A quick TatsuhaxRyuichi…..sorta, man I really like how this came out.

Warnings: Odd, creative? Angst. Shonen ai, babeh.

I think I will damn well right an sequel or sumthin, coz all I want is these two to snuggle up with fluffy bunnies and sugar coated kisses.

Am freak. XD

Twice at Once

Smile baby, smile for me.

The camera whispers words, telling you to smile, to laugh-to pose. But I always wonder if you ever hear it, maybe you just hear the voice of your own, telling you to smile because you are happy and carefree. And when you are happy and carefree you smile.

I wonder if that voice of yours is lying.

I wonder if it ever tells the truth, and if it did, what would you do?

Would you still smile, or would your eyes crumble into void blue orbs that told stories of ice and windy weather? Have you ever been hurt my love, been rubbed to the ground one to many times? Do you laugh and smile and play games to shield them, the flashing cameras and microphones? Are you really that scared for them to see the real you,. Do you really need to hide that much?

Hide from me then, your spectator. Forever standing still and watch as you beauty flies by. Studying like an art critic seeing your true beauty and your true lies. Your smile which once entrapped and inspired me makes me want to hurl, makes me want to find you and scream—scream that your wasting away behind your falsity, dying through your porcelain mask. Scream that you're killing me, with every childlike laugh something inside me retreats to blackness and does not come back.

Don't go to that blackness and not come back.

Watching you keeps me alive, affirms me that I'm real because you are. If you would leave that light of stardom, no more pictures no more concerts I would die. For you vision would not grace me any longer. Lost in that white void outside blackness. Wishing that I could join you because in there you can not see but in here you can not do anything but see. And all you can see here is whiteness.

Void.

Don't make me void my dear playful boy.

Don't make me void my sad broken man.

Broken or playful? Make a choice you can not be twice at once. You choose fake smiles and pink symbols then your spirit and life will be forever gone, you choose broken then your music and lyrics would play no longer.

And I have always believed that you need someone to make your broken heart be not so broken anymore. I believe then you would smile and laugh and kid and joke and it would not be lying. Your once fake counterpart not false any longer. A part of you my dear Ryuichi.

And I have always wanted to be that someone.

But I guess I am too far away from your broken laughter and jaunting pain.

But you're to close to mine.

Holycrap o.0; that literally just came out just then …….I wanted to write so all of a sudden I did, I just sat down and looked at the keyboard and typed. Usually if I look up and reread what I just wrote I lose interest and don't finish writing it. Okay, I guess this is really weird, but this is how I love to write—with winding words that lead to nowhere. Mwhaha, am idiot. (This was not beta-ed so BLAME MEH for mistakes, eh heh.)

Am very much TatsuhaxRyuichi fan.

Please review, as am starving writer/fanartist/wackjob and if you want to email me it is: Tairamika@hotmail.com and expect more Gravi works from me as have discovered the wonderful world of it.

Taira.