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Ok here we go with chapter three!! Hope ya like! Remember the three words to live by: Review, Review, Review!!! :)
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Buffy nearly felt her legs give out. She stared at Spike, standing there in the *SUNLIGHT*, and not a big pile of ash. Than it hit her. Everything came crashing down at once. Spike was human. Now her legs *did* give out as she began to feel herself fall to the floor. She waited to crash on the carpet, but the carpet didn't come.
She felt his strong arms around her, holding her up. Once again there eyes met, and she despretly tried to hold back the tears that she could feel coming. Than she pulled away from him, and grabbed him, dragging him inside. Thats when she got angry.
She pushed him onto the couch and crossed her arms across her chest. She forced herself to speak at a normal tone of voice, not wanting Dawn to come down from her room just yet. She needed to talk to him alone.
"Was it my fault??" Buffy asked him, her voice cracking. When he just gazed at her she drew in a deep breath and continued.
"How could you leave like that!??! No goodbye. No guarentee you would return. Nothing. I can understand not wanting to talk to me, but Dawn. You destroyed her when you left. I thought you at least cared enough about her to stay. Or at least say goodbye. Was it my fault?? Did you leave because..."
Buffy clenched her fist, not able to continue. She felt the tears start to come. *no no no no no!!!* Buffy thought. *you will NOT cry in front of him!!*
Buffy lifted her head and glanced at Spike, sitting there with a guilty expression on his face.
"Look it wasn't your fault for my leaving.....it wasn't and it was.... after" Spike gulped and sighed, than continued.
"After what I did.... I finally had enough. I can't be a man. I can't be a demon. All I did was hurt you, all I did was hurt everything. Screwed up everything I ever got near. So I left. Went to Africa. I'm not a goodbye kind of person. I'm sorry. But I went to Africa to visit a demon, who could grant me a wish. My hearts desire, or somethin really chessy like that. You get the idea. So I went, had to pass some tests, and fully intended to get the chip out of my head"
She froze. He left to get the chip out!!?!?!! Then is when they came. All the emotions that she had tried to hold back from him came out with a bang, and she could see the expressions on his face. They all came and went but he settled on the second one that crossed his feautures. Guilty. Love. Hurt. And she had to look away. She didn't want to see the love on his face.
He never wanted anything more than to hold her and touch her and make her tears go away. But he had to continue with his story. She had to hear everything, before he lost his nerve to tell her.
"I..I went through three tests. The first two were fights to the death, the second...well lets not even go there, that is if you ever want to eat again, or you ate already. But I passed them all, and instead of my reward being a chip removal, the demon gave me back my soul. Not just that either. Made me human again. Then I figured it all out. I never really wanted the chip out. I didn't know it, but the demon did. And now its gone, but I'm human. And I still love you more than anything I ever have before. So I know that its not the chip Buffy. Its you."
She couldn't move, couldn't speak. All she could feel were the tears falling on her face, as she listened to where he had been and what had happened to him. *Spikes human!*
"So now your back? For good? A human?" Buffy asked as she attempted to stop her hands from shaking.
"Could never stay away from you for long, but I have to go to the crypt, put away some stuff. Give you a chance to process all this. I'll be back."
Spike stood from the couch and walked towards the door, that was still wide open the way Buffy left it. "I missed you" he whispered as he turned to exit the home.
"Spike??" He turned when he heard her call for him. "Yeah luv?"
He felt her lips gently press against his, and she pulled back before he knew what had happened. "Welcome home"
With that Buffy ran up the stairs to go tell Dawn Spike had returned.
"You better get your ass back here soon boy!!" Buffy called as she began to pound on Dawn's door, her voice now filled with happiness. Spike could still hear her as he walked onto the porch.
"Dawn! Dawn! Dawn!!!!! Spikes back!!! AND HE'S HUMAN!!!!!! He's home Dawnie!!!!"
He smiled as he heard Dawn's shreik of delight and heard her and Buffy chatting away happily. He than truley realized how much he missed his girls.
