I haven't written in sooooooooo long. I'm sooooooo sorry :P I've just been
extremely busy. Well then. Here you go, and don't worry. I'll be writing a
lot more often.
~~~~~Sarah's P.O.V~~~~~
He understood.
Heh, that night I had helped Trowa.. escape.. Well I knew I would.. be in big trouble. But. My father understood.
He knew how I felt. And he was giving me the choice of who I wanted.
There's no decision to make.
I will stay by my father until he dies, despite however I feel. I love him, and he's the only family I have left. He's taken care of me for some time now and I can't just betray him!
I sat thinking in my cell like room for a while after he left. It didn't take any time at all to figure out my decision.
When my father came to get me that night, he told me that they had decided to keep me under surveillance twenty four seven. I was to be moved to an all steel room, surveyed by cameras in every place but the bathroom. Of course.
When he gave me the news I could pilot Sacrimyst again, I was overjoyed. Despite the trouble the Gundam has given me, I loved to be able to pilot it. Piloting mobile suits has always been my hobby, and my favorite thing to do.
"Father."
"Yeah?" He glanced up from his computer and looked towards me.
"I've decided.."
I saw his face fall, as if expecting the worst.. I decided to play it out, grinning inwardly, "I.I. decided to go.. and stay. with." He was fidgeting and I couldn't help but contain my growing grin, "You!"
I lunged forward and wrapped my arms about him, hugging his form tightly. Snuggling my head into his shoulder I heard him sigh in relief. I laughed, "I could never go with anyone but you. I love you father.."
"I love you too.."
I slid off of him and peered at the paper he was writing. It was a report. Scratching my head I hummed, "So the Gundam Pilots have been attacking regularly lately?"
He nodded, "Yes. We are planning our final attack. Unfortunately, the gundams seem to have evolved, there for, we are equipping your gundam with extra weapons and plating. Epyon is already ready for battle, and Sacrimyst will be soon."
"Great! I've been out of commission for soooo long! I want to be in a cockpit once more!"
Laughing, father gave me a gentle shove. I froze. He was LAUGHING? I don't remember ever hearing him laugh before.. But then.. So much had happened.
I laughed right back, engulfing him in yet another hug. We stayed that way for a while, playing around and generally, having a father and daughter relationship.. Boy did I love him.
That night, I laid upon my bed, watching the security camera out of boredom. How utterly DULL a steel room was. How did Trowa stand it?
Because of such boredom, my thoughts began to wander towards Duo.. Could it be possible that I didn't love him? Or maybe it was a spur of the moment thing. We weren't together all that long..
What if he didn't love me?
I began to question why I even had helped him in the first place. Something had happened to him, to make him leave the others, that was certain. But of course, the time I met him, was right after he had killed OZ officers.
However, I wasn't apart of OZ anymore. I had been then though.
Was I even thinking that night? He had pointed a gun at me.
Maybe I wasn't afraid of death. I've taken so many lives myself while piloting a mobile suit, but..
So damn CONFUSING!
Everything that had been happening recently. It was so confusing. I had tried to block all negative feelings, and I failed at that.
Sacrimyst had shown me.. The truth, or from what I saw, the things that have been happening to me since birth.
Everyone that I got close to would die.
My parents, siblings.. My Master, the one who trained me to be the best fighter I could be.. They were already dead.
And now..
My father and Duo.
If my father ever died, I wouldn't know what to do. I'd have no one left but Duo, and even then. Would he accept me after I've chosen which side I will continue to be on?
What if I am forced to destroy him? Could I do it?
He threatens my father's life and the lives of WF members. And so do the others. After everything that has happened, could I bring myself to kill them?
This is so complicated.
I got no sleep that night, and the next morning, I was immediately summon to Sacrimyst. As I entered the now familiar cockpit, I grinned inwardly. I was in my element now!
I pressed the power on and immediately I felt the tingling feeling.
Not this time.
Sacrimyst wanted in my head and I wouldn't let him. I concentrated and formed a mental wall, struggling to keep it up as the system fully booted up.
Sacrimyst's instincts came in hand.. Destroy..
Of course, the point of this training was NOT to destroy.. So.. I decided to see if I could make a deal with Sacrimyst.. Yeah, this Gundam felt like it had a brain of it's own.
And in fact, to me, it did.
So, I allowed it to take control, and felt it's strategies, it's work.. everything it knew flooding my own skull. I felt totally ready for combat.
However, Sacrimyst wanted to destroy. That was the only thing I had to work on keeping out of my mind for the moment. I didn't need it right now.
And it grew easier and easier the more I learned to control the Gundam.
By the end of the practice, I was sure that Sacrimyst would cause no further problems.
I might.
My head was so jumbled in emotions and questions, I couldn't even begin to sort them out. I've had this feeling so many times before, but it was never split two ways.
Why did this have to happen to me?
I mean, how did this all start? I didn't even know why Duo had left the others.
I wandered down the hallways of WF until lunch time, where I began to wonder.. How in the hell could I eat if I couldn't leave the base?
I headed towards father's office to ask him, basically doubled over in need of food.
