Chapter: This time
A/N: I found this on my computer tonight. Reviews are nice, but if you're going to tell me this isn't how Jess is, take a moment and think about it and maybe you'll realize that it's exactly how he could act.
I watch her as she walks over to me, so happy, so content. I smirk, she thinks I care. She's babbling on about something, but I don't listen. Not anymore, not since I've won. I think I really thought this would be different. That some how I would be satisfied with her. I should be satisfied with her, we like the same things, we have the same interests and best of all, she's not like anyone I've ever known.
I feel the pit in my stomach grow, I fell guilty about leading her on. She's so innocent and sweet, but I've changed her and now I regret that. Why couldn't I leave her alone with her perfect existence? Why did I always have to be the jerk. I sigh, because this time I thought it would be different.
I lean forward and kiss her hard on the lips. When I pull back she seems surprised. Gently I brush her hair behind her ears. Staring into her eyes I wonder if it'll ever be different. I like the chase, but chasing can only last so long and I always get what I want. Should I lead her on some more or end this now? I'm sure Dean would still take her back, hell, he'd be a fool not to. I'm a fool for not wanting her.
I leave her crying, fuck'em and leave'em. It's like a mantra, always repeating.
A/N: I found this on my computer tonight. Reviews are nice, but if you're going to tell me this isn't how Jess is, take a moment and think about it and maybe you'll realize that it's exactly how he could act.
I watch her as she walks over to me, so happy, so content. I smirk, she thinks I care. She's babbling on about something, but I don't listen. Not anymore, not since I've won. I think I really thought this would be different. That some how I would be satisfied with her. I should be satisfied with her, we like the same things, we have the same interests and best of all, she's not like anyone I've ever known.
I feel the pit in my stomach grow, I fell guilty about leading her on. She's so innocent and sweet, but I've changed her and now I regret that. Why couldn't I leave her alone with her perfect existence? Why did I always have to be the jerk. I sigh, because this time I thought it would be different.
I lean forward and kiss her hard on the lips. When I pull back she seems surprised. Gently I brush her hair behind her ears. Staring into her eyes I wonder if it'll ever be different. I like the chase, but chasing can only last so long and I always get what I want. Should I lead her on some more or end this now? I'm sure Dean would still take her back, hell, he'd be a fool not to. I'm a fool for not wanting her.
I leave her crying, fuck'em and leave'em. It's like a mantra, always repeating.