Disclaimers: I own nada of the Gundam boys. Sunshine, Sotsu and others do. Hey! Who wants to go on a killing spree? No-one? Oh. Okay.

Author: Shinigami's Oni

Muses: Fadd, Miggles, Nanashi and Rindy Rudey.

Pairings: 1x2x1, 3x4x3 and 5x13.

Rating: NC-17

Warnings: Lemon, gay sex!

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Angel Selene, Az the crazed vamp, Ludicrous Nutjob, Duo Maxwell, Phoenix Storms, Dark Winged Angel01, Ellie, Duo Maxewell, Sam, Dyna and Hell's Little Angel.

I just have to say that I will not be able to update for awhile because my laptop is down, but I will update as soon as possible, just not as soon as you would all like!

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Fading dusk gave way to impending darkness and in the middle of it all in a house I sat, a lonely boy. Skeletal trees etched the night sky. Wind whistling through their bare boughs. The moon awakened blood red in the blackened sky. A frightening way to end a bloody battle in which no one had survived except that and me was by a fluke. I sat alone; there was no- one left to comfort me. I shiver, not because the incoming night was cold, but for a lost lover. I had watched my best friend and partner die. Death murmured words of warning, but I did not heed them. All I can hear is the pounding of the blood in my ears and the tears welling in my eyes at the remembrance of the boy whom I had loved.

I grimace at the bitter taste of bile in my mouth; I had inhaled smoke that day. I felt that my lungs had become blackened by the evil, choking smog and I coughed. My hacking coughs shattering the silence of the house and I whimper at the echoes rumbling throughout my tomb. I had wanted to die, but my lover had forbidden me to come to the demonstration. "Stay here. Look after yourself and the babe." A tender smile had worked its magic across my lover's face, that and a gentle hand pressed against my stomach. "I will be back." I smirked, 'Yeah! You came back all right; a dead being is all you are now'. A sudden wave of realisation tore through my heart and I choked on a sob. Clutching my head in my hands, a few wisps of hair falling over my eyes, I wept.

Sobs came easily and tears came even easier to me. Chests heaving as I drew in shaky breaths, only to release them in a wavering cry. Crystal tears fell from my closed eyes to the floor, making the black tiled floor shine with crystalline beauty. "Why did you die and leave me all alone? I loved you so much and you left me to look after the baby all by myself." A shocked gasp is emitted from my full lips and my head jerks up. 'The baby!' My hand flies unconsciously to my stomach and rests there, searching for the fluttering movement within. Although deep inside I know that I will not be able to feel this new life embedded within me for another four months. Another sob escapes from my lips. "How do I go on? I can't survive without you."

The sound of the back door opening catches my attention and my head jerks up and I sit perfectly still on the stairs, frozen still like an animal caught in traffic lights. Harsh breathing echoes throughout the house and I close my eyes, nibbling at my lower lip. Footsteps click on the tile floor of the hall. I shrink into a ball, never removing my hands from my stomach. 'I promised him I would look after the baby and that is what I am doing.' The footsteps stopped, the echoes fading until only their breathing could be heard. A slight whimper rolls from my mouth and I open my eyes wide in terror, they would have heard that and it seemed that they had. Breathing turned up a notch, like the lolling panting of a dog and someone sniffing the air as if searching for a scent.

Letting out a shaky sigh I decide to reveal myself to the person spying in my home, well, I say mine for the sheer fact that I am the only one left. Gathering all of my courage I stand up, eyes tightly closed. "I am here." My voice sounds strong for the turmoil of emotions I am was facing in my body. "Come and get me if you want me." The footsteps come closer, the tapping of heels louder on the tiles, then gentle fingertips run across my cheek, as if to make sure that I am real. Opening my eyes I get the biggest shock of my life. "Lady Une!" The high pitched squeal tumbles from my lips before I can help it. I curse myself inwardly as I see the smile upon her face at this show of utter surprise. "I...I thought that you had given up on finding us after the Mariemeia incident?"

"No. We need you to come back down to Earth and stay with Quatre for a while, the Oz organisation is attempting to make a come back." She smiled a terrible smile at her comment and looked distant for a few moments before returning her full attention back to me. "Are you all right?" She asked carefully. She must have noticed my tear stained face.

