STANDARD DISCLAIMERS APPLY:
Rurouni Kenshin does not belong to me, I just borrow them. But I Love them a lot.
So PLS dun sue me… I am just a poor 16 yrs old student.. Thanx
AUTHORS NOTES: if I have made some of the Rurouni Kenshin's character to out of character, I would just like to warn you that. So pls try and read but you have been warned there are spoilers. This is just a fanfic anyway
Warning: I don't really have a good command of English… So forgive me for my grammatical mistakes.
Assassin's of Love
Chapter 11: Mind Turmoil
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Previous: --
'I wonder what happen at the mall.' Megumi thought.
"Anyway let's go to their room first and ask them to come along to the park." Megumi told Misao as she beckoned Misao to the door. When they open the door they found Kaoru soaking wet at the door. Her baby blue dress now had blood stains all over it. Her high heels were no where in sight. Her raven black hair looked dull so as her face expression.
"Kaoru! What happened? We were about to look for you… are you alright?" Megumi asked.
"I need to change. I hate the smell." Kaoru said. The smell they all knew best was Blood. And the three of them hated the smell of it. Misao and Megumi made way for Kaoru, as she went in straight to the bathroom.
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Kenshin hid in a corner, after knowing that Kaoru was back in her room with all the others. He went back to his own respective room.
While he was walking, he frown as he remembered what happen at the park.
*****Flashback*****
Kaoru was running into the park. Kenshin was right behind her heels. Soon Kenshin caught hold of Kaoru's wrist. She was being pulled back to Kenshin. Kenshin was shocked to see Kaoru in the state she was in. Her eyes they were still black in the darkness but it shone out brightly due to the tears that had been collected there. She looked away. She refused to meet his gaze.
"Why did you follow me? Didn't I tell all of you there that I wanted to be alone…? Just leave me alone will you…" Kaoru said in between her sobs.
"Kaoru… please look at me…" Kaoru shook her head. He then cupped her chin and tilted it up till their eyes met. He saw the tears that had dropped out involuntarily. He raised his fingers to her eyes and wiped it all away.
"Hey… stop crying already." Kenshin persuaded again. This time it kinda worked as Kaoru's black eyes were slowly changing back into their normal colours.
Kenshin gave her a warm embrace. When he was about to pull back, Kaoru suddenly started to pour out her sorrow to Kenshin.
"It's all my fault that Tetsuya had to die… He was still so young… He was sure to have a bright future… and I… and… I… I… destroyed it." Kaoru started to sobbed harder as she held on to Kenshin tighter. Kenshin knew little of what to do as, he had never ever seen any girls cry in his whole life except for his mother.
He turned his head left to right in search of a bench so that they can sit down and talk. He found one that was not far from them. Kenshin knew that Kaoru would refuse to walk since she was crying so bitterly. Kenshin decided to carry her.
Kaoru let out a sharp gasp when Kenshin did so. But she kept still. She liked the feeling when Kenshin carried her. She suddenly felt warm. She loved that feeling. She felt safe. Her sobs subsided. She wanted the time to stop there forever. But every nice thing has to have an end. She felt Kenshin pulling away, she refused to pull away.
Kenshin could only smile at the sight. He then had no choice. He allowed her to sit on his lap, while he sits on the bench. He continued to stroke her back.
"Its not you fault that Tetsuya died. You really shouldn't blame yourself for it." Kenshin said while he continued to stroke. Kaoru upon hearing Tetsuya' name again, her eyes could only collect more water that blurred her vision.
"But… Kojirou killed him only because he knew that I hated people who shed children's blood. He didn't care who and what he is… Tetsuya died because of me… don't you get it?" Kaoru asked Kenshin as she buried her head deeper into his suit.
"Did Tetsuya shed a tear when he was dieing?" Kenshin asked Kaoru while he looked up into the starry sky. Kaoru was shocked of the question Kenshin asked her. She looked up to him. She smiled and shook her head.
"What did he told you when he was dieing?" Kenshin asked again without looking at her. Kaoru kept quiet for a moment and replied.
"He told me not to cry, he told me that a Hitokiri shouldn't cry. He said that he admires my skills and he wanted me to be as cool as what other people had said about me. He… he… wanted me to smile and not cry." Kaoru said while she rested her head on his shoulders.
"Yup… we all heard the same thing. So are you going to let him turn in his grave that you broke your promise with him? Or are you going to be stronger just like what Tetsuya had said?" Kenshin said while looking down at her now sparkling blue eyes. Kaoru looked back at his. She straighten her back. She stroke Kenshin's cheek as she smiled.
"I… I would grow stronger and never cry again." Kaoru said in a confident voice. Kenshin took her hand from his cheek. And slowly pulled her closer to him. Kaoru closed her eyes as sensation went through her spine when both of their lips met.
