*Shattered-p.2*


The hardest thing I ever did was watch you cry Garu.

When I saw you crying, I wanted to hold you, and

tell you everything would be alright, and bring you

the comfort that Ernest could've given you. I wanted

you to feel about me the way you did Ernest. I want

to feel your lips carress mine, and I want to have

with you the same relationship you had with Ernest,

but it can never be..because I'm not Ernest. I never

was, I never will be. But...What's this..? Now your

head is on my shoulder.. is this the affection I've

been longing for? Your crying again. Why are you

seeking comfort from me? Now you telling me what I

already know. How much you loved him. I know Garu. I

you miss him with all your heart and soul. I know..

but please dont say it should have been you! Ernest

didnt think so..or else he wouldnt have died for

your sake. Your head is still on my shoulder..but

now your arms are around my waist, as mine are yours

as I try to comfort you. "It's late Garu.." I say

not wanting this to end. Our own special moment. You

nod your head..but your still holding on to me? "Can

I stay with you Rio?" I hear you say through your

tears. I don't beleive my ears and ask you to repeat

but I heard correctly. Are you playing with my

feelings? I am still holding you, only now you are

on top of me.. and your whimpering like a child. I

try to hold back from touching you..but I can't and

I cover your mouth with mine..What am I doing? I

stop and aplogize..but you stop me. Your fingers on

my lips and your asking why I stopped? Your blushing

too. I move my hand up to move a strand of your

emerald hair from your face, hesitating to answer

you. I wish I could be honest with you Garu, and

tell you I love you but I can't betray your love for

Ernest. I don't want to intrude over Ernest's memory

and have you angry with me. I open my mouth to

explain this to you..but I can't because...your...

kissing me..? This is satisfiying..but we can't

Garu.."Rioroute..." I hear you whisper my name

longingly. I've wanted to hear that from you for

so long Garu.. fine you win Garu.. I'll be yours

for tonight only..I'll be yours.