Past, Present and Future ~ by someone aka dOvE
A/N: Okioz.here goes the 3rd chapter.I know its been a while but now that it's the holidays I can write more.
THANKYOU TO MY BETA READER Y.Kuang ~
Chapter Three - His family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family? ~ Family Portrait ~ Pink ~
"What was all that about, back there?" James went white once again and looked as if he were about to throw up.
He opened his mouth and said.nothing.
"Well?" said Lily, putting her hands on her hips but saying it more out of curiosity than annoyance.
"Urm." Lily raised her eyebrows, ".nothing. Just a dizzy spell. That's all."
Lily raised an eyebrow in disbelief. "Potter, don't lie to me."
"I never said anything about lying," said James trying to look innocent.
"No.true. You didn't.but your eyes did."
Lily missed the faint blush in James' cheek as she said this because he turned away and sighed.
"I know it has something to with-"
"Lily, Lily!" cried a first year. "Lily, have you seen this? It's AMAZING!" cried the little blonde girl as she ran towards the area where Lily and James were standing.
"Hush Fiona. It's a library, remember?" said Lily putting her index finger to her lips.
"Oops. Sorry. I just got a little carried away I suppose," said Fiona in a whisper. "But this book is just so amazing! Look!"
Lily chuckled softly. "Yes, yes, I've read that book many times and it is very good obviously have good taste." Lily winked and smiled at Fiona.
"Have you seen it James?" asked Fiona, a bit shyly.
James was white, again. He opened his mouth but no sound came out. Finally he managed to barely nod his head in confirmation.
Lily frowned, and then turned to Fiona. "Go see if you can find some more books before we move on from here ok? Go on." Fiona left the two prefects, feeling a little deflated.
Lily raised an eyebrow at James. "I know it has something to do with her."
James sighed again. "You know it's really none of your business, Evans."
"Au contraire, Mr Potter. Fiona is one of the first years' that I have to look after and anything that effects the her interactions with you is my business."
"Evans don't ever just shut the hell up? Just go away. Piss off."
"Look, I get that there's something wrong but all I need to know is why. Just answer me and I'll leave you alone. Maybe."
Lily pushed him over the edge, onto annoyance. "Fine. You really want to know?" he said, his tone very crude and sharp. "Fiona is my sister." Lily's eyes glared and her jaw dropped. "Only she doesn't know it."
Au contraire, Mr Potter. For Fiona was standing round the corner of the bookshelf and heard every single word that had been said.
* * * * * * * * * * * *
Lily and James showed the first years' the other main areas of the school; the Potions dungeon, the Great Hall, the bathrooms, the Quidditch pitch and the Hospital wing, stopping for lunch I the middle. They were all exhausted from walking all around the school and headed back towards the Great Hall for the last meal of the day - dinner.
Lily plonked herself next to Gypsy, letting out an exhausted sigh.
"Hey Gyps. Hey guys." She said turning to Frankie, Gus and Bella.
"Hi."
"Yo"
"Hey Lil. What's up? I heard you got paired up with my buddy James. How's he doing after that? You didn't manage to kill him did you?" asked Frankie, jokingly. Everyone laughed and Lily poked her tongue out at him.
"For your information James Potter is alive and well to my knowledge. As a prefect of Gryffindor it is my duty to be on civil terms with my housemates and set good examples to those who are younger than me."
Everyone laughed at this. "Yep, yep. Sure. Whatever you say Lily," said Gypsy in a serious tone, patting Lily on the shoulder and then winked at Gus.
"Man those first years are exhausting," said Lily, quite obviously changing the subject.
"I know what you mean! They are the sweetest things alive but they drain my energy. But Remus managed to handle them well."
"So Bells, how's Liam doing these days?" asked Gus. "Haven't seen him in a while."
"He's good. As a matter of fact, I'm going to see him tonight," replied Bella, smiling happily.
"Speaking of dates, I've got one tonight," said Gypsy. Lily's glance immediately fell on Gus. His face was stony and unreadable. "With Jacob Stevens."
