Passionate Affections
Chapter III
Author's Note: Thanks again for the reviews sent in. I finally finished the plot for this story. What will Squall do? What's on Seifer's mind? Will Squall have a chance to tell Seifer how he feels? The answers are revealed on this chapter. Read away ...
~(Squall's POV)~
After I finished breakfast, I went back to our bedroom to change to my regular leather pants and white tee. I didn't wear my short, black leather jacket today. The day was extremly hot, just like my body temperature. I was constanly sweating nervously. After Rinoa's news I haven't been myself. I needed a walk. And I needed to reflect on some things. Things that should have never happened, and how my new life was going to be.
"Where are you going?", asked Rinoa. "I'm just going to take a walk.", I replied, trying not to sound depressed. "Are you okay?", she asked, "Are you sure you don't need the company?".
"No, I'm okay."
"Oh, well, because I'm going to see Headmaster Cid right away.", she said excitedly.
"Oh, great.", I said trying not to sound sarcastic, but excited. I haven't been much of an actor, so it didn't came out right. I needed practice. "See you in a while.", Rinoa said as she walked through the door.
Now she's going to tell Cid about the marrige. Did I even say yes? I don't quite remember. This was stupid. I just so happen to agree to marry a girl which I didn't want to share my life with. Why couldn't I say that I didn't want to get married? I could at least have said to wait a while longer. I guess I act before thinking. One big flaw in my life.
As I stepped out the door, everyone looked at me and were whispering behind my back. What could possibly the oh-so-big-secret? Whatever it was, it was probably some rumor. Rumors have been flying around for the past few days, and most of them were not true.
I walked further 'till I got out of town and to the big, grassy hill above the Fire Cavern. I stared at the horizon, which was very beautiful. Then I saw the cristal, blue water of the sea. It kind of reminded me of Seifer's eyes. I slapped and I told myself to snap out of it. But as much as I tried, the only thing on my mind was Seifer.
Out of nowhere, a tall, blond man wearing a large trenchcoat walked up and sat next to me. It was Seifer! Where was his disciplinary committe? Why was he alone? He was always with that little possee he had. Too bad I couldn't be a part of it, so I could always hang around with him. But Seifer was here. The one person I wanted to see. It was very ironic, but still I smiled in glee.
"Well, well. Look who's here.", said Seifer in a most sarcastic, but cute tone, "So, is it true?".
"Is what true?"
"That you're getting married with Rinoa."
"Oh. Wait, where did you hear that?"
"Everyone in town knows about it. She's a lucky girl."
"Why is she so lucky?"
"To have you as a husband -- well, fiancé."
Wow, I was surprised. I couldn't believe it! Seifer did care about me. If only Rinoa wasn't my fiancee and Seifer was. Oh, the joy. I could talk to him for hours. This definately made my day.
"Seifer, do you hate me?"
"No. Of course not. Why would I?"
"I mean, why did we end as rivals?"
"I don't know. I guess time changes people. But I don't want us to be rivals, nor fight again. I mean, come on, a whole year has passed."
"Yeah, I guess you're right.", I said kind of dumbfounded. I was distracted by the look of his sexy eyes. I tried to resist the urge from tasting his soft lips. Why is he so desirable?
"So, what do you think of getting married?"
"I ... really don't know. I mean, I like Rinoa, but ..."
"But? There's a but?"
"I haven't told this to anyone, but I feel like she isn't the one for me."
"Oh."
"We're just not cut out for this marrige."
"Have you told her?"
"No. I don't think I'll ever will."
"Why? You should be with the one who suits you."
"I know."
"Do you have anyone else in mind?"
"Well, yes. As a matter of fact, I do."
"Well, then. Who's the lucky girl?"
I couldn't keep it a secret any longer. I had to tell him now. Now that we're alone. Now without Rinoa. It's now or never. I will be prepared if he doesn't feel that way. I will move on. But right now, I just had to know.
"Actually, it's not really a girl."
"Uh, I'm confused."
"You see, what I'm trying to say is ...", I stopped and kissed him in the lips. Ok, so I don't resist the urge, but this was just priceless. I couldn't ask for anything better than a sweet kiss on Seifer's lips. The kiss went on until Seifer pushed away.
"I ...can't.", he said, "You're going to get married. This isn't right.". He got up on his feet and was ready to leave. I got up and tried to stop him.
"Seifer, wait.", I pleaded.
"No. We can't be like this."
"Why not?"
"We just can't."
"Would you just listen? Seifer, I love you. I always had."
Seifer stop and turned around. "I couldn't get the chance to tell Rinoa, but we can change, right?", I tried to sound convincing.
"No. I don't want to be the reason for all this."
"But you're not. I've always been like this."
"Then why didn't you tell her before?"