"Do I look all right to you?" I did not mean to sound so harsh and she actually looked quite hurt, then I gave a sigh. "No. Sorry. It's not your fault, I just..." As I ran my hands through my hair she turned to look back down the hallway.

"We must go," Lady Une said bluntly. To tell you the truth she looked scared, but what in the world could the formidable Miss Une is scared about? Then I understood. The colony that Heero and me had decided to live on had its own difficulties with the Government and we had volunteered to help the citizens. They had excepted our help gladly. "Come! Quickly! Please!" I gaze mistrustfully up at her for a few seconds, then I hear it. The sound of gunfire upon the horizon and drawing closer. "The Government has managed to destroy the opposition, if you do not retreat immediately they will take you as a prisoner and execute you in front of all other rebels. Please, we must leave this place." She looked at me desperately; I nodded and stood my hand still over my abdomen. "Quick! Out of the front door and into the shuttle waiting. If the worst comes to the worst, take off without me. I know you Duo; you won't give up without a fight, but keep you and that goddamn kid you're carrying safe. You hear me?" I nod numbly then run outside, my heart pounding in my ears.

'She knows about the baby. She knows about the baby.' A childish chant echoes in my head and I shake it desperately from side to side to get rid of it. I run up the stairs to the shuttle faster than grease lightning, then, I spy him. Heero lies no more than ten feet away from the shuttle, fuck Une and her 'Keep the kid safe.' I would give that all up just to have him again. I run back down those stairs even faster than before and Une runs out off the house screaming at me to get into the shuttle. I take no notice and continue my sprint over to my fallen Heero; Une follows me, calling me an idiot.

I scream his name as I clamber over bodies, some not completely dead, hands grabbing my ankles telling me to put them out of their misery. I will reach my Heero, I will. I make it, breathing heavily and Une has a hold of my braid, but I made it no less. I scrabble around, tearing my fingernails off in the process, just to get to his body as I fall over, face first in the foul smelling puddles of blood. I scream triumphantly as I grab him around the waist, eager to look upon his face. I look on him all right. Head slouched forward over his chest and arms hanging limply at his side. "Baby?" I whisper. I can feel the tears already welling up in my eyes, I know and also have known that he would be dead if I found him. I let out an anguished howl and stand up among the bodies; the flies already collecting on the corpses take flight as I attempt to pull him up with me. I grunt under the stain, I can feel my muscles being stretched to their full advantage and boy, was I proud of them for holding out this long! I successfully get us to safe land and Lady Une yells at me to run to the shuttle and I do so, whilst slinging you over my shoulder like a sack of cement.

Running up the gangway of the shuttle, I hear the sound of shouts calling after us. Telling us to surrender or be prepared to die. I scream back at them, "Bite me scum!" Then I am on board the shuttle with my baby and Une who was following closely behind. I sink to the floor with you in an exhausted pile while Une staggers to the control panel of the shuttle and puts the contraption on auto pilot and types some co-ordinates in, at the minute I am to tired to care were we are going. I look down on your serene face and smile. You are home where you belong in my arms. Une wanders back over to us, dark shadows under her eyes and I gaze warily up at her. I still do not trust her completely, yet she has saved me and my angel which I suppose makes her okay in my book.

She bends down and attempts to take you away from me. I growl possessively and bring you closer to the warmth of my body; no one will touch you except me. She shrugs her shoulders and stands up fully, motioning for me to follow her with a toss of her head. I do so out of curiosity. She leads me to an examination room where, to my surprise, Sally stands waiting. She smiles when she sees me and then that glorious smile faded as she saw who I had in my arms. "Is he hurt badly?" She asked airily as she watched me place my lover on the table with the utmost care and sincerity. I growled deep in throat. 'That is what you are here for woman!' I think reproachfully to myself, sometimes Sally, although you had to have some decree of intelligence to be a doctor could appear quite dense. 'No wonder Wufei was always bitching about her.' I smirked, if I were in Wufei's shoes, I would most definitely bitch about her.