"Ken… shin… thank you…" Kaoru said when she pulled back.
"Can you tell me who exactly is Kojirou? Kaoru… what has he done in the past to you?" Kenshin asked in a hoarse voice. Kaoru stiffen from the question. Kenshin felt it. Kaoru looked away.
"Kojirou… he is a god damn bastard… he… rap…" Kaoru smacked her mouth as she said something she shouldn't. She said something that she had hidden deep inside her heart. She held her breath hoping that Kenshin would not know what happen or what she said. But Kenshin was no fool… he knew what she was talking about. He insisted for Kaoru to finish what she started.
"Kojirou… rap…" Kenshin was cut off by Kaoru. Kaoru jumped out of her place and placed her hands on her ears.
"Please stop… please… you are not suppose to know about this… I… I… shouldn't have told you…" Kaoru then took off again… this time back to the apartment. Kenshin knew little of what to do. Even now the rain began… the sorrowful rain has started.
*****End of flashback*****
Kenshin has also finally reached his room. He himself soaking wet due to the rain. All his mind could think of was Kaoru and Kojirou.
'Did Kojirou really raped her?' Kenshin's mind was in turmoil of all the questions. He needed to clear his mind off or else it was his turn to be berserk.
His hand reached out for the door knob. But before he could even touch the metal surface, he heard shouting and the next thing he knew was an angry Sanosuke standing in front of him. Kenshin looked up at him. Sanosuke at first wanted to shout at him for being late and being in the way. But then when Kenshin looked up at him. Sanosuke's gaze met amber ones. He quickly moved out of the sight.
Kenshin wasted no time. He went straight to the bathroom.
"Himura… are you okay?" Aoshi asked out of concern.
His answers were answered by the slam of the door.
****Girl's room****
'I shouldn't have told him those things… I shouldn't have.' Kaoru was in the shower for already an hour. She had allowed the water to run through her. She rubbed her body so hard like she was getting some stains of her body that was irremovable.
'I shouldn't have.' That was all she could think of now.
"Kaoru!! Are you feeling alright? You better come out now… you have been in there for an hour. Kaoru!" Misao shouted along with Megumi. They needed her to be out there, their heart aches for her.
Kaoru turned of the tab. Got herself dry. She got dressed into her yukata. And opened the door.
"I'm fine… don't worry… I have live with it for so many years… I don't see any reason that I can't now…" Kaoru said in a cold and distant voice.
"… Don't worry… I'll be fine by tomorrow I promise." Kaoru looked up at them with a weak smile reassuring them.
"Just let me know… when you need us okay?" Megumi placed her left hand on her right shoulder.
"Yeah… I'll do that… I want to rest now…" With that she moved to the bed and under the covers.
This was going to be a rough night for Kaoru. Megumi and Misao knew it.
Kaoru slowly dosed off to sleep. Just as the door of dreamland opened. She winched atr what she saw. Her eyelids press together tightly. The starting of her nightmare has come.
An unwelcome dream invited itself to her dreamland. Her past.
TBC….
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Author's Notes:
Hiz…. How is this chappie?? Well… pls R&R and keep me inspired. Thank you.
Suggestions are also welcomed.
Hiz minna san, well most of you wanted to know who Kojirou is… so this is a short fic in introducing Kojirou and what he did to Kaoru. This is only part of what he did. Well, this chappie is more on Kaoru and Kenshin. OH YEAH!!! On the previous chapter… PLS TAKE NOTE!!! The blood that was on Kaoru's dress. Belongs to Tetsuya not anybody else… Remember: Why Tetsuya was dying, Kaoru hugged him… that's where the blood came from. Sorry for the misinterpretation. Thank you very much.
I would like to thank all readers and reviewers… Especially these people::
chibi-angel = Oh… I get what you mean…thanks for the review ne… Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
omochi = Thanks a lot, well who told the guys o admit to the salesman that they are their 'girl' Hahaha… that's their consequences… quite a small one though. Anyway thanks for the review… Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
Shin-chan = Thanks for the correction… I would definitely change my use of words… thanks for the review… Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
clo = Thanks for the encouragement ne… and the reviews too Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
Gypsy-chan = Thanks… well… Kenshin's in there already and he knew a little on what Kojirou did… and he is going to be Battousai sooner or later… hahaha… *sweatdrop* nevermind me… anyway thanks for the review… Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
SakuraCherryBlossom = Thanks a lot… and also on the new ficcy… you were a great help… thanks for the review… Arigatou Gozaimasu ne… =)
Tan Kimiko = Nope… Kojirou IS not Kaoru's o-tou-san… Her so call 'ex'. Really… I thought most of them named Kaoru's father… Koshijirou?? Right? I not sure… hee~ sorry for the misinterpretation…. Too… anyway thanks for the reviews ne… Arigatou Gozaimasu… ^_^
Rurouni Kenshin does not belong to me, I just borrow them. But I Love them a lot.
