I finished chapter 3, so you might want to make sure you have read all that
one before starting this, once again I highly suggest you read the prequel
before this, It isn't really that long and it give some background info. I
wasn't gonna post this chapter before I was done, and I might be done with
this chapter, but I really need some feedback on what I am writing, so if
you never have written a review, please do today.
Thanks Love Katarina Smuller ;)
"Hurry Up Kayla! We want to get good seats!" Hermione was tugging on my shoulder pulling me into the great hall. I had been force to take the Hogwarts express as not to cause any more questions. We were in line waiting for everyone to file in. "Hey look, another DADA teacher, and look did Vector get fired?"
"What?"
"Professor Vector, the Arithmancy teacher. He's been replaced look up there next to McGonagall."
I looked up and saw a familiar face. He face looked like mine. We obviously had no idea that each other were magical. "Holy shit!"
"What is it?" Hermione turned and looked at me.
"That's that's, Michael!"
"You mean?" She asked in disbelief.
"yes my ex-boyfriend..." A split in the line was made when a dark figure came walking over.
"Did you see the new Arithmancy teacher?!" It was a mix of anger and disbelief that no one had told him.
"yes I did."
"Are you not mad?!" He was surprised that I offered no reaction.
"I am surprised that he is a wizard."
"I hope Dumbledore is really having fun with this. I need to go. Conference later, alright?"
"Yes." I whispered love you before he strode back up to the table and took my spot next to Hermione. Besides that fact of me taking turns gaping at Sev, Mich, and Arti. (my nicknames for them all), and an occasional glance at Dumbledore to see him smiling with great pleasure. As I said goodbye to Hermione at the steps I followed Severus to Dumbledore's office. We only had to wait a moment before Dumbledore and Michael came inside.
"Well, well, well! You are a witch Miss Miller. And from the stories a pretty damn good one too eh?"
"You're a wizard!" I couldn't help but smile. No! I love Severus..
He Laughed "Well hello Severus." He said turning to Severus. "What did happen to you? I met your brother and he's a fine old chap!"
Severus answered with a look and sarcasm. "Please, If you don't know how to speak in a British accent, don't try." I wanted to be alone. With Mich. Would Severus let me? Would Dumbledore? I walked over to where Severus was sitting and kneeled on the floor next to him.
"Severus, can I please talk to Michael?"
"For?"
"I need to talk to him."
"About?"
"Things"
"How long?"
"I don't know, leave me alone! I am a human mind you! and I'll decide how long, what for and what about!" I raised my voice much louder by the end and Severus was looking at me strangely.
"Fine then. See you in the morning." And he got up and left. I took his chair and with one look at Dumbledore he walked off leaving Michael and I alone together.
"So you are a witch. No wonder that Severus always called you Katarina."
"I had no idea. That you were a, a Wizard."
"Went to school with his brother. and him."
"Doesn't he recognize you?"
"A Gryffindor? a Mudblood? Why would he." He snorted out.
"I guess not."
"Tell me things are not the same."
"I won't."
"And then you shall lie to me, correct?"
"Correct."
"Have you been called a Mudblood?"
"Yes, until they found out my past. My grandmother."
"I have missed you."
"I missed you too Mich."
Michael leaned up to kiss me on the cheek, and then a small peck on the lips but soon his kissed were deeper and more loving. This was wrong.
"No!" I shouted after pushing him aside.
"What?!"
"This is wrong, this is horrible!" I shoved him aside and ran out of Dumbledore's office and ran in through the common room while bawling leaving the whole room with stares.
"Why do you treat her like that?" Artimus was particularly bugging me after I had returned from the office and I was trying to get ready for my class tomorrow.
"Like what?" I forgot how annoying my brother was.
"Like she's a dog on a 10 centimeter leash!"
"I don't treat her like that."
"You do too! You need to know where she is who she's with and the last times she eaten or the last time she's gone to the bathroom like you are her nurse or something!"
"She needs it!"
"She does not! She did perfectly fine without you!"
"I just need to show I care."
