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A/N: passages in between a [~*~] denotes flashbacks. All other markings [~~*~~] refer to section/chapter breaks.
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Mistakes: Questions and Answers
By AG
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Two Weeks Have Passed
Harry was sitting in the Gryffindor common room trying to study. Yet his mind kept wandering towards thoughts about his new teacher, Miya Malfoy. He didn't yet see what Remus saw in her and was even more curious about the rift between Snape and her. He still couldn't get out of his head what he saw at the dinner table the first night. Ever since then he was careful in his observation of the two. Most meals it was a repeat of the first night, but he saw they were guarded in how they appeared in front of students.
Of course he wasn't the only wondering about her. A lot of the students were asking around about her. It became clear that she was a Slytherin favorite, just like Malfoy was. Just the thought of the ferret made Harry feel disgusted. He heard Parvati and others talking about how Miya Malfoy was the best in potions and defense against the dark arts when she was a student. Also that there was not a teacher here in Hogwarts that disliked her. Entirely different from that of her cousin. It was easy to see that some of the teachers would like that boy to disappear.
Still Harry couldn't get rid of the feeling that there was more to Prof. Malfoy then what she's shown. He had to admit he liked her after having class with her. It was good to see that she was going to be or at least try to be fair in the classes. Yet he still felt something was amiss with her and that it had to do with Snape's relationship with her.
Harry looked at the time and saw that it was after curfew. He didn't know if it was a good idea to go find Remus. Remus was a friend but still followed the rules and would most likely give him detention. Still Harry wanted it settled soon so he went upstairs to his room and got his invisibility cloak and left the Gryffindor tower.
He made his way through the halls and went to Remus' office, which was in the DADA classroom. He entered the classroom and was making his way towards the door when he heard Remus' voice.
"Miya you are acting incredibly immature about this!" Remus lectured.
"I can't help it Remus! He just bother's me so much!" Miya said frustrated.
Harry heard silence and was wondering if he should leave or not but then heard them continuing.
"I'm sorry Remus. I am trying but I just can't seem to get over it. I'm still so angry at him." Miya quietly said in a defeated voice.
"You should talk it over with him, I'm sure there's an explanation for it all."
"He explained it to me fine. He said it was bad for him to be seen with such a young girl, that it would tarnish his reputation. Also that it was a good thing only the family knew about it. Of course I'm sure my family had a lot to do with it."
"There are more then one side to a story, not just the one he chose to present to you."
"What do you mean by that?" Miya hissed. "Is there something you know you aren't telling me?"
Harry had by this point maneuvered around the doorway to see better. Remus was sitting on the edge of seat with a concerned look on his face. His robe was open in the front showing his plain white shirt and the pair of jeans he was wearing. His elbows were on his knees so that he could prop his chin in his hands. Miya's robes were on the other chair. She had on a long black dress with long draped sleeves. She was pacing back and forth between the chair and the fireplace. But had turned to stare at Remus during his last comment.
"Miya- just think about it. You know Severus, you know the kind of man he is. I don't think he would just do that to you for a reason as dumb as appearances."
"I thought I knew him- but I don't know anymore. And what are you trying to do?" Miya asked. "Why are you pushing me towards him when you know my situation?"
Remus got up and walked up to her. He put his hands on her arms. "I'm doing this because you and Severus need to resolve this. I'm also doing this for him- I know you love him and it's not fair if Severus is going to be on your mind all the time."
"He is not on my mind all the time!"
"Miya- you need to resolve this. If you don't its only going to make things worse. Not just for you but also for both of the men you love."
"I wish he was here right now." Miya sighed as tears formed in her eyes. Remus brought her into a hug and held her tight and whispered something to her.
Harry didn't know what to make of this. He decided he should leave having seen something he knew he shouldn't have. His thoughts rushed around him as he made his way back to his room. Miya and Snape were in love- but Snape refused her? And who was this other man that Remus was referring to that Miya was in love with also. And what was this situation?
The questions rolled over in his mind and kept him up for the rest of the night.
