A/N: hey there. I really can't believe I got enough guts to write again. This idea was kind of part of a dream I had a while ago, which I think was induced by late night fanfic reading, but hey, who caresJ. Anyway, I want to talk my friends for their support in…everything. Love you guys! I don't own Final Fantasy, or its characters; I'm not creative enough to do that. This is suppose to be a JaNeil fic, kind of, but there is A LOT of OOC here (*cringe*). I have a feeling I will be revising this later. Well, it's short, but enjoy!
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Your Smile
Normal routine
The snide comments and sarcasm we throw at each other
Did you ever really think about the fighting? It's a lot like children really…
People just roll their eyes or smirk. Some of them even leave. Nothing new to them
I never really notice them during our little bouts. I only see you.
We turn our different ways, walking to opposite doors,
And as I walk away I hear my heart wish that there were more to this than childish bickering
That we were more than this.
I feel like I am betraying myself. I'm suppose to be mad at you aren't I?
And yet my heart silently cries for you.
I stop at the doorway and sneak a glance your way. Is that a smile on your face?
I think about how different we are, and the life you give me.
I don't think you truly understand my feelings
Heck, I don't even think I understand myself
Life was so simple without you, and yet, I couldn't be happier with you here
Even if we aren't really together
I realize that I am smiling as I look at you
Why can't it be more?
I asked myself that several nights.
Maybe it's just me, I can't bring myself to do anything
Defensive to these feelings, I fight, instead of saying what I truly want.
And I regret it every time…
You turn around, and catch me in my little daze smiling slightly at you
The look you gave me
The glitter in you eyes, and the truth in your smile
Made me see that this is all worth it.
My sudden doubt slowly turned to soft content
I give a more reassuring smile to you before I walk my own way again
And I hold that feeling of content like a prized jewel.
Everything was just simply…good enough
…Good enough that you are here…with me