"You mean that 7th year Ravenclaw hunk?" asked Bella, amazed. Gypsy and Bella's conversation continued about Jacob Stevens when Lily noticed a familiar black-haired Gryffindor, behind Gypsy's flashing purple and yellow hair, slip out of the Great Hall.
"Hey guys I'm buggered. I've finished so I'm gonna head up now ok?"
"Ok. See ya."
"Bye Lil!"
As soon as she was out of the Great Hall she sped up her pace and spotted James. She ran up by his side.
"Hello Potter. Leaving dinner early? That's a first."
"Yes Evans. I am surprisingly not hungry," he said in a very flat and exasperated tone.
"I want to talk to you about before. When you said Fiona was your sister, what exactly did you mean?"
"What do you think I meant Lily? Is it that hard to figure out?"
"What I mean is, if she is your sister, how come she doesn't know it? And how come you have different last names?"
"Haven't you done enough nosing for one day? Can't you just leave me alone?" snapped James.
Lily looked shocked and a little hurt.
"Sorry," she said meakly. "I'll leave."
"No, no," said James. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have snapped at you. I'm just tired." This was not a side of James Potter Lily was familiar with. She was unsure of how to act. "Um, that's ok I guess."
Suddenly James stopped and sat on the bottom step of the staircase. He put his head in his hands and rubbed his face.
"Why did she have to come here Lily? And why now? I was managing so well. What did I do wrong?"
Lily stopped dead in her tracks. Now what was she supposed to do?
"All these old feelings, I'd almost forgotten them, forgotten everything. Now she's here." Lily glimpsed a tear rolling down his cheek as the light hit it.
"Um, I'll just go and get Sirius or someone." She ran back to the Great Hall, with zillions of thoughts running through her mind and when she reached the Great Hall she saw the other three Marauders sitting at the Gryffindor table chucking food at Severus Snape.
"Sirius," said Lily patting his right shoulder roughly.
"Ah Lily. What can I do for you on this lovely evening?"
"Not me, James."
"Huh?"
"Um he's some kind of breakdown or something. You'd better come." Sirius' expression quickly changed as he frowned and cast a worried glance at Remus.
"I'll go," he said to Remus and Peter. "You guys finish up."
"Come on, he's this way."
Lily and Sirius jogged back to where James was and found him in the same position, head in hands. Lily stopped just around the corner so that James couldn't see her.
"Prongs?" Lily frowned. Prongs?
"James, buddy. What happened?" said Sirius as he put his arm on James' shoulder.
James lifted his head. He looked like shit, in Lily's opinion.
"Sirius, why is she here? I can't take it. I don't know what to do."
"James, she's here to learn. Not to torment you, whatever you think. She can't do you any harm. She's just one little girl. You have to treat her like the rest of them."
"I'd forgotten. I'd forgotten everything. Now it's all back and I don't think I can cope."
Sirius shook his head. "Don't kid yourself, James. No matter how much you think you'd forgotten, the feelings were always there, everyday, in everything you did. I could see it. You need to face this. I know this is hard for you, but you need to face them."
Lily frowned. What the hell were they on about?
James' head snapped up. "Sirius.what are you saying? I couldn't.never. No way.I can't even face Fiona. How do you expect me to do that?"
"You will eventually James. I know you will. But now, the first thing you need to do is to face Fiona. You need to talk to her. You need to tell her."
"Sirius it's too hard. I can't."
"You can. You're strong, James. You can do this. Don't let them do this to you again. You have to fight it. You have to tell her."
"I can't."
Oh no, Lily thought. I'm going to sneeze. She held her nose.she didn't want them to know she was there.
"Would it help if I was there with you?" asked Sirius. James shrugged.
"Well it's late now. Come on, lets go up to the common room."
The two started up the stairs. "Achoo!" James' and Sirius' heads snapped around.
"Who's there?" said Sirius. I can still hide, Lily thought. No point though. I might aswell show myself.