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Miya walked back towards her rooms from Remus' pondering what he had said. She knew he wasn't telling her something. But she also knew he was right, she and Severus needed to resolve this. If she were to get on with her life she needed this to be over with. Before she realized it she found herself in the dungeons and still walking towards a very familiar room. She looked at her feet.
"I didn't mean tonight!" she hissed to herself. Upset that she had unwillingly walked towards Snape's chambers. She stopped right in front of it and leaned against the wall. Not being able to walk to the door and knock or leave to go back to her rooms.
She started thinking about back to when things were perfect for them and how it was so quickly taken away.
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It was the end of a party at the Malfoy house. Guests were leaving and Miya tried her best to be gracious as they all left. She was honestly tired of them and all the small talk. They were the biggest gossips she had ever met. She made her way up the stairs and watched from the balcony as people exited through the door. Her eyes lightened up when she saw Severus talking to her father. She took in the sight of him and could feel her cheeks redden at the thoughts that were running through them. All evening they both tried to maintain the charade that they were just friends and nothing more. She hated it. But they both agreed it was the best thing to do.
Although she had graduated from Hogwarts the previous month, it was too soon to let people know of their relationship. Both thought it would be good if they let others see them "fall in love." Give people time to get use to them being together. But it was hard. All she wanted to do was be taken into his arms and feel his sweet kisses.
She watched intently what was going on between her father and Severus when she noticed a house elf appear before them. She smiled. The only time a house elf appeared was when Severus would be spending the night. Her father had turned to go and say goodbye to other guests. Severus turned his face up towards her and gave her a quick smile. Miya quickly went to her rooms and pretended to sleep.
After a few hours had passed and she knew for sure that her family was asleep she sneaked to Severus' room. She entered it quietly and closed the door. She only made it a couple of steps in when she felt two arms encircling her.
"You know it's not right for you to go sneaking around." Snape whispered into her ear as he slowly slid her robe off, exposing her nightgown.
"I did it all the time during the school year and you didn't stop me." Miya replied as she turned around. She noticed he was only wearing his boxers. "Anyway what are you going to do about it? You're not my Professor anymore!"
He grinned at her devilishly. "Punish you."
"How?" She whispered as she felt her gown slip off and his kisses on her neck.
"Kiss and touch you in a painfully slow way until you can't stand it and need me more then the world itself." Snape said in between kisses. Miya groaned in pleasure.
"You've already succeeded- a long time ago." That was the last thing said for the rest of the night.
In the early dawn Miya laid in her lover's arm peaceful and content. Severus brushed her arms with his fingers.
"When did I become this lucky?" Miya asked softly.
"You call being with an old greasy git who's old enough to be your father lucky?" Severus asked teasingly.
Miya turned around in all seriousness. "Yes! You may be those things to others but you are my world. I love you with all of my heart."
Severus caressed her cheek. "I'm the one who is so lucky to have your love."
Miya turned her head and kissed the hand and then leaned down to kiss his lips. "I don't want this to ever end. Please tell me we don't have to pretend about our love anymore! I want to show the whole world our love."
"I think we would send them into shock." Severus stated simply. Miya swatted at him and he just grabbed her and held her. He knew what they had was special and he didn't want it to go away. He was a lucky man- after everything he had done in the past he knew he didn't deserve the love she gave him. To find love once was lucky but to find it again was a miracle. He held her tight and kissed the top of her head. She turned it up and once again they found themselves kissing and their passion rising.
However this time it wasn't going to last. Before either could react a door was opened and they heard the yell of Lucifer Malfoy.
"WHAT IN BLOODLY H*LL?!?" Lucifer had a look of pure rage on his face. Miya and Severus broke apart. Severus did his best to cover Miya and keep her from Lucifer's rage.
"Lucifer." "Father!" Severus and Miya said at the same time.
"What is going on?" This time in a much lower voice, his most dangerous tone.
"Let me explain!" Miya pleaded with her father. "Severus and I we've been in love and we're-"
"STOP!" He yelled. "Get out now! I want to talk to him alone."
