Sick Cycle Of Life
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/.../ - thought
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Chapter 7: Bittersweet Memories - Part 2
"The next trip was to L5. Setsuna was an honorary member of Wufei's clan so we stayed there for a week," Yue started.
*Flashback*
"Usagi, this is Wufei and Meiran," Setsuna introduced the two Chinese children beside her. "You'll be spending time with them during your stay here."
Yue smiled brightly at them. "Pleased to meet you," she said happily.
Wufei didn't reply. He just turned and walked back outside with a book in his hand. Meiran smiled apologetically at Yue. "I'm sorry about Wufei. He's always like that."
"No worries. I'm not offended by it. He's probably a private person."
"Well, what do you want to do now?" Meiran asked, changing the subject.
"Oh! I heard that you're good at martial arts. Can you teach me? Please?" she begged, using her puppy dog eyes.
The other girl laughed. "Sure! I'd love to teach you. Let's go to the garden so we can start."
"Yay! Thank you Mei-neechan."
"Neechan? Is that Japanese?"
"Yup! It means older sister. You don't mind, do you? You can call me Usa-chan."
"No, I don't mind at all," Meiran assured the girl. "I'm happy to have you as a little sister although we're technically the same age."
"That's not true! You're older than me by a couple of months!"
Meiran laughed again. She was starting to like the silver blonde haired girl's cheery attitude. "Come on, Usa-chan. Let's go and practice now."
Both girls walked towards the garden and they saw Wufei sitting under a tree reading. He looked up at the incoming figures before dismissing them and turning his attention back to his book.
"We'll practice here," Meiran announced. "Have you done any of this before?"
"Well, I learnt a bit of martial arts from a friend for two months. She said I should learn to protect myself and it would also help with my concentration."
"Okay, show me what you know."
Yue went through some moves her blonde friend had taught her. As she did that, she began to miss her friend. She used to call her 'Koneko-chan' and always protected her from any bullies. /Oh, I wish you could come back, Haruka. I missed you and Michiru so much/.
"Okay, that's enough, Usa-chan," Meiran said. She was impressed by how much the girl knew. /And to think she learnt all of these in two months! Her friend must have been a really good teacher/.
Yue snapped out of her thoughts and turned to look at the other girl. She noticed that Wufei was watching her but she didn't pay any attention to him.
Under his tree, Wufei watched Yue moving through some of her moves. Although he wouldn't have ever admitted it, he was slightly impressed by her skill in martial arts.
"You're very good," Meiran complimented. "I didn't expect you to be up to this level in two months time."
Yue blushed. "Thank you but that's not all I can do."
"No?"
"No. My friend also taught me how to use a sword. She's very fond of her sword," she giggled remembering the look on Haruka's face when one of her sisters said she should throw that scrap piece of metal away and find something better. It took two hours for Michiru to calm Haruka down and prevent her from killing the girl.
"You can use a sword?" a male voice asked.
Yue was startled and she turned around to see Wufei standing behind her. She hadn't noticed him sneaking behind her and was a little unnerved but she didn't show it. "A little, but I don't think I'm very good though."
"Care to show me?" Wufei asked, offering her his sword. He stepped back to give her space.
Meiran stared at Wufei in shock. He had never acted this way in front of a girl before, especially never offered his sword. She felt jealous of this girl because he never acted that way towards her even though they were to be married.
Yue took the sword carefully knowing that the sword was very important to him. She nodded and stepped back. Slowly but gracefully she started to perform the kata Haruka had taught her. Soon she lost herself in her movements.
Wufei and Meiran watched the girl silently. They were amazed that this girl could be so good in such a short time.
Yue's movements slowed down as she brought the kata to a stop. She wiped some sweat off her brow and handed the sword back to Wufei. She looked at his face for any sign of approval.
"Good job," Wufei grunted, taking his sword back. "Maybe we could spar sometime." with that he turned away and walked back inside the house, lost in his thoughts.
Meiran watched her intended in shock. He was extremely out of character today and all because of a girl he had just met. She felt jealous and angry because the girl change him so drastically in a short amount of time while she, who had been trying to get him to open up for months, had no success.
Yue, sensing Meiran's anger and jealousy, said, "Don't worry, Mei-neechan. You don't have to be jealous. I don't intend to take Fei-niichan away from you. I think you two look good together." She giggled when Meiran blushed furiously at being caught. "Fei-niichan cares about you too but he has trouble showing it. He just need some time to think before he could admit his feelings. Also it's best that you don't push him otherwise he'll just put up his defences again."