So PLS dun sue me… I am just a poor 16 yrs old student.. Thanx
AUTHORS NOTES: if I have made some of the Rurouni Kenshin's character to out of character, I would just like to warn you that. So pls try and read but you have been warned there are spoilers. This is just a fanfic anyway
Warning: I don't really have a good command of English… So forgive me for my grammatical mistakes.
Assassin's of Love
Chapter 11: Mind Turmoil
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Previous: --
'I wonder what happen at the mall.' Megumi thought.
"Anyway let's go to their room first and ask them to come along to the park." Megumi told Misao as she beckoned Misao to the door. When they open the door they found Kaoru soaking wet at the door. Her baby blue dress now had blood stains all over it. Her high heels were no where in sight. Her raven black hair looked dull so as her face expression.
"Kaoru! What happened? We were about to look for you… are you alright?" Megumi asked.
"I need to change. I hate the smell." Kaoru said. The smell they all knew best was Blood. And the three of them hated the smell of it. Misao and Megumi made way for Kaoru, as she went in straight to the bathroom.
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Kenshin hid in a corner, after knowing that Kaoru was back in her room with all the others. He went back to his own respective room.
While he was walking, he frown as he remembered what happen at the park.
*****Flashback*****
Kaoru was running into the park. Kenshin was right behind her heels. Soon Kenshin caught hold of Kaoru's wrist. She was being pulled back to Kenshin. Kenshin was shocked to see Kaoru in the state she was in. Her eyes they were still black in the darkness but it shone out brightly due to the tears that had been collected there. She looked away. She refused to meet his gaze.
"Why did you follow me? Didn't I tell all of you there that I wanted to be alone…? Just leave me alone will you…" Kaoru said in between her sobs.
"Kaoru… please look at me…" Kaoru shook her head. He then cupped her chin and tilted it up till their eyes met. He saw the tears that had dropped out involuntarily. He raised his fingers to her eyes and wiped it all away.
"Hey… stop crying already." Kenshin persuaded again. This time it kinda worked as Kaoru's black eyes were slowly changing back into their normal colours.
Kenshin gave her a warm embrace. When he was about to pull back, Kaoru suddenly started to pour out her sorrow to Kenshin.
"It's all my fault that Tetsuya had to die… He was still so young… He was sure to have a bright future… and I… and… I… I… destroyed it." Kaoru started to sobbed harder as she held on to Kenshin tighter. Kenshin knew little of what to do as, he had never ever seen any girls cry in his whole life except for his mother.
He turned his head left to right in search of a bench so that they can sit down and talk. He found one that was not far from them. Kenshin knew that Kaoru would refuse to walk since she was crying so bitterly. Kenshin decided to carry her.
Kaoru let out a sharp gasp when Kenshin did so. But she kept still. She liked the feeling when Kenshin carried her. She suddenly felt warm. She loved that feeling. She felt safe. Her sobs subsided. She wanted the time to stop there forever. But every nice thing has to have an end. She felt Kenshin pulling away, she refused to pull away.
Kenshin could only smile at the sight. He then had no choice. He allowed her to sit on his lap, while he sits on the bench. He continued to stroke her back.
"Its not you fault that Tetsuya died. You really shouldn't blame yourself for it." Kenshin said while he continued to stroke. Kaoru upon hearing Tetsuya' name again, her eyes could only collect more water that blurred her vision.
"But… Kojirou killed him only because he knew that I hated people who shed children's blood. He didn't care who and what he is… Tetsuya died because of me… don't you get it?" Kaoru asked Kenshin as she buried her head deeper into his suit.
"Did Tetsuya shed a tear when he was dieing?" Kenshin asked Kaoru while he looked up into the starry sky. Kaoru was shocked of the question Kenshin asked her. She looked up to him. She smiled and shook her head.
"What did he told you when he was dieing?" Kenshin asked again without looking at her. Kaoru kept quiet for a moment and replied.
"He told me not to cry, he told me that a Hitokiri shouldn't cry. He said that he admires my skills and he wanted me to be as cool as what other people had said about me. He… he… wanted me to smile and not cry." Kaoru said while she rested her head on his shoulders.
"Yup… we all heard the same thing. So are you going to let him turn in his grave that you broke your promise with him? Or are you going to be stronger just like what Tetsuya had said?" Kenshin said while looking down at her now sparkling blue eyes. Kaoru looked back at his. She straighten her back. She stroke Kenshin's cheek as she smiled.
"I… I would grow stronger and never cry again." Kaoru said in a confident voice. Kenshin took her hand from his cheek. And slowly pulled her closer to him. Kaoru closed her eyes as sensation went through her spine when both of their lips met.
"Ken… shin… thank you…" Kaoru said when she pulled back.