Miya had fear on her face. She knew her father was at his dangerous and didn't want Severus to be hurt. Severus pushed her slightly under the sheets to indicate that she should go. All the time he kept his eyes locked on Lucifer's. Miya quickly grabbed her robe and ran out. As soon as her foot was out the door it slammed behind her. Her mother, aunt and uncle were in the hall wondering what was going on. Miya ran to her mother tears in her eyes.
"Please Mama I can explain!" Her mother held her, but it was not filled with warmth.
"How could you?" She asked quietly with a hint of sadness. "How could you?"
Miya looked up into her mother's eyes and couldn't understand why her mother was like this. She pushed away and ran to her room.
"This is a problem." Lucius said to the two women. They all turned towards Snape's room. Although they didn't hear any noise from there they were pretty sure there was a good shouting match going on. They were sure that Lucius or Severus had placed a silencing spell on it. "We had better go in and do some damage control."
They all nodded and went into the room. Miya sat in her room tears streaming as she wondered what was going on. Her mother had never looked at her like that- or her father. What was it that she did so wrong? She couldn't understand. She kept crying and didn't notice the small arms that wrapped around her. When she did, she looked up and noticed a small pair of blue tearful eyes looking back at her.
"It'll be ok!" A young Draco whispered as he tried to comfort his cousin. He hated seeing his cousin sad and when she was he was too. Miya just let him hold her as she cried more and more.
Sometime after midnight-
Miya sat in the courtyard in the back patio. Severus had said to meet her their to talk. He had left soon after his fight with her father. She rubbed her face as she remembered the slap her father had given her that afternoon. They had fought long and hard. Her father told her that she was whore to sleep with a man old enough to be her father. That he couldn't believe she would disgrace herself so much. Miya hadn't known what to say after that, the shock that her father would say such things sent her reeling. Before she could contemplate it more Severus walked in.
"Severus!" She cried. "I'm so sorry my love! I'm so sorry!" Miya ran into his arms only find that he wouldn't hold her. She looked up at him and saw the coldness in his eyes. "Severus?" She said it quietly, but when he didn't answer she asked it louder scared of what she was seeing in his eyes.
He pushed her away and turned to look away. "Miya we are no longer going to see each other."
"What? What do you mean?" Miya was in disbelief. "No no no! We can work this out- it doesn't matter what my family wants- we love each other!"
"NO!" Severus hissed. "No, I never loved you. I lied."
Miya stared at him. He was standing tall and his eyes were the even colder than before. She searched for a sign in his eyes of warmth of the man she had just lain in bed with that morning that loved her so.
"No- no I don't believe you!" She shook her head trying to make it all go away.
"Believe it." He threw it out coldly. "I never loved you. I only used you- after all who would want to sleep with me? You were so easy-"
Miya felt stony and cold at the words. She couldn't believe what he was saying. In her mind she kept saying it was a lie but when she looked into his eyes she no love at all. All of a sudden she felt an anger she never felt before. Before Snape could react she slapped him.
"YOU WERE USING ME?" Miya yelled. "How could you? How could you when I trusted you? I-"
She couldn't stop the hot tears that streamed down. She kept on yelling no longer knowing what she was yelling and the whole time he just stood there. He gave explanations- ones that she didn't hear and just kept on yelling. She knew they were both yelling so loud. But she didn't care- she hoped yelling would drown out the words, drown out the meanings. She loved him with her whole heart and she felt her world crashing down on her. He was her world and he had lied.
She couldn't take it anymore and just left. She just stopped in the middling of yelling and turned and left. She ran as fast as she could as far away as possible. If she had turned around and looked she would have seen the look on Snape's face. It was completely heart broken. But she didn't and she ran and ran.
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Miya brushed away a tear that had escaped. She hadn't moved from the wall. It still pained her to remember. She had loved Snape with all her heart, but that night it shattered things. It took her a long time to get over it although to her family and everyone else she did a good job of hiding it. After all she was a Malfoy, the only one who knew how empty she was at the time was Draco. He was always the one who would comfort her. She smiled at the thought of Draco. The only one to love her and not turn his back on her. Not like Snape. Another tear escaped.
She didn't notice that Snape was there watching her. He saw the tear and he did the one thing he could never really stop himself from doing. He went and held her. Although the one time he didn't was the hardest thing he had ever done.