"There are different ways my dear brother! Just you remember! Michael is in this very building. Any chance of pissing her off and she will run to Michael quicker than you can say your own name! Severus, she loves you but there is no question that if you push her too far, you won't get anywhere and you will be left empty-handed. I am going to bed! Good night!"
"Night" God, he was right. She hated me. I treat her like shit. She should be fucking him right now. Not me.
"Alright class get out your parchment sheets and copy this chart and fill in the rest, that is your homework, you have 5 minutes left to work. Use it or Lose it" The familiar voice of Michael ran through the classroom. It was tense in the classroom for only two people. Him and I. I finished copying the chart just as the bell rang. "See you Wednesday!" He said cheerfully.
It was time for lunch as we walked out of Professor Luther's classroom. We were walking downstairs and met up with Harry and Ron on the way. We went into the great hall and sat down and started eating lunch. As everyone was mostly settled down the doors flung open and Patricia strode in. She had some papers in her hands and she walked over to the Gryffindor and threw a newspaper down on the table.
"Horse show! This weekend!" She gave Ron a glare "Move!" She pushed him over and sat down. "Its on Saturday! I really want you to attend" She grabbed an apple and took a bite "I was thinking a couple Dressage Classes and then maybe a jumping class or two!" She was much more excited than me.
"But I don't have any riding clothes."
"Oh well, We will get some! Tomorrow! Right after school!"
"Erm ok."
"Come on! This is the beginning Kay! This is the start! Don't back out on me now!"
"I'm not. Just already nervous."
"You'll be fine! Seeya at 6 tomorrow!" She hopped off of the bench and walked up to the great table. She paused a second to talk to Dumbledore then went and took her seat. I looked over to Artimus and Severus. Artimus was apparently trying to engage Severus in a conversation even though Severus looked like he was sick to his stomach. I felt sorry for the students that had him this afternoon. That meant that I felt sorry for myself. I looked over to Michael and he was engaged in what looked like an exciting conversation with McGonagall, if that was even possible.
"Miss Miller a moment after class." Severus voice boomed through the dungeons as we were working. I heard a snicker from a Slytherin, little did they know he probably just wanted to kiss me. I wanted to know what was wrong with him, he wasn't acting like normal. He hadn't even taken one point from anyone yet, knock on wood, he's heading towards Neville.
"Neville," He hadn't said more than his name before Neville was shaking. "Can't you do anything right? I told you to make sure you add the ginger root after the armadillo bile not before." Not once did he ever raise his voice. He just was annoyed and tired. What is wrong with him? The bell rang.
"You are to write three feet on the effects and importance of a Wit- Sharpening Potion, due Wednesday. Dismissed."
As usual the class hurried out of the dungeons, I waited until everyone was gone and for him to lock the door. I walked over to him ready to embrace but when I got there he slid behind his desk.
"Severus, what's wrong?"
"Kayla, Do you love me?"
I laughed, "Severus, do we really need to go through this?"
"Well do you?" He voice was raised.
I took his hand, "Severus, oh course I do." I looked at him straight in the eyes, mine with confusion. "What's wrong?"
He didn't answer. His head remained low.
"Fine. Don't answer. I have a horse show this weekend and I am going shopping tomorrow afternoon, I want you to come with." I turned and left the room. I was angry with him. I wanted to talk to someone. Whenever I was mad I could talk to Sev, now what happens when I am mad at him? Why did I want to? Oh, there's Artimus. Maybe I could talk to him.
"Artimus!"
"Hey girl, What's up?"
"Have you seen Mich around?" Maybe I could just go say Hi?
"Should you be talking to him?"
"Should I not?"
"I'm assuming you kissed him the other night." He opened the door to his classroom and walked in.
"OK, how the hell do you know that?"
"Where do you think I just came from?"
"His room, I am guessing."
"Yup, Went to the same school. Needed some catching up. He's, well He is kinda disturbed. Come in and have a seat, you need to talk to someone right?"
"Yes." Ok, so Mich was sad? That is good right? No! You both need to get over each other!
"Are you ok?" Artimus bent over and looked at me. "Who do you love?"
"Art, If you knew how hard that question was…" He laughed.