I watch, eagle eyed, as she carefully strips you of your clothing, leaving you naked for the world to gaze upon. I narrow my eyes and fold my arms across my chest. I would not let Sally keep you for long. Her fingers gently prodding and squeezing whilst watching your face for any signs of pain, you showed none. As I watched, I nervously played with the necklace you had given me as a present. There did not appear to be any wounds on you either except for bruises and cuts and the fact that you had concussion. Sally didn't seem completely satisfied though. She asked whether she would be allowed to x-ray you, I said yes and she smiled and thanked me. Sally tells me that the procedure may take at least forty-five minutes to complete, so she tells me to wait outside. I do so after one last look at my Hee-chan and plonk myself down in the corridor. I remember a night long ago, the night that our unborn child was conceived.

//Heero's beautiful face hovered above mine as he pressed lingering sweet kisses to my lips. I was never afraid when he was around, at that precise moment I had my arms laced around his neck and my head thrown back so that he could kiss my throat, an act that I was once terrified off. I remember Heero's low moan of pleasure cut off, as he bit his lower lip to stop it, when I touched his erection and ran my fingers along the velvety underside. My fingers, lips and mouth were assaulting him everywhere. I don't think Heero knew just how sensitive he was until that night.

Me assaulting Heero's neck. I didn't realise just how proud that I would feel upon seeing my marks upon his untainted body. The way he let my tongue run from the base of his ear to the juncture between neck and shoulder. Moaning at me to fuck him, but that wasn't the case. It was I who wanted him to fuck me. My teeth gently grating over the pale skin of Heero's neck, feeling his pulse as his heartbeat quickened under my caress. I then bolded my actions, nipping at his neck, feeling him quiver under the sheer intensity. Hearing Heero's whimpers of pain as sometimes in sheer carelessness, I broke the skin of his neck and tasted blood on my tongue. I kissed the bites better; I didn't want him to be in pain, I wanted him to enjoy himself.

I had kissed my way down to Heero's chest. The tanned skin of his heritage tasted salty as a faint sheen of sweat already coated his body. I rubbed my cheek on the firm expanse of his chest, giving a contented sigh as I did so. Then I spied one of his bronze nipples; I smirked and rose from his chest. Looming over Heero's body I watched his face as I ducked my head and blew a warm blast of air across Heero's right nipple, he had gasped and his hand reached up to grab my shoulder. I had stared gleefully at the look on his face, from this minor caress. What would Heero be like when I tried something a bit more energetic? Ducking my head I had swirled the tip of my tongue around Heero's nipple, feeling it harden under the heat. Heero had gasped and his fingernails cut into the skin of my shoulder, I had grunted in discomfort and Heero had released his grip on me, I had smiled softly, he obviously had not want to hurt me.

Flicking my tongue across Heero's nipple, his body had jerked and I had stared, satisfied at the pert nipple before me, but yet, it was not enough. Bowing my head over Heero's chest again, I had drawn the said nipple into my mouth, gently suckling at the nub. Heero had panted out my name and tangled his fingers in my hair, pulling me closer to his body in his desperation for pleasure. Swirling my tongue around the nipple Heero had groaned appreciatively, his fingers gently pulling on my hair. Detaching myself from Heero's chest I had kissed a path down to his stomach and then past his erection to his thighs.

Thighs that had quivered under my lips caress and Heero's incoherent noises of pleasure drove me on to progress to the next stage. I had stared longingly at his erection, the pre-come fluid weeping from the tip that begged to be tasted. Submitting to my urges I had ducked my head and lapped up the bead of clear liquid that stood out prominently, Heero had gasped and had tried to thrust up into my mouth, but I had placed my hands on his hips and held him still. The taste was bitter, but also somehow sweet at the same time. I didn't quite know how to explain its flavour. I examined Heero's face. The tightly shuteyes and flush to his face, it made me wonder what I had been missing for all this time. Deliberately taking things slowly, I had taken merely the head of Heero's cock into my mouth and gently sucked upon it. Rolling my tongue around the tip, I had relished in his whimpers and his never dying attempt to thrust up into my mouth. I had inserted the tip of my tongue into the slit and eagerly awaited the arrival of more pre-come fluid in reward for my ministrations. Heero had whimpered at my teasing and I pitied him, well, almost.