"I don't know. I was going to tell her today, but then she talked about marrige and --"
"I guess it's too late now.", said Seifer as he continued to walk away.
"It's never too late, you hear? We can still be together."
"We'd be living a lie."
"I know, but i-it's worth it, right?"
"You don't care about Rinoa. You don't care about her feelings."
"What? Of course I do."
"She could be having sex with another man right now, and you wouldn't care."
"I do care. Just because my lifestyle is different and I don't feel the same way about her, doesn't mean I'm Mr. Insensitive."
"Then if you would, you wouldn't have kissed me. That was wrong. Very wrong."
"Nice excuse, Seifer. You liked it. Admit it. And you're probably scared because you want to be with me."
"I'm not scared."
"Then admit it. Admit you like me, too."
"Ok. I'm not going to lie. Yes, I was interested, but look at where we are. It's impossible."
"Nothing's impossible."
"I don't want talk to you right now."
"Don't you run away from me!"
"You're a coward."
"I am not."
"Then tell her."
"Okay, I will. Just for you."
"Hmph. Here's your lucky chance."
"What?", I said confused. What was he talking about? Then I heard a voice shouting, "Squaaaaalllllllyyyyy!". And guess who that was. Rinoa had been calling me. I hated when she called me Squally. Especially, around Seifer. I couldn't help but blush a little in embarrasment. Only Seifer could call me Squally.
Seifer snickered a bit and left. I love it when he does that. But I couldn't enjoy it 5 seconds because Rinoa was coming my way. "I'm coming!", I yelled back and ran to her.
How time flies! It was late afternoon already. I forget about everything when Siefer's around. Minutes were like hours.
I still remember what Seifer told me about Rinoa's feelings. It's funny how I sounded so confident when I was talking to Seifer, but I just can't do it. I can't tell her. I mean, put yourself in her shoes. She's looking foward to this marrige. I just can't come up to her and tell her, "Hi, Rinoa. I'm gay. I love Seifer, not you. It's time to move on. Bye!". Maybe our relationship with Seifer and me could be secret. She won't find out, then all of us could be happy.
I guess it's goodbye sweet Seifer until we meet again. He still got me mad, though. He's probably playing hard-to-get. I'll show him.
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Comments: What could Squall be up to? I'll try to finish this ASAP. I know some of you can't wait for the next chapter. I can't either. Until next chapter!
Read & send those reviews for a happy fangirl. ^_^
Chapter III
Author's Note: Thanks again for the reviews sent in. I finally finished the plot for this story. What will Squall do? What's on Seifer's mind? Will Squall have a chance to tell Seifer how he feels? The answers are revealed on this chapter. Read away ...
~(Squall's POV)~
After I finished breakfast, I went back to our bedroom to change to my regular leather pants and white tee. I didn't wear my short, black leather jacket today. The day was extremly hot, just like my body temperature. I was constanly sweating nervously. After Rinoa's news I haven't been myself. I needed a walk. And I needed to reflect on some things. Things that should have never happened, and how my new life was going to be.
"Where are you going?", asked Rinoa. "I'm just going to take a walk.", I replied, trying not to sound depressed. "Are you okay?", she asked, "Are you sure you don't need the company?".
"No, I'm okay."
"Oh, well, because I'm going to see Headmaster Cid right away.", she said excitedly.
"Oh, great.", I said trying not to sound sarcastic, but excited. I haven't been much of an actor, so it didn't came out right. I needed practice. "See you in a while.", Rinoa said as she walked through the door.
Now she's going to tell Cid about the marrige. Did I even say yes? I don't quite remember. This was stupid. I just so happen to agree to marry a girl which I didn't want to share my life with. Why couldn't I say that I didn't want to get married? I could at least have said to wait a while longer. I guess I act before thinking. One big flaw in my life.
As I stepped out the door, everyone looked at me and were whispering behind my back. What could possibly the oh-so-big-secret? Whatever it was, it was probably some rumor. Rumors have been flying around for the past few days, and most of them were not true.
I walked further 'till I got out of town and to the big, grassy hill above the Fire Cavern. I stared at the horizon, which was very beautiful. Then I saw the cristal, blue water of the sea. It kind of reminded me of Seifer's eyes. I slapped and I told myself to snap out of it. But as much as I tried, the only thing on my mind was Seifer.
Out of nowhere, a tall, blond man wearing a large trenchcoat walked up and sat next to me. It was Seifer! Where was his disciplinary committe? Why was he alone? He was always with that little possee he had. Too bad I couldn't be a part of it, so I could always hang around with him. But Seifer was here. The one person I wanted to see. It was very ironic, but still I smiled in glee.
"Well, well. Look who's here.", said Seifer in a most sarcastic, but cute tone, "So, is it true?".
"Is what true?"
