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:P It's Heero.. Looks like he's startin to crack.
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~~~~~~Heero P.O.V~~~~~
I couldn't call him a weakling…
I couldn't just say, "Trowa should have known better."
No…. I couldn't.
Because I should have known better.
There's been so many things going on lately… First Duo missing.. Then Wufei's capture.. Now Trowa…
We're starting to crack….Including me.
As much as I will my feelings away, they keep coming back.. Fiercely..
Most of all, anger and sorrow.
I want to cry.
I…. Known as the Perfect Soldier….I want to cry.
I can't believe it.. But somehow.. Crying to me seems right under these conditions…
Wufei has done it… Quatre has…. I'm guessing it's what you do when your sad.
But….
I don't know how.
I've rarely ever experienced emotions… I'm not used to them.
I know what hate and anger is… I'm familiar with those.
And right now.. I hate myself for allowing this all to happen. I hate myself for being so cold… I hate myself for loosing Duo.
And now look at us.
After I had arrived at the hospital, I was immediately on my guard for OZ. I saw Wufei and Quatre and wandered over to them, before just sitting and keeping an eye out.
I heard their conversation.. I heard Quatre begin to loose it.
I heard Wufei calm him.
Sound's like now… We don't have Duo to calm us… And no Trowa now… Wufei must be taking up the role…
And what do I fit in?
I noticed Wufei staring at me before I noticed I was displaying emotions of regret and sorrow.
I shut them up.. But I knew he had seen them.
After the nurse came and told us what a critical condition Trowa was in, it was all I could do to keep myself from strangling someone.
Why the hell did this have to happen?
And in the midst of a war…
To much pressure… And without the group together, we cannot function.
I work alone… At least that's what I tell myself…
I realize now that I've always worked with someone.. One of them has always been there for me whether I asked for it or not…
Duo most of the time.
I finally knew now…
Duo was a friend…
A closer friend then all of them.
Quatre has Trowa as a best friend…..And……I….Well have…. No HAD Duo as a best friend..
I guess.
My head laid jumbled, so I took comfort in a corner as Wufei and Quatre went so sleep.
I couldn't think straight.
Emotions were clogging my brain…
Now what if OZ comes strolling in? I won't be able to protect them fast enough if I'm like this…
Protect.
Yes.. I guess I do want to protect..
I…..care.
Shit!
I don't know what's happening… All I know is I can't take much more of this…
I need Duo and Trowa…
I need us back in a group…
And…..
I've never needed before!
This is driving me insane! I don't know what to do…
Finally, I managed to push all these away from my head and concentrate on tackling the obvious…
Where the hell was Duo?
Wufei had told me that they had searched the abandoned buildings earlier… And we had already searched a ton of places..
But Duo could move…
So now where?
I only hope by morning I'll figure it out..
Hope…
UGH!
~~~~~~TBC
I know it's short! So sorry.. I'm pressed for time. I'll write another today to make up for it ok! Please review! I need 200 by May 11th! Thank you sooooo much for help and all those who reviewed and read my story and so on! Thank you! Bai bai!
DISCLAIMER: yawn.
~~~~~~Heero P.O.V~~~~~
I couldn't call him a weakling…
I couldn't just say, "Trowa should have known better."
No…. I couldn't.
Because I should have known better.
There's been so many things going on lately… First Duo missing.. Then Wufei's capture.. Now Trowa…
We're starting to crack….Including me.
As much as I will my feelings away, they keep coming back.. Fiercely..
Most of all, anger and sorrow.
I want to cry.
I…. Known as the Perfect Soldier….I want to cry.
I can't believe it.. But somehow.. Crying to me seems right under these conditions…
Wufei has done it… Quatre has…. I'm guessing it's what you do when your sad.
But….
I don't know how.
I've rarely ever experienced emotions… I'm not used to them.
I know what hate and anger is… I'm familiar with those.
And right now.. I hate myself for allowing this all to happen. I hate myself for being so cold… I hate myself for loosing Duo.
And now look at us.
After I had arrived at the hospital, I was immediately on my guard for OZ. I saw Wufei and Quatre and wandered over to them, before just sitting and keeping an eye out.
I heard their conversation.. I heard Quatre begin to loose it.
I heard Wufei calm him.
Sound's like now… We don't have Duo to calm us… And no Trowa now… Wufei must be taking up the role…
And what do I fit in?
I noticed Wufei staring at me before I noticed I was displaying emotions of regret and sorrow.
I shut them up.. But I knew he had seen them.
After the nurse came and told us what a critical condition Trowa was in, it was all I could do to keep myself from strangling someone.
Why the hell did this have to happen?
And in the midst of a war…
To much pressure… And without the group together, we cannot function.
I work alone… At least that's what I tell myself…
I realize now that I've always worked with someone.. One of them has always been there for me whether I asked for it or not…
Duo most of the time.
I finally knew now…
Duo was a friend…
A closer friend then all of them.
Quatre has Trowa as a best friend…..And……I….Well have…. No HAD Duo as a best friend..
I guess.
My head laid jumbled, so I took comfort in a corner as Wufei and Quatre went so sleep.
I couldn't think straight.
Emotions were clogging my brain…
Now what if OZ comes strolling in? I won't be able to protect them fast enough if I'm like this…
Protect.
Yes.. I guess I do want to protect..
I…..care.
Shit!
I don't know what's happening… All I know is I can't take much more of this…
I need Duo and Trowa…
I need us back in a group…
And…..
I've never needed before!
This is driving me insane! I don't know what to do…
Finally, I managed to push all these away from my head and concentrate on tackling the obvious…
Where the hell was Duo?
Wufei had told me that they had searched the abandoned buildings earlier… And we had already searched a ton of places..
But Duo could move…
So now where?
I only hope by morning I'll figure it out..
Hope…
UGH!
~~~~~~TBC
I know it's short! So sorry.. I'm pressed for time. I'll write another today to make up for it ok! Please review! I need 200 by May 11th! Thank you sooooo much for help and all those who reviewed and read my story and so on! Thank you! Bai bai!