CHAPTER 5: Forgotten Happiness
*~ Close your eyes ~ Start a journey to a strange new world ~
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before ~ Close your eyes and let music set you free ~*
Sam had no idea how long he had isolated himself behind a locked door. He simply sat on his bed in silence, desperately trying to rid his troubled mind of any thoughts. All he wanted was to not be able to feel anything - no pain, no guilt, and no shame. Sam narrowed his eyes as he looked around at the familiar clutter of his room. The shades pulled down to prevent irritating sunlight from streaking in, the Marilyn Manson posters on the walls, dirty clothes scattered all over the floor, CDs scrappily piled up on his dresser - this was his sanctuary, his refuge. He knew he could always find comfort in this place. Only now, it was different. Now this room that smelled of foul cigarette smoke and aerosol glue only seemed to add on to Sam's deep frustrations.
And yet, what could he do? The world had completely turned its back to him. Who could he possibly turn to now that everyone has turned away? In desperation, Sam dug through the heinous clutter under his bed, trying to find a pack of cigarettes, an aerosol can, or a bottle of prescription drugs, but to no avail. He gave up his fruitless search, plopped down on his bed, and covered his face with a pillow.
Sam closed his eyes as his mind began to wander. Suddenly, he was swept away to a whole different world, a world he had once known but had long forgotten.
A vast azure blanket that seemed to engulf his lower body. A sweet saltiness stinging his eyes and mouth. The sound of water resonating as it hit the rocks.
Stop it Sam! he inwardly screamed at himself. Stop it, stop it, STOP IT!
However, he couldn't stop. The more he tried to silence his mind, the more he longed to be in that world, wherever it was. He didn't care how far it was or how hard it would be to find it. Sam was willing to do whatever it took to find his way to that unknown place of interminable bliss.
Author's Note: So are you pissed off at me yet? LOL. I know I haven't updated this story in the longest time! Sorry about that. Also, I'm sorry about having this chapter so short! If my story is starting to suck, well.all I can say is that I'm trying. Hopefully it'll get better as I continue writing it.
*~ Close your eyes ~ Start a journey to a strange new world ~
Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before ~ Close your eyes and let music set you free ~*
Sam had no idea how long he had isolated himself behind a locked door. He simply sat on his bed in silence, desperately trying to rid his troubled mind of any thoughts. All he wanted was to not be able to feel anything - no pain, no guilt, and no shame. Sam narrowed his eyes as he looked around at the familiar clutter of his room. The shades pulled down to prevent irritating sunlight from streaking in, the Marilyn Manson posters on the walls, dirty clothes scattered all over the floor, CDs scrappily piled up on his dresser - this was his sanctuary, his refuge. He knew he could always find comfort in this place. Only now, it was different. Now this room that smelled of foul cigarette smoke and aerosol glue only seemed to add on to Sam's deep frustrations.
And yet, what could he do? The world had completely turned its back to him. Who could he possibly turn to now that everyone has turned away? In desperation, Sam dug through the heinous clutter under his bed, trying to find a pack of cigarettes, an aerosol can, or a bottle of prescription drugs, but to no avail. He gave up his fruitless search, plopped down on his bed, and covered his face with a pillow.
Sam closed his eyes as his mind began to wander. Suddenly, he was swept away to a whole different world, a world he had once known but had long forgotten.
A vast azure blanket that seemed to engulf his lower body. A sweet saltiness stinging his eyes and mouth. The sound of water resonating as it hit the rocks.
Stop it Sam! he inwardly screamed at himself. Stop it, stop it, STOP IT!
However, he couldn't stop. The more he tried to silence his mind, the more he longed to be in that world, wherever it was. He didn't care how far it was or how hard it would be to find it. Sam was willing to do whatever it took to find his way to that unknown place of interminable bliss.
Author's Note: So are you pissed off at me yet? LOL. I know I haven't updated this story in the longest time! Sorry about that. Also, I'm sorry about having this chapter so short! If my story is starting to suck, well.all I can say is that I'm trying. Hopefully it'll get better as I continue writing it.