"Well, dontcha like one at least a little more than the other?"
"I can't say that to you, I mean you are his brother."
"Well you need to talk to someone don't you?"
"Yes,"
"Well then, Fess up!"
"Well here is my reasoning then. I love them both well at least I think I do love them both pretty equally. Except, one I am engaged too, plus one point, One I killed myself for, plus one, one hangs out with people who kill for fun, minus.. well a lot. So if you catch my drift, Michael is in the lead."
"You give out points?" He laughed at me once again. He got up and poured himself a glass of brandy. "Want a drink?"
"Art, I am 14, I am wayyy to young to drink!"
"A good yes or no would be suffice."
"I'm just saying you shouldn't go around asking students to have a glass of brandy."
"You aren't an oridinary student."
"I'm flattered?" He laughed, I smiled.
"Want a glass of water?"
"Nah I'm OK."
"Are you really?"
"You haven't exactly helped me on this problem yet."
"Did I say I would?"
"Did you say you wouldn't"
"Look, I love my brother and all, but you need to be happy. You choose."
"I'm gonna go talk to Michael."
"OK, good night,"
"Thanks for talking"
"No problem."
"Look please don't tell Severus where I am,"
"Alright, see you tomorrow."
"Bye."
Knock, knock.
"who is there?"
"Kay,"
The door opened abruptly and he moved aside and ushered me in.
"Thank god." He hugged me and then held me and looked straight in my eyes. Anyone could have seen that we wanted to kiss each other so bad. He moved his lips towards mine, but I moved from him, out of his arms.
"I am engaged."
"I have heard that," He was sad. I sat on his bed and he came over and sat next to me.
"I am sorry, I really am, but I am so confused. I just I don't know. And until I do, I don't think I should be kissing you, although you know I want to."
"You aren't breaking up with him?"
"I don't know." He hugged me again, put his head in my hair and we rocked there for what seemed an hour, but really only a few minutes.
"I Love you Kayla, and I don't care whom you decide you love more, but I just hope it is me, of course." He stated while staring into my blue eyes, his dark brown eyes searching me, trying to figure out what I was thinking. He leaned forward and this time I did too. But only for one kiss and then I went to the common room where Hermione was waiting,
Thanks Love Katarina Smuller ;)
"Hurry Up Kayla! We want to get good seats!" Hermione was tugging on my shoulder pulling me into the great hall. I had been force to take the Hogwarts express as not to cause any more questions. We were in line waiting for everyone to file in. "Hey look, another DADA teacher, and look did Vector get fired?"
"What?"
"Professor Vector, the Arithmancy teacher. He's been replaced look up there next to McGonagall."
I looked up and saw a familiar face. He face looked like mine. We obviously had no idea that each other were magical. "Holy shit!"
"What is it?" Hermione turned and looked at me.
"That's that's, Michael!"
"You mean?" She asked in disbelief.
"yes my ex-boyfriend..." A split in the line was made when a dark figure came walking over.
"Did you see the new Arithmancy teacher?!" It was a mix of anger and disbelief that no one had told him.
"yes I did."
"Are you not mad?!" He was surprised that I offered no reaction.
"I am surprised that he is a wizard."
"I hope Dumbledore is really having fun with this. I need to go. Conference later, alright?"
"Yes." I whispered love you before he strode back up to the table and took my spot next to Hermione. Besides that fact of me taking turns gaping at Sev, Mich, and Arti. (my nicknames for them all), and an occasional glance at Dumbledore to see him smiling with great pleasure. As I said goodbye to Hermione at the steps I followed Severus to Dumbledore's office. We only had to wait a moment before Dumbledore and Michael came inside.
"Well, well, well! You are a witch Miss Miller. And from the stories a pretty damn good one too eh?"
"You're a wizard!" I couldn't help but smile. No! I love Severus..
He Laughed "Well hello Severus." He said turning to Severus. "What did happen to you? I met your brother and he's a fine old chap!"
Severus answered with a look and sarcasm. "Please, If you don't know how to speak in a British accent, don't try." I wanted to be alone. With Mich. Would Severus let me? Would Dumbledore? I walked over to where Severus was sitting and kneeled on the floor next to him.
