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CHAPTER 10

A new life

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweighed the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

Lily walked down the lonely streets of Diagon Ally. She had apparated to Malfoys. He had seemed ecstatic that she had decided to move in with him. She had given him her best smile and forced herself to be happy. She had told him she was going for a walk as she had a head ache.

I don't know where this road
Is going to lead.
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

She walked past Quality Quidditch Supplies and the ice cream parlour, the memories washed over her and she had the sudden urge to run back to James.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday

James was stunned, at what he'd said and what Lily had said, and done. He sat at the kitchen table and stared into thin air. That's all he could do. He felt paralysed knowing Lily would never be back with him and she was now with Malfoy for good.

He heard the door open and Amel and Sirius laughing. He couldn't' face them right now, not even his best friend. He had his heart broken, he needed time to mourn, he'd go out get drunk, then wake up in the morning and get over it. He got up and met them at the door.

"Oh hi James, where's Lily?" Amel smiled.

"Don't know, and to be honest with you I couldn't care less."

"James, what up?" Sirius asked seeing the phased look on his best friends face.

"Nothing, I'm going out." James said pushing past his friend.

"No, your not." Sirius said grabbing his arm.

"Yes I am." He replied pulling free of him.

"No your not, now come in the kitchen and tell me what's happened."

"Sirius, I'm not in the mood, get off me now!" James shouted at his longest friend.

"James, tell me what has happened and tell me now." Sirius growled at James.

"Why should I?" James shouted shoving Sirius's hand off him and pushing him.

"James, stop it now!" Amel screamed at James and pulled him off Sirius.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Sirius, she's gone, she's left me." James yelled angrily. James had never been one to show his feelings or cry for that matter.

"Oh James," Amel sighed guiltily. "I'll go and make you a drink."

Sirius hugged his best friend. "What happened?" He asked waking into the kitchen and sitting James down at the table.

"She went, she's gone to Malfoys and she can stay there. I don't care. They deserve each other." He spat, taking the cup of tea out of Amels hand.

Amel and Sirius gave each other worrying looks. Amel gestured for Sirius to follow her outside, so he did.

Shutting the door behind her, she asked,

"Sirius do something with him. Make sure he doesn't drink for Gods Sake. I'll go and find Lily."

"Why would you want to go and find her? Look what she's done to James."

"Sirius, she loves James but her mom, her mom, she's doing it all for her mom. Don't be too harsh on her ok?"

"Yeah ok. I'll sort him out."

"Well I'll find Lily. I have a feeling I know where she'll be." Amel said, apparating away after giving Sirius a quick kiss on the cheek.

Lily sat on the grass, where her and James had been on picnics many a time. She was freezing, tightening her scarf a single tear ran down her cheek. Instead of moving it away she let it fall. This was a new start, away from James she told her self. I don't need anyone, anymore. Especially James.

"I don't need James!" She said aloud without realising it.

"Trying to convince me or yourself?" A voice came from behind her. She turned and saw Amel walking up from behind her. Amel sat down beside her.

"So?" She said to Lily.

"So what?" Lily asked.

"You know what." Amel said with a look. "I've got James back at the house in a one bad mood. He almost beat up Sirius." Amel chuckled event though in actual fact it wasn't a funny matter at all.

"Wow, he really is mad. I don't care anyway. I don't need him." Lily said stubbornly.

"Yeah you just said." Amel stated.

"NO! I mean it. I don't need him. I don't need anyone." Still being her stubborn self.
"Yeah he is back at home saying exactly the same thing." Amel smiled. "Your both too bloody stubborn."

"I'm not stubborn. I'll tell you exactly what I told James, I am with Malfoy now. I...I...I."

"You can't say it, because you know it's not true." Amel told her knowingly.

"What? You don't even know what I was going to say!" Lily laughed.

"Yes I do, you were saying, I....I...I love Malfoy. Eurgh did I really just say that." Amel said with distaste."

"Ha, ha, Well, I suppose your right. But I do like him a lot. Who knows, I could learn to love him!"

"And James?" Amel asked.

"Amel, James and me. It'll will never work. I know you, Sirius and James, think I'm being a bitch. But this is not for me. It's for my mom. I have to do it for her. Not for anyone else." Lily said in a soft, gentle tone.

"I know. But you hurt James in the process."

"Amel, He'll get over me. He'll find somebody new. I'm sure of it." Lily told herself as well as Amel.

"Well, hadn't you be getting home to your boyfriend?" Amel asked sarcastically, looking at her watch.

"Amel, please don't be angry with me. I didn't set out to do this you know."

"I know you didn't. Of course I wont be angry with you. But you must understand what you've done."

"I do understand! It's being playing on my mind for so long!" Lily yelled standing up.

"Lily don't shout at me! I'm just telling you."

"I know your just telling me! But I'm sick of being told! By you, by James, by my mom. Every body! I wish you'd all just keep your opinions to your self!" Lily blew up at her best friend and instantly regretted it.

"Fine! Fine! If that is the way you want to play the game, then fine! But when that stupid prick of a boyfriend realises the sham of a marriage he's going to have, don't you dare come running back to any of us! You said you don't need anyone, well apart from a bunch of stuck up Slytherins, you haven't got anyone!" Amel shouted at Lily and apparated back to the house, leaving a lonely Lily.

Short Chap! I'm sorry, but I had the feeling I should leave it here. Wot do u think? Plz read and review and I'll luv u all 4ever!

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annie

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P.s remember to tell me wot u think about the song, it was boyz ii men, goodbye to wot we had (i think)