Miya felt his arms around her and she wanted to push it away, but at the same time she didn't want to leave them. She had missed them yet she was so angry. And for the second time in her life she slapped him.
"Why?" She asked him angrily. "Why hold me now? Why be kind to me? WHY?"
"Miya I'm sorry." Snape said as he held his cheek. "I-"
"You what? You have no right! None what so ever! I don't ever want to see you again!"
"Then why are you down here?" He asked.
Miya didn't know how to answer. She was about to leave when he grabbed her arm.
"We need to talk. Now." He dragged her into his rooms. They were still the same as the last time she saw them those six years ago. Green and black with dark wood furniture. She just stood there wanting to leave but wanting to yell and scream at him. She didn't say a word- instead watching him. He was pacing.
"Miya- I know what I said and did was mean and awful. It was a mistake- but I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you the way I did."
She looked in shock at him. She never ever thought that he would apologize. Severus Snape did not apologize.
"Why?" She asked quietly.
"Why- what?"
"Why did you do what you did then?"
Snape looked at her. He was fighting an internal battle. The reasons were still there, but he had hated the way they were fighting. It had only been two weeks but he knew he couldn't take it all semester. And those damn eyes of hers. That was always what got him. He still couldn't figure out how he got away with what he did that night when he told her his love was a lie. But then he remembered. The image of her lying dead, imagining those beautiful eyes of hers dead and without life.
"Why Severus?"
"I had too, because it was the only way to get you to stay away from me. If I told you any other reason you would have insisted we stay together, saying nothing else mattered. I did it because it was the only way." Snape replied. It was true.
"Why did we need to be separate? Why? What was so important that you had to split us up?" Miya was confused and couldn't see any reason why.
"You know your family-"
"My family?!? All because of my d*mned family?"
"Miya! It's not that simple ok?" Snape got angry. He couldn't tell her, h*ll he didn't even know all of it.
"D*mn it! I deserve to know! It's not just your life but mine too!"
"That's exactly the reason!" Snape yelled. "You'll die if you're with me! You will die!"
Miya looked at him in shock. "What?"
"You'll die Miya. I did it because if I stayed you would've died." Snape said softly.
Miya couldn't believe it. Would her family, her own parents have killed her for being with Snape.
"I don't believe it." She whispered. She fell against the wall not comprehending what he had said.
"I'm sorry Miya."
"NO! My family would not do that! They care about me! Why-why would they kill me?"
Snape wanted to say more but he kept quiet. He knew it was more complicated then the two of them being together, he just didn't know how. He walked up to her and made her look up at him.
"Miya listen to me! I know it's hard to believe- but I swear on my life that the only way I would've left you if your life were truly in danger. I left you because I didn't want you to die when I could prevent it! Please believe me."
Miya looked into her former lover's eyes and saw the truth behind them. For the first time in a long time she saw the warmth that so long ago she was looking for.
Snape saw that she believed him and held her close. He had missed her and hoped that his weakness in telling her would not put her in danger. He wasn't sure he had done the right thing, but he couldn't change it. For now he would relish the feeling of having her in his arms again.
She looked up at him tears in her eyes as she realized what it meant. That he still and always had loved her. As that filled her with joy in that same moment she felt dread. Yet before she could push away and leave Snape had kissed her. And for that moment when their lips met time had stopped. She kissed him back, eagerly. Yet just as time had stopped it continued again.
"No!" She pushed him away. "No- we can't- No! Nonononono!" She said it so fast and had a wild look in her eyes. Snape didn't know what to think and was trying to stop her when she ran out. He just stood there his arm outstretched.
Miya ran as fast as she could back to her room. As soon as got in she locked her door and fell to the floor crying.
"Miya?" A voice asked quietly from the center of the darken room. She looked up and saw a dark man standing in front of her.
"Sirius."
A/N: Hope that was interesting and intense. Went a lot further then I had originally planned- but then it all came out at once. ^.^ please comment on it and tell me what you think! BTW: I didn't realize on my comments I had said not to accept anonymous feedback- so I changed it so that everyone can comment! So please do! Want to know if I should continue or not. =^.^=
A/N: passages in between a [~*~] denotes flashbacks. All other markings [~~*~~] refer to section/chapter breaks.