When I finally, literally fell into his room, he was busy on the phone. How quaint. I was forced to wait even longer, until he got off and turned to me, "What do you need?"
It was hilarious, or so he thought, when I barely gasped out, "Food!"
Rummaging through his desk, he tossed me a large bag, "Take whatever you want and as much as you want."
I peered into it, and to my glee, found the biggest variety of junk food I had ever laid eyes on.. With the except of a gas station.
Basically drooling, I yelled my thanks and vanished out of the office, containing my cravings until I was in the safety of my room, where I dug in.
No doubt he knew he wouldn't see a single wrapper ever again from the bag he had given me.
Dumping out the contents, I found my favorite of all foods. BROWNIES! There were min brownies, frosted brownies, nut brownies, swirled brownies and more!
That's when it hit me.
He KNEW.
Father had known all along I would come to him for food. And was I glad he had known.
That was just like him.
What a nutritious lunch!
I gulped down every single item, brownies first of course, and then the others, frosted donuts, cookies, and other things.
By the time I was done, I regretted it. I felt so thirsty, was sure I'd die soon. It was as if I had been in a desert for days without a drink!
Thank GOD for a bathroom!
I was able to get water from the sink to quench my thirst, but.. Water so doesn't cut tit. What ever happened to carbonated drinks.
I wandered down the hallway, noting miserably they had no vending machines here. So I headed to daddy's room once again. I didn't even have to open the door, because right in front of it was a cooler and when opened, a variety of sodas, in freezing cold ice!
Making a mental note to seriously do something for my dad later, I carried to cooler off, basically prancing yet again.
I was in my room later that day, and on y computer, typing up a report on Sacrimyst when my screen went blank.
Checking to see if my computer had failed, it hadn't, I lifted my head back up in time to see the words scrawl across the screen, Sarah.. It's Duo.
He had hacked in!
Well he was a Gundam Pilot.
I frantically typed into the computer, Leave me the hell alone. It hurt me to say that, but I couldn't afford being caught talking to him, and I had already chosen sides. All I wanted to do was tell him I cared for him quite a lot, but I couldn't.
But, Sarah. Everyone here wants to talk to you.
I said leave me alone! If they find out I've talked to you, they'll kill me for SURE. I've already gotten off the hook of death once and I'm not about to be smacked in that jail cell again!
How.. did you get out?
How do you think? They blamed it on my insanity. So go away.
With that, I shut my computer off and slipped back, falling onto my bed. Closing my eyes, I tucked my head away, so my tears would not be seen by that ever watching camera..
This was so.
Hard.
~~~~~TBC
Well. There's the next chapter! Please vote on who you want next. And leave a review! Thank you sooooo much!
~~~~~Sarah's P.O.V~~~~~
He understood.
Heh, that night I had helped Trowa.. escape.. Well I knew I would.. be in big trouble. But. My father understood.
He knew how I felt. And he was giving me the choice of who I wanted.
There's no decision to make.
I will stay by my father until he dies, despite however I feel. I love him, and he's the only family I have left. He's taken care of me for some time now and I can't just betray him!
I sat thinking in my cell like room for a while after he left. It didn't take any time at all to figure out my decision.
When my father came to get me that night, he told me that they had decided to keep me under surveillance twenty four seven. I was to be moved to an all steel room, surveyed by cameras in every place but the bathroom. Of course.
When he gave me the news I could pilot Sacrimyst again, I was overjoyed. Despite the trouble the Gundam has given me, I loved to be able to pilot it. Piloting mobile suits has always been my hobby, and my favorite thing to do.
"Father."
"Yeah?" He glanced up from his computer and looked towards me.
"I've decided.."
I saw his face fall, as if expecting the worst.. I decided to play it out, grinning inwardly, "I.I. decided to go.. and stay. with." He was fidgeting and I couldn't help but contain my growing grin, "You!"
I lunged forward and wrapped my arms about him, hugging his form tightly. Snuggling my head into his shoulder I heard him sigh in relief. I laughed, "I could never go with anyone but you. I love you father.."
"I love you too.."
I slid off of him and peered at the paper he was writing. It was a report. Scratching my head I hummed, "So the Gundam Pilots have been attacking regularly lately?"
He nodded, "Yes. We are planning our final attack. Unfortunately, the gundams seem to have evolved, there for, we are equipping your gundam with extra weapons and plating. Epyon is already ready for battle, and Sacrimyst will be soon."
"Great! I've been out of commission for soooo long! I want to be in a cockpit once more!"
Laughing, father gave me a gentle shove. I froze. He was LAUGHING? I don't remember ever hearing him laugh before.. But then.. So much had happened.
I laughed right back, engulfing him in yet another hug. We stayed that way for a while, playing around and generally, having a father and daughter relationship.. Boy did I love him.
That night, I laid upon my bed, watching the security camera out of boredom. How utterly DULL a steel room was. How did Trowa stand it?
Because of such boredom, my thoughts began to wander towards Duo.. Could it be possible that I didn't love him? Or maybe it was a spur of the moment thing. We weren't together all that long..
What if he didn't love me?