"Severus, can I please talk to Michael?"
"For?"
"I need to talk to him."
"About?"
"Things"
"How long?"
"I don't know, leave me alone! I am a human mind you! and I'll decide how long, what for and what about!" I raised my voice much louder by the end and Severus was looking at me strangely.
"Fine then. See you in the morning." And he got up and left. I took his chair and with one look at Dumbledore he walked off leaving Michael and I alone together.
"So you are a witch. No wonder that Severus always called you Katarina."
"I had no idea. That you were a, a Wizard."
"Went to school with his brother. and him."
"Doesn't he recognize you?"
"A Gryffindor? a Mudblood? Why would he." He snorted out.
"I guess not."
"Tell me things are not the same."
"I won't."
"And then you shall lie to me, correct?"
"Correct."
"Have you been called a Mudblood?"
"Yes, until they found out my past. My grandmother."
"I have missed you."
"I missed you too Mich."
Michael leaned up to kiss me on the cheek, and then a small peck on the lips but soon his kissed were deeper and more loving. This was wrong.
"No!" I shouted after pushing him aside.
"What?!"
"This is wrong, this is horrible!" I shoved him aside and ran out of Dumbledore's office and ran in through the common room while bawling leaving the whole room with stares.
"Why do you treat her like that?" Artimus was particularly bugging me after I had returned from the office and I was trying to get ready for my class tomorrow.
"Like what?" I forgot how annoying my brother was.
"Like she's a dog on a 10 centimeter leash!"
"I don't treat her like that."
"You do too! You need to know where she is who she's with and the last times she eaten or the last time she's gone to the bathroom like you are her nurse or something!"
"She needs it!"
"She does not! She did perfectly fine without you!"
"I just need to show I care."
"There are different ways my dear brother! Just you remember! Michael is in this very building. Any chance of pissing her off and she will run to Michael quicker than you can say your own name! Severus, she loves you but there is no question that if you push her too far, you won't get anywhere and you will be left empty-handed. I am going to bed! Good night!"
"Night" God, he was right. She hated me. I treat her like shit. She should be fucking him right now. Not me.
"Alright class get out your parchment sheets and copy this chart and fill in the rest, that is your homework, you have 5 minutes left to work. Use it or Lose it" The familiar voice of Michael ran through the classroom. It was tense in the classroom for only two people. Him and I. I finished copying the chart just as the bell rang. "See you Wednesday!" He said cheerfully.
It was time for lunch as we walked out of Professor Luther's classroom. We were walking downstairs and met up with Harry and Ron on the way. We went into the great hall and sat down and started eating lunch. As everyone was mostly settled down the doors flung open and Patricia strode in. She had some papers in her hands and she walked over to the Gryffindor and threw a newspaper down on the table.
"Horse show! This weekend!" She gave Ron a glare "Move!" She pushed him over and sat down. "Its on Saturday! I really want you to attend" She grabbed an apple and took a bite "I was thinking a couple Dressage Classes and then maybe a jumping class or two!" She was much more excited than me.
"But I don't have any riding clothes."
"Oh well, We will get some! Tomorrow! Right after school!"
"Erm ok."
"Come on! This is the beginning Kay! This is the start! Don't back out on me now!"
"I'm not. Just already nervous."
"You'll be fine! Seeya at 6 tomorrow!" She hopped off of the bench and walked up to the great table. She paused a second to talk to Dumbledore then went and took her seat. I looked over to Artimus and Severus. Artimus was apparently trying to engage Severus in a conversation even though Severus looked like he was sick to his stomach. I felt sorry for the students that had him this afternoon. That meant that I felt sorry for myself. I looked over to Michael and he was engaged in what looked like an exciting conversation with McGonagall, if that was even possible.
"Miss Miller a moment after class." Severus voice boomed through the dungeons as we were working. I heard a snicker from a Slytherin, little did they know he probably just wanted to kiss me. I wanted to know what was wrong with him, he wasn't acting like normal. He hadn't even taken one point from anyone yet, knock on wood, he's heading towards Neville.