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Mistakes: Questions and Answers
By AG
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Two Weeks Have Passed
Harry was sitting in the Gryffindor common room trying to study. Yet his mind kept wandering towards thoughts about his new teacher, Miya Malfoy. He didn't yet see what Remus saw in her and was even more curious about the rift between Snape and her. He still couldn't get out of his head what he saw at the dinner table the first night. Ever since then he was careful in his observation of the two. Most meals it was a repeat of the first night, but he saw they were guarded in how they appeared in front of students.
Of course he wasn't the only wondering about her. A lot of the students were asking around about her. It became clear that she was a Slytherin favorite, just like Malfoy was. Just the thought of the ferret made Harry feel disgusted. He heard Parvati and others talking about how Miya Malfoy was the best in potions and defense against the dark arts when she was a student. Also that there was not a teacher here in Hogwarts that disliked her. Entirely different from that of her cousin. It was easy to see that some of the teachers would like that boy to disappear.
Still Harry couldn't get rid of the feeling that there was more to Prof. Malfoy then what she's shown. He had to admit he liked her after having class with her. It was good to see that she was going to be or at least try to be fair in the classes. Yet he still felt something was amiss with her and that it had to do with Snape's relationship with her.
Harry looked at the time and saw that it was after curfew. He didn't know if it was a good idea to go find Remus. Remus was a friend but still followed the rules and would most likely give him detention. Still Harry wanted it settled soon so he went upstairs to his room and got his invisibility cloak and left the Gryffindor tower.
He made his way through the halls and went to Remus' office, which was in the DADA classroom. He entered the classroom and was making his way towards the door when he heard Remus' voice.
"Miya you are acting incredibly immature about this!" Remus lectured.
"I can't help it Remus! He just bother's me so much!" Miya said frustrated.
Harry heard silence and was wondering if he should leave or not but then heard them continuing.
"I'm sorry Remus. I am trying but I just can't seem to get over it. I'm still so angry at him." Miya quietly said in a defeated voice.
"You should talk it over with him, I'm sure there's an explanation for it all."
"He explained it to me fine. He said it was bad for him to be seen with such a young girl, that it would tarnish his reputation. Also that it was a good thing only the family knew about it. Of course I'm sure my family had a lot to do with it."
"There are more then one side to a story, not just the one he chose to present to you."
"What do you mean by that?" Miya hissed. "Is there something you know you aren't telling me?"
Harry had by this point maneuvered around the doorway to see better. Remus was sitting on the edge of seat with a concerned look on his face. His robe was open in the front showing his plain white shirt and the pair of jeans he was wearing. His elbows were on his knees so that he could prop his chin in his hands. Miya's robes were on the other chair. She had on a long black dress with long draped sleeves. She was pacing back and forth between the chair and the fireplace. But had turned to stare at Remus during his last comment.
"Miya- just think about it. You know Severus, you know the kind of man he is. I don't think he would just do that to you for a reason as dumb as appearances."
"I thought I knew him- but I don't know anymore. And what are you trying to do?" Miya asked. "Why are you pushing me towards him when you know my situation?"
Remus got up and walked up to her. He put his hands on her arms. "I'm doing this because you and Severus need to resolve this. I'm also doing this for him- I know you love him and it's not fair if Severus is going to be on your mind all the time."
"He is not on my mind all the time!"
"Miya- you need to resolve this. If you don't its only going to make things worse. Not just for you but also for both of the men you love."
"I wish he was here right now." Miya sighed as tears formed in her eyes. Remus brought her into a hug and held her tight and whispered something to her.
Harry didn't know what to make of this. He decided he should leave having seen something he knew he shouldn't have. His thoughts rushed around him as he made his way back to his room. Miya and Snape were in love- but Snape refused her? And who was this other man that Remus was referring to that Miya was in love with also. And what was this situation?
The questions rolled over in his mind and kept him up for the rest of the night.