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A/N: Ok so I've got a plan to either keep going or stop, but I'm not sure. Either way Im cool but I might just end here, unless people want me to keep going. Make sure to review if u want me to continue. I luv the spotlight, almost as much as Spike!! :):) Reviews make the world taste better, so start typin!! :) --FS
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Ok here we go with chapter three!! Hope ya like! Remember the three words to live by: Review, Review, Review!!! :)
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Buffy nearly felt her legs give out. She stared at Spike, standing there in the *SUNLIGHT*, and not a big pile of ash. Than it hit her. Everything came crashing down at once. Spike was human. Now her legs *did* give out as she began to feel herself fall to the floor. She waited to crash on the carpet, but the carpet didn't come.
She felt his strong arms around her, holding her up. Once again there eyes met, and she despretly tried to hold back the tears that she could feel coming. Than she pulled away from him, and grabbed him, dragging him inside. Thats when she got angry.
She pushed him onto the couch and crossed her arms across her chest. She forced herself to speak at a normal tone of voice, not wanting Dawn to come down from her room just yet. She needed to talk to him alone.
"Was it my fault??" Buffy asked him, her voice cracking. When he just gazed at her she drew in a deep breath and continued.
"How could you leave like that!??! No goodbye. No guarentee you would return. Nothing. I can understand not wanting to talk to me, but Dawn. You destroyed her when you left. I thought you at least cared enough about her to stay. Or at least say goodbye. Was it my fault?? Did you leave because..."
Buffy clenched her fist, not able to continue. She felt the tears start to come. *no no no no no!!!* Buffy thought. *you will NOT cry in front of him!!*
Buffy lifted her head and glanced at Spike, sitting there with a guilty expression on his face.
"Look it wasn't your fault for my leaving.....it wasn't and it was.... after" Spike gulped and sighed, than continued.
"After what I did.... I finally had enough. I can't be a man. I can't be a demon. All I did was hurt you, all I did was hurt everything. Screwed up everything I ever got near. So I left. Went to Africa. I'm not a goodbye kind of person. I'm sorry. But I went to Africa to visit a demon, who could grant me a wish. My hearts desire, or somethin really chessy like that. You get the idea. So I went, had to pass some tests, and fully intended to get the chip out of my head"
She froze. He left to get the chip out!!?!?!! Then is when they came. All the emotions that she had tried to hold back from him came out with a bang, and she could see the expressions on his face. They all came and went but he settled on the second one that crossed his feautures. Guilty. Love. Hurt. And she had to look away. She didn't want to see the love on his face.
He never wanted anything more than to hold her and touch her and make her tears go away. But he had to continue with his story. She had to hear everything, before he lost his nerve to tell her.
"I..I went through three tests. The first two were fights to the death, the second...well lets not even go there, that is if you ever want to eat again, or you ate already. But I passed them all, and instead of my reward being a chip removal, the demon gave me back my soul. Not just that either. Made me human again. Then I figured it all out. I never really wanted the chip out. I didn't know it, but the demon did. And now its gone, but I'm human. And I still love you more than anything I ever have before. So I know that its not the chip Buffy. Its you."
She couldn't move, couldn't speak. All she could feel were the tears falling on her face, as she listened to where he had been and what had happened to him. *Spikes human!*
"So now your back? For good? A human?" Buffy asked as she attempted to stop her hands from shaking.
"Could never stay away from you for long, but I have to go to the crypt, put away some stuff. Give you a chance to process all this. I'll be back."
Spike stood from the couch and walked towards the door, that was still wide open the way Buffy left it. "I missed you" he whispered as he turned to exit the home.
"Spike??" He turned when he heard her call for him. "Yeah luv?"
He felt her lips gently press against his, and she pulled back before he knew what had happened. "Welcome home"
With that Buffy ran up the stairs to go tell Dawn Spike had returned.
"You better get your ass back here soon boy!!" Buffy called as she began to pound on Dawn's door, her voice now filled with happiness. Spike could still hear her as he walked onto the porch.
"Dawn! Dawn! Dawn!!!!! Spikes back!!! AND HE'S HUMAN!!!!!! He's home Dawnie!!!!"
He smiled as he heard Dawn's shreik of delight and heard her and Buffy chatting away happily. He than truley realized how much he missed his girls.
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A/N: Ok so I've got a plan to either keep going or stop, but I'm not sure. Either way Im cool but I might just end here, unless people want me to keep going. Make sure to review if u want me to continue. I luv the spotlight, almost as much as Spike!! :):) Reviews make the world taste better, so start typin!! :) --FS