"Du...Duo, please." Heero had whimpered and I had smiled around his erection, giving a shrug of my shoulders, I had begun to draw in the long length of his cock into my mouth and Heero had let loose a wild cry. When I had taken as much of him as I could, I had then ran my tongue along the velvet underside and I had listened to the pants and whimpers of pleasure. I had smiled. It was so good to be in control. Drawing my head back until only the head of Heero's cock remained in my warm cavern, I had swirled my tongue around the end then swallowed him up again. I had worked this up into a rhythm and he had just lain there and whimpered, biting at his lower lip. I had felt his thighs trembling on either side of my head and had released Heero's cock; I hadn't wanted him to come just yet. Heero had whimpered in protest and opened his eyes dazedly. I had smiled, he had never been taken, I had been able to tell that much.

"Duo?" Heero watched my back as I had clambered off the bed and walked to the chest of drawers on the other side of the room. I didn't reply there was no point. Opening the second drawer I had rummaged through it, searching for the lube. I had grinned maniacally when I find it. Turning around I had used my butt to push the drawer shut then I had walked steadily back over to the bed, although the erotic sight of a naked Heero lying on sheets with his legs spread wide had nearly made me come, I resisted the urge.

I had climbed back onto the bed, the mattress sagging beneath our joint weight. I had sat back on my haunches and Heero had watched as I undid the lid to the tube. Heero had licked his lips nervously and I had given him a reassuring smile. I had used a lot of lubrication, more out of my paranoia more than anything, the fear of being hurt again. Heero hadn't known what to do so he just watched while I generously coated my hand in the substance then groaned as I ran my fingers up the cleft of my ass and had moaned as I penetrated myself with one finger. I grimaced I was incredibly tight. I could feel the walls of my passage pulsing around my finger and it felt incredibly hot. I had started to withdraw the finger from my passage, then rammed it back in. After a few minutes I added another and started to fuck my fingers as I grew used to the sensation of being filled once again. I had stretched myself further by making scissors movements with my fingers then I withdrew them fully from my passage.

Coating my hand again with the chill lube that warmed up quickly in my hand I grasped his cock unexpectedly and Heero had yelped as I squeezed it purposefully. Rubbing my hand up and down slowly Heero sighed and allowed me to continue. When I felt that he was prepared enough, I gently crawled over his body, my shadow casting darkness over Heero's passion fogged eyes and I kissed him slowly. Heero sensed my desperation and also my fear and caressed my cheek, telling me that everything that would be all right. I smiled, here Heero was telling me that it would be all right and he didn't know the first thing about sex. I almost laughed, but I didn't want to hurt his feelings.

Sitting back slowly on my haunches, I closed my eyes and grasped Heero's cock in my right hand. I heard him gasp and I could feel his stomach muscles quivering beneath me. I positioned myself; licking dry lips then gently lowered myself down. The head of Heero's cock had felt obtrusive, but I willed myself to relax. The head of it penetrated my body and I bit back a cry of pain as I took him in deeper. I felt my body relaxing slightly and the rest of Heero's length passed into me with ease. I felt hot tears roll down my face as I nibbled my lower lip. I realised that it didn't matter how old I would get, I would never be able to take a cock without pain.

I stayed still to avoid pain from the intrusion and he had seemed to respect that as I placed my hands on his taunt stomach and panted heavily. I could hear Heero's harsh breathing in my ears and it sounded so lust filled that I chanced a look up into his eyes. They shone with undisguised love and passion for me, the lowly street whore. I had nearly burst into tears then, to my surprise Heero had rolled us over. I now lay breathless beneath him. Heero had pinned my wrists above my head and I had my legs wrapped around his waist. "Move." I had whispered hoarsely to him and he had done as I bade, drawing back slowly from the heat of my body until only the head of his cock remained in my body.

"Do you want this?" Heero had murmured thickly, as he stared down into my face.