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Miya walked back towards her rooms from Remus' pondering what he had said. She knew he wasn't telling her something. But she also knew he was right, she and Severus needed to resolve this. If she were to get on with her life she needed this to be over with. Before she realized it she found herself in the dungeons and still walking towards a very familiar room. She looked at her feet.
"I didn't mean tonight!" she hissed to herself. Upset that she had unwillingly walked towards Snape's chambers. She stopped right in front of it and leaned against the wall. Not being able to walk to the door and knock or leave to go back to her rooms.
She started thinking about back to when things were perfect for them and how it was so quickly taken away.
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It was the end of a party at the Malfoy house. Guests were leaving and Miya tried her best to be gracious as they all left. She was honestly tired of them and all the small talk. They were the biggest gossips she had ever met. She made her way up the stairs and watched from the balcony as people exited through the door. Her eyes lightened up when she saw Severus talking to her father. She took in the sight of him and could feel her cheeks redden at the thoughts that were running through them. All evening they both tried to maintain the charade that they were just friends and nothing more. She hated it. But they both agreed it was the best thing to do.
Although she had graduated from Hogwarts the previous month, it was too soon to let people know of their relationship. Both thought it would be good if they let others see them "fall in love." Give people time to get use to them being together. But it was hard. All she wanted to do was be taken into his arms and feel his sweet kisses.
She watched intently what was going on between her father and Severus when she noticed a house elf appear before them. She smiled. The only time a house elf appeared was when Severus would be spending the night. Her father had turned to go and say goodbye to other guests. Severus turned his face up towards her and gave her a quick smile. Miya quickly went to her rooms and pretended to sleep.
After a few hours had passed and she knew for sure that her family was asleep she sneaked to Severus' room. She entered it quietly and closed the door. She only made it a couple of steps in when she felt two arms encircling her.
"You know it's not right for you to go sneaking around." Snape whispered into her ear as he slowly slid her robe off, exposing her nightgown.
"I did it all the time during the school year and you didn't stop me." Miya replied as she turned around. She noticed he was only wearing his boxers. "Anyway what are you going to do about it? You're not my Professor anymore!"
He grinned at her devilishly. "Punish you."
"How?" She whispered as she felt her gown slip off and his kisses on her neck.
"Kiss and touch you in a painfully slow way until you can't stand it and need me more then the world itself." Snape said in between kisses. Miya groaned in pleasure.
"You've already succeeded- a long time ago." That was the last thing said for the rest of the night.
In the early dawn Miya laid in her lover's arm peaceful and content. Severus brushed her arms with his fingers.
"When did I become this lucky?" Miya asked softly.
"You call being with an old greasy git who's old enough to be your father lucky?" Severus asked teasingly.
Miya turned around in all seriousness. "Yes! You may be those things to others but you are my world. I love you with all of my heart."
Severus caressed her cheek. "I'm the one who is so lucky to have your love."
Miya turned her head and kissed the hand and then leaned down to kiss his lips. "I don't want this to ever end. Please tell me we don't have to pretend about our love anymore! I want to show the whole world our love."
"I think we would send them into shock." Severus stated simply. Miya swatted at him and he just grabbed her and held her. He knew what they had was special and he didn't want it to go away. He was a lucky man- after everything he had done in the past he knew he didn't deserve the love she gave him. To find love once was lucky but to find it again was a miracle. He held her tight and kissed the top of her head. She turned it up and once again they found themselves kissing and their passion rising.
However this time it wasn't going to last. Before either could react a door was opened and they heard the yell of Lucifer Malfoy.
"WHAT IN BLOODLY H*LL?!?" Lucifer had a look of pure rage on his face. Miya and Severus broke apart. Severus did his best to cover Miya and keep her from Lucifer's rage.
"Lucifer." "Father!" Severus and Miya said at the same time.
"What is going on?" This time in a much lower voice, his most dangerous tone.
"Let me explain!" Miya pleaded with her father. "Severus and I we've been in love and we're-"
"STOP!" He yelled. "Get out now! I want to talk to him alone."
Miya had fear on her face. She knew her father was at his dangerous and didn't want Severus to be hurt. Severus pushed her slightly under the sheets to indicate that she should go. All the time he kept his eyes locked on Lucifer's. Miya quickly grabbed her robe and ran out. As soon as her foot was out the door it slammed behind her. Her mother, aunt and uncle were in the hall wondering what was going on. Miya ran to her mother tears in her eyes.
