A/N: My chapters are really short, but they'll probably be getting longer
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The other hand. I have Jess.
Every day I see Jess, it's something different. We have no basic routine of hellos, hugs, kisses, and walks. Anything that happens is something spontaneous, not planned or ordinary. We can talk about books, or music, or something deep, or problems, or what's wrong with people. It's always an interesting discussion.
I don't have that with Dean. That's why I see Jess every day. Because I feel like I'm missing out. The holes that Dean leaves, that seems to be why Jess is there. No matter what happens, he's always willing to talk to me. If Dean was mad, he'd just avoid me. If Jess was mad with me, he'd make it known to me. There's an open honesty we have.
He just blew in from New York, seeming not to care for anyone. I don't know...I guess I was intrigued by him. Jess isn't a bad person. He has his own way of showing that he cares...
But I don't see a future with him. Meaning I can't predict what would happen if I was to stay with Jess. If I broke up with Dean. There's something exciting. I don't want to know a layout of the rest of my life when I'm seventeen. With Dean I can predict our life, I don't think I want it. With Jess...I don't know what would happen.
Dean and I have been together for awhile. I don't think I want to marry Dean. I don't think I *love* him. A girl's supposed to have more than one boyfriend in her life, right? And our future life, the only one that I can picture, isn't exactly the kind of life I want to live. If I was to see Dean every day, and no one else, I don't know if I'd like that.
And the classic desert island scenario...if I was stranded on a desert island, who would I rather be stranded with? With Dean, I suppose we would just talk, he would probably try to protect me. With Jess, we could talk about anything, and probably end up finding a way off. He's smart, and I know he'd find some way.
Maybe I'm already stranded, just waiting for someone to rescue me.
The other hand. I have Jess.
Every day I see Jess, it's something different. We have no basic routine of hellos, hugs, kisses, and walks. Anything that happens is something spontaneous, not planned or ordinary. We can talk about books, or music, or something deep, or problems, or what's wrong with people. It's always an interesting discussion.
I don't have that with Dean. That's why I see Jess every day. Because I feel like I'm missing out. The holes that Dean leaves, that seems to be why Jess is there. No matter what happens, he's always willing to talk to me. If Dean was mad, he'd just avoid me. If Jess was mad with me, he'd make it known to me. There's an open honesty we have.
He just blew in from New York, seeming not to care for anyone. I don't know...I guess I was intrigued by him. Jess isn't a bad person. He has his own way of showing that he cares...
But I don't see a future with him. Meaning I can't predict what would happen if I was to stay with Jess. If I broke up with Dean. There's something exciting. I don't want to know a layout of the rest of my life when I'm seventeen. With Dean I can predict our life, I don't think I want it. With Jess...I don't know what would happen.
Dean and I have been together for awhile. I don't think I want to marry Dean. I don't think I *love* him. A girl's supposed to have more than one boyfriend in her life, right? And our future life, the only one that I can picture, isn't exactly the kind of life I want to live. If I was to see Dean every day, and no one else, I don't know if I'd like that.
And the classic desert island scenario...if I was stranded on a desert island, who would I rather be stranded with? With Dean, I suppose we would just talk, he would probably try to protect me. With Jess, we could talk about anything, and probably end up finding a way off. He's smart, and I know he'd find some way.
Maybe I'm already stranded, just waiting for someone to rescue me.