Lily walked out from behind the corner, her face a little pink.
"Lily? Did you hear everything?" asked Sirius. Lily nodded lightly and shrugged apologetically.
Suddenly James turned bright red as blood rushed to his pale face. He turned and ran up the stairs, and out of site.
"Oi! James! Wait!" cried Sirius, trying to catch up with him, but knowing he would fail. He stopped and turned back to face Lily. Her face was a mixture of confusion and worry.
"What just happened?" she asked. Sirius snorted. He retreated down the stairs towards Lily.
"I suppose I should tell you everything then."
Lily looked at him, unaware of what to say. She desperately wanted to know what was wrong, but she didn't want to pry. "If you feel like you can tell me, then go ahead. I have no objections."
"Well you know that Fiona is James' sister, right? Fiona Jensen?" Lily nodded, and the two began slowly walking up the stairs. "Well, James was born with very, shall we say destiny conscious parents. When he was born, they took him to see a divinator. This divinator told Mr and Mrs Jensen, James' parents, something about James and 'evil wizard'."
"Potter? Are you sure we're talking about James Potter? James Potter, the evil wizard. Ha! He wouldn't have the brains."
"Yes well, since he was a baby, they really didn't know his nature. They treated him really badly, and when Fiona was born, they treated her like an angel."
"But why? They didn't seriously believe all that crap did they?"
"Well obviously they did. I told you, they're very destiny conscious."
"They did that? To their own son?" Sirius nodded solemny. "That's horrible."
"Anyway, when James was 10, they took him to the same divinator, again. James remembers this. He was lying there and the divinator started mumbling things that he couldn't understand. Only a few words became clear, and those words were 'greatest evil wizard of all time'."
Lily gasped and stopped dead in her tracks. "You can't be serious?"
"I'm deadly serious. His mum screamed and fainted, and the news spread through town like wildfire. Listen to this, his parents, his own parents kicked him out of home. At the age of 10!"
"How can they be so cruel? That's sickening that they believe in divination so strongly as to give up their only son."
"Tell me about it. He was shunned everywhere he went. People didn't accept him. Finally Dumbledore took him in," said Sirius, his tone grave. "He enrolled him in Hogwarts and James sort of got over it, but it hurt him a lot. He has such low self esteem, it's not funny."
"James Potter? The egomaniac? You've got to be kidding!"
"You don't understand - "
"He's so full of himself. He's so perverted and irritating. You can't seriously be telling me that he of all people has low self esteem?"
"No Lily, you don't understand. It's all an act. He doesn't think he's worth anything."
Lily was silent. This couldn't be true. It certainly was very strange.
"He's such a pervert though!" Lily argued back, less strongly.
Sirius chuckled lightly. "Only to you."
Lily frowned. "But why?"
Sirius looked Lily straight in the eyes, her green eyes glimmering.
"Isn't it obvious?" he asked, surprised that she didn't know.
Lily frowned and was silent. She didn't understand, and then another thought came into her mind.
"But I don't understand why they have different last names."
"Well obviously James' name was a very infamous one then and so he had to change it."
"So James Potter isn't his real name?" Sirius shook his head. "So what is it?"
"Harry. Harry Jensen." Lily pursed her lips together. This was all very strange.something very different. By that time the tow had reached the Gryffindor common room and went off in different directions, both deep in thought.
Lily brushed her teeth and got into her PJ's. She tucked herself in and clutched her teddy, Robbie.
Before closing her eyes and drifting into the strange land of dreams, she thought 'So James Potter isn't just a perverted git after all.'
A/N: OMG I FINISHED!!! AHAHAHA!!!!!! IN THE FIRST WEEK OF THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!! IM A LEGEND!!!!! Ehehehe. And it's long too! I worked SO hard on this chapter so you guys better appreciate it and REVIEW!!!!! Okay?????
REVIEW, REVIEW! It's my birthday soon and you guys can give me a present by reviewing! Hehe.
