~*~*~*~*~*~*~READ THIS BEFORE GOING ONTO THE STORY!~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Okay I HIGHLY recommend downloading Are You Gonna Be There by N sync before
reading this chapter. . .it makes it that much better! Trust me! Well
with that said. . .
I do not Own Sailor Moon or this song. The song is called Are You Gonna Be There and it is by N sync. I thought it appropriate for this chapter ^_^ enjoy!
Oh! And do e-mail me to let me know you are enjoying this or to let me know that this chapter doesn't make sense and you'd like me to fix it ^_^ JA!
Without You Chapter 9- Are You Gonna Be There?
-*-*-*-*
If I was down
Would your arms lift me up, to higher ground
With just the strength of your love. . .
If I was lost
Would I find something in your eyes to lead me home. . .
-*-*-*-*
Sailor Moon breathed rapidly as she jumped from roof top to roof top towards the small warehouse where she and Mamoru were kept for the past couple days. Sailor Moon paused long enough to catch her breath and look to the communicator on her wrist.
-*-*-*-*
And after all that long
Would you be there to hold
It's easy to be there through the good times
But when the times get hard
Would you stay or walk away?
-*-*-*-*
'I was so stupid!' she thought to herself. 'I could have contacted the others in a flash had I just thought of it. BAKA!'
After another moment Sailor Moon reasoned, 'However if I would have called for help Mamoru would have learned of my identity,' pause, 'But,' tears sprang to the young blonde's eyes, 'anything would be better than having Mamoru dead. . .'
Tears started to stream uncontrollably down Usagi's face. She suddenly stopped and stood. 'Not now Sailor Moon,' she berated herself, 'You must grow up right now and be strong and save Mamoru!' She nodded to herself after she had gathered control.
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
Can you swear you'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Usagi pulled open the communicator and pressed a few buttons on it. Seconds later, Raye's apprehensive face appeared as Sailor Mars. Usagi smiled inwardly and felt better to see Sailor Mar's face on the communicator.
"Mars here," Sailor Mars spoke into the communicator quickly, "what's the update o-SAILOR MOON?!" Sailor Mar's eyes were wide.
Sailor Moon smiled slightly as Sailor Mar's went on to say, "Your parents just called my temple and asked hysterically if you had shown up here and then said that you transformed into Sailor Moon in front of them and said something about rescuing Mamoru, it was hard for me to play along with them but then. . .oh forget it! Sailor Moon are you okay?"
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Do whatever will be, will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Sailor moon smiled. 'She was really worried about me,' Sailor Moon thought to herself. Then said aloud, "Yes, I need your help Raye . . .I have a plan. . .will you help me?"
Raye nodded. "Alright Sailor Moon what do you want me to do?"
-*-*-*-*
When I need someone to hold
Someone there for me
Are you gonna be...
-*-*-*-*
~*~*~*~*
Alone and cold in the basement alone, Mamoru sat with his back leaned up against the far wall. He had his knees pulled to his chest and his arms around this knees. Mamoru looked like a small child as he held his knees to his chest and huddled together. He was cold and scared at the same time.
His eyes were unfocused through his bruised and cut up face. Mamoru appeared to be in deep thought.
Everything was so messed up, and could never be fixed.
-*-*-*-*
In my world
If it should all fall down
Will you be there, be there to turn it around
Will you still care
Can I depend on you to see me through this life
-*-*-*-*
Slowly Mamoru rocked back and forth deep in thought. 'Everything I have ever loved has been taken away from me, ' he thought annoyed, 'so what else is there to live for. . .' A tear slowly made it's way from his eyelid. He blinked rapidly and looked up bitterly towards the ceiling. 'I welcome death,' he thought coldly.
Another tear joined the first, on it's trail slowly down his face.
"Is this God's way of punishing me?" he mumbled to himself aloud. "I'm sorry for whatever I've done. . ." he whispered.
Mamoru figured it must have been bad since God had taken away his companion first. "To prolong the suffering before the death," he muttered angrily.
-*-*-*-*
And if it all goes wrong, will you still make it right
It's easy to be there through the good times
Oh, when the times get hard
Will you still be on my side
-*-*-*-*
His mind trailed to Usagi. His Usako. For awhile, she had accepted his affections and returned them. But now he would never hear her sweet voice calling him "Mamo-chan" or hear her screaming about being late to school.
