Banana Pancakes or Coffee Ice Cream Chapter 3.
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The problem in engineering while irritating in its complexity hadn't been major. Wearily B'Elanna returned to the mess hall with the hope of possibly finishing a meal. Finding a table unoccupied she sat.
"May I" The Captain with dinner tray in hand, smiled down at her Chief Engineer and waited for an answer. The last time they'd spoken had been in uncomfortable circumstances in sick bay and Kathryn felt unsure whether or not her company would be appreciated. "Captain, of course please" B'Elanna partly rose indicating to the vacant chair, then stared back down at her food as she recalled their last meeting. Her mind started to drift;
*It was true her relationship with the older woman had grown over the years. B'Elanna hoped the Captain had not been annoyed by her refusal to talk in the sickbay. She hadn't even felt able to explain her behaviour to Tom, so bearing her soul to the Captain was not really an option. Although possibly she might have been the only person on the ship who could have understood what she was feeling. The Captain had isolated herself from the crew in the Void. The memory only served to remind her she was alone in deciding her own penance. Janeway would have risked her own sanity to get them home. During that time the only person Janeway would see was Chakotay. Strange maybe he had been right earlier when he'd said they were alike. He was the only person she'd been able to explain it to as well, seeking her out, and forcing her into facing her fear. He'd always known when she needed him. Unperturbed as always, by her temper.
She'd tried this time to sort her own problems even coming to the mess hall talking to Neelix. A safe port in the storm, he asked nothing of her just her company. Tom's feeling were intense, in his need to help she'd found herself trying to ease his hurt. His concern left her feeling so raw and exposed he was just to close. Maybe now she could talk to letting him understand how she'd felt then. She hadn't thought how much he must of felt left out; until Chakotay had mentioned it earlier it just hadn't registered. Maybe asking about Tom was Chakotay's way of making her think.
Yes she started to smile, she'd talk to Tom.*
Cradling her coffee, Janeway watched B'Elanna's face as the memories flashed across it. She wished she been able to help but the younger woman's refusal to talk in sickbay had rekindled memories she'd rather forget. Shivering she recalled her depression in the void.
B'Elanna saw the shiver, watching her Captain's face as memories strayed across it.
*Kathryn's need to escape sickbay that day was overwhelming, as the realisation of how close to home her situation was. She felt helpless faced with B'Elanna's depression, unable to make her understand she wanted to help. The feeling she'd left sickbay a failure haunted her even now.
How could she have done that to him Chakotay, she recalled his face when she'd turned away refusing his help. She knew B'Elanna didn't consider her anything other than her Captain. But even so her refusal had hurt, so how had Chakotay felt when she Kathryn had turned away from him. She was aware his feelings for her were more than just those of a friend. But she remembered the warmth he'd shown her never had she felt as cared for as when he'd visited during that time. But she'd been unable to reciprocate, hoping he'd understood and would wait until she could.
Alone in her quarters she'd realised that he would have moved Heaven and she smiled at the thought even Earth to help her. But her depression demanded she isolate herself from those she believed blamed her for their situation. Admitting her fears only to Chakotay. If circumstances hadn't altered so dramatically might he of taken the same course of action with her as he had with B'Elanna. A sudden vision of Chakotay carrying her on his shoulder to the holodeck to play velocity came to mind making her smile.
Realising they'd been staring at each other the women smiled as their eyes locked. Realising how much at peace each felt in the others presence. Similar to the link they'd felt years before after persistence of vision, understanding that some things were better left unsaid.
"Captain, B'Elanna" the reason for their connection spoke, they looked up a familiar face looked back at them. B'Elanna moved slightly accommodating the speaker. As she moved the Captain's hand reached out and touched hers the look they exchanged needed no words.
He looked at them something had obviously happened, but what? He'd been watching they'd hardly exchanged a word. He sat back in the chair looking first to his friend then across the table into familiar blue eyes. He smiled and started to eat Banana Pancakes and Coffee Ice Cream.
Thanks for reading.