"Please Mama I can explain!" Her mother held her, but it was not filled with warmth.
"How could you?" She asked quietly with a hint of sadness. "How could you?"
Miya looked up into her mother's eyes and couldn't understand why her mother was like this. She pushed away and ran to her room.
"This is a problem." Lucius said to the two women. They all turned towards Snape's room. Although they didn't hear any noise from there they were pretty sure there was a good shouting match going on. They were sure that Lucius or Severus had placed a silencing spell on it. "We had better go in and do some damage control."
They all nodded and went into the room. Miya sat in her room tears streaming as she wondered what was going on. Her mother had never looked at her like that- or her father. What was it that she did so wrong? She couldn't understand. She kept crying and didn't notice the small arms that wrapped around her. When she did, she looked up and noticed a small pair of blue tearful eyes looking back at her.
"It'll be ok!" A young Draco whispered as he tried to comfort his cousin. He hated seeing his cousin sad and when she was he was too. Miya just let him hold her as she cried more and more.
Sometime after midnight-
Miya sat in the courtyard in the back patio. Severus had said to meet her their to talk. He had left soon after his fight with her father. She rubbed her face as she remembered the slap her father had given her that afternoon. They had fought long and hard. Her father told her that she was whore to sleep with a man old enough to be her father. That he couldn't believe she would disgrace herself so much. Miya hadn't known what to say after that, the shock that her father would say such things sent her reeling. Before she could contemplate it more Severus walked in.
"Severus!" She cried. "I'm so sorry my love! I'm so sorry!" Miya ran into his arms only find that he wouldn't hold her. She looked up at him and saw the coldness in his eyes. "Severus?" She said it quietly, but when he didn't answer she asked it louder scared of what she was seeing in his eyes.
He pushed her away and turned to look away. "Miya we are no longer going to see each other."
"What? What do you mean?" Miya was in disbelief. "No no no! We can work this out- it doesn't matter what my family wants- we love each other!"
"NO!" Severus hissed. "No, I never loved you. I lied."
Miya stared at him. He was standing tall and his eyes were the even colder than before. She searched for a sign in his eyes of warmth of the man she had just lain in bed with that morning that loved her so.
"No- no I don't believe you!" She shook her head trying to make it all go away.
"Believe it." He threw it out coldly. "I never loved you. I only used you- after all who would want to sleep with me? You were so easy-"
Miya felt stony and cold at the words. She couldn't believe what he was saying. In her mind she kept saying it was a lie but when she looked into his eyes she no love at all. All of a sudden she felt an anger she never felt before. Before Snape could react she slapped him.
"YOU WERE USING ME?" Miya yelled. "How could you? How could you when I trusted you? I-"
She couldn't stop the hot tears that streamed down. She kept on yelling no longer knowing what she was yelling and the whole time he just stood there. He gave explanations- ones that she didn't hear and just kept on yelling. She knew they were both yelling so loud. But she didn't care- she hoped yelling would drown out the words, drown out the meanings. She loved him with her whole heart and she felt her world crashing down on her. He was her world and he had lied.
She couldn't take it anymore and just left. She just stopped in the middling of yelling and turned and left. She ran as fast as she could as far away as possible. If she had turned around and looked she would have seen the look on Snape's face. It was completely heart broken. But she didn't and she ran and ran.
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Miya brushed away a tear that had escaped. She hadn't moved from the wall. It still pained her to remember. She had loved Snape with all her heart, but that night it shattered things. It took her a long time to get over it although to her family and everyone else she did a good job of hiding it. After all she was a Malfoy, the only one who knew how empty she was at the time was Draco. He was always the one who would comfort her. She smiled at the thought of Draco. The only one to love her and not turn his back on her. Not like Snape. Another tear escaped.
She didn't notice that Snape was there watching her. He saw the tear and he did the one thing he could never really stop himself from doing. He went and held her. Although the one time he didn't was the hardest thing he had ever done.