Meiran looked at the smaller girl in wonder. "How do you know that, Usa-chan?"
Yue looked around to see if anyone was listening. "Can you keep a secret?" she whispered.
Meiran nodded.
"I have an ability to sense emotions, but my family don't like anyone knowing about my ability."
Meiran nodded again and then giggled. "That's great!"
"So you're not mad at me anymore, Mei-neechan?" Yue looked at her expectantly.
Meiran smiled and ruffled Yue's hair. "Of course not, Usa-chan. It's hard not to like you. You're so adorable!"
The week passed by quickly. Yue spent most of her time sparring and practising with Wufei and Meiran. The three formed a bond between them and Merian and Wufei became closer. They were talking to each other more often. They still fought occasionally but they were getting along most of the time. It was soon time for her leave and she promised them that she would return one day.
*End Flashback*
Wufei felt an overwhelming sadness at the mention of his deceased wife but he pushed it down, putting on another brave facade.
Yue looked at him apologetically for bringing up painful memories and tried to switch the subject. "The last trip was to L3 where I met Trowa or as I knew him then, Nanashi."
*Flashback*
"Hi there!"
A boy with chestnut hair in an unusual style snapped out of his thoughts and turned towards the direction of the voice. He relaxed slightly when he only saw a young girl around six or seven with silver blonde hair heading towards him picking through the rubble.
"Hi! May I ask what you're doing?" The girl stopped in front of him, looking at him curiously.
The silent boy looked the girl over and decided she was not a threat since he only sensed confusion and honesty from her. "Who are you?"
"Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Usagi Tsukino. Pleased to meet you, and you are...?"
"I don't have a name but you may call me Nanashi and as for your question I was thinking," Nanashi turned back to looking at the blackened fields, a leftover from the weapons of mass destructions.
Yue felt a little uncomfortable with him. He was similar to Heero yet different. They were both trained to be soldiers, never letting their emotions rule them. She could still sense Heero's emotions since he wanted to feel but Nanashi was different. It felt like he was emotionally dead. She could not feel any emotions from him. She delved deeper into his soul trying to find a tiny shred of humanity in him that was not wiped away. What she found almost made her cry. She could sense his loneliness, despair and self-hatred. Underneath his expressionless mask, he was only a lost little boy who had been forced to grow up quickly to survive. "You know you don't have to keep it bottled inside. I am willing to listen," she stated softly.
Faster than the eye could see, Nanashi had his gun pointed at the smaller girl. "What are you?" He cast a penetrating look at her.
Yue gave him a gentle smile and put her hands in the air, letting him know she was not going to try anything. "Don't worry, I won't hurt you. As for your question, I am an empath. I can feel your emotions that you have locked away."
Nanashi tried to evaluate her, but not sensing any danger, he slowly put his gun down but kept it close just in case. "I don't have any emotion," he declared after a while.
"That's not true. Your emotions are there but you are just refusing to acknowledge them. You keep them bottled inside of you because you cannot bear the pain. It is not healthy and destructive. You must one day tell someone what ails you, and as I mentioned before ,I am willing to listen," she said soothingly, trying to offer him comfort and reassurance.
Nanashi felt all the feelings he had kept inside for so long rush forcefully back to the surface with Yue's words. He broke down in front of her and told her all about his pain of living his life as a soldier, sadness for never knowing his family, despair for the battle he knew he would not win and the loneliness he felt everyday without someone he could talk to. Through it all, Yue held him and whispered soothing words, giving him the comfort that he needed. When he finished, he was exhausted mentally and emotionally, but he felt surprsingly good.
"How are you feeling now?" Yue inquired gently, still holding him.
"I felt better now. Thank you."
"That is not necessary. I'm just glad you're better now," she replied. "I think you should have a name," she said suddenly.
"What?"
"A name, you know so you could have an identity. How about Tristan? Nah. Oh, I know! What about Trowa Barton? I don't know why but it suits you."
Nanashi or Trowa rolled the name in his mouth to get the feel of it. He smiled slightly. "I like it."
Yue cast him an impish grin. "Now you can be my Tro-niichan and you can call me Usa-chan!"
Trowa found the girl's enthusiasm to be contagious. "Okay, Usa-chan."
For the next few days they met at the same place. Sometimes they talked, at other times they just sat there enjoying the peace and quiet. But soon Yue had to leave and they met together for the last time. Yue made Trowa promise to find a hobby so he could express himself a bit more and she promised that she would find him again someday.