"Neville," He hadn't said more than his name before Neville was shaking. "Can't you do anything right? I told you to make sure you add the ginger root after the armadillo bile not before." Not once did he ever raise his voice. He just was annoyed and tired. What is wrong with him? The bell rang.
"You are to write three feet on the effects and importance of a Wit- Sharpening Potion, due Wednesday. Dismissed."
As usual the class hurried out of the dungeons, I waited until everyone was gone and for him to lock the door. I walked over to him ready to embrace but when I got there he slid behind his desk.
"Severus, what's wrong?"
"Kayla, Do you love me?"
I laughed, "Severus, do we really need to go through this?"
"Well do you?" He voice was raised.
I took his hand, "Severus, oh course I do." I looked at him straight in the eyes, mine with confusion. "What's wrong?"
He didn't answer. His head remained low.
"Fine. Don't answer. I have a horse show this weekend and I am going shopping tomorrow afternoon, I want you to come with." I turned and left the room. I was angry with him. I wanted to talk to someone. Whenever I was mad I could talk to Sev, now what happens when I am mad at him? Why did I want to? Oh, there's Artimus. Maybe I could talk to him.
"Artimus!"
"Hey girl, What's up?"
"Have you seen Mich around?" Maybe I could just go say Hi?
"Should you be talking to him?"
"Should I not?"
"I'm assuming you kissed him the other night." He opened the door to his classroom and walked in.
"OK, how the hell do you know that?"
"Where do you think I just came from?"
"His room, I am guessing."
"Yup, Went to the same school. Needed some catching up. He's, well He is kinda disturbed. Come in and have a seat, you need to talk to someone right?"
"Yes." Ok, so Mich was sad? That is good right? No! You both need to get over each other!
"Are you ok?" Artimus bent over and looked at me. "Who do you love?"
"Art, If you knew how hard that question was…" He laughed.
"Well, dontcha like one at least a little more than the other?"
"I can't say that to you, I mean you are his brother."
"Well you need to talk to someone don't you?"
"Yes,"
"Well then, Fess up!"
"Well here is my reasoning then. I love them both well at least I think I do love them both pretty equally. Except, one I am engaged too, plus one point, One I killed myself for, plus one, one hangs out with people who kill for fun, minus.. well a lot. So if you catch my drift, Michael is in the lead."
"You give out points?" He laughed at me once again. He got up and poured himself a glass of brandy. "Want a drink?"
"Art, I am 14, I am wayyy to young to drink!"
"A good yes or no would be suffice."
"I'm just saying you shouldn't go around asking students to have a glass of brandy."
"You aren't an oridinary student."
"I'm flattered?" He laughed, I smiled.
"Want a glass of water?"
"Nah I'm OK."
"Are you really?"
"You haven't exactly helped me on this problem yet."
"Did I say I would?"
"Did you say you wouldn't"
"Look, I love my brother and all, but you need to be happy. You choose."
"I'm gonna go talk to Michael."
"OK, good night,"
"Thanks for talking"
"No problem."
"Look please don't tell Severus where I am,"
"Alright, see you tomorrow."
"Bye."
Knock, knock.
"who is there?"
"Kay,"
The door opened abruptly and he moved aside and ushered me in.
"Thank god." He hugged me and then held me and looked straight in my eyes. Anyone could have seen that we wanted to kiss each other so bad. He moved his lips towards mine, but I moved from him, out of his arms.
"I am engaged."
"I have heard that," He was sad. I sat on his bed and he came over and sat next to me.
"I am sorry, I really am, but I am so confused. I just I don't know. And until I do, I don't think I should be kissing you, although you know I want to."
"You aren't breaking up with him?"
"I don't know." He hugged me again, put his head in my hair and we rocked there for what seemed an hour, but really only a few minutes.
"I Love you Kayla, and I don't care whom you decide you love more, but I just hope it is me, of course." He stated while staring into my blue eyes, his dark brown eyes searching me, trying to figure out what I was thinking. He leaned forward and this time I did too. But only for one kiss and then I went to the common room where Hermione was waiting,