A thought suddenly hit Mamoru and he chuckled bitterly at it. Come to think of it. . .he wouldn't hear much of anything anymore. . .
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
Can you swear you'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru would never see Usagi lose at her favorite Sailor V game.
Mamoru would never see Usagi's odangos again.
Mamoru would never see Usagi running down the sidewalk just before she ran into him and he got a brief touch from the beauty and a scent of her green tea scented hair. . .Mamoru would never see her at all.
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Do whatever will be, will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru heard movement upstairs and raised his eyes once more. 'Won't be long now.' He thought as he heaved a shaky sigh. Mamoru just hoped that his end was quick and not prolonged, because the emotional pain was enough without more physical pain. But he was sure that nothing could compare to this emotional pain.
-*-*-*-*
When I need someone to hold
Someone there for me
Are you gonna be...
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru leaned back against the wall and closed his eyes and more tears leaked out of his eyes.
Mamoru was not afraid to admit that he, the great Mamoru Chiba was scared.
Slowly, Mamoru opened his eyes. But he would be brave. He would do his best not to show fear. Usagi wouldn't want that. Usagi. . .what was she doing now?
-*-*-*-*
There with the arms to hold me
-*-*-*-*
~*~*~*~*
'I will save you Mamo-chan,' Usagi thought to herself detemined. 'I have to! I want to show you many things. I want to show you that there are good things in life. . .but most of all I must succeed because. . .'
-*-*-*-*
There with the love I need
-*-*-*-*
~*~*~*~*
'I have to survive this Usagi!' Mamoru thought to himself desperately. 'There is so much I want to tell you. . .admit to you!' pause. 'I have to survive Usagi, Because. . .'
-*-*-*-*
Will you be there
-*-*-*-*
~*~*~*~*
"Because I never got the chance to let you know my Mamo-chan. . ."
-*-*-*-*
Will you be there
-*-*-*-*
"Because I never got to tell you,"
-*-*-*-*
Heart and soul I need to know
-*-*-*-*
"I Love You." Both whispered
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
'So you see Mamo-chan,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna still care
-*-*-*-*
'And now hopefully you understand Usa,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
'That all this time, when I was so hostile,'
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side
-*-*-*-*
'That whenever I seemed so cold,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be mine
-*-*-*-*
'That's My way of showing you,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
'That is my own personal way,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
'Of showing that I care. . .' they both said together
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru's eyes twinkled with new light. 'So this is what it feels like,' he thought to himself. 'To love!'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
-*-*-*-*
Usagi looked to the moon. 'I feel you Mamoru,' she thought. 'I feel your understanding. . .please! Show Mamoru that I know what he feels!' she pleaded with the heavens
-*-*-*-*
Can you swearyou'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru glanced to the only window in the basement with a sigh. 'If only there was a sign that Usagi knew how he felt. . .'
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Do whatever will be, will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Usagi grinned as she watched a star fall and she leapt with new determination. 'This is a sign Mamoru, that I will get my chance to show you that I will always care, and that I will be able to show you that life can be good.'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
Can you swear you'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Looking up, Mamoru saw a shooting star. It was the same one that Usagi saw.
And it was then that Mamoru knew that he shouldn't give up. He smiled to himself.
He would not give up.
He would NOT surrender.
Mamoru nodded his head. He couldn't give up. There was much to live for. For a moment, Mamoru's eyes shot to the window before his heart stopped and he rejoiced silently. . .
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Do whatever will be, will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there. . .
-*-*-*-*
Because At The Window right now was a figure. . .
And that Figure was. . .
"Usako?"
~*~*~*~*
A/N: I am proud of this chapter and I better get some reviews on this or I will be sorely pissed -_- and I will discontinue the story!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean it! I almost started crying when I wrote this chapter but that could have been because I was also in an unbalanced state. . . I had 2 emotional goodbyes in one day. My friend moved to Oregon, AND my other friend went back to her home country. The first was a childhood friend and I had grown up with him. . .so it bites!!!!! But oh well! Read and review and I'll only update if I get 5 reviews for this chapter. . .unless someone wants to e-mail me and let me know you're enjoying this ^_~ JA!