Again if you feel you have the time I would LOVE to have reviews. What did you think????
Thanks
Thanks to Rat for her help and hope the headaches better soon.
The problem in engineering while irritating in its complexity hadn't been major. Wearily B'Elanna returned to the mess hall with the hope of possibly finishing a meal. Finding a table unoccupied she sat.
"May I" The Captain with dinner tray in hand, smiled down at her Chief Engineer and waited for an answer. The last time they'd spoken had been in uncomfortable circumstances in sick bay and Kathryn felt unsure whether or not her company would be appreciated. "Captain, of course please" B'Elanna partly rose indicating to the vacant chair, then stared back down at her food as she recalled their last meeting. Her mind started to drift;
*It was true her relationship with the older woman had grown over the years. B'Elanna hoped the Captain had not been annoyed by her refusal to talk in the sickbay. She hadn't even felt able to explain her behaviour to Tom, so bearing her soul to the Captain was not really an option. Although possibly she might have been the only person on the ship who could have understood what she was feeling. The Captain had isolated herself from the crew in the Void. The memory only served to remind her she was alone in deciding her own penance. Janeway would have risked her own sanity to get them home. During that time the only person Janeway would see was Chakotay. Strange maybe he had been right earlier when he'd said they were alike. He was the only person she'd been able to explain it to as well, seeking her out, and forcing her into facing her fear. He'd always known when she needed him. Unperturbed as always, by her temper.
She'd tried this time to sort her own problems even coming to the mess hall talking to Neelix. A safe port in the storm, he asked nothing of her just her company. Tom's feeling were intense, in his need to help she'd found herself trying to ease his hurt. His concern left her feeling so raw and exposed he was just to close. Maybe now she could talk to letting him understand how she'd felt then. She hadn't thought how much he must of felt left out; until Chakotay had mentioned it earlier it just hadn't registered. Maybe asking about Tom was Chakotay's way of making her think.
Yes she started to smile, she'd talk to Tom.*
Cradling her coffee, Janeway watched B'Elanna's face as the memories flashed across it. She wished she been able to help but the younger woman's refusal to talk in sickbay had rekindled memories she'd rather forget. Shivering she recalled her depression in the void.
B'Elanna saw the shiver, watching her Captain's face as memories strayed across it.
*Kathryn's need to escape sickbay that day was overwhelming, as the realisation of how close to home her situation was. She felt helpless faced with B'Elanna's depression, unable to make her understand she wanted to help. The feeling she'd left sickbay a failure haunted her even now.
How could she have done that to him Chakotay, she recalled his face when she'd turned away refusing his help. She knew B'Elanna didn't consider her anything other than her Captain. But even so her refusal had hurt, so how had Chakotay felt when she Kathryn had turned away from him. She was aware his feelings for her were more than just those of a friend. But she remembered the warmth he'd shown her never had she felt as cared for as when he'd visited during that time. But she'd been unable to reciprocate, hoping he'd understood and would wait until she could.
Alone in her quarters she'd realised that he would have moved Heaven and she smiled at the thought even Earth to help her. But her depression demanded she isolate herself from those she believed blamed her for their situation. Admitting her fears only to Chakotay. If circumstances hadn't altered so dramatically might he of taken the same course of action with her as he had with B'Elanna. A sudden vision of Chakotay carrying her on his shoulder to the holodeck to play velocity came to mind making her smile.
Realising they'd been staring at each other the women smiled as their eyes locked. Realising how much at peace each felt in the others presence. Similar to the link they'd felt years before after persistence of vision, understanding that some things were better left unsaid.
"Captain, B'Elanna" the reason for their connection spoke, they looked up a familiar face looked back at them. B'Elanna moved slightly accommodating the speaker. As she moved the Captain's hand reached out and touched hers the look they exchanged needed no words.
He looked at them something had obviously happened, but what? He'd been watching they'd hardly exchanged a word. He sat back in the chair looking first to his friend then across the table into familiar blue eyes. He smiled and started to eat Banana Pancakes and Coffee Ice Cream.
Thanks for reading.