[[Disclaimer: I own nothing but Angelica and Jacob.]]
(a/n: Hello people! Sorry I didn't get to write a lot, but I just found out that I have pneumonia! Sucks huh? Well I'll try to write as much as possible, I promise.)
[[Chapter 8]]
[[Confrontation and Running Away]]
Jacob wouldn't talk to me for days. I had no idea what to do. I know that I was a complete idiot, and now I had to suffer the consequences. After class I met with Angelica so I could ask her what I should do.
"I just wished I knew what to say to him, but even if I did, he won't listen to one thing I have to say anyways!"
"Gosh Landon, you're really screwed here."
"Thanks for your help Angelica..now I'm going to go find someone useful to talk to now.."
"Come on Landon you know I'm just joking with you. I didn't know you were Mr. Sensitive."
"Well I didn't you were Ms. Joker. Now come on, I need your help."
"The best you could really do now is lock both of you in the dorm room so he has to listen to you."
"How the hell am I supposed to do that? I mean he can unlock the door too.."
"I have a plan..but you owe me so much for this."
"Yah yah..just tell me what we're going to do."
**Later on that Day**
I was sitting in my room hoping that Angelica's plan would work out according to plan. Jacob entered the room not even staring one glance at me.
"Hey Jake.." Their was no response whatsoever. I stood up and stood next to him. "So, how's the day going?" Still silence. He was approaching the door, but he struggled trying to get the door open. Angelica was actually on the other side, and she put a chair under the door knob, so he couldn't pull it open.
"Landon, what's up with the door?"
"I don't know. Is it stuck or something?"
"Stop the bull shit Landon. What's going on?"
"I told you, I don't know."
"Just cut it out dude. I gotta get to class."
"You don't have class Jake. It's lunch time."
"Well you're making me late for lunch."
"Come on, don't you think we should talk?"
"We are talking. This right now, it's called talking. Now, I have to go." He headed toward the door, and continued to try and bust it open.
"That's not gonna work. What's gonna work is if we at least civilize, for the sake of being roommates. We don't even have to be friends if you don't want to. I know I don't deserve your friendship. I mean I know I haven't treated you the way I should, you deserve more then that, but all I need is for you to have faith in me. I'm not some kind of jack ass all the time." These words sounded so familiar to me, like I've said them before. I couldn't get it right now, but I know I've said them.
"How can I know that? Landon....you really pissed me off that day. I don't need that."
"I know, I was just having this weird mood thing. I had this dream about Jamie and I was very lost, confused, which then lead to angry, and you were just there when it happened. It could have been anyone, I didn't mean to take it out on you."
"That's the thing Landon, it could have been anyone. I can't deal with someone who could just do that to anyone. I'm sorry that your wife died, but that's something you have to deal with yourself. Don't cause shit with anyone else because you fuckin' lost something." I couldn't take what he was saying to me. I know he had a point, but I hated the realization that I was hurting people, because I couldn't let go of Jamie. I didn't want to do that anymore, but I didn't want to put Jamie in the past. I stared at him not knowing what to say. I turned around and headed toward the door.
"Angelica, take the chair away from the knob. I gotta get out." I heard her remove the chair, then I quickly walked away.
"Where are you going?" I didn't answer her. I felt so depleted. I was walking until I was about 10 miles away from campus. I had no idea where I was, so I just sat on the sidewalk. Suddenly a headlight flashed in my eyes and I looked up at the car. I stood up and stood next to the front seat window. It rolled down, and that's when I saw Belinda.
"Heading somewhere?"
"Yah.."
"Where do you want me to take you?"
"Anywhere. Anywhere but here."
"Okay." I hopped in the car. I don't think I've ever been so happy to see Belinda in my whole entire life. We were driving for a couple of minutes quietly until she started conversation.
"You're campus is about 8 miles away from where I found you. What were you doing there?"
"To tell you the truth, I don't know. I didn't even know where I was. I just kept walking. Fate happened to bring me to you." She looked at me and gave me a small smile.
"I'm glad. I really missed you Landon."
"Belinda..you don't still have feelings for me right?"