*End Flashback*
The room was silent when Yue finished her narrative. She had touched each pilot in a certain way and they were grateful for that. When they were able to, they had searched high and low for her so they could see her again but they found out about her disappearance five years ago and they were crushed. They vowed not to let her go again.
Ranma didn't know what to think. He only knew Yue was a special person and he felt attracted to her inner beauty and light. /I just wished she felt the same way as me./
*End Chapter 7b*
AN: I'm really, really, really sorry for taking a long time to update this fic but I had a reason. My teachers piled a massive amount of assignments and tests during the last two weeks of school since it's getting closer to exams and I didn't have a chance to write. I hoped you enjoyed that chapter. Now Yue's past with the pilots are revealed and hopefully more action is coming soon! Thank you so much for those who reviewed!!!!!!!!!!
Replies to reviews:
'solarmistress17' - I don'y like school but it has some good qualities too. Thanks for reading!
'Cristina' - Yes. You'll find out what happened to her as a senshi sometimes in the future.
'Kolinshar Jackie-chan Benito' - Why did you change your name? Life is not too bad unless you count the school part. I just started my holiday *do a little happy dance* That means I'll have more time writing my fic (hopefully). When are you going to update 'Straight Flush'? I can't wait for the next chap!!
'montymouse' - I'll have more Yue/Ranma action soon (and some more Akane bashing! He..he..he..)
'Adyen' - Well, I don't really know what to say. I appreciate your comments because they help me improve. It's hard for me to go deeper personalities of each character becasue I'm more writing it in a broad point of view. As for the worlds merging, this is an AU so the Ranma universe has undergone several changes but perhaps I will make it clearer in the next chapter.
'SweetKawaiiAngel' - I'm glad you like my story. May I ask what do you mean by going too fast? I've been getting some comments about that lately and also in my other fic. BTW, I love your stories too! I especially like 'Aishiteru' and I hope you update soon because I want to see more Relena bashing and more Usagi/Heero!
'Zpan Sven', 'moon-bunny-87', 'MarsMoonStar', 'Sweet Sere', 'Lady_Pluto' - Thank you for your reviews!!!! I really appreciate all of them and I hope you enjoyed this chapter!
Disclaimer: Don't own anything except the story
"..." - talking
/.../ - thought
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Chapter 7: Bittersweet Memories - Part 2
"The next trip was to L5. Setsuna was an honorary member of Wufei's clan so we stayed there for a week," Yue started.
*Flashback*
"Usagi, this is Wufei and Meiran," Setsuna introduced the two Chinese children beside her. "You'll be spending time with them during your stay here."
Yue smiled brightly at them. "Pleased to meet you," she said happily.
Wufei didn't reply. He just turned and walked back outside with a book in his hand. Meiran smiled apologetically at Yue. "I'm sorry about Wufei. He's always like that."
"No worries. I'm not offended by it. He's probably a private person."
"Well, what do you want to do now?" Meiran asked, changing the subject.
"Oh! I heard that you're good at martial arts. Can you teach me? Please?" she begged, using her puppy dog eyes.
The other girl laughed. "Sure! I'd love to teach you. Let's go to the garden so we can start."
"Yay! Thank you Mei-neechan."
"Neechan? Is that Japanese?"
"Yup! It means older sister. You don't mind, do you? You can call me Usa-chan."
"No, I don't mind at all," Meiran assured the girl. "I'm happy to have you as a little sister although we're technically the same age."
"That's not true! You're older than me by a couple of months!"
Meiran laughed again. She was starting to like the silver blonde haired girl's cheery attitude. "Come on, Usa-chan. Let's go and practice now."
Both girls walked towards the garden and they saw Wufei sitting under a tree reading. He looked up at the incoming figures before dismissing them and turning his attention back to his book.
"We'll practice here," Meiran announced. "Have you done any of this before?"
"Well, I learnt a bit of martial arts from a friend for two months. She said I should learn to protect myself and it would also help with my concentration."
"Okay, show me what you know."
Yue went through some moves her blonde friend had taught her. As she did that, she began to miss her friend. She used to call her 'Koneko-chan' and always protected her from any bullies. /Oh, I wish you could come back, Haruka. I missed you and Michiru so much/.
"Okay, that's enough, Usa-chan," Meiran said. She was impressed by how much the girl knew. /And to think she learnt all of these in two months! Her friend must have been a really good teacher/.