Lots of Luv ~ ~ someone aka dOvE ~
A/N: Okioz.here goes the 3rd chapter.I know its been a while but now that it's the holidays I can write more.
THANKYOU TO MY BETA READER Y.Kuang ~
Chapter Three - His family
Can we work it out? Can we be a family?
I promise I'll be better, Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out? Can we be a family? ~ Family Portrait ~ Pink ~
"What was all that about, back there?" James went white once again and looked as if he were about to throw up.
He opened his mouth and said.nothing.
"Well?" said Lily, putting her hands on her hips but saying it more out of curiosity than annoyance.
"Urm." Lily raised her eyebrows, ".nothing. Just a dizzy spell. That's all."
Lily raised an eyebrow in disbelief. "Potter, don't lie to me."
"I never said anything about lying," said James trying to look innocent.
"No.true. You didn't.but your eyes did."
Lily missed the faint blush in James' cheek as she said this because he turned away and sighed.
"I know it has something to with-"
"Lily, Lily!" cried a first year. "Lily, have you seen this? It's AMAZING!" cried the little blonde girl as she ran towards the area where Lily and James were standing.
"Hush Fiona. It's a library, remember?" said Lily putting her index finger to her lips.
"Oops. Sorry. I just got a little carried away I suppose," said Fiona in a whisper. "But this book is just so amazing! Look!"
Lily chuckled softly. "Yes, yes, I've read that book many times and it is very good obviously have good taste." Lily winked and smiled at Fiona.
"Have you seen it James?" asked Fiona, a bit shyly.
James was white, again. He opened his mouth but no sound came out. Finally he managed to barely nod his head in confirmation.
Lily frowned, and then turned to Fiona. "Go see if you can find some more books before we move on from here ok? Go on." Fiona left the two prefects, feeling a little deflated.
Lily raised an eyebrow at James. "I know it has something to do with her."
James sighed again. "You know it's really none of your business, Evans."
"Au contraire, Mr Potter. Fiona is one of the first years' that I have to look after and anything that effects the her interactions with you is my business."
"Evans don't ever just shut the hell up? Just go away. Piss off."
"Look, I get that there's something wrong but all I need to know is why. Just answer me and I'll leave you alone. Maybe."
Lily pushed him over the edge, onto annoyance. "Fine. You really want to know?" he said, his tone very crude and sharp. "Fiona is my sister." Lily's eyes glared and her jaw dropped. "Only she doesn't know it."
Au contraire, Mr Potter. For Fiona was standing round the corner of the bookshelf and heard every single word that had been said.
* * * * * * * * * * * *
Lily and James showed the first years' the other main areas of the school; the Potions dungeon, the Great Hall, the bathrooms, the Quidditch pitch and the Hospital wing, stopping for lunch I the middle. They were all exhausted from walking all around the school and headed back towards the Great Hall for the last meal of the day - dinner.
Lily plonked herself next to Gypsy, letting out an exhausted sigh.
"Hey Gyps. Hey guys." She said turning to Frankie, Gus and Bella.
"Hi."
"Yo"
"Hey Lil. What's up? I heard you got paired up with my buddy James. How's he doing after that? You didn't manage to kill him did you?" asked Frankie, jokingly. Everyone laughed and Lily poked her tongue out at him.
"For your information James Potter is alive and well to my knowledge. As a prefect of Gryffindor it is my duty to be on civil terms with my housemates and set good examples to those who are younger than me."
Everyone laughed at this. "Yep, yep. Sure. Whatever you say Lily," said Gypsy in a serious tone, patting Lily on the shoulder and then winked at Gus.
"Man those first years are exhausting," said Lily, quite obviously changing the subject.
"I know what you mean! They are the sweetest things alive but they drain my energy. But Remus managed to handle them well."
"So Bells, how's Liam doing these days?" asked Gus. "Haven't seen him in a while."
"He's good. As a matter of fact, I'm going to see him tonight," replied Bella, smiling happily.
"Speaking of dates, I've got one tonight," said Gypsy. Lily's glance immediately fell on Gus. His face was stony and unreadable. "With Jacob Stevens."