"Can you tell me who exactly is Kojirou? Kaoru… what has he done in the past to you?" Kenshin asked in a hoarse voice. Kaoru stiffen from the question. Kenshin felt it. Kaoru looked away.
"Kojirou… he is a god damn bastard… he… rap…" Kaoru smacked her mouth as she said something she shouldn't. She said something that she had hidden deep inside her heart. She held her breath hoping that Kenshin would not know what happen or what she said. But Kenshin was no fool… he knew what she was talking about. He insisted for Kaoru to finish what she started.
"Kojirou… rap…" Kenshin was cut off by Kaoru. Kaoru jumped out of her place and placed her hands on her ears.
"Please stop… please… you are not suppose to know about this… I… I… shouldn't have told you…" Kaoru then took off again… this time back to the apartment. Kenshin knew little of what to do. Even now the rain began… the sorrowful rain has started.
*****End of flashback*****
Kenshin has also finally reached his room. He himself soaking wet due to the rain. All his mind could think of was Kaoru and Kojirou.
'Did Kojirou really raped her?' Kenshin's mind was in turmoil of all the questions. He needed to clear his mind off or else it was his turn to be berserk.
His hand reached out for the door knob. But before he could even touch the metal surface, he heard shouting and the next thing he knew was an angry Sanosuke standing in front of him. Kenshin looked up at him. Sanosuke at first wanted to shout at him for being late and being in the way. But then when Kenshin looked up at him. Sanosuke's gaze met amber ones. He quickly moved out of the sight.
Kenshin wasted no time. He went straight to the bathroom.
"Himura… are you okay?" Aoshi asked out of concern.
His answers were answered by the slam of the door.
****Girl's room****
'I shouldn't have told him those things… I shouldn't have.' Kaoru was in the shower for already an hour. She had allowed the water to run through her. She rubbed her body so hard like she was getting some stains of her body that was irremovable.
'I shouldn't have.' That was all she could think of now.
"Kaoru!! Are you feeling alright? You better come out now… you have been in there for an hour. Kaoru!" Misao shouted along with Megumi. They needed her to be out there, their heart aches for her.
Kaoru turned of the tab. Got herself dry. She got dressed into her yukata. And opened the door.
"I'm fine… don't worry… I have live with it for so many years… I don't see any reason that I can't now…" Kaoru said in a cold and distant voice.
"… Don't worry… I'll be fine by tomorrow I promise." Kaoru looked up at them with a weak smile reassuring them.
"Just let me know… when you need us okay?" Megumi placed her left hand on her right shoulder.
"Yeah… I'll do that… I want to rest now…" With that she moved to the bed and under the covers.
This was going to be a rough night for Kaoru. Megumi and Misao knew it.
Kaoru slowly dosed off to sleep. Just as the door of dreamland opened. She winched atr what she saw. Her eyelids press together tightly. The starting of her nightmare has come.
An unwelcome dream invited itself to her dreamland. Her past.
TBC….
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Author's Notes:
Hiz…. How is this chappie?? Well… pls R&R and keep me inspired. Thank you.
Suggestions are also welcomed.
Hiz minna san, well most of you wanted to know who Kojirou is… so this is a short fic in introducing Kojirou and what he did to Kaoru. This is only part of what he did. Well, this chappie is more on Kaoru and Kenshin. OH YEAH!!! On the previous chapter… PLS TAKE NOTE!!! The blood that was on Kaoru's dress. Belongs to Tetsuya not anybody else… Remember: Why Tetsuya was dying, Kaoru hugged him… that's where the blood came from. Sorry for the misinterpretation. Thank you very much.
I would like to thank all readers and reviewers… Especially these people::
chibi-angel = Oh… I get what you mean…thanks for the review ne… Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
omochi = Thanks a lot, well who told the guys o admit to the salesman that they are their 'girl' Hahaha… that's their consequences… quite a small one though. Anyway thanks for the review… Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
Shin-chan = Thanks for the correction… I would definitely change my use of words… thanks for the review… Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
clo = Thanks for the encouragement ne… and the reviews too Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
Gypsy-chan = Thanks… well… Kenshin's in there already and he knew a little on what Kojirou did… and he is going to be Battousai sooner or later… hahaha… *sweatdrop* nevermind me… anyway thanks for the review… Arigatou Gozaimasu… =)
SakuraCherryBlossom = Thanks a lot… and also on the new ficcy… you were a great help… thanks for the review… Arigatou Gozaimasu ne… =)
Tan Kimiko = Nope… Kojirou IS not Kaoru's o-tou-san… Her so call 'ex'. Really… I thought most of them named Kaoru's father… Koshijirou?? Right? I not sure… hee~ sorry for the misinterpretation…. Too… anyway thanks for the reviews ne… Arigatou Gozaimasu… ^_^