I do not Own Sailor Moon or this song. The song is called Are You Gonna Be There and it is by N sync. I thought it appropriate for this chapter ^_^ enjoy!
Oh! And do e-mail me to let me know you are enjoying this or to let me know that this chapter doesn't make sense and you'd like me to fix it ^_^ JA!
Without You Chapter 9- Are You Gonna Be There?
-*-*-*-*
If I was down
Would your arms lift me up, to higher ground
With just the strength of your love. . .
If I was lost
Would I find something in your eyes to lead me home. . .
-*-*-*-*
Sailor Moon breathed rapidly as she jumped from roof top to roof top towards the small warehouse where she and Mamoru were kept for the past couple days. Sailor Moon paused long enough to catch her breath and look to the communicator on her wrist.
-*-*-*-*
And after all that long
Would you be there to hold
It's easy to be there through the good times
But when the times get hard
Would you stay or walk away?
-*-*-*-*
'I was so stupid!' she thought to herself. 'I could have contacted the others in a flash had I just thought of it. BAKA!'
After another moment Sailor Moon reasoned, 'However if I would have called for help Mamoru would have learned of my identity,' pause, 'But,' tears sprang to the young blonde's eyes, 'anything would be better than having Mamoru dead. . .'
Tears started to stream uncontrollably down Usagi's face. She suddenly stopped and stood. 'Not now Sailor Moon,' she berated herself, 'You must grow up right now and be strong and save Mamoru!' She nodded to herself after she had gathered control.
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
Can you swear you'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Usagi pulled open the communicator and pressed a few buttons on it. Seconds later, Raye's apprehensive face appeared as Sailor Mars. Usagi smiled inwardly and felt better to see Sailor Mar's face on the communicator.
"Mars here," Sailor Mars spoke into the communicator quickly, "what's the update o-SAILOR MOON?!" Sailor Mar's eyes were wide.
Sailor Moon smiled slightly as Sailor Mar's went on to say, "Your parents just called my temple and asked hysterically if you had shown up here and then said that you transformed into Sailor Moon in front of them and said something about rescuing Mamoru, it was hard for me to play along with them but then. . .oh forget it! Sailor Moon are you okay?"
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Do whatever will be, will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Sailor moon smiled. 'She was really worried about me,' Sailor Moon thought to herself. Then said aloud, "Yes, I need your help Raye . . .I have a plan. . .will you help me?"
Raye nodded. "Alright Sailor Moon what do you want me to do?"
-*-*-*-*
When I need someone to hold
Someone there for me
Are you gonna be...
-*-*-*-*
~*~*~*~*
Alone and cold in the basement alone, Mamoru sat with his back leaned up against the far wall. He had his knees pulled to his chest and his arms around this knees. Mamoru looked like a small child as he held his knees to his chest and huddled together. He was cold and scared at the same time.
His eyes were unfocused through his bruised and cut up face. Mamoru appeared to be in deep thought.
Everything was so messed up, and could never be fixed.
-*-*-*-*
In my world
If it should all fall down
Will you be there, be there to turn it around
Will you still care
Can I depend on you to see me through this life
-*-*-*-*
Slowly Mamoru rocked back and forth deep in thought. 'Everything I have ever loved has been taken away from me, ' he thought annoyed, 'so what else is there to live for. . .' A tear slowly made it's way from his eyelid. He blinked rapidly and looked up bitterly towards the ceiling. 'I welcome death,' he thought coldly.
Another tear joined the first, on it's trail slowly down his face.
"Is this God's way of punishing me?" he mumbled to himself aloud. "I'm sorry for whatever I've done. . ." he whispered.
Mamoru figured it must have been bad since God had taken away his companion first. "To prolong the suffering before the death," he muttered angrily.
-*-*-*-*
And if it all goes wrong, will you still make it right
It's easy to be there through the good times
Oh, when the times get hard
Will you still be on my side
-*-*-*-*
His mind trailed to Usagi. His Usako. For awhile, she had accepted his affections and returned them. But now he would never hear her sweet voice calling him "Mamo-chan" or hear her screaming about being late to school.
A thought suddenly hit Mamoru and he chuckled bitterly at it. Come to think of it. . .he wouldn't hear much of anything anymore. . .
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
Can you swear you'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru would never see Usagi lose at her favorite Sailor V game.