"You mean that 7th year Ravenclaw hunk?" asked Bella, amazed. Gypsy and Bella's conversation continued about Jacob Stevens when Lily noticed a familiar black-haired Gryffindor, behind Gypsy's flashing purple and yellow hair, slip out of the Great Hall.
"Hey guys I'm buggered. I've finished so I'm gonna head up now ok?"
"Ok. See ya."
"Bye Lil!"
As soon as she was out of the Great Hall she sped up her pace and spotted James. She ran up by his side.
"Hello Potter. Leaving dinner early? That's a first."
"Yes Evans. I am surprisingly not hungry," he said in a very flat and exasperated tone.
"I want to talk to you about before. When you said Fiona was your sister, what exactly did you mean?"
"What do you think I meant Lily? Is it that hard to figure out?"
"What I mean is, if she is your sister, how come she doesn't know it? And how come you have different last names?"
"Haven't you done enough nosing for one day? Can't you just leave me alone?" snapped James.
Lily looked shocked and a little hurt.
"Sorry," she said meakly. "I'll leave."
"No, no," said James. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have snapped at you. I'm just tired." This was not a side of James Potter Lily was familiar with. She was unsure of how to act. "Um, that's ok I guess."
Suddenly James stopped and sat on the bottom step of the staircase. He put his head in his hands and rubbed his face.
"Why did she have to come here Lily? And why now? I was managing so well. What did I do wrong?"
Lily stopped dead in her tracks. Now what was she supposed to do?
"All these old feelings, I'd almost forgotten them, forgotten everything. Now she's here." Lily glimpsed a tear rolling down his cheek as the light hit it.
"Um, I'll just go and get Sirius or someone." She ran back to the Great Hall, with zillions of thoughts running through her mind and when she reached the Great Hall she saw the other three Marauders sitting at the Gryffindor table chucking food at Severus Snape.
"Sirius," said Lily patting his right shoulder roughly.
"Ah Lily. What can I do for you on this lovely evening?"
"Not me, James."
"Huh?"
"Um he's some kind of breakdown or something. You'd better come." Sirius' expression quickly changed as he frowned and cast a worried glance at Remus.
"I'll go," he said to Remus and Peter. "You guys finish up."
"Come on, he's this way."
Lily and Sirius jogged back to where James was and found him in the same position, head in hands. Lily stopped just around the corner so that James couldn't see her.
"Prongs?" Lily frowned. Prongs?
"James, buddy. What happened?" said Sirius as he put his arm on James' shoulder.
James lifted his head. He looked like shit, in Lily's opinion.
"Sirius, why is she here? I can't take it. I don't know what to do."
"James, she's here to learn. Not to torment you, whatever you think. She can't do you any harm. She's just one little girl. You have to treat her like the rest of them."
"I'd forgotten. I'd forgotten everything. Now it's all back and I don't think I can cope."
Sirius shook his head. "Don't kid yourself, James. No matter how much you think you'd forgotten, the feelings were always there, everyday, in everything you did. I could see it. You need to face this. I know this is hard for you, but you need to face them."
Lily frowned. What the hell were they on about?
James' head snapped up. "Sirius.what are you saying? I couldn't.never. No way.I can't even face Fiona. How do you expect me to do that?"
"You will eventually James. I know you will. But now, the first thing you need to do is to face Fiona. You need to talk to her. You need to tell her."
"Sirius it's too hard. I can't."
"You can. You're strong, James. You can do this. Don't let them do this to you again. You have to fight it. You have to tell her."
"I can't."
Oh no, Lily thought. I'm going to sneeze. She held her nose.she didn't want them to know she was there.
"Would it help if I was there with you?" asked Sirius. James shrugged.
"Well it's late now. Come on, lets go up to the common room."
The two started up the stairs. "Achoo!" James' and Sirius' heads snapped around.
"Who's there?" said Sirius. I can still hide, Lily thought. No point though. I might aswell show myself.