Miya felt his arms around her and she wanted to push it away, but at the same time she didn't want to leave them. She had missed them yet she was so angry. And for the second time in her life she slapped him.
"Why?" She asked him angrily. "Why hold me now? Why be kind to me? WHY?"
"Miya I'm sorry." Snape said as he held his cheek. "I-"
"You what? You have no right! None what so ever! I don't ever want to see you again!"
"Then why are you down here?" He asked.
Miya didn't know how to answer. She was about to leave when he grabbed her arm.
"We need to talk. Now." He dragged her into his rooms. They were still the same as the last time she saw them those six years ago. Green and black with dark wood furniture. She just stood there wanting to leave but wanting to yell and scream at him. She didn't say a word- instead watching him. He was pacing.
"Miya- I know what I said and did was mean and awful. It was a mistake- but I'm sorry. I never meant to hurt you the way I did."
She looked in shock at him. She never ever thought that he would apologize. Severus Snape did not apologize.
"Why?" She asked quietly.
"Why- what?"
"Why did you do what you did then?"
Snape looked at her. He was fighting an internal battle. The reasons were still there, but he had hated the way they were fighting. It had only been two weeks but he knew he couldn't take it all semester. And those damn eyes of hers. That was always what got him. He still couldn't figure out how he got away with what he did that night when he told her his love was a lie. But then he remembered. The image of her lying dead, imagining those beautiful eyes of hers dead and without life.
"Why Severus?"
"I had too, because it was the only way to get you to stay away from me. If I told you any other reason you would have insisted we stay together, saying nothing else mattered. I did it because it was the only way." Snape replied. It was true.
"Why did we need to be separate? Why? What was so important that you had to split us up?" Miya was confused and couldn't see any reason why.
"You know your family-"
"My family?!? All because of my d*mned family?"
"Miya! It's not that simple ok?" Snape got angry. He couldn't tell her, h*ll he didn't even know all of it.
"D*mn it! I deserve to know! It's not just your life but mine too!"
"That's exactly the reason!" Snape yelled. "You'll die if you're with me! You will die!"
Miya looked at him in shock. "What?"
"You'll die Miya. I did it because if I stayed you would've died." Snape said softly.
Miya couldn't believe it. Would her family, her own parents have killed her for being with Snape.
"I don't believe it." She whispered. She fell against the wall not comprehending what he had said.
"I'm sorry Miya."
"NO! My family would not do that! They care about me! Why-why would they kill me?"
Snape wanted to say more but he kept quiet. He knew it was more complicated then the two of them being together, he just didn't know how. He walked up to her and made her look up at him.
"Miya listen to me! I know it's hard to believe- but I swear on my life that the only way I would've left you if your life were truly in danger. I left you because I didn't want you to die when I could prevent it! Please believe me."
Miya looked into her former lover's eyes and saw the truth behind them. For the first time in a long time she saw the warmth that so long ago she was looking for.
Snape saw that she believed him and held her close. He had missed her and hoped that his weakness in telling her would not put her in danger. He wasn't sure he had done the right thing, but he couldn't change it. For now he would relish the feeling of having her in his arms again.
She looked up at him tears in her eyes as she realized what it meant. That he still and always had loved her. As that filled her with joy in that same moment she felt dread. Yet before she could push away and leave Snape had kissed her. And for that moment when their lips met time had stopped. She kissed him back, eagerly. Yet just as time had stopped it continued again.
"No!" She pushed him away. "No- we can't- No! Nonononono!" She said it so fast and had a wild look in her eyes. Snape didn't know what to think and was trying to stop her when she ran out. He just stood there his arm outstretched.
Miya ran as fast as she could back to her room. As soon as got in she locked her door and fell to the floor crying.
"Miya?" A voice asked quietly from the center of the darken room. She looked up and saw a dark man standing in front of her.
"Sirius."
A/N: Hope that was interesting and intense. Went a lot further then I had originally planned- but then it all came out at once. ^.^ please comment on it and tell me what you think! BTW: I didn't realize on my comments I had said not to accept anonymous feedback- so I changed it so that everyone can comment! So please do! Want to know if I should continue or not. =^.^=