I began to question why I even had helped him in the first place. Something had happened to him, to make him leave the others, that was certain. But of course, the time I met him, was right after he had killed OZ officers.
However, I wasn't apart of OZ anymore. I had been then though.
Was I even thinking that night? He had pointed a gun at me.
Maybe I wasn't afraid of death. I've taken so many lives myself while piloting a mobile suit, but..
So damn CONFUSING!
Everything that had been happening recently. It was so confusing. I had tried to block all negative feelings, and I failed at that.
Sacrimyst had shown me.. The truth, or from what I saw, the things that have been happening to me since birth.
Everyone that I got close to would die.
My parents, siblings.. My Master, the one who trained me to be the best fighter I could be.. They were already dead.
And now..
My father and Duo.
If my father ever died, I wouldn't know what to do. I'd have no one left but Duo, and even then. Would he accept me after I've chosen which side I will continue to be on?
What if I am forced to destroy him? Could I do it?
He threatens my father's life and the lives of WF members. And so do the others. After everything that has happened, could I bring myself to kill them?
This is so complicated.
I got no sleep that night, and the next morning, I was immediately summon to Sacrimyst. As I entered the now familiar cockpit, I grinned inwardly. I was in my element now!
I pressed the power on and immediately I felt the tingling feeling.
Not this time.
Sacrimyst wanted in my head and I wouldn't let him. I concentrated and formed a mental wall, struggling to keep it up as the system fully booted up.
Sacrimyst's instincts came in hand.. Destroy..
Of course, the point of this training was NOT to destroy.. So.. I decided to see if I could make a deal with Sacrimyst.. Yeah, this Gundam felt like it had a brain of it's own.
And in fact, to me, it did.
So, I allowed it to take control, and felt it's strategies, it's work.. everything it knew flooding my own skull. I felt totally ready for combat.
However, Sacrimyst wanted to destroy. That was the only thing I had to work on keeping out of my mind for the moment. I didn't need it right now.
And it grew easier and easier the more I learned to control the Gundam.
By the end of the practice, I was sure that Sacrimyst would cause no further problems.
I might.
My head was so jumbled in emotions and questions, I couldn't even begin to sort them out. I've had this feeling so many times before, but it was never split two ways.
Why did this have to happen to me?
I mean, how did this all start? I didn't even know why Duo had left the others.
I wandered down the hallways of WF until lunch time, where I began to wonder.. How in the hell could I eat if I couldn't leave the base?
I headed towards father's office to ask him, basically doubled over in need of food.
When I finally, literally fell into his room, he was busy on the phone. How quaint. I was forced to wait even longer, until he got off and turned to me, "What do you need?"
It was hilarious, or so he thought, when I barely gasped out, "Food!"
Rummaging through his desk, he tossed me a large bag, "Take whatever you want and as much as you want."
I peered into it, and to my glee, found the biggest variety of junk food I had ever laid eyes on.. With the except of a gas station.
Basically drooling, I yelled my thanks and vanished out of the office, containing my cravings until I was in the safety of my room, where I dug in.
No doubt he knew he wouldn't see a single wrapper ever again from the bag he had given me.
Dumping out the contents, I found my favorite of all foods. BROWNIES! There were min brownies, frosted brownies, nut brownies, swirled brownies and more!
That's when it hit me.
He KNEW.
Father had known all along I would come to him for food. And was I glad he had known.
That was just like him.
What a nutritious lunch!
I gulped down every single item, brownies first of course, and then the others, frosted donuts, cookies, and other things.
By the time I was done, I regretted it. I felt so thirsty, was sure I'd die soon. It was as if I had been in a desert for days without a drink!
Thank GOD for a bathroom!
I was able to get water from the sink to quench my thirst, but.. Water so doesn't cut tit. What ever happened to carbonated drinks.
I wandered down the hallway, noting miserably they had no vending machines here. So I headed to daddy's room once again. I didn't even have to open the door, because right in front of it was a cooler and when opened, a variety of sodas, in freezing cold ice!
Making a mental note to seriously do something for my dad later, I carried to cooler off, basically prancing yet again.
I was in my room later that day, and on y computer, typing up a report on Sacrimyst when my screen went blank.
Checking to see if my computer had failed, it hadn't, I lifted my head back up in time to see the words scrawl across the screen, Sarah.. It's Duo.
He had hacked in!
Well he was a Gundam Pilot.
I frantically typed into the computer, Leave me the hell alone. It hurt me to say that, but I couldn't afford being caught talking to him, and I had already chosen sides. All I wanted to do was tell him I cared for him quite a lot, but I couldn't.
But, Sarah. Everyone here wants to talk to you.
I said leave me alone! If they find out I've talked to you, they'll kill me for SURE. I've already gotten off the hook of death once and I'm not about to be smacked in that jail cell again!
How.. did you get out?
How do you think? They blamed it on my insanity. So go away.
With that, I shut my computer off and slipped back, falling onto my bed. Closing my eyes, I tucked my head away, so my tears would not be seen by that ever watching camera..
This was so.
Hard.
~~~~~TBC
Well. There's the next chapter! Please vote on who you want next. And leave a review! Thank you sooooo much!