Lily walked out from behind the corner, her face a little pink.
"Lily? Did you hear everything?" asked Sirius. Lily nodded lightly and shrugged apologetically.
Suddenly James turned bright red as blood rushed to his pale face. He turned and ran up the stairs, and out of site.
"Oi! James! Wait!" cried Sirius, trying to catch up with him, but knowing he would fail. He stopped and turned back to face Lily. Her face was a mixture of confusion and worry.
"What just happened?" she asked. Sirius snorted. He retreated down the stairs towards Lily.
"I suppose I should tell you everything then."
Lily looked at him, unaware of what to say. She desperately wanted to know what was wrong, but she didn't want to pry. "If you feel like you can tell me, then go ahead. I have no objections."
"Well you know that Fiona is James' sister, right? Fiona Jensen?" Lily nodded, and the two began slowly walking up the stairs. "Well, James was born with very, shall we say destiny conscious parents. When he was born, they took him to see a divinator. This divinator told Mr and Mrs Jensen, James' parents, something about James and 'evil wizard'."
"Potter? Are you sure we're talking about James Potter? James Potter, the evil wizard. Ha! He wouldn't have the brains."
"Yes well, since he was a baby, they really didn't know his nature. They treated him really badly, and when Fiona was born, they treated her like an angel."
"But why? They didn't seriously believe all that crap did they?"
"Well obviously they did. I told you, they're very destiny conscious."
"They did that? To their own son?" Sirius nodded solemny. "That's horrible."
"Anyway, when James was 10, they took him to the same divinator, again. James remembers this. He was lying there and the divinator started mumbling things that he couldn't understand. Only a few words became clear, and those words were 'greatest evil wizard of all time'."
Lily gasped and stopped dead in her tracks. "You can't be serious?"
"I'm deadly serious. His mum screamed and fainted, and the news spread through town like wildfire. Listen to this, his parents, his own parents kicked him out of home. At the age of 10!"
"How can they be so cruel? That's sickening that they believe in divination so strongly as to give up their only son."
"Tell me about it. He was shunned everywhere he went. People didn't accept him. Finally Dumbledore took him in," said Sirius, his tone grave. "He enrolled him in Hogwarts and James sort of got over it, but it hurt him a lot. He has such low self esteem, it's not funny."
"James Potter? The egomaniac? You've got to be kidding!"
"You don't understand - "
"He's so full of himself. He's so perverted and irritating. You can't seriously be telling me that he of all people has low self esteem?"
"No Lily, you don't understand. It's all an act. He doesn't think he's worth anything."
Lily was silent. This couldn't be true. It certainly was very strange.
"He's such a pervert though!" Lily argued back, less strongly.
Sirius chuckled lightly. "Only to you."
Lily frowned. "But why?"
Sirius looked Lily straight in the eyes, her green eyes glimmering.
"Isn't it obvious?" he asked, surprised that she didn't know.
Lily frowned and was silent. She didn't understand, and then another thought came into her mind.
"But I don't understand why they have different last names."
"Well obviously James' name was a very infamous one then and so he had to change it."
"So James Potter isn't his real name?" Sirius shook his head. "So what is it?"
"Harry. Harry Jensen." Lily pursed her lips together. This was all very strange.something very different. By that time the tow had reached the Gryffindor common room and went off in different directions, both deep in thought.
Lily brushed her teeth and got into her PJ's. She tucked herself in and clutched her teddy, Robbie.
Before closing her eyes and drifting into the strange land of dreams, she thought 'So James Potter isn't just a perverted git after all.'
A/N: OMG I FINISHED!!! AHAHAHA!!!!!! IN THE FIRST WEEK OF THE HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!! IM A LEGEND!!!!! Ehehehe. And it's long too! I worked SO hard on this chapter so you guys better appreciate it and REVIEW!!!!! Okay?????
REVIEW, REVIEW! It's my birthday soon and you guys can give me a present by reviewing! Hehe.
Lots of Luv ~ ~ someone aka dOvE ~