Epilogue: An Explanation or Apology
Why did I write this story? Why did I involve characters so beloved to their fans in such a heinous fanfiction? I could say that I was trying to metaphorize the horrors that have been committed in the name of science, as if science is as much of an absolution as God once was. I could say that I was talking of the many ways parents 'sacrifice' their children, trying to make them into the people they wish they were.
None of that is true. I wrote it because I'm a writer, and things want to get out of me onto the written page, to express themselves for better or for worse. This story probably ultimately has to do with my own loss of innocence, the moment when I realized I could no longer believe in adults as a benevolent force—not even my own parents.
I wrote it because I was listening to Suzanne Vega's cover of Leonard Cohen's excellent song 'Story of Isaac.' The vision overtook me of Professor Membrane and Dib, followed by the parallel of Zim and Gir. It was not pleasant to witness, but I knew I had to write it down—like those dreams one wakes from and yet cannot leave, whose memories grip one's mind all day so that one cannot focus on reality.
(As you saw, that too wound up in the story. I know writing 'And then I woke up!' at the end is a child's cop-out to a story that has grown too hairy for the author's comfort, but that is precisely what happened, and in this instance I'm only happy with the story because it ended as it did.)
Why did I decide to post it? Well, it's probably some angsty exhibitionist in me wanting approval, so clicky the review thingy and feed it, or it will come back upset! Hee hee.
Again, have a nice day, despite this disturbing little piece.
--Kassi, 11/17/02