Yue snapped out of her thoughts and turned to look at the other girl. She noticed that Wufei was watching her but she didn't pay any attention to him.
Under his tree, Wufei watched Yue moving through some of her moves. Although he wouldn't have ever admitted it, he was slightly impressed by her skill in martial arts.
"You're very good," Meiran complimented. "I didn't expect you to be up to this level in two months time."
Yue blushed. "Thank you but that's not all I can do."
"No?"
"No. My friend also taught me how to use a sword. She's very fond of her sword," she giggled remembering the look on Haruka's face when one of her sisters said she should throw that scrap piece of metal away and find something better. It took two hours for Michiru to calm Haruka down and prevent her from killing the girl.
"You can use a sword?" a male voice asked.
Yue was startled and she turned around to see Wufei standing behind her. She hadn't noticed him sneaking behind her and was a little unnerved but she didn't show it. "A little, but I don't think I'm very good though."
"Care to show me?" Wufei asked, offering her his sword. He stepped back to give her space.
Meiran stared at Wufei in shock. He had never acted this way in front of a girl before, especially never offered his sword. She felt jealous of this girl because he never acted that way towards her even though they were to be married.
Yue took the sword carefully knowing that the sword was very important to him. She nodded and stepped back. Slowly but gracefully she started to perform the kata Haruka had taught her. Soon she lost herself in her movements.
Wufei and Meiran watched the girl silently. They were amazed that this girl could be so good in such a short time.
Yue's movements slowed down as she brought the kata to a stop. She wiped some sweat off her brow and handed the sword back to Wufei. She looked at his face for any sign of approval.
"Good job," Wufei grunted, taking his sword back. "Maybe we could spar sometime." with that he turned away and walked back inside the house, lost in his thoughts.
Meiran watched her intended in shock. He was extremely out of character today and all because of a girl he had just met. She felt jealous and angry because the girl change him so drastically in a short amount of time while she, who had been trying to get him to open up for months, had no success.
Yue, sensing Meiran's anger and jealousy, said, "Don't worry, Mei-neechan. You don't have to be jealous. I don't intend to take Fei-niichan away from you. I think you two look good together." She giggled when Meiran blushed furiously at being caught. "Fei-niichan cares about you too but he has trouble showing it. He just need some time to think before he could admit his feelings. Also it's best that you don't push him otherwise he'll just put up his defences again."
Meiran looked at the smaller girl in wonder. "How do you know that, Usa-chan?"
Yue looked around to see if anyone was listening. "Can you keep a secret?" she whispered.
Meiran nodded.
"I have an ability to sense emotions, but my family don't like anyone knowing about my ability."
Meiran nodded again and then giggled. "That's great!"
"So you're not mad at me anymore, Mei-neechan?" Yue looked at her expectantly.
Meiran smiled and ruffled Yue's hair. "Of course not, Usa-chan. It's hard not to like you. You're so adorable!"
The week passed by quickly. Yue spent most of her time sparring and practising with Wufei and Meiran. The three formed a bond between them and Merian and Wufei became closer. They were talking to each other more often. They still fought occasionally but they were getting along most of the time. It was soon time for her leave and she promised them that she would return one day.
*End Flashback*
Wufei felt an overwhelming sadness at the mention of his deceased wife but he pushed it down, putting on another brave facade.
Yue looked at him apologetically for bringing up painful memories and tried to switch the subject. "The last trip was to L3 where I met Trowa or as I knew him then, Nanashi."
*Flashback*
"Hi there!"
A boy with chestnut hair in an unusual style snapped out of his thoughts and turned towards the direction of the voice. He relaxed slightly when he only saw a young girl around six or seven with silver blonde hair heading towards him picking through the rubble.
"Hi! May I ask what you're doing?" The girl stopped in front of him, looking at him curiously.
The silent boy looked the girl over and decided she was not a threat since he only sensed confusion and honesty from her. "Who are you?"
"Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Usagi Tsukino. Pleased to meet you, and you are...?"
"I don't have a name but you may call me Nanashi and as for your question I was thinking," Nanashi turned back to looking at the blackened fields, a leftover from the weapons of mass destructions.
Yue felt a little uncomfortable with him. He was similar to Heero yet different. They were both trained to be soldiers, never letting their emotions rule them. She could still sense Heero's emotions since he wanted to feel but Nanashi was different. It felt like he was emotionally dead. She could not feel any emotions from him. She delved deeper into his soul trying to find a tiny shred of humanity in him that was not wiped away. What she found almost made her cry. She could sense his loneliness, despair and self-hatred. Underneath his expressionless mask, he was only a lost little boy who had been forced to grow up quickly to survive. "You know you don't have to keep it bottled inside. I am willing to listen," she stated softly.