"Are you kidding me? I gave up on you when you got married!" She began to laugh softly, and I joined in with her. "Actually I've been dating someone here in California. I know I'm going back to Beaufort, but I still think we could get through that and end up together some day."
"Well that's good. It's always nice to have someone in your life that you could love."
"Yah..I guess it is. How are you holding up with the Jamie thing?"
"I think I'm doing pretty well, considering that it's kind of affecting everyone else around me."
"What do you mean?"
"Well one girl fell inlove with me. She told me that day I saw you at the coffee house. She saw me hugging you, and she kind of ran away. That's why I left so quickly. I'm sorry about that by the way."
"Eh..No problem Landon.."
"Well I told her that I couldn't love her back, because I'm obviously still inlove with Jamie."
"Understandable. I mean, considering what great a person she was.."
"Yah..She understood that..but then my roommate Jacob.."
"Let me guess..He hates the fact that you can't let go of Jamie, because it secludes him from parts of your life that you don't think he can understand."
"Wow, you're pretty good."
"Well considering that I'm a friend that was there with you after she passed, I know how that feels. Still, I never had a problem with that. I mean, you were probably hurting way more than I was. If he can't understand that you're hurt, then he's not much of an open-minded friend. You should talk to him about that."
"Believe me, I tried. He just ended up making me kind of confused which lead me here, right now, in a car with one of my old best friends. I have to admit, it's not that bad. Where are you taking me anyways?"
"Home."
"What?"
"I was heading back to Beaufort when I caught you in the middle of the street. Plus, you said I could take you anywhere."
"I guess I did, but when you said that you were going back to Beaufort, I didn't know it was today at this moment.."
"Well..you didn't ask sooner! Don't worry. I'm sure Eric and everyone would be glad to see you."
"Wow..I'm actually going back to Beaufort.."
"Why? You haven't visited yet?"
"Well once, to visit Jamie's grave. I didn't visit anyone else though."
"Well then..I guess it's time for you to have another visit to our little town."
"I guess so.." I smiled, and sat back. I was probably the happiest that day at that moment.
(a/n: Hello people! Sorry I didn't get to write a lot, but I just found out that I have pneumonia! Sucks huh? Well I'll try to write as much as possible, I promise.)
[[Chapter 8]]
[[Confrontation and Running Away]]
Jacob wouldn't talk to me for days. I had no idea what to do. I know that I was a complete idiot, and now I had to suffer the consequences. After class I met with Angelica so I could ask her what I should do.
"I just wished I knew what to say to him, but even if I did, he won't listen to one thing I have to say anyways!"
"Gosh Landon, you're really screwed here."
"Thanks for your help Angelica..now I'm going to go find someone useful to talk to now.."
"Come on Landon you know I'm just joking with you. I didn't know you were Mr. Sensitive."
"Well I didn't you were Ms. Joker. Now come on, I need your help."
"The best you could really do now is lock both of you in the dorm room so he has to listen to you."
"How the hell am I supposed to do that? I mean he can unlock the door too.."
"I have a plan..but you owe me so much for this."
"Yah yah..just tell me what we're going to do."
**Later on that Day**
I was sitting in my room hoping that Angelica's plan would work out according to plan. Jacob entered the room not even staring one glance at me.
"Hey Jake.." Their was no response whatsoever. I stood up and stood next to him. "So, how's the day going?" Still silence. He was approaching the door, but he struggled trying to get the door open. Angelica was actually on the other side, and she put a chair under the door knob, so he couldn't pull it open.
"Landon, what's up with the door?"
"I don't know. Is it stuck or something?"
"Stop the bull shit Landon. What's going on?"
"I told you, I don't know."
"Just cut it out dude. I gotta get to class."
"You don't have class Jake. It's lunch time."
"Well you're making me late for lunch."
"Come on, don't you think we should talk?"
"We are talking. This right now, it's called talking. Now, I have to go." He headed toward the door, and continued to try and bust it open.