"Yes! Now!" I had shouted impatiently and Heero had thrusted back in, moaning momentarily at the heat and tightness that had enveloped his cock. I had closed my eyes and waited, the pain would come, and it always did. I had draped my arms around the back of his neck as he had thrusted in and out of the warm sanctuary of my body. Moaning out my name as he surrendered to the pleasure that overrides his body as, in the end, do I. I had bought up my head gently nipping at the side of Heero's neck, licking at the salty sweat on his skin, he had groaned appreciatively and in return changed his angle slightly to aim for my prostate. I had bitten down hard on the juncture between his neck and shoulder as he jabbed the place, making lightning bolts of pleasure snap through my spine. I heard a grunt at the pain of my bite and I can taste blood in my mouth, not that I really care of course.

I gasp and pant as I have the best sex that I have ever had in my life. Heero was so gentle as he thrusted in and out of my body, moaning and telling me how tight I am. "You...Are...So...Tight." Heero had panted as you moved in and out of me; each word punctuated with a thrust that caused the small of my back to rise off the bed. "I...I can't...Hold on much longer." I could tell by his quivering muscles that he wouldn't, so I had grasped his hand and bought it to my own erection.

"Please." Was all I needed to whisper before he began to firmly pump my straining erection in his fist? I moaned lowly as I tossed my head from side to side as I felt my own body become a cavern of pleasure. I was feeling the pleasure of being taken up the ass and then the pleasure of the man I loved firmly manipulating my cock. I could feel cold sweat on my brow as he used his thumb to gently roll around my cock head, bringing forth more pre-come fluid from my already weeping cock. I had sobbed as Heero slowed his pace, then cried out in ecstasy as he quickened it. "Oh God...I...I'm going to...Heero!" I cried out his name long and clear as the ultimate shock wave of pleasure surged through my body. I came all over his stomach and hand. My eyes rolled back in my head as I rode shock wave after shock wave of intense pleasure.

My muscles clamped down on him and he came a few minutes after me of more exquisite squeezing from my rectum. He called out my name hoarsely as I felt his seed coating my inner passage and then I realised what we had done. No, more to the fact what I had done. //

Fifty-five minutes later you are bound to wake up sometime soon but my brain is numb with knowledge. Sally x-rayed you and did some other stuff too, I don't know what, she wouldn't tell me. All I know is that when you wake up you won't remember me anymore, you will have lost any existing memory of everything, including me and that saddens me deeply. Hot tears roll down my cheeks and I press a hand to my stomach. I want to wrench out the babe growing inside me; this is the old you, not the new and I will be damned if I can wait two years for you to fall in love with me like the first time.

I knew that once my angel was told what I was, he would reject me. Perhaps even tell me to be sent away as an exile, but no. I told him one night in bed after we had just had sex that I was pregnant and he had seemed surprised at first but then he had smiled for the first time. I had commented on it, astounded by the way it lit up his face and then he had laughed. A full, rich laughter that was music to my ears, then he had kissed me, long and deep. He had then made love to me again and after that we held each other and he told me he would never let me go. I laughed bitterly at this last memory by my part. He wouldn't remember the baby or me, he would probably be frightened or confused and what about the others? Trowa, Quatre and Wufei would have to be told.

The sound of a voice interrupted my thoughts and I scowled. Looking up, I saw that it was Sally. She gave me a nervous smile before speaking. "He is awake." My heart froze and then it bled. I broke down into tears and managed to choke out.

"He doesn't remember me or the baby does he? DOES HE?" I screamed the last bit at her and she winced, then gave me a mournful smile.

"I am so sorry." I cried harder and she held me. I clung to her like a baby does to his mother.

"I want it out Sally. I can't live with it. I want the baby out!" I sobbed; I didn't want the baby anymore. I wanted it terminated.

"No!" Sally sounded shocked with me. "You keep this child and I will make sure you do. Now, I am taking you to see him. You must still love him, don't you?" Sally looked down worriedly at me.

I take back what I said about Sally earlier on she is brilliant. "I'll never stop Sally. I'll never stop." Those were the lost words I murmured before I blacked out. Outside the confines of the shuttle, a new day was beginning.

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Author's Notes: This came out last night and I am scared! I don't know whether to continue or stop or what. Only you can help me. Should I continue this crap or give it up?

TBC...?