Passionate Affections
Chapter VI
Author's Note: I've got nothing else to write here. Just enjoy the next chapter ^_^.
~(Squall's POV)~
After that shower with Rinoa --that didn't amuse me much since my head's all blocked-- I went to take a walk. I can't live like this anymore. I don't know what I'm going to do.
I went back to the grassy hill above the Fire Cavern, and sat there still looking at the horizon. I felt my soul fly as the soft wind blew in my face. It helped me calm down a lot, but it wasn't going to make any difference.
If I could die right now, this would be it. It was all so beautiful ... like Seifer. Suddenly, tears came down my face. I couldn't help it. The one person I've loved and lust for was him. He doesn't deserve someone like me. He deserves someone better. Too bad that person couldn't be me. I weeped some more, until I decided I wanted to end my life here and now...
I was standing only six feet from the edge of the cliff. This was it. No more worries from anything. No more wedding. No more I-love-Rinoa acts. No more indecisions. No more lies. And certainly, no more Seifer. Once I hit the bottom, the impact will be so hard I won't able to survive. I've had just about enough with this peer pressure stuff - it's too much for me to handle.
I was just about to jump, when someone pulled me back. I thought it would be Seifer or Rinoa, but no, it was ... Quistis?!
"What the hell are you doing?!", yelled Quistis, "Are you crazy?!".
"I have to. I don't want to live anymore."
"What are you talking about?"
"That's none of your --"
"-- Business? Squall, you were about to jump. What's wrong?"
"I don't want to talk right now."
"Typical you. You never want to talk. But I'm not going to let one of my students die."
"Grr, you're not my teacher anymore! You don't have to tell me what I have to do anymore, so back off!"
"I'm only trying to help you. You can talk to me, if you want to."
I sighed and sat on the grass, like I did before. I'm not sure if I want to tell her. Sure she was my teacher, but I'm not in the mood for anything. Or maybe I did need someone I can talk to. I need to confess to someone -- someone that can hear me and give me good advice. I feel like I could trust her. So I took a while to meditate, and told her everything.
"Suicide is not the answer.", said Quistis.
"I know, but ... I can't live like this."
"Squall, life out there is going to be much tougher than this, but that's just the way things are - you have to swallow it even if you don't like it. We all want to run away from everything and live a perfect happy life, but it doesn't work that way. You have to struggle your way through life, and make the best of it. And most importantly, live it to the fullest because time flies, and you only have one chance to live. It's completely pointless to waste your life like this. It's not garbage. I know it's hard, but you can find your way around mistakes. You only have to stand up for yourself, or else life will take control of you and, trust me, it's going to get worse. Only you can take control of your life, not anyone else. Not by a forbidden love. Do something for yourself for once, Squall. Not even death can solve everything. And it's not going to hurt just you, but others that cared for you as well. Think about what you're doing. After all, in every sad story, there's a happy ending."
I was impressed. Quistis's speech/advice had change my whole aspect of everything. She was more than right. I could confront to Rinoa now, and tell her without a doubt. This really inspired me. I know I will always talked to Quistis whenever I needed her help, and so I told her many thanks.
To be continued ...
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Comments: Just a small chapter for now. I hope that Quistis speech is a good advice for all teens/adults out there. Suicide is not the answer. And so, I hope you all find this useful for everyone whose had a hard time and depressions. And no, I didn't take copy this off a book or anything -- it's my own self.
And you thought this is going to come out all easy. Well, I'm afraid the story still doesn't end there. I'm just going to say that someone comes along and ruins it, and yes, finally Rinoa knows the truth in the next chapter. Too bad, she'll find out the hard way, and that's all I'm going to say. Read the next chapter to find out what horrible disaster will happen.
Read and review for a happy fangirl. ^_^
Chapter VI
Author's Note: I've got nothing else to write here. Just enjoy the next chapter ^_^.
~(Squall's POV)~
After that shower with Rinoa --that didn't amuse me much since my head's all blocked-- I went to take a walk. I can't live like this anymore. I don't know what I'm going to do.
I went back to the grassy hill above the Fire Cavern, and sat there still looking at the horizon. I felt my soul fly as the soft wind blew in my face. It helped me calm down a lot, but it wasn't going to make any difference.
If I could die right now, this would be it. It was all so beautiful ... like Seifer. Suddenly, tears came down my face. I couldn't help it. The one person I've loved and lust for was him. He doesn't deserve someone like me. He deserves someone better. Too bad that person couldn't be me. I weeped some more, until I decided I wanted to end my life here and now...
I was standing only six feet from the edge of the cliff. This was it. No more worries from anything. No more wedding. No more I-love-Rinoa acts. No more indecisions. No more lies. And certainly, no more Seifer. Once I hit the bottom, the impact will be so hard I won't able to survive. I've had just about enough with this peer pressure stuff - it's too much for me to handle.
I was just about to jump, when someone pulled me back. I thought it would be Seifer or Rinoa, but no, it was ... Quistis?!
"What the hell are you doing?!", yelled Quistis, "Are you crazy?!".
"I have to. I don't want to live anymore."
"What are you talking about?"
"That's none of your --"
"-- Business? Squall, you were about to jump. What's wrong?"
"I don't want to talk right now."
"Typical you. You never want to talk. But I'm not going to let one of my students die."
"Grr, you're not my teacher anymore! You don't have to tell me what I have to do anymore, so back off!"
"I'm only trying to help you. You can talk to me, if you want to."
I sighed and sat on the grass, like I did before. I'm not sure if I want to tell her. Sure she was my teacher, but I'm not in the mood for anything. Or maybe I did need someone I can talk to. I need to confess to someone -- someone that can hear me and give me good advice. I feel like I could trust her. So I took a while to meditate, and told her everything.
"Suicide is not the answer.", said Quistis.
"I know, but ... I can't live like this."
"Squall, life out there is going to be much tougher than this, but that's just the way things are - you have to swallow it even if you don't like it. We all want to run away from everything and live a perfect happy life, but it doesn't work that way. You have to struggle your way through life, and make the best of it. And most importantly, live it to the fullest because time flies, and you only have one chance to live. It's completely pointless to waste your life like this. It's not garbage. I know it's hard, but you can find your way around mistakes. You only have to stand up for yourself, or else life will take control of you and, trust me, it's going to get worse. Only you can take control of your life, not anyone else. Not by a forbidden love. Do something for yourself for once, Squall. Not even death can solve everything. And it's not going to hurt just you, but others that cared for you as well. Think about what you're doing. After all, in every sad story, there's a happy ending."
I was impressed. Quistis's speech/advice had change my whole aspect of everything. She was more than right. I could confront to Rinoa now, and tell her without a doubt. This really inspired me. I know I will always talked to Quistis whenever I needed her help, and so I told her many thanks.
To be continued ...
_________________________________________
Comments: Just a small chapter for now. I hope that Quistis speech is a good advice for all teens/adults out there. Suicide is not the answer. And so, I hope you all find this useful for everyone whose had a hard time and depressions. And no, I didn't take copy this off a book or anything -- it's my own self.
And you thought this is going to come out all easy. Well, I'm afraid the story still doesn't end there. I'm just going to say that someone comes along and ruins it, and yes, finally Rinoa knows the truth in the next chapter. Too bad, she'll find out the hard way, and that's all I'm going to say. Read the next chapter to find out what horrible disaster will happen.
Read and review for a happy fangirl. ^_^