"That you're getting married with Rinoa."
"Oh. Wait, where did you hear that?"
"Everyone in town knows about it. She's a lucky girl."
"Why is she so lucky?"
"To have you as a husband -- well, fiancé."
Wow, I was surprised. I couldn't believe it! Seifer did care about me. If only Rinoa wasn't my fiancee and Seifer was. Oh, the joy. I could talk to him for hours. This definately made my day.
"Seifer, do you hate me?"
"No. Of course not. Why would I?"
"I mean, why did we end as rivals?"
"I don't know. I guess time changes people. But I don't want us to be rivals, nor fight again. I mean, come on, a whole year has passed."
"Yeah, I guess you're right.", I said kind of dumbfounded. I was distracted by the look of his sexy eyes. I tried to resist the urge from tasting his soft lips. Why is he so desirable?
"So, what do you think of getting married?"
"I ... really don't know. I mean, I like Rinoa, but ..."
"But? There's a but?"
"I haven't told this to anyone, but I feel like she isn't the one for me."
"Oh."
"We're just not cut out for this marrige."
"Have you told her?"
"No. I don't think I'll ever will."
"Why? You should be with the one who suits you."
"I know."
"Do you have anyone else in mind?"
"Well, yes. As a matter of fact, I do."
"Well, then. Who's the lucky girl?"
I couldn't keep it a secret any longer. I had to tell him now. Now that we're alone. Now without Rinoa. It's now or never. I will be prepared if he doesn't feel that way. I will move on. But right now, I just had to know.
"Actually, it's not really a girl."
"Uh, I'm confused."
"You see, what I'm trying to say is ...", I stopped and kissed him in the lips. Ok, so I don't resist the urge, but this was just priceless. I couldn't ask for anything better than a sweet kiss on Seifer's lips. The kiss went on until Seifer pushed away.
"I ...can't.", he said, "You're going to get married. This isn't right.". He got up on his feet and was ready to leave. I got up and tried to stop him.
"Seifer, wait.", I pleaded.
"No. We can't be like this."
"Why not?"
"We just can't."
"Would you just listen? Seifer, I love you. I always had."
Seifer stop and turned around. "I couldn't get the chance to tell Rinoa, but we can change, right?", I tried to sound convincing.
"No. I don't want to be the reason for all this."
"But you're not. I've always been like this."
"Then why didn't you tell her before?"
"I don't know. I was going to tell her today, but then she talked about marrige and --"
"I guess it's too late now.", said Seifer as he continued to walk away.
"It's never too late, you hear? We can still be together."
"We'd be living a lie."
"I know, but i-it's worth it, right?"
"You don't care about Rinoa. You don't care about her feelings."
"What? Of course I do."
"She could be having sex with another man right now, and you wouldn't care."
"I do care. Just because my lifestyle is different and I don't feel the same way about her, doesn't mean I'm Mr. Insensitive."
"Then if you would, you wouldn't have kissed me. That was wrong. Very wrong."
"Nice excuse, Seifer. You liked it. Admit it. And you're probably scared because you want to be with me."
"I'm not scared."
"Then admit it. Admit you like me, too."
"Ok. I'm not going to lie. Yes, I was interested, but look at where we are. It's impossible."
"Nothing's impossible."
"I don't want talk to you right now."
"Don't you run away from me!"
"You're a coward."
"I am not."
"Then tell her."
"Okay, I will. Just for you."
"Hmph. Here's your lucky chance."
"What?", I said confused. What was he talking about? Then I heard a voice shouting, "Squaaaaalllllllyyyyy!". And guess who that was. Rinoa had been calling me. I hated when she called me Squally. Especially, around Seifer. I couldn't help but blush a little in embarrasment. Only Seifer could call me Squally.
Seifer snickered a bit and left. I love it when he does that. But I couldn't enjoy it 5 seconds because Rinoa was coming my way. "I'm coming!", I yelled back and ran to her.
How time flies! It was late afternoon already. I forget about everything when Siefer's around. Minutes were like hours.
I still remember what Seifer told me about Rinoa's feelings. It's funny how I sounded so confident when I was talking to Seifer, but I just can't do it. I can't tell her. I mean, put yourself in her shoes. She's looking foward to this marrige. I just can't come up to her and tell her, "Hi, Rinoa. I'm gay. I love Seifer, not you. It's time to move on. Bye!". Maybe our relationship with Seifer and me could be secret. She won't find out, then all of us could be happy.
I guess it's goodbye sweet Seifer until we meet again. He still got me mad, though. He's probably playing hard-to-get. I'll show him.
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Comments: What could Squall be up to? I'll try to finish this ASAP. I know some of you can't wait for the next chapter. I can't either. Until next chapter!
Read & send those reviews for a happy fangirl. ^_^