Passionate Affections
Chapter V
Author's Note: I'm not dead, if that's what you think. Sorry this took me too long to write. I said a week and a half or so, but this week has been hectic because my vacation is finished. I was enjoying my last week. Now for another chapter. Squall and Rinoa get it on? Note: This chapter starts the next morning. No, I'm not going to write lemons or describe it, or stop them. It's my story, damn it. But he doesn't magically become straight again, either. Read to find out.
~(Squall's POV)~
I woke up in the wrinkled and messed up bed ... barenaked. Oh, no. We didn't, right? That's ... impossible. I looked at Rinoa sleeping beside me and she, too, was barenaked. We did it, didn't we? How the hell did this happen? What came over me? I'm sure it wasn't pleasable for me. Then I remembered. Damn you, Seifer. Look what he did. He obligated me to kiss Rinoa, and oh look, I found her special turn on. This is going bad.
There was small knock on the door. I sat on the bad and pulled my boxers up. Rinoa was sleeping gently. I stood up and opened the door. Out of all peoples in the world, I never imagined Seifer being the one at the door. I don't have the mood to talk to him right now - especially after that fiasco yesterday. He was carrying my grocery bags. Well, thats the least he could do after everything.
" * snickers* Well, aren't we looking bright this morning?", said Seifer teasing. Is that all he can say? " I'm guessing you slept well last night, right?".
"Seifer Almasy! Look what you've done!", I shouted.
"Hey, don't blame me. You brought this on yourself."
"What are you talking about? You set me up --you don't want me -- you had a plan to get me with Rinoa."
"I wasn't expecting this far, but yeah, I was planning on doing something."
"Why?"
"Squall, Squall. I gave you a chance. You didn't tell her soon, so this is what you get. You lied, Squall, you lied."
"You don't get me, Seifer. I can't tell her."
"Sure you can. Just tell her the truth. Is that so hard?"
"Yes. Yes, it is. The truth will hurt, don't you get that?"
"Hmm, well, yeah, but she's going to find out anyways. It's best to tell her now."
"Tell me what?", a voice said. It was Rinoa who just woke up with her robe on. I was afraid she was eavesdropping through the conversation. But apparently, she only heard Seifer's last comment.
"Uh ...", I responded nervously. Seifer was looking at me with 'tell her now, or else' look in his face. Then Rinoa was demanding an explaination with her face. Oh, the pressure. Suddenly, I began to wuss out, "... uh, to tell you that, uh, w-we should wait a couple of months for the wedding.".
"Oh,", Rinoa replied ever so calmly, "I think we should, too.". She went back to where she was and entered the bathroom. Seifer handed me the grocery bags, and began to be in his way. "Wait, wait!", I yelled trying to stop him.
"This is unbelievable. Do you know how many chances you get to tell her, and you haven't?", said Seifer. I hate to admit he was right. I haven't got the balls to do anything. But it's so hard. Seifer walked closer to me and whispered, "Now you know you can never be with me." and walked down the hall. I could just cry right now. Those words hurt so much. I can never be with Seifer, and he said it himself.
I feel a depression coming on. My life is so fucked up right now. I feel like I could die, so I can escape all this. What an unfair life. I hate it. I hate my life.
"Squally, I'm going to the shower, want to join me?", shouted Rinoa from the bathroom. Oh, great, I'll would say in exasperation. But only a wussy, "Be right there" came out. Why? Why can't I say anything right? I hate myself.
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Comments: Squall's teenage depression. I bet you're all thinking if Squall's going to try to kill himself. I got this from my friend who has gone through these depressions before, and yes, thought about killing herself. Sad thing, but thank God she didn't. Funny how this story sounds similar to what happened to her, except she's not bi, and it wasn't between two men. Read more to find out.
P.S. If you see any typos, ignore them. I write too fast and forget to check those dumb little mistakes. I know I saw a lot in the previous chapter.
