Warnings: RAPE, Yaoi, change in point of views, AU, and others as I go along.

Disclaimer,: I own nothing related to Gundam Wing sadly

I Dream of Death

I a woke screaming from another dream, but find myself strapped down to a bed. My legs and hands are held in place by large leather straps; I know where I am, no reason to panic. I'm in the Saint Gabriel Institution, hospital for the insane and suicidal, and they said I fall into both categories.

All I remember is waking up one morning, and slicing my wrist open again. I cut over and around old scars of my past attempts, but like in the past someone finds me. Random people, seem to appear when ever a drop if my blood hit's the floor; from the milkman to the paramedics themselves saying they received a call.

Though I wasn't strapped to the bed because I tried to kill myself again, but because of my dreams. This is also the reason why they say I'm insane. I never knew I talked or screamed in my dreams, but even while I was unconscious I screamed and pleaded with him to stop. The nurse tired me down, on said it was because I was convulsing and trying to hurt myself even with my eyes closed.

The remorse sound of *DRIP*DRIP* was my only sound in the room, no windows to see outside, only florescent lights above my head illumination the room. A nurse walked in, the soft creak of her shoes made me look away from her. She had come here because she heard me screaming, I really don't feel like dealing with these people again.

"Mr. Yuy," she said in a soft voice. "You have been here for more then six weeks and you still have these dreams. Even after we give you drugs to help you sleep with no dreams, we even sent for a doctor with this expertise, and still no improvement." The nurse said flatly. "Its time you tell someone the truth of you dreams." She finished injecting another shot in my upper arm.

"Hn,"

She seemed to ignore my comment and went on, "The Institution has sent for one of the best doctors in the country, Dr. Torrs. She will be with you shortly, Mr. Yuy."

The nurse walked out and this Dr. Torrs walked in at the same time. She was tall with long golden hair, but her eyes begin to change colors in the light, from soft purples to the darkest of blacks, but its just the drugs and trick of the lights, right? She practically glided to the edge of my bed, I shake my head, trying to get out of my bonds. This Torrs didn't look human, she her eyes were to big, her hair to, sounds kinda nuts but was to perfect and then it was the way she walked.

"Who are you afraid of Heero Yuy?!" She asked pining my to the bed with her long nails, I was in such a shock I answered.

"Milliardo!" I yell in her face.

"Why is that?" She asked calmly, sitting on the bed were she could fit without touching me. I felt drawn to answers her, even with my mind screaming for me not to.

"He wants something from me, but I can't give it to him."

"And what is it he wants?"

"My soul, my body, and my blood," I answer looking away from her.

"Awe," she started, "what if I said I could end these dreams."

I look at her, I was torn from calling her insane and agreeing with her. Can she real rid of these dreams, or is another lie. "How can this be?" I ask before I could stop myself, and when I tried to cover my mouth with my hands, I remembered they were tied down. Torrs's multicolored eyes glittered with a fervor that I could not name, she wanted to tell me something, so what is holding her back.

"Give in, Heero." She said, and as she spoke these words I began screaming and struggling with my bonds.

"YOU'RE GOING TO KILL ME! YOU WANT ME DAY!" I screamed over and over, I could feel my skin break under the stress of the leather bonds. I screamed and screamed, waiting for a nurse to come, one always arrives seconds after I scream. Yet, minutes later no one walks through the door demanding what is going on.

"Calm down, Heero. I don't want to kill you. How can I kill the person who is suppose to save us." She spoke quietly, but I heard every word clearer as if she spoke inside my mind. I stilled and went quiet, not knowing what to say, but she knew.

"Give in to Milliardo, before he kills this world, the magic world, and my world. I deplore you Heero, give in to him."

I turn away from her tears, I couldn't do what she wanted me to do. Its not in me, I don't have the strength, but doesn't that sound hypocritically of me. No strength to give, and yet I fight him every chance I get. Where was I to go, if I give in then my pain and fear will be with me day and night, and yet if I don't I'm still in pain and fear of him at all times.

"By time runs short Heero, I gave you my plea, maybe Elizador will try. Remember my name, but never speak it to him, never speak of our encounter to no one, but my kind. My name is Mildred of Fate, give in to Milliardo, Zechs whatever he calls himself now. My time is gone Elizador could afford no more time."

And with that said she disappeared with a flash of light. I opened my eyes and saw the same nurse that told me Dr. Torrs was coming for me was shaking me.

"Mr. Yuy, wake up." She said. "Mr. Yuy, finial. Oh god, you scared the sh… well I'm on duty. As I was saying before you blacked out was that Dr. Torrs is here to transfer you. " She said smiling, opening the door when there was a knock on the door. A short black women walked in with a grin over her face, yes I'm off to the nut house now. Phase two, they nurse say I'm not as suicidal as they believed, but they said in as nice words as possible that I'm crazy. Now think its true, dreams, dreams and more dreams, and now this Mildred wants me to give in so I can save… save 'this world, the magic world, and my world' What does this all mean?

I thought of this as Dr. Torrs tried to make me talk in the car ride to my new prison.

Tbc

Sorry its so short, but I've been sick for while, so when I'm feeling better I'll get more out….on a happier note, less then two days and the Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets comes out, hahahehe

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