Jess- Always Running From Me
I watch her run off to her boyfriend. It kills me to see them together. Not only because he gets to touch her, but because he doesn't deserve her. They don't fit, they have nothing in common. But in the eyes of Stars Hollow, he is her perfect match. He's the boy next door- sweet, caring, loving. Ideally, they fit perfectly. But that's not what she needs. She needs someone who can match her word for word and battle with her. She needs some one to ground her, but let her loose and let her feel what it's like to live. She needs someone to show her the world. She needs me. And I need her.
I resist her urge to punch something when I see them kiss. Luke notices the frustrated look on my face. He sympathizes, everyone except Lorelai can see Luke's love for her. It's hard to tell who has it better. I get to touch Rory, but I know it can't go anywhere, on the other hand, he doesn't get tempted and seduced only to be let go at a moments notice.
I shrug, trying to tell him it means nothing. He doesn't buy it and I go on my break.
I go to the bridge. It's my sanctuary from this little town, no one bothers me there. I try to clear my head, get some perspective on the situation I'm in now. But I just end up going crazy. Thinking about her just makes me more confused.
I lie back and try to sleep. I didn't get much sleep last night. I was too busy daydreaming about her. I'm half asleep when I hear someone one on the bridge, I try to ignore who ever they are. The footsteps stop beside me, I can hear someone sit down next to me, but I don't feel like opening my eyes because that would ruin the picture of Rory in my mind.
The person doesn't go away, and I'm about to open my eyes when I feel her lips on mine. I suspected it was her, no one else would come sit beside me, but I was still surprised. Surprised at her boldness, it was still light out, last I checked, and the residents of Stars Hollow were running around. I give up on rational thought and kiss her back. My hands move to the back of her neck to pull her closer to me. She tries to smile at my move but can't as her lips are enclosed in mine.
She pulls away from me and I expect her to get up and run away as usual, but she puts her head on my chest and curls up next to me. She starts talking and I let her, knowing she needs to get things off her chest. "I'm sorry. For everything. For stringing you along. You don't deserve it and I don't know why you put up with it, with me. I just.. I can't help it. You turn me on, Jess," she admits quietly. "God, I hate having to be the princess."
I smile at her confession. I know all this. I think about confessing my feelings to her, but I can't. I was never good with this emotional crap. I learned long ago that to avoid being hurt, you have to cut your self off. I've been good at not letting my emotions get to me, that is, until I saw her.
"It's okay," I whisper, stroking her hair. "I'm here. If you need me, I'm here."
"Thanks, Jess," she says, getting up. I wrap my arms around her to keep her by me. I'm not ready to say goodbye to her yet. Hell, I never want to see her go. Not that her backside isn't good to look at, I'd just rather be looking into her eyes and kissing her.
She looks at me, pleading to let her go. She's feeling guilty about being here. Maybe she had made plans with Dean. I sigh and let go of her. I make no move to kiss her goodbye. Kissing her would be the end of my control and I'd never let her leave.
She leans back over me and gives me a hard kiss, full of emotion. I'm slow to react. She's continuously taking me by surprise. By the time I get my hands around her, she pulls away. She walks backwards, slowly, her eyes still staring into mine. Once she reaches the soil, she turns and runs away. She's always running away, but I'm always waiting when she wants more.
I watch her run off to her boyfriend. It kills me to see them together. Not only because he gets to touch her, but because he doesn't deserve her. They don't fit, they have nothing in common. But in the eyes of Stars Hollow, he is her perfect match. He's the boy next door- sweet, caring, loving. Ideally, they fit perfectly. But that's not what she needs. She needs someone who can match her word for word and battle with her. She needs some one to ground her, but let her loose and let her feel what it's like to live. She needs someone to show her the world. She needs me. And I need her.
I resist her urge to punch something when I see them kiss. Luke notices the frustrated look on my face. He sympathizes, everyone except Lorelai can see Luke's love for her. It's hard to tell who has it better. I get to touch Rory, but I know it can't go anywhere, on the other hand, he doesn't get tempted and seduced only to be let go at a moments notice.
I shrug, trying to tell him it means nothing. He doesn't buy it and I go on my break.
I go to the bridge. It's my sanctuary from this little town, no one bothers me there. I try to clear my head, get some perspective on the situation I'm in now. But I just end up going crazy. Thinking about her just makes me more confused.
I lie back and try to sleep. I didn't get much sleep last night. I was too busy daydreaming about her. I'm half asleep when I hear someone one on the bridge, I try to ignore who ever they are. The footsteps stop beside me, I can hear someone sit down next to me, but I don't feel like opening my eyes because that would ruin the picture of Rory in my mind.
The person doesn't go away, and I'm about to open my eyes when I feel her lips on mine. I suspected it was her, no one else would come sit beside me, but I was still surprised. Surprised at her boldness, it was still light out, last I checked, and the residents of Stars Hollow were running around. I give up on rational thought and kiss her back. My hands move to the back of her neck to pull her closer to me. She tries to smile at my move but can't as her lips are enclosed in mine.
She pulls away from me and I expect her to get up and run away as usual, but she puts her head on my chest and curls up next to me. She starts talking and I let her, knowing she needs to get things off her chest. "I'm sorry. For everything. For stringing you along. You don't deserve it and I don't know why you put up with it, with me. I just.. I can't help it. You turn me on, Jess," she admits quietly. "God, I hate having to be the princess."
I smile at her confession. I know all this. I think about confessing my feelings to her, but I can't. I was never good with this emotional crap. I learned long ago that to avoid being hurt, you have to cut your self off. I've been good at not letting my emotions get to me, that is, until I saw her.
"It's okay," I whisper, stroking her hair. "I'm here. If you need me, I'm here."
"Thanks, Jess," she says, getting up. I wrap my arms around her to keep her by me. I'm not ready to say goodbye to her yet. Hell, I never want to see her go. Not that her backside isn't good to look at, I'd just rather be looking into her eyes and kissing her.
She looks at me, pleading to let her go. She's feeling guilty about being here. Maybe she had made plans with Dean. I sigh and let go of her. I make no move to kiss her goodbye. Kissing her would be the end of my control and I'd never let her leave.
She leans back over me and gives me a hard kiss, full of emotion. I'm slow to react. She's continuously taking me by surprise. By the time I get my hands around her, she pulls away. She walks backwards, slowly, her eyes still staring into mine. Once she reaches the soil, she turns and runs away. She's always running away, but I'm always waiting when she wants more.