Mamoru would never see Usagi's odangos again.
Mamoru would never see Usagi running down the sidewalk just before she ran into him and he got a brief touch from the beauty and a scent of her green tea scented hair. . .Mamoru would never see her at all.
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Do whatever will be, will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru heard movement upstairs and raised his eyes once more. 'Won't be long now.' He thought as he heaved a shaky sigh. Mamoru just hoped that his end was quick and not prolonged, because the emotional pain was enough without more physical pain. But he was sure that nothing could compare to this emotional pain.
-*-*-*-*
When I need someone to hold
Someone there for me
Are you gonna be...
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru leaned back against the wall and closed his eyes and more tears leaked out of his eyes.
Mamoru was not afraid to admit that he, the great Mamoru Chiba was scared.
Slowly, Mamoru opened his eyes. But he would be brave. He would do his best not to show fear. Usagi wouldn't want that. Usagi. . .what was she doing now?
-*-*-*-*
There with the arms to hold me
-*-*-*-*
~*~*~*~*
'I will save you Mamo-chan,' Usagi thought to herself detemined. 'I have to! I want to show you many things. I want to show you that there are good things in life. . .but most of all I must succeed because. . .'
-*-*-*-*
There with the love I need
-*-*-*-*
~*~*~*~*
'I have to survive this Usagi!' Mamoru thought to himself desperately. 'There is so much I want to tell you. . .admit to you!' pause. 'I have to survive Usagi, Because. . .'
-*-*-*-*
Will you be there
-*-*-*-*
~*~*~*~*
"Because I never got the chance to let you know my Mamo-chan. . ."
-*-*-*-*
Will you be there
-*-*-*-*
"Because I never got to tell you,"
-*-*-*-*
Heart and soul I need to know
-*-*-*-*
"I Love You." Both whispered
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
'So you see Mamo-chan,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna still care
-*-*-*-*
'And now hopefully you understand Usa,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
'That all this time, when I was so hostile,'
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side
-*-*-*-*
'That whenever I seemed so cold,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be mine
-*-*-*-*
'That's My way of showing you,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
'That is my own personal way,'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
'Of showing that I care. . .' they both said together
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru's eyes twinkled with new light. 'So this is what it feels like,' he thought to himself. 'To love!'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
-*-*-*-*
Usagi looked to the moon. 'I feel you Mamoru,' she thought. 'I feel your understanding. . .please! Show Mamoru that I know what he feels!' she pleaded with the heavens
-*-*-*-*
Can you swearyou'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Mamoru glanced to the only window in the basement with a sigh. 'If only there was a sign that Usagi knew how he felt. . .'
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Do whatever will be, will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Usagi grinned as she watched a star fall and she leapt with new determination. 'This is a sign Mamoru, that I will get my chance to show you that I will always care, and that I will be able to show you that life can be good.'
-*-*-*-*
Are you gonna be there when the rain comes
Are you gonna be there with a warm touch
Can you swear you'll be there with a real love
Are you gonna be there
-*-*-*-*
Looking up, Mamoru saw a shooting star. It was the same one that Usagi saw.
And it was then that Mamoru knew that he shouldn't give up. He smiled to himself.
He would not give up.
He would NOT surrender.
Mamoru nodded his head. He couldn't give up. There was much to live for. For a moment, Mamoru's eyes shot to the window before his heart stopped and he rejoiced silently. . .
-*-*-*-*
Will you stand by my side through the bad times
Do whatever will be, will you still be mine
Will you stay in my life for a lifetime
Are you gonna be there. . .
-*-*-*-*
Because At The Window right now was a figure. . .
And that Figure was. . .
"Usako?"
~*~*~*~*
A/N: I am proud of this chapter and I better get some reviews on this or I will be sorely pissed -_- and I will discontinue the story!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean it! I almost started crying when I wrote this chapter but that could have been because I was also in an unbalanced state. . . I had 2 emotional goodbyes in one day. My friend moved to Oregon, AND my other friend went back to her home country. The first was a childhood friend and I had grown up with him. . .so it bites!!!!! But oh well! Read and review and I'll only update if I get 5 reviews for this chapter. . .unless someone wants to e-mail me and let me know you're enjoying this ^_~ JA!