed to get a hold of himself, she motioned to Warrick to stay with him, and she turned her attention to Grissom.
Warrick led Nick over to a chair on the other side of the room so that Cath could talk to Grissom alone.
'What happened Gil?'
'God Cath, I should have realized sooner. I knew Felton had worked in San Francisco when I hired him. I should have put two and two together. And I didn't, and now Sara could die.'
'Hold on, I thought you said the bullet only grazed her neck.'
'It went deeper than I thought. Not too deep, but it could have nicked the carotid artery. She trusts me Catherine. She loves me.'
Catherine sat up straight, she was so happy for them, finally admitting their feelings. She just hoped that it hadn't been too late. She looked down at Grissom's shirt. There were handmarks on his back where Sara had held him, and traces of blood on his face. Catherine prayed that Sara would survive so that Grissom could have at least one more chance to say I love you, and that Sara would be able to do the same.
The surgeon exited the ER.
'Are you the family of Miss Sidle?'
'Yes.' They answered together.
'She's going to be fine. A blood vessel was nicked but it wasn't the one that supplied blood to the brain, so she will make a full recovery.' They all breathed a sigh of relief. Yet when Grissom looked up he saw the look of apprehension on the doctors' face.
'Can we see her?' asked Nick. Nick only believed it was real if you saw it, he wanted to see that Sara was ok with his own eyes.
'There is something you should know first. We think that she has suffered some kind of memory loss. She will not remember who she is, or who any of you are. She won't remember the events of the last week or so. But it is temporary, just don't push her. She'll be frustrated enough as it is. You may see her now.' The doctor motioned towards the doorway behind him and on his right.
After all that's happened in the past few days, she won't remember any of it. We will be back at square one, taking part in a hopeless dance that I've already completed. What do I do? Do I tell her what has happened and leave her to draw her own conclusions. That'd be great, she wouldn't even remember me and I would be expecting her to believe we had confessed our love a few hours ago. No, that would be unfair, it would put too much pressure and guilt on her. But am I supposed to just pretend nothing happened until she remembers. What if she remembers, but doesn't believe it? Or is angry at me for not telling her the truth? Or worse, what if she never remembers?
His thoughts stopped suddenly as he realized he was at the door of Sara's room. Catherine, Warrick and Nick had already gone in. He felt frozen, it was rare for Gil Grissom not to at least have a vague idea of what he was doing, but right now, he had no idea how to handle the situation.
So he walked in and looked into her eyes, searching for a memory, a flicker of hope that Sara was still there and still loved him. He knew he was being stupid, Sara was lucky to be alive, and the memory loss, no matter how hard for all of them, was only temporary. He continued to stare into her eyes, and then she turned her gaze from the others who had entered before him, and returned his look with startling clarity. It almost looked like recognition...almost.
'Hi, Sara', Catherine spoke first, 'The doctor told you we were your friends, and co-workers. Didn't he?'
Sara nodded. Still looking at the older man standing behind the rest of them.
'Well, I'm Catherine, this is Nick and Warrick.'
'Sara, I'm so glad you're ok.'
'Yeah, you're going to remember us soon, don't worry about it.'
Sara didn't know what to say. She had immediately noticed that Catherine had not introduced the other man. The one who she felt something for. She didn't remember him, but she felt something. God this is frustrating.
Catherine realized that Sara's eyes hadn't left Grissom. She decided that it was best to let them have a moment alone together, Sara had to know, Catherine just hoped that Grissom would be able to conquer his fears and tell her.
'Nick, Warrick, lets give Sara a moment ok.'
Nick realized what was going on as he saw Cath's eyes wander to Grissom momentarily. Warrick was about to object when he felt Nick steer him out the door.
'We'll be back later Sara, ok.'
Grissom stared at Sara. She still had that sparkle in her eyes. The one he thought about when he went to sleep at night, the one he saw as her eyes fluttered in the ambulance. He could look at her forever.
Sara met his gaze with equal force, despite the weakness in her body. She knew him, she just couldn't remember him. Why do I remember him and no-one else?
Sara broke the inevitable silence that had settled around them.
'Who are you?'
'Umm, my name is Gil Gris..'
'Don't give me the auto pilot answer, tell me who you are, what you like, why I have this feeling that I know you, even though the other three people who were in here are complete strangers. Who are you?'
Grissom paused for a moment.
'Sara.I...'
tbc. I need a certain amount of reviews for the next section.*hint hint*, ok what should grissom tell her? What do you want to happen coz I've got nothing! So review!