"That's not gonna work. What's gonna work is if we at least civilize, for the sake of being roommates. We don't even have to be friends if you don't want to. I know I don't deserve your friendship. I mean I know I haven't treated you the way I should, you deserve more then that, but all I need is for you to have faith in me. I'm not some kind of jack ass all the time." These words sounded so familiar to me, like I've said them before. I couldn't get it right now, but I know I've said them.
"How can I know that? Landon....you really pissed me off that day. I don't need that."
"I know, I was just having this weird mood thing. I had this dream about Jamie and I was very lost, confused, which then lead to angry, and you were just there when it happened. It could have been anyone, I didn't mean to take it out on you."
"That's the thing Landon, it could have been anyone. I can't deal with someone who could just do that to anyone. I'm sorry that your wife died, but that's something you have to deal with yourself. Don't cause shit with anyone else because you fuckin' lost something." I couldn't take what he was saying to me. I know he had a point, but I hated the realization that I was hurting people, because I couldn't let go of Jamie. I didn't want to do that anymore, but I didn't want to put Jamie in the past. I stared at him not knowing what to say. I turned around and headed toward the door.
"Angelica, take the chair away from the knob. I gotta get out." I heard her remove the chair, then I quickly walked away.
"Where are you going?" I didn't answer her. I felt so depleted. I was walking until I was about 10 miles away from campus. I had no idea where I was, so I just sat on the sidewalk. Suddenly a headlight flashed in my eyes and I looked up at the car. I stood up and stood next to the front seat window. It rolled down, and that's when I saw Belinda.
"Heading somewhere?"
"Yah.."
"Where do you want me to take you?"
"Anywhere. Anywhere but here."
"Okay." I hopped in the car. I don't think I've ever been so happy to see Belinda in my whole entire life. We were driving for a couple of minutes quietly until she started conversation.
"You're campus is about 8 miles away from where I found you. What were you doing there?"
"To tell you the truth, I don't know. I didn't even know where I was. I just kept walking. Fate happened to bring me to you." She looked at me and gave me a small smile.
"I'm glad. I really missed you Landon."
"Belinda..you don't still have feelings for me right?"
"Are you kidding me? I gave up on you when you got married!" She began to laugh softly, and I joined in with her. "Actually I've been dating someone here in California. I know I'm going back to Beaufort, but I still think we could get through that and end up together some day."
"Well that's good. It's always nice to have someone in your life that you could love."
"Yah..I guess it is. How are you holding up with the Jamie thing?"
"I think I'm doing pretty well, considering that it's kind of affecting everyone else around me."
"What do you mean?"
"Well one girl fell inlove with me. She told me that day I saw you at the coffee house. She saw me hugging you, and she kind of ran away. That's why I left so quickly. I'm sorry about that by the way."
"Eh..No problem Landon.."
"Well I told her that I couldn't love her back, because I'm obviously still inlove with Jamie."
"Understandable. I mean, considering what great a person she was.."
"Yah..She understood that..but then my roommate Jacob.."
"Let me guess..He hates the fact that you can't let go of Jamie, because it secludes him from parts of your life that you don't think he can understand."
"Wow, you're pretty good."
"Well considering that I'm a friend that was there with you after she passed, I know how that feels. Still, I never had a problem with that. I mean, you were probably hurting way more than I was. If he can't understand that you're hurt, then he's not much of an open-minded friend. You should talk to him about that."
"Believe me, I tried. He just ended up making me kind of confused which lead me here, right now, in a car with one of my old best friends. I have to admit, it's not that bad. Where are you taking me anyways?"
"Home."
"What?"
"I was heading back to Beaufort when I caught you in the middle of the street. Plus, you said I could take you anywhere."
"I guess I did, but when you said that you were going back to Beaufort, I didn't know it was today at this moment.."
"Well..you didn't ask sooner! Don't worry. I'm sure Eric and everyone would be glad to see you."
"Wow..I'm actually going back to Beaufort.."
"Why? You haven't visited yet?"
"Well once, to visit Jamie's grave. I didn't visit anyone else though."
"Well then..I guess it's time for you to have another visit to our little town."
"I guess so.." I smiled, and sat back. I was probably the happiest that day at that moment.