Faster than the eye could see, Nanashi had his gun pointed at the smaller girl. "What are you?" He cast a penetrating look at her.
Yue gave him a gentle smile and put her hands in the air, letting him know she was not going to try anything. "Don't worry, I won't hurt you. As for your question, I am an empath. I can feel your emotions that you have locked away."
Nanashi tried to evaluate her, but not sensing any danger, he slowly put his gun down but kept it close just in case. "I don't have any emotion," he declared after a while.
"That's not true. Your emotions are there but you are just refusing to acknowledge them. You keep them bottled inside of you because you cannot bear the pain. It is not healthy and destructive. You must one day tell someone what ails you, and as I mentioned before ,I am willing to listen," she said soothingly, trying to offer him comfort and reassurance.
Nanashi felt all the feelings he had kept inside for so long rush forcefully back to the surface with Yue's words. He broke down in front of her and told her all about his pain of living his life as a soldier, sadness for never knowing his family, despair for the battle he knew he would not win and the loneliness he felt everyday without someone he could talk to. Through it all, Yue held him and whispered soothing words, giving him the comfort that he needed. When he finished, he was exhausted mentally and emotionally, but he felt surprsingly good.
"How are you feeling now?" Yue inquired gently, still holding him.
"I felt better now. Thank you."
"That is not necessary. I'm just glad you're better now," she replied. "I think you should have a name," she said suddenly.
"What?"
"A name, you know so you could have an identity. How about Tristan? Nah. Oh, I know! What about Trowa Barton? I don't know why but it suits you."
Nanashi or Trowa rolled the name in his mouth to get the feel of it. He smiled slightly. "I like it."
Yue cast him an impish grin. "Now you can be my Tro-niichan and you can call me Usa-chan!"
Trowa found the girl's enthusiasm to be contagious. "Okay, Usa-chan."
For the next few days they met at the same place. Sometimes they talked, at other times they just sat there enjoying the peace and quiet. But soon Yue had to leave and they met together for the last time. Yue made Trowa promise to find a hobby so he could express himself a bit more and she promised that she would find him again someday.
*End Flashback*
The room was silent when Yue finished her narrative. She had touched each pilot in a certain way and they were grateful for that. When they were able to, they had searched high and low for her so they could see her again but they found out about her disappearance five years ago and they were crushed. They vowed not to let her go again.
Ranma didn't know what to think. He only knew Yue was a special person and he felt attracted to her inner beauty and light. /I just wished she felt the same way as me./
*End Chapter 7b*
AN: I'm really, really, really sorry for taking a long time to update this fic but I had a reason. My teachers piled a massive amount of assignments and tests during the last two weeks of school since it's getting closer to exams and I didn't have a chance to write. I hoped you enjoyed that chapter. Now Yue's past with the pilots are revealed and hopefully more action is coming soon! Thank you so much for those who reviewed!!!!!!!!!!
Replies to reviews:
'solarmistress17' - I don'y like school but it has some good qualities too. Thanks for reading!
'Cristina' - Yes. You'll find out what happened to her as a senshi sometimes in the future.
'Kolinshar Jackie-chan Benito' - Why did you change your name? Life is not too bad unless you count the school part. I just started my holiday *do a little happy dance* That means I'll have more time writing my fic (hopefully). When are you going to update 'Straight Flush'? I can't wait for the next chap!!
'montymouse' - I'll have more Yue/Ranma action soon (and some more Akane bashing! He..he..he..)
'Adyen' - Well, I don't really know what to say. I appreciate your comments because they help me improve. It's hard for me to go deeper personalities of each character becasue I'm more writing it in a broad point of view. As for the worlds merging, this is an AU so the Ranma universe has undergone several changes but perhaps I will make it clearer in the next chapter.
'SweetKawaiiAngel' - I'm glad you like my story. May I ask what do you mean by going too fast? I've been getting some comments about that lately and also in my other fic. BTW, I love your stories too! I especially like 'Aishiteru' and I hope you update soon because I want to see more Relena bashing and more Usagi/Heero!
'Zpan Sven', 'moon-bunny-87', 'MarsMoonStar', 'Sweet Sere', 'Lady_Pluto' - Thank you for your reviews!!!! I really appreciate all of them and I hope you enjoyed this chapter!