Read and review for a happy fangirl. ^_^
Chapter V
Author's Note: I'm not dead, if that's what you think. Sorry this took me too long to write. I said a week and a half or so, but this week has been hectic because my vacation is finished. I was enjoying my last week. Now for another chapter. Squall and Rinoa get it on? Note: This chapter starts the next morning. No, I'm not going to write lemons or describe it, or stop them. It's my story, damn it. But he doesn't magically become straight again, either. Read to find out.
~(Squall's POV)~
I woke up in the wrinkled and messed up bed ... barenaked. Oh, no. We didn't, right? That's ... impossible. I looked at Rinoa sleeping beside me and she, too, was barenaked. We did it, didn't we? How the hell did this happen? What came over me? I'm sure it wasn't pleasable for me. Then I remembered. Damn you, Seifer. Look what he did. He obligated me to kiss Rinoa, and oh look, I found her special turn on. This is going bad.
There was small knock on the door. I sat on the bad and pulled my boxers up. Rinoa was sleeping gently. I stood up and opened the door. Out of all peoples in the world, I never imagined Seifer being the one at the door. I don't have the mood to talk to him right now - especially after that fiasco yesterday. He was carrying my grocery bags. Well, thats the least he could do after everything.
" * snickers* Well, aren't we looking bright this morning?", said Seifer teasing. Is that all he can say? " I'm guessing you slept well last night, right?".
"Seifer Almasy! Look what you've done!", I shouted.
"Hey, don't blame me. You brought this on yourself."
"What are you talking about? You set me up --you don't want me -- you had a plan to get me with Rinoa."
"I wasn't expecting this far, but yeah, I was planning on doing something."
"Why?"
"Squall, Squall. I gave you a chance. You didn't tell her soon, so this is what you get. You lied, Squall, you lied."
"You don't get me, Seifer. I can't tell her."
"Sure you can. Just tell her the truth. Is that so hard?"
"Yes. Yes, it is. The truth will hurt, don't you get that?"
"Hmm, well, yeah, but she's going to find out anyways. It's best to tell her now."
"Tell me what?", a voice said. It was Rinoa who just woke up with her robe on. I was afraid she was eavesdropping through the conversation. But apparently, she only heard Seifer's last comment.
"Uh ...", I responded nervously. Seifer was looking at me with 'tell her now, or else' look in his face. Then Rinoa was demanding an explaination with her face. Oh, the pressure. Suddenly, I began to wuss out, "... uh, to tell you that, uh, w-we should wait a couple of months for the wedding.".
"Oh,", Rinoa replied ever so calmly, "I think we should, too.". She went back to where she was and entered the bathroom. Seifer handed me the grocery bags, and began to be in his way. "Wait, wait!", I yelled trying to stop him.
"This is unbelievable. Do you know how many chances you get to tell her, and you haven't?", said Seifer. I hate to admit he was right. I haven't got the balls to do anything. But it's so hard. Seifer walked closer to me and whispered, "Now you know you can never be with me." and walked down the hall. I could just cry right now. Those words hurt so much. I can never be with Seifer, and he said it himself.
I feel a depression coming on. My life is so fucked up right now. I feel like I could die, so I can escape all this. What an unfair life. I hate it. I hate my life.
"Squally, I'm going to the shower, want to join me?", shouted Rinoa from the bathroom. Oh, great, I'll would say in exasperation. But only a wussy, "Be right there" came out. Why? Why can't I say anything right? I hate myself.
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Comments: Squall's teenage depression. I bet you're all thinking if Squall's going to try to kill himself. I got this from my friend who has gone through these depressions before, and yes, thought about killing herself. Sad thing, but thank God she didn't. Funny how this story sounds similar to what happened to her, except she's not bi, and it wasn't between two men. Read more to find out.
P.S. If you see any typos, ignore them. I write too fast and forget to check those dumb little mistakes. I know I saw a lot in the previous chapter.
Read and review for a happy fangirl. ^_^